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...doctor

I slowly crept close to the door Peering through the window to see what was in store White coat syndrome has my nerves rattled All I can hear is click clatter from the nurse quickened gait As I check in everything seems a blur People being checked in and out swiftly Everyone moving in sync not causing a stir My simple movement towards the counter interrupts How can I help you rolled off…

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Mercurial

I rise ready to take on the world Energy overflowing from all the gifts that have been stirred up Many goals on the horizon Ready to entertain any potential deterrent that would differ Yet when the mood shifts unexpectedly A recluse in the making has begun to cloud my judgment Into a ball I turn as I’m protected in my own essence of depression Darkness has forsaken any steps toward…

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Sijo

Sight set, blot out the darkness soon shoot for the moon in June Half of the year has passed, thoughts surpassed amassing a grasp Take over the world with one line of my word flow cast in snow

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Bring me to life

Finding a man who sees the broken pieces of my heart Hating the trials and tribulations I’ve been through dating Anger stored up as weapons ready to be unleashed Inclusive members of this club of walled emotional outbursts Joy unmatched as I watch your eyebrows unfurl Words impacting your demeanor with destructive tendencies Incapable of seeing how this isn’t benefitting me Sullen times in…

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Various Thoughts

I ought to not be petty As they drive down the road in that loud Chevy Hearing screeching sounds and gasps now my heart is heavy As I waited for my bus I ran into my high school buddy’s mom Betty My soul is anchored in the Lord Yet my thoughts seem to be continuously in a mixing bowl Struggling to correct future plans that now seem cajoled Sights set on higher standards now I’m on a…

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Proust Questionnaire

Sitting on a bench people watching Unable to see the day the cure releases this disease from me Trying to defeat this petty person that lives inside of me Selfishness triggers animosity that uncovers ignorance My mother is my shero for a myriad of reasons Food has always been an extravagance that hasn’t been the healthiest Melancholy tirades have left me in sullen moods Kindness sometimes…

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Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day…

Temperature changing hourly Needing a sweat towel from the hot flashes Sunglasses while typing at my desk Constantly desirous of some sort of beverage Energy continuously removed from me As if a vampire had chosen me for relief Inflammation from enjoying vacations Unable to relax self-care not intact Body incapable of joy Pharmacology becoming my source due to no care Irritated…

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It's me

Anticipating meeting a powerful person Attending as many functions as possible Placing myself at the right destination Fulfilling commitments with taking over the world as my intent Downward spiral of consent Unwavering thoughts of insignificance Dominating presence of spatial capacity Lowering expectations from disappointment Impacting the scene As my smile gleams Lupus on the lips of…

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Fatigued Warrior

Able to sleep through the battle Rest is a necessity Inward parts doing more than most Attacking everything in sight Plight full of different pain destinations Swollen ankles, skin rashes, extremities frozen Many medical diagnoses Developing my own philosophy Proclaiming robust admiration for strides in the donations Unable to meet many obligations Calendar full of spreading…

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Purple Variations

Depiction of royalty biblically Fruit of my fancy bears the deepest hue Basketball team adorned with a tint Intricate in my formation of ROY G BIV memorization Calming nature through its stations Popping out in a bouquet Enhancing flavors of beverages of content Stroking the psyche through the spray on my pillow nightly

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Slavery

As we strolled through our gardens Hearts were hardened When unwanted visitors Engaged us with sinister intent Adapting to a world not heaven sent Men wayward actions driving culture forward Unable to row back home Beaten as the ground was sown Business minded through my lineage Entrepreneur spirit due to open minded consent Divulged into a selfish outlook Drowned in mind, body, and…

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Hunt

For the life of me Understanding of my disease escapes thee Fighting for TikTok regulation Vote for the bill that increases our funding Unable to reach out to you formerly Many smoking mirrors deterring my movement forward As my legislator My concerns should resonate Perhaps the fader needs to be eliminated Clearly excavating emails and phone calls from constituents Campaign promises…

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Haunt

It’s the whispers I hear as I climb the mountain Thoughts of not making the mark All of their struggle To be torn apart All my fault rings in my head Making it a priority to look more into the secrecy No one spoke about it outside of my family Shunned sometimes labeled rude Gaining momentum on what was happening Blood flow increased Cramps released sharp pains Debilitating motions…

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Someone

I wanted to be famous To change the life I was living Being told I should be on stage Led to dreams of grandeur As life unfolded I was being exposed Leadership opportunities Speaking engagements I’m becoming the woman of my dreams Living in a technicolor scene Not understanding that I am my own dream Standing outside of the frame Unable to pimp the game Story laid out before…

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You don't know my name

Rolling my eyes as my head falls lowly In school I dreaded the roll being called In school I dreaded the roll being called Name destroyed in pronunciation No distinction of character of available for distinction I am not lupus The disease has entered my life Through the strife Conquerors have upheld my plight Transformative nicknames of my personality Unwilling to need validation from…

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Monarch

All hail the queen As loyalty beams The knees bow as the swords gleam Is this history beckoning As the butterfly travails the earth The initial stage of transformation may be strange Adapting to these new ways of survival Brings forth a revival of life to admire My arch in life was birthed out of survival In the archival of strong black women I surmised to hold it all in In using that…

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Postage

The thoughts that cross my mind as I notice the stamp How long did this organization fight to get this picture placed When they accomplished this goal Could this have been what they were striving for Face forever remains active Upon the right corner of national campaigns Smudged from the many hands of processing Misshapen to due unforeseen circumstances Who thought of the concept of a…