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avpdrew · 3 months ago

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“my material and social needs aren’t being met and all i got was this lousy cbt worksheet” t-shirt

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avpdrew · 5 months ago

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#literally dropped out so like #yeah

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avpdrew · 5 months ago

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#autism two cluster as and dpd

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avpdrew · 5 months ago

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I really cannot emphasize enough the mental health benefits of abandoning the idea that you're special.

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avpdrew · 5 months ago

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Spent so much time deleting all evidence of myself and regretting that deletion

Gotta move past this one somehow and I’m HOPING lighthousing this and pointing it out will help it be recognized

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avpdrew · 6 months ago

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Trying to do some self-lead therapy on self image. Wish me luck lmfao

#mostly just #trying not to avoid things i know are intrinsically ME #bc i do that a lot #i drew myself #im typing in a way that is more “me” in some spaces #im going to try to get more into some of my interests again #instead of only once in 100000 years watching one movie and hating myself for it lol #oh and taking my antidepressants again lmao

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avpdrew · 6 months ago

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A list of the criteria is below, as many of them were too long for a single poll option.

Avoids occupational activities that involve significant interpersonal contact because of fears of criticism, disapproval, or rejection.

Is unwilling to get involved with people unless certain of being liked.

Shows restraint within intimate relationships because of the fear of being shamed or ridiculed.

Is preoccupied with being criticized or rejected in social situations.

Is inhibited in new interpersonal situations because of feelings of inadequacy.

Views self as socially inept, personally unappealing, or inferior to others.

Is unusually reluctant to take personal risks or to engage in any new activities because they may prove embarrassing.

#oooohh i like this poll #voted 6 however 7 and 5 are very very close seconds #especially 5 #6 is the OVERWHELMING MAJORITY at 40% rn for the non avpders #which makes sense but is super super interesting

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avpdrew · 6 months ago

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Got bored. Reinstalled Simply Plural. Can’t wait to forget about it and uninstall it again

#itll be fun tho integrating my new pluralkit onto it #since i reset it bc it made me Sad #and i wanted to be more organized idk #dm for the link i guess lmfao

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avpdrew · 7 months ago

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I want to like. “Come out” as having SzPD. It’s been really hard to mask lately but I’ve been scared since the last person I told interrogated me constantly about it and would always “try to figure out how it works” and would constantly talk about how she was sooo empathetic and couldn’t even imaaagine a life without it and ugh

#shes the one who was cut off recently #this is a Recent Adult Life Devolopment #I think its mostly the progression of my avpd after having been untreated/reaffirmed so many times #17 is kinda when the seeds were planted #it feels Really Weird to lose empathy #like remembering it as something you once had and it just ?? not being there anymore #ive been trying to cope with that for the last yearish #i joke a lot though that the empathy machine broke #also i did recently cut off this person and have had her blocked because of an argument that she understood because she felt nothing once!!#sighs. frowns.#its not like i dont feel anything either #raaauughdhhahfhfh it’s frustrating

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avpdrew · 7 months ago

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compulsion to lie verses compulsion to tell the entire truth about yourself so that ppl realize who you are and leave u alone

#avpd #ocd #do i sign off on this #is this a hashtag plural thing #going back and i said that bc im not diz not bc compulsions are related to my plurality (that much)

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avpdrew · 7 months ago

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