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I love how Astarion quotes The Tell-Tale Heart every once in a while. It's a rarer line, and initially I thought it was out of place (Neil is very well versed in theater, so I assumed it was a riff from him), but since reading an analysis of the work I think it was pretty purposeful.

The piece is all about fear and paranoia, things we know Astarion is plagued by despite how he might act. Similarly, the narrator of the story also tries to convince the reader that they are not as troubled as they seem. In the end, the narrator is consumed by the beating of the heart of the old man he killed and dismembered, the sound growing louder and louder until in a fit of rage he reveals the body to the police to absolve himself from the persistent beating.

Except the police never heard the heart beat, because it wasn't the old man's heart at all. The narrator was consumed by the sound of his own heart beating more and more rapidly in his chest from fear. He was the owner of the thing that forced him to reveal his true nature, he is the owner of the tell-tale heart.

And what happens with Astarion after you romance him? He realizes over time that, while he tried to deny his feelings and was initially only interested in manipulating you for his own means, he actually has grown to care for you. You have done something to his heart that hasn't happened in centuries, you have made it feel as if it has started beating again.

Therefore, his tell-tale heart leads him to admit his transgressions, which were committed out of fear and paranoia for his safety.

So the line is actually very, very apt. His confession during Act 2 is his own version of "Villains! Dissemble no more! I admit the deed! Tear up the planks! Here, here! It is the beating of his hideous heart!" Except, of course, it is his own heart that he is unearthing for us (and it's not so hideous, after all).

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BEHOLD!

Curse of Strahd as the poster (inspired by the poster of Rocky Horror Picture Show)

The classics should be KNOWN!

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How do you make people fall in love with you

challenge them to a duel 

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Axe commission for @nakaronii , with both a lit version and the unactive version! This was so fun, I love getting to draw some fiery effects~

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The Devil's Garden 🌹 🩸 will he paint them red?

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[version with blood/gore]

Here is my first piece to have been both started and completed in 2024! 🧙❤️ How appropriate that it is a portrait of my wizard, Studious - including the new design choices, like his new horns and more detailed eyes. I have to say I'm glad I started adding visible pupils and irises to my tieflings' eyes. It makes their eyes more expressive, and I want those characters to be especially expressive. 😊

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Hey btw this is a pro mary sue/"cringy" oc blog. You're creating! You're having fun! That's all that matters and I'm proud of you.

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A sketchy portrait of my friend's black dragonborn fighter/barbarian, Galadan. This is a good example of a character I had to draw a few times to figure out.

I'm just going to call this one done - I drew it a few days ago, and I might have done more, but my right hand is still sore and uncooperative. 😔 I will consider this a practice/concept piece for future projects with this character - and it was good practice for drawing dragonborns.

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A sketchy portrait of my friend's black dragonborn fighter/barbarian, Galadan. This is a good example of a character I had to draw a few times to figure out.

I'm just going to call this one done - I drew it a few days ago, and I might have done more, but my right hand is still sore and uncooperative. 😔 I will consider this a practice/concept piece for future projects with this character - and it was good practice for drawing dragonborns.

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More OC memes to cheer myself up.

Why post well-written lore when I can just make silly things like this? 😏

(But if you're ever curious about any of my OCs, feel free to ask questions.]

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I hurt the dumb tendons in my dumb hand so I can't draw. I made some Studious memes to cheer myself up a little.

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I DO obsessively read peoples tags when they rb my art

And, yes, I DO kick my little feets and giggle when I get compliments

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horror sub-genres: gothic

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never let anyone tell you that trawling through mediocre victorian poetry isn't worth it. we just happened upon an absolute BANGER of a worm poem. go read it or else 🪱🪱🪱

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Smokey Dragon, pyrography with acrylic paint and alcohol markers on 5 x 7" piece of unfinished plywood.