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this kills me every fucking time, how on earth am i supposed to not romance this man??

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welp, we officially made the announcement today that we’re going out of business, and i have even now changed my name on facebook to make it harder to find while i’m job hunting

this still doesn’t entirely feel real, but that was a punch in the gut anyway

god, this sucks

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there’s no fall damage in veilguard because lucanis and spite will catch you :)

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i really wish it was mentioned even once in game that lucanis freed a bunch of slaves during the job that resulted in the “demon of vyrantium” nickname

that just feels, like, important, and unless i missed something it is never at all mentioned in veilguard and i don’t know, i just feel like it should have been

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Dragon Age: The Veilguard (Video Game), Dragon Age (Video Games) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Lucanis Dellamorte/Rook, Lucanis Dellamorte/Rook/Spite Characters: Lucanis Dellamorte, Spite (Dragon Age), Rook (Dragon Age) Additional Tags: Accidentally Hurting a Loved One, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Flashbacks, Angst, Heavy Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Lucanis Being Taken Care Of, Spite Loves Rook (Dragon Age), Protective Lucanis Dellamorte, Protective Spite (Dragon Age), Rook Loving Lucanis More Than Anything Else In The Entire Fucking World, They/Them Femme Rook (Dragon Age), Explicit Sexual Content, Vaginal Sex, Lucanis Dellamorte Eats Pussy Like His Life Depends On It, minor character injury, Self-Harm, Self-Loathing, Past Torture, The Ossuary (Dragon Age), Trust, Rook Backstory (Dragon Age), Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault Series: Part 7 of Rook’s Talon/Crow’s Shadow

He’s trying to put pieces together. It was so vivid, it felt so real, a part of him still isn’t entirely sure it wasn’t. But Spite is upset, and there’s something Lucanis is missing.

He may have just done something terrible.

Lucanis accidentally hurts Rook, and has to learn to live with their forgiveness.

dedicated to @dismalzelenka

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Reckoning commissioned by my patron, Sarah! prints | patreon

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Anders: me and who

Hawke: you and ME!!!

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This is the worst timeline. (x)

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I want to [remembers that suicide jokes only further damage my mental health] fuck you like an animal

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blanket normally: really good

blanket 10 mins before you need to get up for work: skin contact with god

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can people send me good vibes/unironic thoughts and prayers/what have you, please?

i just applied to a job i want so, so bad, it's at what might be the coolest fucking place in the city and a place that means a lot to me, so it would be absolutely amazing if i could get it and i am 100% qualified for it, so i am praying so fucking hard that i have a shot

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Dragon Age: The Veilguard (Video Game), Dragon Age (Video Games) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Lucanis Dellamorte/Rook, Lucanis Dellamorte/Rook/Spite Characters: Lucanis Dellamorte, Spite (Dragon Age), Rook (Dragon Age) Additional Tags: Accidentally Hurting a Loved One, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Flashbacks, Angst, Heavy Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Lucanis Being Taken Care Of, Spite Loves Rook (Dragon Age), Protective Lucanis Dellamorte, Protective Spite (Dragon Age), Rook Loving Lucanis More Than Anything Else In The Entire Fucking World, They/Them Femme Rook (Dragon Age), Explicit Sexual Content, Vaginal Sex, Lucanis Dellamorte Eats Pussy Like His Life Depends On It, minor character injury, Self-Harm, Self-Loathing, Past Torture, The Ossuary (Dragon Age), Trust, Rook Backstory (Dragon Age), Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault Series: Part 7 of Rook's Talon/Crow's Shadow

He’s trying to put pieces together. It was so vivid, it felt so real, a part of him still isn’t entirely sure it wasn’t. But Spite is upset, and there’s something Lucanis is missing.

He may have just done something terrible.

 Lucanis accidentally hurts Rook, and has to learn to live with their forgiveness.

dedicated to @dismalzelenka

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sorry for not paying attention during today’s meeting. i was visibly hallucinating one half of my otp suffering the crushing guilt of almost getting the other half of the otp killed. it will happen again.

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I literally hate every job in the world. I don’t want them. I don’t want ANY of them!

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god fuck i am trying so hard not to spiral about getting laid off but like

i am terrified i am only going to be able to find a job that’s a noteworthy commute when i am a very anxious driver who literally has a panic attack any time i have to drive myself more than like five minutes away

i am terrified i am only going to be able to find a job with wonky hours when my night vision is so bad that i don’t drive after dark because i genuinely do not feel safe doing so

i am terrified, for as silly as this one is, that i am only going to be able to find a job that is going to force me to dye my hair and take out all of my piercings (and i guess also keep all of my tattoos covered but that part is whatever in comparison)

i am terrified that i am only going to be able to find a job that is going to absolutely fucking wreck my body

i don’t have a college degree, i have no marketable skills, and i have worked here for eleven fucking years but have only had three other jobs before and there are a couple of pretty lengthy gaps in my résumé

i am trying so hard not to freak out but oh god oh fuck jesus christ

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even in the darkness there's hope and beauty. have faith.