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PSA EDITORS PLEASE STOP RIPPING MY HEART OUT ON THE DAILY. I CANNOT KEEP WATCHING LIV HEWSON AND LAUREN AMBROSE ACT THE SHIT OUT OF AN INCREASINGLY FUNEREAL VAN PALMER WHILE BEING AURALLY ASSAULTED BY THE MOST DEVASTATING SONGS ON THE PLANET.

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if you're ever bored listen to a podcast featuring liv hewson and keep a dictionary nearby. they're my will hunting. fym you use the word "prevaricating" casually in conversation?

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how does it feel to be correct abt everything you’ve ever said on tumblr dot com

well it's an honor tbh

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why do i feel so paternal towards van palmer

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and what if i said yellowjackets warrior nun au

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i wonder how many times a yellowjackets fan has listened to spring into summer and crashed out over how it's one of the most taivan songs of all time

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Yellowjackets as Flipturn songs

is this too niche??

Lottie Matthews - Right?

"All you're asking for is just a little more time/to prove some existence/in some existential war, through all the blood and gore/because people admire persistence."

Natalie Scatorccio - Window/Space Cowboy

"I could tell you about the things I've done/Old love and new drugs, everything I'm ashamed of/Who I am and who I was." "Dear mother, I'm tired/I feel I'm over my head/I'm haunted, I'm wired."

Van Palmer - Six Below/Orbit

"Am I just playing a fool that never learned to grow old?/And still has no self control?" "Death just lied and led me on/Told me I could have been someone."

Taissa Turner - Hypoxia/Glistening

"Well my mind doesn't feel like mine/No blood flow, my veins are tied/And all that seems to reach my brain is her." "I'd never leave you, not again/I'd be sweet like cinnamon."

Jackie Taylor - Weepy Woman

"Well, everyone knows that you've got so much heart/And honey, I can see it's tearing you apart."

Melissa - Reason To Pretend

"Pulling the trigger without a doubt/'Cause you loved me a healthy amount."

Misty Quigley - Where'd All My Friends Go?

"Don't know why I need your attention/Don't know why I did it again."

Shauna Shipman - The Fall

"I've been watching and holding on/to everything I want."

+bonus

Poppies applies to every adult Yellowjacket and I stand by that

"Are you happy? Are you clean? Are you who you were meant to be? What's it like?"

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rip van palmer you would have loved mountain biking. get that goalie on a cannondale this instant.

left: absolute rocket of a bike (absurdly out of van's price range)

right: van palmer contemplating the mountain biking life after cleaning a crazy trail and then flying over the handlebars just trying to stop at the bottom

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my favorite yellowjackets character is van palmer's wilderness top surgery glow

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something about van having recognizable facial scarring as a visibly queer person in the 90s. something about van palmer never being able to hide the fact that she was queer and coming home with difference carved into her skin. something about tai being visibly unaffected by the wilderness but so fractured internally because she has to separate who she is from who she wants the world to perceive her as because of respectability politics. something about taivan probably being the only people in each others lives to see them for who they really are and that's part of why they kept falling apart and together and apart again. idk tho.

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"I am who I am. Those like me are the way that we are. We're alive now. We're in the world right now, we're not going anywhere, and you're simply going to have to deal with that. I do not feel any shame or sadness or guilt or fear about the person I am. I don't feel any timidity or uncertainty about my right to exist in the world." - Liv Hewson, Teen Vogue

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Am I insane for thinking that’s just Poe’s Fall of the House of Usher

There’s two ends of the horror spectrum

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van wasn’t just endlessly protective and giving with tai because they loved tai. they also were coping and had severe attachment issues because their mom literally would get drunk and look through them or fail to meet their eyes at all. van just wanted someone to look back at them, to love them, and they finally got that with tai but in the same morbid way that unhealed trauma is destined to repeat itself, van was caught in that as well with tai because half the time it wasn’t the tai she wanted and she was reliving the experience of giving giving giving in hopes of being enough to make tai be there for them too just like what they always wanted from their mom and never got.

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sometimes i forget van palmer is dead and then get served the most devastating taivan edit to the saddest, gayest song you've ever heard and tai is doing her van smile while van is doing her tai nose scrunch and then i think well what's the point even

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the wilderness is to lottie matthews what grilled cheesus was to finn hudson

based on sheer gut instinct rather than logic

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Courtney Eaton and Simone Kessell for Paramout Plus on Youtube

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“i liked it before it was cool” well i liked it AFTER it was cool when everyone abandoned it