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grown adults who pull stupid things at work when they know better will forever baffle me. buddy i’ve told you before and you know from training you’re supposed to wear your uniform at work! uniform polo, black pants, black shoes or boots! why are you wearing BLUE JEANS and CROCS (esp in a factory!!!! crocs!!!!) to work!!! hello!!! you’re like 40, get with it, we’re security, you know we have an exact look we’re all supposed to follow and it isn’t hard at all, they give you pants and everything 😭

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today is kerry’s birthday!!!! happy birthday kerry!!!! 🎉🎉🎉

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↪     ᵗʰᵉ 𝑫𝑼𝑺𝑻𝒀 𝑻𝑶𝒀𝑩𝑶𝑿 .    (  a  collection  of  various unsorted sentence starters .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .   no longer updating .  )

why are you here ?

drive .  drive fast .

i think we should make an informed decision .

are you coming or not ?

you’ve been avoiding me .

[ name ] ,  what were you thinking ?

this should be your priority .

let me hold you for a minute .

get out of my way .  i won’t tell you again .

that wasn’t supposed to happen .

can you keep a secret ?

i don’t know what i did to deserve you .

you seriously think i could’ve done something like that ?

you’re safe with me .

sorry isn’t good enough .

where is all this coming from ?

who told you about that ?

sorry i’m late ,  i got caught up .

you’re being paranoid .

why are you looking at me like that ?

you’re the single most important thing to me .

all i’m asking is that you hear me out .

whatever they told you ,  it’s a lie .

we shouldn’t stick around here .

hold my hand ,  i don’t want to lose track of you .

[ name ]  …  truth or dare ?

i love you .  nothing’s gonna change that .

can you tell me what happened ?

you can’t come around here anymore .

back off ,  okay ?

what ,  you don’t have time for me anymore ?

you’re asking for too much .

i’m trying to start a new life .

what do you mean ,  you aren’t coming back ?

sometimes i think you must hate me .

why can’t we just talk about this ?

i know i fucked up ,  you can stop rubbing it in .

you’ve got quite a reputation .

i’m not usually like this ,  i’m sorry .

please ,  just let me explain myself .

i love watching you work .

we’re on the same team .

did you ever tell anyone ?

you’ve got a lot of explaining to do .

really funny ,  you’re very mature .

you call THAT a PLAN ?

can we get out of here ?

i thought things would be different .

this is not up for debate !

do whatever you have to do .

karma’s going to get you for that .

it could’ve been a lot worse .

i asked you to leave me out of this .

maybe it’s time to take a leap of faith .

i never want to see you again .

can you see how many fingers i’m holding up ?

i’m gonna be there when you get what’s coming to you .

you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me .

i’ve been waiting all night for this .

i told you not to contact me .

sometimes i really think you have a death wish .

what do you need ?  —  what can i do ?

i would do literally anything to keep you safe .

that was supposed to be a secret .

you haven’t called me that in years .

stop telling me to calm down !

we make a pretty good team .

i have so much i want to say to you .

i’m not going to let anyone hurt you .

can we please not do this right now ? 

wait ,  wait  …  just breathe for a second .

how are you holding up ?

why don’t you stay the night ?  i’ll take the couch .

i don’t need your protection !

you’re not making this easier on yourself .

are you going to let me in ?

i’m supposed to be protecting you .

i will kill you if i have to .

do whatever you have to do .

this is going to hurt ,  i’m sorry .

what happened to you ,  where have you been ?!

there was nothing you could’ve done .

you’re all i need right now .

i don’t believe in love at first sight .

have you been following me ?

i need you to believe me .

what do you remember ?

i’m not a good person .

what the hell’s going on with you ?

you’re being followed .

just when i thought my day couldn’t be any worse .

i’ve been having weird dreams .

so you’ve been lying to me this whole time ?

are you trying to get us killed ?

this is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me .

i never asked for your help .

you’re being followed ,  pretend you know me .

why has it started to feel different with you ?

don’t worry ,  i have a plan .

i heard everything .

do you need to sit down ?

i have the right to know what’s going on .

i’ve just gotta catch my breath .

stay out of my business .

what did you think was going to happen ?!

don’t cause a scene .

tell me something about you that i don’t know .

can i buy you a drink ?

what if  …  we played spin the bottle ?

this was never a problem until  [ name ]  came around .

you can’t ask me to make that choice .

are you seeing anyone right now ?

i need you to listen to me ,  we don’t have long .

you’re lying ,  that doesn’t make any sense .

you look  …  stunning .

what are you trying to prove ?

who died and made you the boss of me ?

you can’t just show up here like this .

let me make it up to you .

there’s no way i’m leaving you like this .

can we stay like this ?  just for a little longer .

i don’t need you to fight for me .

so  …  you lied to me ?

you’re the only one that can help me .

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

i never introduced myself ,  i’m [ name ] .

i expected more from you .

you have no idea who i am ,  do you ?

are you real ?  is this real ?

can i stay with you ?  just for the night .

you’re going to get yourself killed .

why did you help me ?

tell me what i can do to help .

pick a card ,  any card .

i never wanted any of this .

i love you .   you don’t have to say it back .

do you wanna get out of here ?

what the hell are you talking about ?

i should have trusted you .

get your head out of the clouds .

how is any of this MY fault ?!

what aren’t you telling me ?

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

it’s never just one with you ,  is it ?

you’re not supposed to know about that .

shut your mouth .

i haven’t kissed you yet ,  today .

where is this coming from ?

come over here and make me ,  then .

keep lying to yourself ,  see where it gets you .

i’m not a bad person .

is that what you wanted to hear ?

we can’t be seen together .

i can’t give you what you want .

i need you to leave .

are you drunk ?

i’m here ,  i’m here .  i’m not going anywhere .

you might want to take a seat for this .

have you been listening to anything i’ve said ?

i haven’t heard from you in weeks .

you’re jealous ,  aren’t you ?

who do you think you’re talking to ?

what are you reading ?

you could’ve killed me !

come on ,  we don’t have time for this .

i just need ten minutes of silence .

really ?  that’s all you have to say ?

we could leave ,  you know .  go far away .

you don’t look too good .

i never want to see you again .

why can’t you just leave me alone ?

i thought you died .

you’ll do anything for attention .

give me another chance .

how’s the weather up there ?

all you do is hurt people !

i’m sorry ,  none of this makes sense .

you need to get out of here before anyone sees you .

i told you i didn’t want you around here .

is that supposed to be a threat ?

you’ve changed .

don’t look at me like that .

it’s a beautiful day ,  don’t you think ?

i did what i had to do .

you never know when to stop .

i’ve got to get home ,  it’s getting late .

i have nothing to prove to you .

stop LYING to me  …  all you do is lie .

you don’t have to be nice to everybody .

don’t tell me what to do .

pull your head out of the past .

nobody can help me .  i can’t even help me .

we are not talking about that right now .

are you new around here ?

you have no idea what you’re starting .

i’m gonna get us out of here .

whatever you came here to say ,  i don’t want to hear it .

everyone’s staring at us .

is there anything i can do to help ?

i won’t cause you any more trouble .

– just follow my instructions for once !

do you want to come in ?

i just didn’t know what to do .

you need rest ,  lie down .

i’m not who you think i am .

i don’t know what you want me to say .

you’re not like anyone else i’ve ever met .

i feel like i’m going insane .

stop asking ,  you’re not going to like my answer .

i didn’t want you to see me any differently .

i wish i knew what to say to you .

don’t give me that look ,  you know what i mean .

you should be afraid .

do you still love me ?

i never thought i’d get this far .

the world doesn’t revolve around you .

i need you to give me some space .

i know what you’re doing ,  don’t play games .

you left me to die .

i’m beyond repentance .

when are you going to get it through your head ?

i missed you more than i thought i would .

i’m in love with you .

what do you need from me ?

i’ll kill them ,   just say the word .

[ name ] ,   what are you doing here ?

how can i help ?

you’re pathetic .

i need you to come pick me up .

where have you been ?  it’s eleven o’clock .

i couldn’t live with myself if i let you get hurt .

i can’t just pretend it didn’t happen .

you’re a real piece of work .

do you remember how we first met ?

when did all of this fall apart ?

that’s not what i came here for .

i would do anything for you .

i don’t need you to hold my hand through this .

are you sure this is the right thing to do ?

can’t we try to pretend things are okay ?

what is THAT supposed to mean ?

you’re always late ,  what am i supposed to think ?

there’s nothing you can do to fix this .

you’re far too kind to me .

can we go now ?  like ,  right now ?

i have to do this alone .

where’s your common sense ?

we aren’t supposed to be in here .

can you feel my heartbeat ?

i think i’ve seen you around before .

why are you acting weird ?

i have a really bad feeling .

i hate seeing you like this .

how am i supposed to react to that ?

what do you want most in the world ?

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am i dramatic yes is it justified also yes

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kerry is someone who went from the bottom and clawed his way to the very top through sheer will, dedication and determination, hunger, ambition, steel nerves and a metal soul and monstrous talent (and so much more) and i love that for him. proud of that guy!!!!

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[ city center. i'll send you coords. don't feel good either. manager's fucking hunting for me!! going to hide out back ]

he had told bryce about this - a label party, how little he looked forward to it, the aggravation at being made to go at all. he skips what he can. put in some face time, give some smiles, they're dying to talk to you! his manager had said with a thousand-watt smile when he had told him about his expected attendance only a few days before. label suits and industry fat cats, vying for a little bit of attention from a god.

kerry had snapped that he didn't want to fucking go. his manager maintained the same smile when he told him what time the car would arrive for him.

he'd had enough - nervy, tired of acting like he cares what most any of the people he was being shoved towards have to say, inexplicably nauseous for an unknown, final straw capper.

he sits behind the building on an overturned crate between two large planters and makes slow work of a cigarette. he doesn't know where bryce is, but hopes against hope he can manage to stay undetected long enough for him to get there.

[ TXT ] : can you come get me out of here?

Out of the influx of messages from NetWatch, one stood out in particular. That of Kerry Eurodyne. Nonetheless, it had been a pleasant reminder to ground himself every now and again between fretting through the net for unwanted AI's and the like. To bring himself back to reality. A common thing Kerry had done for Bryce as of late, and he was ever thankful for it.

But there had been, amidst the warmth, a sense of worry. Bryce first wondered if Kerry was in a situation that needed attention with a message like that. Little context...

【 Of course, right away. Where shall I look for you? 】

A formality. Bryce could just as easily locate him with a simple geoloc stream of data, and he did before he even received a reply, in turn, already grabbing what he needed, making way to his vehicle with very little time wasted.

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kerry still has dreams—more accurately nightmares—about the night city holocaust. you just don’t forget seeing a mushroom cloud, or scrambling for safety and escape from a city ravaged by a nuke and the subsequent domino effect (utilities failures, mass destruction, looting, wide spread confusion and panic, etc…), and what happened to you personally because of it, and So Much More, especially when you have Never sought therapy about it and never will and also don’t talk about it with anyone because you lock that deep in a vault and keep it to yourself

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✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐀 𝐆𝐀𝐌𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝑻𝑬𝑳𝑬𝑷𝑯𝑶𝑵𝑬 .    (  a  collection  of  texting prompts.  feel free to change phrasing.  potentially mature content within.  )

[ TXT ] : why are you still awake?

[ TXT ] : hey, where did you go?

[ TXT ] : it's getting bad again.

[ TXT ] : guess i'll just sit in bed. alone. by myself.

[ TXT ] : you can't ignore me forever.

[ TXT ] : i can't stop thinking about you.

[ TXT ] : just saw i called you last night. how'd that go?

[ TXT ] : i really need someone right now.

[ TXT ] : we need to make plans asap.

[ TXT ] : have you seen the news?

[ TXT ] : you were blackout drunk.

[ TXT ] : testing to see if you blocked my number...

[ TXT ] : do you know anything about doing stitches?

[ TXT ] : just please let me know you're okay.

[ TXT ] : did you forget we had plans?

[ TXT ] : i know you see my messages, your read receipts are on.

[ TXT ] : meet me at [ location ], it's important.

[ TXT ] : do you need comfort, to vent, or a solution?

[ TXT ] : is there anything i should bring?

[ TXT ] : call me. please, it's important.

[ TXT ] : i can't sleep.

[ TXT ] : have you eaten today?

[ TXT ] : you are always going to be my priority.

[ TXT ] : i haven't seen you around in awhile.

[ TXT ] : i had a dream about you last night.

[ TXT ] : the names are gonna get mean if you don't text me back.

[ TXT ] : at the risk of sounding cliche, what are you wearing?

[ TXT ] : just say the word and i'll drop everything.

[ TXT ] : do you seriously not remember?

[ TXT ] : come to the front door.

[ TXT ] : have you been drinking?

[ TXT ] : how do you feel after last night?

[ TXT ] : are you up? please be up.

[ TXT ] : you looked beautiful today.

[ TXT ] : i have so much to tell you.

[ TXT ] : no one's heard from you. are you okay?

[ TXT ] : who is this?

[ TXT ] : are you taking care of yourself?

[ TXT ] : thought i'd reach out and see how you're doing.

[ TXT ] : i miss the taste of your lips.

[ TXT ] : that kiss was really nice.

[ TXT ] : stop acting so high and mighty.

[ TXT ] : i left my [ item ] at your place.

[ TXT ] : are we still fighting?

[ TXT ] : i need help and i can't go to the hospital.

[ TXT ] : are you thinking about me too?

[ TXT ] : call me, i wanna hear your voice.

[ TXT ] : i don't want to talk to you.

[ TXT ] : what do you have to lose?

[ TXT ] : you don't have to ask, i'm already on my way.

[ TXT ] : i want to take a nap on you.

[ TXT ] : even if you called 6 months later at 3am, i'd answer.

[ TXT ] : what's my name in your phone?

[ TXT ] : how's trying to forget about me going?

[ TXT ] : i have nobody else to ask.

[ TXT ] : what do you mean you're at the hospital??

[ TXT ] : sorry, i think you have the wrong number.

[ TXT ] : good morning! you up yet?

[ TXT ] : do i sense sarcasm in your tone?

[ TXT ] : you start your day at 2pm?

[ TXT ] : you need MY help?

[ TXT ] : stop texting me.

[ TXT ] : i'll leave that up to your imagination.

[ TXT ] : are you asking me to sneak out?

[ TXT ] : when will i see you again?

[ TXT ] : if you come over, i'll order us a pizza.

[ TXT ] : are we ever going to talk about it?

[ TXT ] : can you come get me out of here?

[ TXT ] : you mean like ... a BODY - body?

[ TXT ] : it's just been one thing after another lately.

[ TXT ] : forgiving and forgetting is harder than it sounds.

[ TXT ] : i want your legs wrapped around my head.

[ TXT ] : call me when you wake up.

[ TXT ] : what are you doing that's more important than me?

[ TXT ] : i'm out of town right now.

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ozzy osbourne died this morning. just saw the headline on my phone. i feel ridiculous about it but i’m literally tearing up at work. god what a loss.

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kerry has little to no filter most times and i love that for him because it means he can say the most out of pocket shit with full confidence and near zero hesitation and be mostly unbothered by any sort of reaction it gets. he’s going to say something and other people are just going to have to deal with it <3 like throwing out tiny little verbal hand grenades

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a few long beats drag on. the bot is free. when it comes to corpos, so little is - there's always a cost or a catch. free isn't always to be trusted, or isn't always what it seems.

kerry starts to respond, then catches himself. he's wary. he doesn't know bryce beyond what he is and who he works for. for what little he does know though, bryce may deserve the benefit of the doubt. he seemed honest before, and he cut him slack when he didn't have to, which is as generous as many corpo types can manage to be. he went easy.

bryce could be honest now. if there is an angle here, kerry isn't sure what bryce could stand to gain.

"mm, clashes with your decor, huh? wouldn't make a good coat rack?" the sarcasm is on level with bryce's own. "i'm kinda surprised i'm the first person you thought of. there any catch about it i ought to know?"

"Don't doubt it." Bryce says gentle and huskily enough that it might not have been received if telephones still existed. He was a little distracted by the bot, still making small adjustments to it to notice any chunk of minutes going by.

"NetWatch, naturally. An old sentry bot." The agent could have droned on about how these were in office when he first started out, acting as service bots. "Had a complete sweep of it's soft of course, so it shouldnt go after the Eurodyne special bots." A comment laced in sarcasm. Or maybe it was just his attitude.

"I don't want to sell it, i just want to get rid of it. It's quite the eyesore in my pad you understand."

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"i do deserve one. i can be a good boy when i wanna." he says. good boy and kerry eurodyne so rarely go hand-in-hand—bryce wouldn't know but kerry does, and it's amusing enough he rewards himself with a laugh before he takes a swig from a nearby water bottle and leans back against the treadmill as a support prop.

but after, for a moment, he lets bryce's dangled overture hang. it's a contemplative quiet and his expression reflects it. a netwatch agent offering a bot—sure for a price, but that's a given—to the very person his corporation had set him loose upon, however tame and relatively painless the interaction had gone.

"but, uh, as for the bot... you just lookin' to get some easy eds, or do you think i might actually want it? what's special about it? where'd you get it?"

Clever. Kinda. It made Bryce almost chuckle nonetheless, which was actually difficult to do sometimes. So few things made the agent laugh genuinely. Something about how he got on this mans nerves in specific seemed amusing. But, Bryce wasn't here for a bout of laughs.

"No. Green in fact all across the board for you. You deserve a gold star sticker, congratulations." Bryce let that hang for a moment, taking the time to take a small, and relatively silent draw of his cigarette before putting it out.

"Far simpler, really. I aquired a bot of my own. A few generations old and I really have no use for it. You are the first person that came to mind of who I could pass it off to."

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@nettwatchedd: " Good to see you, Kerry. It's... oh, how did you put it last? ' Agent whoever the fuck ' Hope you, and your bots have been well. "

for a few beats, the only response bryce receives is the measured inhale-exhale pattern of a moderate jogging pace. it takes kerry a couple seconds to look down at the controls of his treadmill and decrease the speed down to zero, then step onto the sides of the equipment and grab a small towel draped over a handrail to dab at his face and neck.

he makes bryce wait through it all.

he doesn't seem too surprised by the unexpected call, either.

"hey, agent whoever the fuck," kerry drawls. it takes willpower to maintain an even keel level of annoyance - bit fucking aggravating having to stop his run for this, only halfway through his distance goal. "we were doin' just fine til you called. what do you want this time? more eurodyne's bein' naughty even though i actually don't know what i could'a done this time biz?"

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@singerblade: i’d like you to trust me someday.

"uh..." he isn't sure how to respond to that. kerry does trust azriel. he's as sure of that as he is of anything. azriel's earned it, and he's told them as much in his own way. mostly indirect, though in a way that would have left very little question about it.

but azriel doesn't seem to know that when kerry thought they did. it's troubling. kerry isn't sure if it's more his fault that azriel doesn't or if it's azriel's. either option isn't good, and he doesn't know how to feel about one or the other.

"the fuck, az? i do." he says before he frowns and crosses his arms low and loose over his chest. "where are you coming from with this? i thought you knew where we stood."