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me and my moots <3

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RENPHO stats //

posting this at the start of my journey so i can compare to the end ✨✨✨

CW: 70.65kgs // GW: 63kgs // HEIGHT: 179cm // BODY AGE: 21.

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i’m going to fast today as a way to get back into it. nothing major, just coke zero all day. i have work so that’ll make it easier, and i’ve told my partner not to worry about making enough dinner for me :)

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Little too relatable

Credits to the creator (dolliecherie on tt)

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god once i fasted for 12 days and now i cant even do 12 hours what is wrong with me

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well, i’m back. been just eating whatever i wanted for the past month and a half aaaand you can tell (even if i only gained 1.5kgs). i probably won’t be super active but we’ll see….

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>>vent<<

this is kind of the opposite problem a lot of ed girlies seem to have but i need to just vent a little bit; i don’t think my fiancé finds me attractive anymore. he’s always said he likes larger people, not huge or obese just like… chubby i guess? like his taste in men is bears and stuff. and i guess i used to fit that body type. but he never initiates sex anymore and he definitely never reciprocates if i do something for him. he always enjoys it but i can’t help but feel like he doesn’t think i’m pretty.

i almost broke today, i wanted to scream at him and beg for him to tell me that i’m pretty, that i’m doing well, that he still likes me. i forget that borderline personality disorder (yes, actually diagnosed) affects how i view him. i honestly didn’t even think of it being a possibility until today, it just happened to come into my mind that he might not like me anymore and now i can’t stop obsessing over it. i won’t stop, though. i need to be thin. but i’ve lost nearly 40kgs this year (88lbs) and i know it’s a big change and i’m happy with it… i just didn’t expect this to happen

i guess does any one else have this experience? what if he stops loving me? i can’t do without him, it’s been over 3 years and it’s the best relationship i’ve ever had. i need him, i adore him so much, he’s all mine and i cannot bear to think of him leaving me for someone he finds prettier. i’m scared.

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i pulled the “i don’t have time to make breakfast” excuse (which is true) on my mom, and now she’s gone and bought me a whole load of protein bars. which i guess isn’t bad. i might see how i go eating one and then a small dinner. but i don’t like eating in the morning tbh :/

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little @na tips <3 part five !!

WARNING !! ANOREXIA IS A VERY DEADLY DISORDER AND THE ONLY REASON I POST THESE IS BECAUSE IF YOU'RE GONNA SUFFER AT LEAST FEEL A LITTLE GOOD ABOUT IT. RECOVERY IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT BUT NOT ALWAYS A VIABLE OPTION.

Eating on a dark blue or black plate has the effect of making you eat less.

If you want to prevent a binge, just buy the food that you need for the day if you live by yourself.

Frozen foods take longer to eat, so you feel occupied longer, and you might feel fuller.

If you get bad headaches, it's probably because you're dehydrated or your blood sugar is too low.

Don't take aspirin on an empty stomach. It'll make you puke. (Which might be the goal, but, yk, fair warning).

be safe <3

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weight loss tip: just stop caring about food

ik it’s hard AF because all we do is think about food BUT if you trick your brain into believing you don’t care about it, it’s a lot easier to restrict since ur apetite goes away

how i do it:

- don’t plan my meals too much

- don’t think about what i’ll eat in the future

- all this is accomplished through gas lighting myself

- i pretty much just repeat to myself “i don’t really care” anytime i go to eat

- “not caring about something” means you don’t really want it, you don’t care if it’s there, you even prefer if it’s not because it’s just an annoying task

- the non planning thing makes choosing what i’ll eat overwhelming, so i just give up 💀

- i distract myself, i go do something else

- this works if you don’t care about health, macros and shit like that! you’ll probably not be getting a lot of nutrition, this is something a lot of junkorexics do

- this also works better if you have good knowledge about how many calories everything has, since ur not pre-planning

idk if any of this made sense but yea

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this post is moreso for myself than anyone else. cw: body check

june ‘24 -> october ‘24

it’s a small difference but omg… i’m so happy

i’ve gone from an aus size 20 at the start of the year to an aus size 12 being just a bit too loose. i feel amazing. i’m confident. i’m hotter. it’s not perfect, but it’s something. i’m almost back at my lowest weight (65kgs - currently i’m 69kgs) and i’m aiming to go lower (preferably 60kgs). i’m 5’10 for reference. my partner says i’m too skinny. its so funny. he’s so blind.

yes i am sucking in. it’s the easiest way to be okay with posting these. i’m still fat when i let go. but it’s better.

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the biggest fucking win today omfg

got this text from my partner today 🥰

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cat-sp0...?

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round face issues. though to be fair, i can definitely see a difference from when i had a 29 bmi to now (23.2 bmi). it’s so gross. my mother recently used one of those photos with my fat round face next to one of my face now, and it’s still gross, but oh my god it’s better than before

worst part about weight gain is that you can see it on ur face

double chin/round cheeks really screams "that's a fat bitch"

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update: i threw up three separate times and ate one slice of pizza (i was also really drunk) and yet i’m still 2kgs heavier than yesterday… what the fuck man

relapsing on painkillers after over a year just to avoid eating <3

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relapsing on painkillers after over a year just to avoid eating <3