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I am Plum

You know the scene is a movie or tv show; the starving downtrodden person looking in the window of a restaurant, the people dining either turn an uncomfortable eye pretending not to notice. Every once in a great while someone will take pity on the poor soul and send out some food or give them the leftovers from their meal. I’ve felt that hunger, not for food but for companionship, romance, and yes… sex. Well, I have figured out part of that anyway.

In true fashion, living my life as only I can, I followed the breadcrumbs that the universe had set out for me. Listening to the book Dietland recommended by the Fat Feminist Witch on her podcast. I felt as if Plum had somehow stolen into my mind, my soul and exposed me to the world for all to see what it was like to live the life of a lonely fat woman. What was this fat liberation she went through?

I found a number of authors who were bosom buddies in this fatphobic world, bravely and defiantly sharing their stories for anyone who would listen. All so different, yet the same. They woke something in me. Something beautiful, magical, and life changing.

I delved into the depths of Youtube and found a lot more haters pontificating their bigotry against fat folk then I did those who could shed light on how to find this liberation. The few I found were often railed against for their self love. Then I found a man who worships the robust goddesses of the world in his Curvy Shrine, planting seeds of possibility into my mind. What? There are men in the world who like fat women?

How is this possible? I was always told by some members of my family, the church I was raised in, society, and the media that I was unacceptable. Don’t even think about marriage. Destined to live a sad, little, desperate life. The next bread crumb led me to Largefriends. Here I found many, many men who would have me in so many ways it made my head spin. It was intoxicating. Like a starving person in the restaurant window, I ate every morsel that was sent my way.

From there I added, believe it or not, Facebook dating. Where I met the man who would be the first to touch me in over twenty years. He did things to my body that no man had ever done. My body reacted in kind, filling me with orgasm after orgasm. We’ve been seeing each other for a few months as of this writing.

Not only did this man awaken the ravenous sexual creature within, he introduced me to kink. My mind being pried open, my heart feeling all the new feels, leaving me with more questions than answers as to where to go and what to do. Opening up a whole world to explore.

This has not been just a physical journey, spiritually and emotionally I have healed and grown. My life is expanding slowly. I’m curious to see where the next bread crumb leads to.

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Feeling beat up lately. It’s hard to finally open your heart and then have it thrown in your face. Yet, I persist. Every one is a lesson, everyone is an opportunity for growth, and everyone reminds me why I have a lotus tattooed on my ankle. It’s the shit that makes flowers bloom. #datinglife #bbwlove #bbwdating https://www.instagram.com/p/CKym6EtBPqO/?igshid=42fmfo0n1oqh

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Can you feel it?

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I have always hated the word fat. But here I am challenging that personal belief. I can’t believe I bought this shirt and I really can’t believe I wore it today. #wearwhatscaresyou #effyourbeautystandards #fatgirl #bodypositive #fatliberation https://www.instagram.com/p/CG1HOUkhaNik1bAn6T7SNEVP6TtCZgWtLqo2WQ0/?igshid=1rsff52s3rzz2

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Florida Bath Gel

By BBWitchPNW

I had never even heard of Florida Water, much less the idea of turning the recipe into a bath gel until I binge watched Witch, Please! on YouTube. Odin the Seer is grounded in HooDoo and is one of the wisest spiritualists and witch in the online witching community. Thanks to his magical teachings, I would never bath in anything other than this Florida bath gel inspired by him.

But what is Florida Water? Gabriela Herstik, author of Craft: How To Be a Modern Witch, says about the history of Florida water, "Florida water was created in the early 1800’s and it's been used in different spiritual traditions in ritual as a way to purify and cleanse. It can be added to a bath, used as a perfume, put on energy points like the third eye, sprayed in the air, and utilized to clean a counter to name a few. The citrusy scent of the cologne means that it’s both energizing and purifying. It’s also said to represent "the fountain of youth," which is supposedly in Florida."

Again, we’re focusing on the bath gel and how you can make it yourself in your home. There are hundreds of blogs and websites you can read to your heart’s content on what you can use Florida Water for. The bath gel works much the same way or simply as a cleansing, protecting, and blessing body and hair wash.

After I started using this I noticed how much better I felt over all. It felt as if it washed deeper than my skin. Situations that were once difficult became less so or changed all together . I felt so much more peaceful in my body, mind, and spirit. I felt more resilient and secure. Stronger in who I was, and where I wanted my life and magic to go. It grounded and balanced me. I hope it can do the same for you.

Florida Water Bath Gel

Castile Soap (hemp or eucalyptus, mixed with baby soap)

6 parts Hyssop Oil for the removal of negative karma. To cleanse my body, mind, and spirit. To assist with the removal of current life or past life trauma.

6 parts Rosemary Oil for a strong foundation and home base. For abundance.

6 parts Lemongrass Oil to allow me to be intoxicating to others. To love and be loved. For it’s wonderful protection.

6 parts Patchouli Oil for attracting beauty, love, and success into my life. Because of it’s earthiness, it will always keep me grounded.

6 parts Cinnamon Oil for warm and inviting love. To make me feel comfort and peace. By these things it will also afford me the feeling of protection.

3 parts Clary Sage Oil for its ability to cleanse all things. To remove negative vibrations from my body, mind, and spirit. To bring me wisdom and balance.

6 parts Camphor Oil for its cleansing and purification of all that is negative. To keep me connected with my ancestors .

3 parts Rose Oil for beauty, love and elegance. To entice goodness. Of course, for protection from all harm.

6 parts Lavender Oil for luck. Because when I’m lucky, I am calm and confident. I feel warmth and welcoming from others and towards others.

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