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Don't you start that Father Beckham shit, too, Samuel. I'm not your dad, Christ. I'm not wise, either. I'm just telling you how I see things, that's all. You're going to do whatever the hell you want to do anyways, which I recommend regardless of the shit you get yourself into.

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Fair enough. 

Why do you always sound so…wise? …At some point, you’re going to look and pull a ’ Samuel, I’m your father’ kind of thing aren’t you? I know it seems like nonsense but pain and ultimately, that’s what it is but I want to try….if for nothing else, just to say I wasn’t a coward. 

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I don't hate anything. I just think school is a waste of my time, Vi.

You're right, I don't understand, nor do I want to. But at the same time, it just explains so much.

Ah, no, the complete opposite. You would want to go to jail? Do you really hate Windsor that much?

I’m not… It’s just, oh nevermind. I don’t think you’d really understand. Besides, I highly doubt you want to hear about this stuff. 

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Consider it accepted, but you can't get upset with me if I roll my eyes at you. 

You're welcome for the brownies. Glad to know my creations go to good use, even if he was a bit harsh on you. I don't normally say people are wrong, but he's wrong, as are you. Where you sleep has nothing to do with you as a person. If you want to sleep in Radley, you should be able to fuckin' sleep in Radley without worrying about destroying your happiness or whatever. If you call this happiness, I dunno. I don't know why you're setting yourself up for pain, kid, but remember: alcohol cures things a lot faster than crying.

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Sorry mate, you’re just going to have accept it. Since you’re not a big fan of hugs and I can’t kiss you to show my gratitude, words are all I have left.

I guess you could say I did that with Zane. He was drunk and high when I told him, courtesy of the culinary club anyway. He didn’t punch me. He just told me in a million different ways how I was going to be the cause of her fall, wasn’t good enough…everything I expected from him…but after I talked to him he said if I make her happy, he’ll give his approval…provided I not pursue Radley. I’m not stupid. I know the time I with her is limited and well, fuck I just might end up crying on your shoulder but I can’t too far in to just give up now.

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It sounds like you're trying to convince me to burn down the school. Explosion and jail? Next time I'll definitely succeed. 

Right, right. Whatever you say. Keep making things complicated, Holloway.

Well, think of it this way, if you end up burning the school down and you can’t prove it’s an accident, not only will you be expelled but you will probably have some jail time.

Oh my god. Okay, you know, I kind of asked for that so I’m just gonna let it slide. But that’s not the case, Beck. I mean, It’s not like I don’t want to, it’s just not the right time. 

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who do you think had the best looks, personality, and intelligence at windsor?

Are those things important?

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I make no promises.

I mean, it just explains why you were so eager. You should have sex with your boyfriend, Vi.

Can you continue being the worst arsonist ever for the sake of everyone’s safety?

No, really, what? 

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Obviously shitty if the school's still standing. World's worst arsonist, at your service.

Nothing. Moving on.

How’s that going for you?

Wait, what do you mean?

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I guess I'm an arsonist.

...Well that certainly brings some things into light.

People don’t usually burn down buildings to avoid a test. You know, unless you’re an arsonist. 

I don’t make anything complicated, Beck. Because, there isn’t anything to make complicated because it’s not happening. 

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Yeah, that's the only reason.

It's just sex, Vi, Christ. How complicated do you make it?

Are you sure that’s the only reason? Jesus, Beck, that’s really a big deal. But, I’m just glad everyone’s okay.

Ah, well, it’s not that simple.

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I guess I'm a fuckin' genius. Hard work.

I have writers block.

It might as well be a saying. It works as one.

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I really didn't want to take my Biology final. I don't think anyone was hurt. I haven't heard anything yet, so I'm just gonna play it safe and assume that was the case.

Ah, yes, relationship... things. I hope the sex was adequate. 

Oh my god. I’m glad there’s an almost in that sentence. Are you okay? Was anyone hurt? …But why, exactly? 

It was most definitely not as eventful as yours. I pretty much just hung out with Ben and stuff. 

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I don't think it's a saying. It just fit the situation.

I have writers block.

Yeah, that’s a wonderful way to look at things. I don’t think I’ve ever heard that saying before.

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Stop apologizing, Christ. We're moving on. I'm fine, like always. I think I almost burned the school down sometime this week, but I don't really remember much. 

And you? I hope your week was just as eventful as I'm sure mine was.

I- uh, yeah… okay.

Right, I’m sorry. I really am, Beck, I guess I’m just frazzled and confused and ah, but yeah, I’m sorry. So… how are you? Anything new happen lately?

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Guess not.

Eh, I'm not into family things. I like what I have, and I think what you have is nice, too. Whatever floats your boat doesn't sink mine, yeah?

I have writers block.

Well yeah, they’re kids. A lot of them don’t understand earning things, but anyway. Kids aren’t for everyone. 

I guess, but I’ve only ever seen my brother Rory when he was a year old and now during the summers, but I can remember his birthday and everyone else’s to the day. But I guess I’m just good at memorizing things. 

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It's what we are, Samuel. Don't get so sappy on me, Christ.

Did Zane punch you, too? He's got a habit of doing that, but he's a nice guy. If you talk it out with him he calms down from what I've seen. As for Stella? No fuckin' clue what to tell you there. I think if you got her stoned she'll be a hell of a lot easier to deal with, so maybe you should do that. Or, you know, save yourself from this relationship bullshit before it gets any worse and you end up crying on my shoulder or some shit.

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Is it bad I feel happy because this is the first time you’ve called me, friend?

Alright….Well, the whole thing is simple, really. I’ve been with Stella. I tell Zane…whether I should have or not, debatable and then Zane goes ape-shit on me…causing a rift between Stella and I.  I guess it was sort of unavoidable since we sort of planned to see each other in the summer too…so, yeah. Now my mate hates me and my Stella is likely to call it quits with me.

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The truth comes out when you're wasted? Do you want to take a moment and reconsider your words?

I meant attacking me in the bathroom. If we're going to talk, I'd rather we didn't argue. It's fuckin' exhausting.

Because, Beckham, just because. It is a negative thing. You know what they say; the truth comes out when you’re wasted. Attacking you…? How am I attacking you?

Yeah… but are you mad or something? Because I feel like you’d rather not talk to me at all. 

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They expect things from everyone or some shit. I can't explain it. Just not a kid person. I haven't really seen my sister since I came here and we were never close. She's got her life, I've got mine.

I have writers block.

Why do they make you nervous? They’re adorable. Oh, she’s- wait, you don’t know your own sister’s age? How does that happen?