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starting afresh.

hello, anyone reading! 

i’ll get right to the point: i don’t like my online presence. salty-kumiru, assclassrarepairs, even akihito_kanburrito — none of these accounts feel like me.

i’ve changed a lot recently, and i’ve become a more serious person. obviously, i still love to joke around, like i do with friends, but less so. i’ve grown to hate posting light-hearted, jokey things when that’s simply not the content i feel like posting. god, i sound like i belong on myspace, jesus christ.

moving on.

i therefore want to start a new blog, a new ao3. i may or may not delete this blog or my current ao3, but i do want to start a new one.

really, i just feel like i’m not getting my real personality across. the real world just isn’t a place where i can freely share my creativity, which is why i come online. however, the internet doesn’t feel like my creative place either, but i know that it could be, if i just used it properly.

so, sometime before the new year, i will start up new accounts, both on tumblr and on ao3. once i’ve started them, i’ll come back to this post and link to both of the accounts. 

if anyone is willing to offer any advice to me about starting fresh then i’d be more than grateful. thank you so much to many of my mutuals for the fun and for the experience you’ve given me over the year that i’ve been writing and sharing my content with my fandoms. you’ve all done a lot for me and i can’t thank you enough. mainly because i’m british and it’s what we do.

[tagging those who i’d like to be aware: @nectorism @dorkytooru @oikawaslittlepsycho @elanafml @mukiyukii ]

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isokaru one shot is being written (going to post on @assclassrarepairs once it's done) and tbh i'm way too head-over-heels for this ship. they're too beaut <3 also, i'm attempting to write in present tense and it's so !!! hard !!! like normally i write in past tense because that's just what i've always done, but i wanted to try it out because,,, idk because it suits more?? i just wanted to try it, but i keep forgetting, and then i have to go back and edit like 23 paragraphs just so i can change all of the 'was' moments to 'is' moments. sTRESS!!!

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bef rlly cant write

im doing my best to rewrite tpim to the best of my ability, but it's just not working at all?? i'm so sorry to everyone waiting, but i swear i'm doing my best.

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just this song on repeat basically

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WRITING FLIRTY KARMA WHILE LISTENING TO BLACKPINK IS WAY TOO SATISFYING

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IF YOU THOUGHT I WAS EVER GONNA WRITE A KARMASAKA FIC THEN YOU WERE

totally and completely correct. well done.

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October Check-in (31.10.16)

First off, I'm going to have to confess that I spent most of October staring at my blank page of TPIM editing and screaming. Then, about a week ago, I wrote a few paragraphs. That's all I got man. HOWEVER, I have started writing a few one shots of AssClass rare pairs and I'm loving it because I have so much inspiration for them. The main one I'm writing at the moment is Karma x Terasaka because it's important, okay? I also started a new blog called @assclassrarepairs so you can see pretty much all the ships I want to write for there. On another note, I started writing a collab fic with @dorkytooru and it's an angst/hurt/comfort TsukkiYama fic where Tsukki has a medical condition and... it actually wasn't going to be so angsty until I got involved (I'M SORRY ISSY). But it's going to be posted on my AO3 account (akihito_kanburrito) and her Wattpad account (izzyisnotcreative) so check it out once it's up! With This Isn't The First Time, I'm taking a little break from it so I can focus more on TPIM, but I'm hoping to update as soon as I've got through a few chapters of editing. I'm also considering a Karma two shot with no pairing, but just centred around the plot. It's inspired by Tag, You're It and Milk and Cookies by Melanie Martinez if you're interested. So... I think that's about it? Apart from anime fics, I'm also thinking of writing some kind of Drarry one shot, and maybe a SaTzu one (Sana and Tzuyu from Twice are ultimate okay?)

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keep it gay, salty san!!

yo i just saw it but it's always gay up in this crib don't you worry

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YO BUT DOES ANYONE ELSE GET THAT THING LIKE WHEN A FIC UPDATES REALLY REGULARLY THEN JUST PLUNGES INTO THE ABYSS AS SOON AS YOU START READING IT AND NEVER UPDATES AGAIN EVER BECAUSE THIS HAPPENS TO ME ALL THE TIME AND I FEEL LIKE IT'S JUST ME

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OH MY G O D TPIM IS NEVER GETTING FINISHED I HAD A TON OF PAGES TABS OPEN AND I PRESSED QUIT BY INSTINCT ON ONE FOR HOMEWORK AND OH MY GDKODDOODD IT DELETED THE EDITED VERSION OF TPIM ALL OF IT APART FROM ONE OR TWO PARAGRAPHS KILL !!! ME !!!! NOW !!!!!!

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Words to replace said, except this actually helps

I got pretty fed up with looking for words to replace said because they weren’t sorted in a way I could easily use/find them for the right time. So I did some myself.

IN RESPONSE TO Acknowledged Answered Protested

INPUT/JOIN CONVERSATION/ASK Added Implored Inquired Insisted Proposed Queried Questioned Recommended Testified

GUILTY/RELUCTANCE/SORRY Admitted Apologized Conceded Confessed Professed

FOR SOMEONE ELSE Advised Criticized Suggested

JUST CHECKING Affirmed Agreed Alleged Confirmed

LOUD Announced Chanted Crowed

LEWD/CUTE/SECRET SPY FEEL Appealed Disclosed Moaned

ANGRY FUCK OFF MATE WANNA FIGHT Argued Barked Challenged Cursed Fumed Growled Hissed Roared Swore

SMARTASS Articulated Asserted Assured Avowed Claimed Commanded Cross-examined Demanded Digressed Directed Foretold Instructed Interrupted Predicted Proclaimed Quoted Theorized

ASSHOLE Bellowed Boasted Bragged

NERVOUS TRAINWRECK Babbled Bawled Mumbled Sputtered Stammered Stuttered

SUAVE MOTHERFUCKER Bargained Divulged Disclosed Exhorted

FIRST OFF Began

LASTLY Concluded Concurred

WEAK PUSY Begged Blurted Complained Cried Faltered Fretted

HAPPY/LOL Cajoled Exclaimed Gushed Jested Joked Laughed

WEIRDLY HAPPY/EXCITED Extolled Jabbered Raved

BRUH, CHILL Cautioned Warned

ACTUALLY, YOU’RE WRONG Chided Contended Corrected Countered Debated Elaborated Objected Ranted Retorted

CHILL SAVAGE Commented Continued Observed Surmised

LISTEN BUDDY Enunciated Explained Elaborated Hinted Implied Lectured Reiterated Recited Reminded Stressed

BRUH I NEED U AND U NEED ME Confided Offered Urged

FINE Consented Decided

TOO EMO FULL OF EMOTIONS Croaked Lamented Pledged Sobbed Sympathized Wailed Whimpered

JUST SAYING Declared Decreed Mentioned Noted Pointed out Postulated Speculated Stated Told Vouched

WASN’T ME Denied Lied

EVIL SMARTASS Dictated Equivocated Ordered Reprimanded Threatened

BORED Droned Sighed

SHHHH IT’S QUIET TIME Echoed Mumbled Murmured Muttered Uttered Whispered

DRAMA QUEEN Exaggerated Panted Pleaded Prayed Preached

OH SHIT Gasped Marveled Screamed Screeched Shouted Shrieked Yelped Yelled

ANNOYED Grumbled Grunted Jeered Quipped Scolded Snapped Snarled Sneered

ANNOYING Nagged

I DON’T REALLY CARE BUT WHATEVER Guessed Ventured

I’M DRUNK OR JUST BEING WEIRDLY EXPRESSIVE FOR A POINT/SARCASM Hooted Howled Yowled

I WONDER Pondered Voiced Wondered

OH, YEAH, WHOOPS Recalled Recited Remembered

SURPRISE BITCH Revealed

IT SEEMS FAKE BUT OKAY/HA ACTUALLY FUNNY BUT I DON’T WANT TO LAUGH OUT LOUD Scoffed Snickered Snorted

BITCHY Tattled Taunted Teased

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SEPTEMBER UPDATE/CHECK IN (30/09/16)

Hello hello, friendinos!!

I know that most people following me are just awaiting the return of my fic ‘The Place In Me That You Can Call Home,’ so this is just a little post for me to check in and tell you all how it’s doing.

Firstly, I’m still on Chapter One of editing. Yeah, I know. But don’t worry! I won’t be editing all of the chapters, and certainly not every single part. Sure, there’s a lot of work being done and a lot of changes being made, but my later chapters are a lot better than the earlier ones, so they don’t need as much editing.

Secondly, I’m being totally awful and not focusing all of my spare time on this. Basically, I have a lot more fics that I enjoy writing, such as ‘This Isn’t The First Time,’ ‘Fairy! Euphonium,’ ‘Love Me, Love Me Not,’ and my Mystic Messenger one shot collection. Alongside that, I have an inconceivable amount of homework, despite it still having only been a few weeks since I got back to school. And I’ve been sick, so there’s that.

However, I am currently making more progress on my editing, and I’ll be spending more time on it now that I’ve had a suitable break and I’ve planned it all out. I was a little iffy on the ending, but I’ve got all the loose ends tied up (in my head) so hopefully it’ll be satisfying to read!

So, with nothing else to say, here’s a little sneak peek to the things I’m currently writing, and the fics that will come once I’ve completed TPIMTYCCH:

(All of these can be read either on my Wattpad — akihito-kanburrito — or on my AO3 — akihito_kanburrito)

The Place In Me That You Can Call Home - Karmagisa: Fully planned, editing in progress.

This Isn’t The First Time - Fem!Karushuu: Major plot points planned (how’s that for a tongue twister?), third chapter being written.

Fairy! Euphonium - Zervis: Being edited.

Love Me, Love Me Not - Kumirei: Chapter three in progress.

Mystic Messenger One Shots - X MC: Currently overwhelmed by the amount of requests, but they’re being written somewhat.

A Flower To Bloom - Karmagisa: Being planned. I’m gonna like writing this one.

The Place In Me That Is Alone: TPIMTYCCH prequel. Lil bit of angst, and more of a look at Karma’s past.

12:00am - Twelve x Lisa: Running on inspiration and streams of consciousness. Being written.

Forever Missing Him - Karuri: Same as above.

I hope you enjoy reading them, and I’ll be sure to do more regular updates once I’ve gotten on top of things!

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i drew this ages ago but forgot to post it omg

anyways, here’s my fem!karma from my karushuu fic “this isn’t the first time”

yeah, when i said it looked like scarlett johansson i wasn’t kidding

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things i want out of fem!karma

because no, it’s not just a female version of karma, it’s so much more. things are not the same for you when you’re a girl. life is not the same.

karma hating her teachers not just because they only care about her grades, but because they won’t believe what she says, tell her that she’s wrong because “girls are so emotional, they overreact to everything”

karma being violent af and everyone scolding her for not being ladylike and proper but when it’s a boy somehow that’s badass and hot

karma runs around everywhere when she’s a little girl and she loves to explore, climb trees and jump across roofs and play games in the woods with her friends, and her mother scolds her for tearing her dresses and getting dirt on her knees

karma is easily bored, sorry if she doesn’t want to listen to some dude in his ‘40s prattle on about lawnmowers or how shitty millennials are, she’d rather be playing video games or reading books or exploring the outdoors instead. she jiggles her knees a lot and never stays still and she can’t understand the problem with that.

whenever karma asserts herself as a leader she gets called bossy by the boys she’s working with and that’s why she so often hides her ability as a leader. it’s better to work alone, anyway, no annoying boys who try to assert their dominance or doubt her abilities when she’s clearly the smartest one here.

karma beats the shit out of boys who try to kiss her without her consent and she’s told you should be flattered that he likes you and she has to pretend to be sorry for what she did but she’s not, not ever

karma’s mom telling her not to be out alone after dark and after karma finds out why, that’s how she becomes so good at fighting, because she’s scared and she has to learn how to defend herself. (she starts using her fighting techniques in other ways later)

karma is quick to anger and quick to violence, and people always complain about how emotional she is, how she needs to learn to be politer and milder and more patient. eventually karma stops getting angry and learns to hide it beneath a mask of cool aloofness because no she’s not angry, she just finds you fucking pathetic and she thinks it’s hilarious.

karma’s mom is worried because that girl’s so sure of herself and it’s off-putting, how is she ever going to get a boyfriend with that cocky attitude? (karma doesn’t give a shit though, why the fuck should she care about boys? she has okuda and she’s really cute, and she has nagisa who definitely doesn’t care if karma’s cocky, + plenty of other options)

speaking of that: karma meeting nagisa

nagisa explains that yeah, he doesn’t like being forced to look like a girl but there’s nothing wrong with it in and of itself, and karma feeling relieved because she feels like everyone would be so much more okay with her in general if she was a boy

karma being brilliant and violent and talented and used to boys getting jealous because a girl can’t be better than me, i have to be better, but nagisa doesn’t care — admires it, even — and karma appreciates that so much

bonus: nagisa thinks it’s great that karma likes superhero movies. she’s not a fake geek girl to him.

she comes to class 3-E and her faith in the one teacher she trusted has been shattered — she’s just an overreacting teenage girl all over again, not a serious student — and her eyes are hard and her smile is playful but not alluring, not seductive, because she’s tired of being a pleasure to be consumed and she hates korosensei the moment she sees him because another authority figure who sees himself as so much more powerful than she is

but — he’s not so bad after all. he takes karma seriously, he cares about her as a student, and she decides she’s willing to trust him, just a little bit.

nagisa is friends with her again, and that means something, although she’s not sure where their friendship is at

karma places 4th on the first midterms, and everyone gapes at her. no one cares that she’s a girl; they just all care that she’s staying. that she beat the kids in the main building, and she’s staying with 3-E.

okajima dares to crack a joke about karma’s appearance, and karma punches him in the face. no one really scolds her.

rio talks about how she just wanted to be like everyone else and that’s why she tried to seem less smart than she really was. karma relates to that a little more than she should. when rio scores first in english, karma hates herself for how badly she did, but she still stops by rio’s desk to give her a high-five.

when she fucks up in the first finals, she hates korosensei for a while. she thinks, another guy who’s smug about getting to prove me wrong, about putting me in my place. but she gets over it. she takes his advice, she springs back up again, and it’s so worth it to look at a wide-eyed gakushuu asano and his cronies and give them a glittering sharp fuck-you smirk because yeah, she’s definitely in her place now: first place.

karma wants to fight grip and the assassin’s scoff turns up the corners of his lips as he surveys her, and this time, it’s not just because she’s a teenager. she makes sure to hit him extra hard, just for that.

in the civil war arc, she’s the leader and everyone actually listens to her for once and she realises how important that is to her. and that’s why, in the end, she finally listens to nagisa.

when korosensei dies, the boys cry too. everyone’s emotional.

when korosensei dies, a little bit of her shatters into pieces, but the friends she’s made are there for her. friends she can trust, not boys who try to kiss her because “i’m a boy and you’re a girl so doesn’t that mean we’re supposed to be in love?” okuda. nagisa. rio. and so many more.

when karma grows up and becomes a bureaucrat, she isn’t taken as seriously at her workplace because she’s a woman. she proves them wrong so, so fast.

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i'm writing a zankyou no terror one shot based off a lisa x twelve vine i saw! anyone here a fan of znt??

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i just sang "nononononono" to the tune of various songs

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OMG NO PROBLEM IM GLAD

KARMAGISA FIC REC LIST

So, I’ve become even more of an avid fanfiction reader since I stopped updating regularly and decided to learn more things. Therefore, I have compiled a list of Karmagisa fics that I personally enjoy the most.

NOTE: Not all of these have a heavy focus on Karmagisa/some take longer to get to their relationship development. I’m still including them because I think they deserve to be included in this list, and I recommend them to any Karmagisa fan.

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