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I had my shit together for like 3 days once

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Photos by しろうとスミ@SirouTouge

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I failed freshman PE because I always ditched or didn't put on proper gym clothes. Then I went and hung out with the punks & burnouts and also the janitor sometimes because they made us go with him to clean.

We all have that one class that triggers our fight or flight response

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My hamster has something wrong with her eye and I have to take finals and also figure out a vet appointment and aaaahhhhh

What a year this week has been.

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being a woman is just constantly hating your immediate present self and then looking back and hating your past self for not appreciating your beauty and opportunities at that time and it just goes on like. forever

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my entire life is me dropping things and whispering ‘fuck’

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Me trying to get enough protein, drink water, take all my meds, get 8 hours of sleep, do a good job at work, exercise, eat vegetables, and keep my skin clear

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people talking about your confidence is a fat girl thing, isn’t it? 

i really can’t tell you how many times i get this in my inbox:

i love your confidence! your confidence is sexy! i envy your confidence! 

and a thin girl recently told me: confidence is the most attractive thing a women can carry though, and that is only something you can control.

but i have never seen a thin girl be told it’s their confidence that makes them attractive. when i get these messages it really reads like: fat girls aren’t supposed to be confident and comfortable in their skin but you are!! and that’s kind of gross honestly.

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It's me. I'm bitch.

hurtful but thank you

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Every. Freaking. Time.

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I struggle with this as well.

i often forget that the body is not a receptacle. not a vessel in which i reside. it’s ME. like that’s me right there! it isn’t disconnected from my mind or spirit or selfhood because it’s just me. i can no sooner escape it or change it in any drastic way than i can stop being myself. & if i am to be any sort of happy in this life, i need to treat it kindly. cruelty towards one’s body is just cruelty towards one’s self. they are one and the same

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