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I mean have you seen THE WILD gIzMos that man BEHOLDS.

Bill Nye the Science Guy killed Prince Philip!

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Well, well, well, what a twist. From the standard of tinder jumping to, "hello beautiful," to the TITANS. I don't know but you but I'd travel across the world for that.

this is how u use tinder right

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Not even DCP&P can help brock with this one. Abuse much?

EVISCERATED

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A sneak peak at a new painting coming out in the next month or two! It is still in the pencil stages though! I will try to post as consistently as possibly! Look out on Tuesday, Wensday and Friday! Insta: zp_so.called_art

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I'd imagine if Bill really saw everything, he's imagining Garnet and Steven in Forced Together!

Inferior geometry.

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Oh my god this is so amazing, I have ASD myself so I can be difficult advocating my needs and describing myself in situations!

Could you maybe explain the difference between what a special interest and a hyperfixation is to me? I recently figured out that I probably have minor ADHD, and these two terms seem really similar sometimes, but special interest seems like it's used more in the autistic community, and I don't want to intrude by using a term meant for a specific group by generalizing.

Hello! I’ll try to explain as best as I can! I will be covering the terms: Special Interest, Hyperfixation, and Hyperfocus in this! #longpost

Additionally, I will be discussing their mutual use in Autistic and ADHD circles, and talk about whether or not any of the terms are exclusive to one or the other.

Special Interest (SI): 

Definition: 

To have a deep, intense, passionate and incredibly focused/narrowed interest in a certain area of study, subject, topic or thing - to the exclusion of other interests. This interest is something that exists for the long-term, most often lasting for multiple months, years, or even you’re entire life! Less commonly they’ll last a couple weeks, but that’s just as valid as others! 

More Info.: 

“Special interest” defines the interest, and the degree of our involvement/commitment to it! 

SI’s are usually very studious-oriented, and I don’t mean this as in they’re academic, but as in we want to learn everything there is to know about them! We’ll research and gather information for hours upon hours just for the enjoyment doing so brings! 

SI’s are also typically sensual experiences as well - positive ones! They overwhelm our senses with joy and happiness, fill us with such enthusiastic and heart-wrenching emotion! We Autistic folk often have SI-related stims!

Allistics might look down upon our passion for our SI because it is something inconsequential to them, like ladybugs, but we love it anyway!

Analogy:

@autisticliving shares a very good analogy for special interests, comparing having one “to being in love - it’s what your mind drifts to when there’s nothing else to occupy it, it’s the only thing you want to talk about, it’s the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning and it’s the last thing you think of before you fall asleep.” 

Exclusivity: 

Debatable*. But to be safe, it would be wise to assume that it/the term is Autistic-exclusive! If you are neither Autistic or ADHD you definitely should not use the term!

*Some people think it should be exclusive due to the historical-presence of the term predominantly in Autistic communities, and others believe it to be experienced by both Autistic and ADHD people - Autism and ADHD are “sister” developmental disabilities/disorders, and there is a lot of overlap. Overall, though, ‘special interest’ is most commonly used in Autistic-circles!

Hyperfixation:

Definition:

“An umbrella term to describe special interests, hyperfocuses, perseverations and other intense ‘obsessions’ in those with developmental, learning or mental disabilities.” coined by @deathbecoming

More Info.:

With some believing that special interests are Autistic-exclusive, @deathbecoming wanted to prevent the appropriation of the term and instead created one that could be used by allistic neurodivergent people to describe their experiences similar to special interests, etc..

Analogy:

N/A

Exclusivity:

Created only for use by those who are developmentally, intellectually, and/or mentally disabled.

Note:

Though it wasn’t the original intent, the term “hyperfixation” has kind of evolved specifically into a verb for the act/subject of ‘hyperfocus,” which has then led many to believe that it is ADHD-exclusive – this is not the case!

Speaking of!

Hyperfocus

Definition: 

To focus intensely on something for a short-term period of time without break to the exclusion of all other things — This is to the point that you won’t process what’s going on around you, adhere to your bodily functions/needs (sleep, hunger, using the restroom), homework/tasks, your hobbies/interests, etc..

More Info.:

One of the reasons why Hyperfocus is often attributed as ADHD-exclusive is due to its unpredictability — You may not always have control or awareness over what you’re hyperfocusing on, or even that you are, it can just happen.

Analogy:

@actuallyadhd has a good analogy for the unpredictability of hyperfocusing, sharing that “You can hyperfocus on something that you’re especially interested in, but you can also hyperfocus on stuff you aren’t especially interested in. That’s how you can end up playing a video game for five hours without realizing how much time has gone by and wonder why you even were playing the game to begin with since it’s not your favorite.” 

Exclusivity:

Neurodivergent people only! Both ADHD and Autistic people can definitely use this term, and it is most predominantly used in those circles! While Neurotypical people can experience a similar thing to hyperfocus, it is most often called “Being in The Zone” or “Getting Into the Flow” and isn’t the same thing.

TL;DR:

Special Interest: 

Used most in Autistic circles, in reference to Autistic people 

Describes the type of interest (very intense, passionate, and narrow) 

Describes our commitment to it (long-term commitment, ranging from months to lifelong, to the exclusion of other interests)

Hyperfixation:

Used only by those who with mental, learning, or developmental disabilities

“An umbrella term to describe special interests, hyperfocuses, perseverations and other intense ‘obsessions’”

Coined by @deathbecoming

Hyperfocus:

Used by anyone who is Neurodivergent, most often seen in Autistic/ADHD circles

To focus intensely to the exclusion of all other things (includes bodily functions/needs, processing of the world around you, etc.)

A short-term commitment, typically lasting under 10 hours and not always by choice

Verdict:

As you’re ADHD you can definitely use the terms Hyperfixation and Hyperfocus! If, after reading this, you think the term Special Interest applies to you, you can use it as well! Just be aware that some people may disagree with your use of it!

Note: Additionally, I think it is good to tell you that ADHD cannot be “minor” or “severe” — You’re either ADHD or you’re not! It may be more difficult or easier for someone to manage how their ADHD symptoms positively or negatively impact their life,  but that is a different thing!

This “Scale of Functionally” (in comparison to Neurotypicals) doesn’t truly exist, and believing that it does is actually quite problematic and harmful. It is often weaponized — Used to invalidate and discredit the experiences of other ADHD people, make one seem “better” or “lesser” (more/less Neurotypical) then the other, decide who isn’t or is “truly worthy” or resources, etc..

I do not say this to insult or hurt you, though! As you are just now discovering that you’re ADHD it is only logical that you would not be aware of all the little intricacies like this. I do not blame you!

Overall, thank you for being both so self-aware and considerate to send this message! It goes to show how kind you are that you wish to educate yourself to make sure you’re respectful of others and the terminology for their disabilities/etc.. Good job!

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I wish everyone had friends like this, especially with so many of us underrepresented.

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Please DO NOT watch Sia’s new ableist film “Music.” The autistic character Music is shown having several meltdowns and being held in prone restraint. Prone restraint is dangerous, and has killed many autistic people. Take Eric Parsa for example. Autistic people are killed by neurotypicals who don’t know how to handle meltdowns and Sia just makes light of that. Plus, she cast a non disabled person to play Music. So again, do not watch “Music.” Here’s a thread of films with good autistic representation if you want to find something to watch.

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KFC Cowgirl princess! It is unbelievable what you can get at the Able Sisters! https://www.instagram.com/p/CCQxY4xHbkbosEFkq_UCCJyC9JJN3pZ12uiwzs0/?igshid=10o0v6kz9qo2r

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instagram.com/jericosilvers

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I’m glad your family accepts you

Thx my dad is really nice he give good hugs. Havent told him about agere stuff tho

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Happiness - 4/10/20 https://www.instagram.com/p/B-zlmy2HcPDc1T6EGFLUnEEeHjru0Fz0NvK1cw0/?igshid=1lvp9yo94g34p

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Black and White Thinking

I’m the white inside of the black. It is a very lonely place.

When I finally see people, colorful, beautiful people, no matter what, you have to be the one good thing when there is too much at stake.

When there is so much darkness.

All I want is to have some color, if I could give everyone color I could see everyone smile.

Although no matter how hard you try, if there is no color around you, it is no use getting out of black and white thinking because you won’t find any color.

And it is no use denying that there is any color because it is too far away for you to reach. 

The first time I saw color, I was very young. Immediately a clash of red, seething hate was flared into my retinas.

It saw my fear and it yelled at me, burning scars all over my body, burning me so it turned me white.

Scared I run back to the darkness where no one can find me except the beautiful purple and pink flares from the morning daybreak.

It was from that morning with the dimly lit kitchen where I was physically held against the cabinets because I wanted to turn off the lights, that I decided I wanted to get rid of the pain.

From that point forth my only choice would be to see it to the end just to see the colorful people smile or become black and one with the rest of the world.

Giving my exhaustion to the eternal sleeping coma.

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You can see the ocean from here! Lol cause it is in the painting on the ocean view tower! (at Brigantine Island) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8pBvxTH4F1krGqimsbVVCv8qSJ5Zukv311WdU0/?igshid=qq6youndrawr

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This is my first professional photo. Still learning the basics

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I just got my first professional camera! It is a Nikon D 3500. I know I Grandma's house and she has a lot of good areas II have some really nice photos! (at Brigantine, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8obE5VngB6D0QeHtWa3FYRKItQkqL2GeiXfXI0/?igshid=19uprmsyp7bxg