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back and better than ever

Basic title but whatever. I may or may not have been depressed for a little and was SWAMPED with school work, chores, and just exhausted! but its all good now. The fleas are basically gone (although I would like to go through and spray the house) I like to hold and pet my cat and dog without feeling gross. Im doing pretty good in my classes but i woild like to bring my B's up to A's. Ive been listening to a lot of mxmtoon lately. I cant really relate to a lot of her songs because she has a plethera of songs about love and ive never beenin any romantic relationships. dont get me wrong ive had situationships and talking stages but nothing more. Sometimes it makes me feel left out but im also a highschool girl so im too young for all that (Even if i am a junior now) I know that I seem lonely at school and stuff but im not lonely at all im just alone. I enjoy being alone and reading or playing phone games or watching tv. People are too much for me and i really only have 1 or 2 people i regularly talk to outside of my immediate family (even though we dont talk much because they find me annoying.) Sometimes when im really sad i feel like i have nobody to talk to but really thats my own fault because i'd rather drown in sorrow and bad thoughts and feelings rather than trust someone enough to tell them whats going on with me. I kinda feel weird like sick weird not any other weird. I feel like im gonna pass out as i write this and i feel heavy. its getting hard to type. Ive been so tired lately, i keep taking naps even though usually im not the napping type. I just deel sorta weak but like not in my normal way. In like a "My body is too heavy to uphold" kind of way. My mom thinks im sick because of the napping but im not im just sorta weird rn. On another note ive realized that i have a lazy eye. i realized my eye was kinda wonky a few months ago and now that im really looking at it i feel like its a lazy eye. I guess it sucks but theres nothing for me to do about it but just sit and hope im still pretty enough to be societally acceptable. Thats all i have rn but im hoping to write (Or rather type) more in the distant future. Tschussi!

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nvm

idek why I was so mad yesterday. Im good now and in an overwhelmingly good mood. This may sound like very nerdy but im super excited for school to start up again this year! I have a on of fun classes and i got my all-time favorite teacher again! sure i dont share any classes with my friends but i dont talk much anyways! everytime i post grammarly gets on my a double s and its kinda annoying bt ive just been ignoring it. anyways Tschüss for now!

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real

Bob’s Burgers, Bob Fires the Kids (S03E03)

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absolutely pissed off

my parents have practically infuriated me today. They spent all day at the bar and got drunk. I usually wouldn't care too much about this, but this is the second to last weekend before school starts and I suggested we go back-to-school shopping now so we most likely aren't gonna do it. my parents want to do it next weekend even though school starts the monday right after next weekend. it pisses me off how nonchalant they are about wasting our time and doing everything last minute. The last thing i wanted was to do all the shopping last minute and i vocalized this ALL. FUCKING. SUMMER. but nobody listened. and now my parents are mad at me for saying that doing shopping next weekend is last minute EVEN THOUGH IT IS! They think i just want to "get my outfits set for the first week of school" BUT THATS NOT AT ALL WHAT IT IS NOR IS IT SOMETHING IVE EVER SAID!!!! I dont wana do school shopping the weekend right before because 1. the shops will be packed. 2. everything good will be gone so ill be left with the scraps AGAIN. 3. Its extremely frustrating for EVERYONE involved. 4. everyone always ends up rushing me. 5. i never have the time or energy to get everything organized for school. and 6. ITS LAST MINUTE. everything this family does is last minute and i HATE IT. and on top of it all my bangs were cut entirely too short so i either have to find or buy berets/hair clips to hide my bangs until they grow out. I. HATE. IT. HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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greatest summer ever

Let me just go out of my way to praise this summer. This summer has been FULL of absolutely PLEASENT situations! Not only have my glasses become so scratched that there is no chance of saving them, not only have I discovered that I have high cholesterol, NOT ONLY are there so many cicadas outside that I can't even hear my own thoughts, NOT ONLY have I gained a ton of weight, BUT NOW WE HAVE FLEAS IN THE HOUSE AS WELL! A truly great summer indeed! I am scared of all bugs so much so that I have gotten panic attacks just from being in the vicinity of them and now they're EVERYWHERE! But hey, at least my sea monkeys are thriving. I can't wait to wash everything and do all of the vacuuming tomorrow! <3

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July something

Today is some day in July. I don't care nor do I know exactly what day it is. Today was actually sort of interesting

I woke up at 12 pm and found out that my dad had stayed home today. I went to make him coffee like usual and then when I went to make mine the Keurig broke. Most of the day I had no coffee which wasn't amazing. I just went on with my day after that. Fed my sea monkeys. Brushed my hair. I have a pajama set that is really comfortable except for the long sleeves so I got the sleeves cut and now I can actually wear it! I'm a little bit scared for tomorrow because I have a dentist's appointment and I have to get bloodwork done. I'm extremely scared of needles and wish I could just not go but unless I'm sicker than a dog I have to.

that's all for now. Thanks for reading!

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Hello

Hello, whoever is reading this. I decided to start some sort of online diary, or blog, thingy. Honestly tumblr wasnt my first choice but most other places had no life or cost money. I guess the best way to start is to introduce myself!

I'm a normal girl who doesn't understand much outside of academics. I'm a bit of a nerd and get good grades, I always end up on the honor roll. I have few friends and don't go to parties, get in relationships, or do anything extreme (drugs, drinking, spicy stuff, etc). In all honesty the first word to describe me would be boring but in the rare circumstance that something interesting happens I never shut up about it. One last thing is that I am a lesbian. It's really not that important but it probably will come up at times.

well that should be all. Thanks for reading!