bendures

[bendures]

stop squirming! i'm losing my grip on you!

stop squirming! i'm losing my grip on you!

" WELL, hold on tighter, " comes the gritted-teeth response, obi-wan's voice taut with pained frustration. he's all too aware of anakin's tenuous hold ; the place where fingers wrap around his wrist in a bone-crushing grip throbs with each heartbeat spent hanging limply over the precipice.

he really hates anakin's crash landings.

" can't you pull me up? " he knows the likely answer, but asks anyway for a lack of better small talk. it's eerily silent but for the slow dying groans of the crushed metal hull around them. anakin, half in the cockpit, remains his only tether in this precarious balancing act as the ship shifts and settles beneath them.

below him, the yawning chasm he suspects is a rather deep ravine, a gash in the landscape — it had taken disconcertingly long for the echoing crash of the back half of the ship hitting the ground to reach his ringing ears. he can't make out much, so he doesn't look ; they're on the planet's night side, wrapped in an almost cloying darkness.

letting his head rest against the floor where he lies at a neat forty-five degree incline, obi-wan sighs. his skull pounds with what he suspects is shaping up to a nasty concussion, and where his fingertips press against anakin's forearm, he can sense the echo of his former padawan's bruises, superimposed over his own aching to create a strange cacophony. it's not at all conducive to productive thinking.

" you're going to have to swap hands, " he points out. " you can lock your mechanical one until we can move. "

[bendures]

you can never take obi-wan and his girl besties from me. his best friends as a kid were luminara, bant, and siri, and i will die on that hill. lets go girls (and obi-wan) !!!!!!

[bendures]

PROMPTS FROM "LONESOME DREAMS" BY LORD HURON *  assorted lines from the album, adjust as necessary

i'm gonna see where it leads.

would you follow me?

there's a world that was meant for our eyes to see.

i'm gonna whistle a tune.

please don't say i'm going alone.

i'm ready to die for you.

what good is living a life you've been given if all you do is stand in one place?

i'm still gonna try.

i guess i'm going alone.

it's time to run.

they'll string me up for all that i've done.

i'm going soon, gonna leave tonight.

i did it all for you.

what's a man to say?

they'll be looking for me.

i should be on my way.

i will not ask for your forgiveness.

lower your defense.

please don't tell them where i went.

i feel i should know this place.

what am i destined to be?

it's a mystery.

please don't leave me alone.

can it be as real as it seems?

i'm going away for a long time.

she's in my every thought.

she left no trace.

when i last saw her, she was dancing alone.

i'll search the world until there's no place left to go.

i remember the fateful day when i ran away.

you told me i couldn't return.

you made me swear i'd never forget.

i made a vow i'd see you again.

i've been running a long, long time.

i can't seem to leave it behind.

we're all gonna die.

i love this world and i don't wanna leave it.

they say that death is a deal that you cannot refuse.

i love you, and i don't want to lose you.

i want to be the man that lives forever.

my life's better when we're together.

why can't our story just go on forever?

they say life without end wouldn't have any meaning.

the point of my life is to be with you, baby.

where have you been, darling?

what have you done?

you were out finding trouble again.

there's blood on your hands.

come inside and lie down to sleep.

rest awhile. they're coming for you.

there's a price to be paid for the things that we do.

dream of when you were innocent.

this kind of trouble won't just go away.

lay down your head, and i'll sing you to sleep.

how long have i known you?

some kind of trouble is coming.

i will stand by you.

i've shared my life with you.

you say we're not like the others.

all things must end.

i know we can't stop what's coming.

will you fight with me?

don't turn away.

don't tell me that we're not the same.

our time will come, but not today.

i stand beside you. i'm with you 'til the end.

you've been done for a long, long time.

you've been on my mind.

you are the purest soul i've ever known in my life.

you know where you can find me again.

when you left, i was far too young.

i would wait for a thousand years.

you just let me know that you're coming home, and i'll wait for you.

years have gone by, but the pain is the same.

you are my protector and my best friend.

they say you're gone, and that i should move on.

how do they know? well, they don't.

i can't trust anyone or anything these days.

if you are who you say you are, then show your face.

your voice... it sounds familiar.

you are not what you seem.

i've decided if it kills me, i'll find out what you're about.

i'm not afraid to die.

i've kept close watch upon you and i don't like what i see.

[bendures]

forgot to do a tag drop ..

[bendures]

what if this is the best version

[bendures]

DESPITE his attempt to level her with a signature scathing master kenobi look, obi-wan deflates quickly in his seat, hauteur punctured by her bell-like laughter.

" you're laughing, " he bemoans, head in hands as he allows his sense of dramatics to properly express his utter chagrin. " i'm being summoned to parliament on a planet i've never so much as visited, and you're laughing. "

contrary to his better judgement, he's laughing too, the absurdity of the situation fully dawning on him as the initial shock fades.

he'd known, of course, that kenobi was a name of certain significance, but he'd neglected to actually learn anything about his birth planet's form of governance, much less about his own family. it must seem an odd notion to an outsider that he never had the urge ; as a child he'd daydreamed himself into half-forgotten memories, trying as most younglings do to eke out some mysterious wisdom from his past. as he'd grown, secure in his place within the order, the desire had faded from his mind, and with it the vague recollections of howling winds and a woman's deep, musical voice reciting nursery rhymes in a language he no longer recognizes.

and in his ignorance, he'd remained entirely unaware of his precarious political position until, at the age of thirty-six, it bit him thoroughly in the backside.

" i of all people, " he sighs, acutely aware of the irony. " the force moves in mysterious and unknowable ways. "

the brow he raises at her is as sardonic as ever, his tone bone-dry to contrast the theatrical plea he levels her with.

" i am on my knees. i am pleading. lady amidala, wise and knowing. can you free me from the curse of my bloodline? "

security had been the ones to inform padmé that master kenobi had arrived unexpectedly, and she'd been quick to tell them to send him up. it was not like him to arrive unannounced, and truthfully, she had not seen much of her old friend with the war dragging him into so many desolate corners of the galaxy. worry filled the pit of her stomach, knowing that it was unlikely he came solely for a chat or cup of tea among friends. he was often a man with a mission.

"oh?" legal matters. that was certainly the last thing that she expected to hear, and padmé assumed that if it was anything related to the war itself, any of the jedi would have already been well supported in all things legal.

her curiosity did not have to wait for long as obi-wan began to explain some of the details, and padmé did not bother to modulate her reaction - brows lifting with surprise, brown eyes widening a bit. the words did not reveal a full story, but they share just enough information.

despite herself, a small laugh bursted past padmé's lips.

"i'm sorry," she apologized immediately and meant it, but it only half stifles another giggle. "obi-wan, are you telling me that you, of all people, have found out that your family's lineage dictates you to be a politician?"

[bendures]

i can tell you're trying your hardest.

i can tell you're trying your hardest.

HER soft words break the heavy lull in their conversation, surprising him ; lifted from his ruminating thoughts, obi-wan blinks at her, startled not only by her gentleness but by her reassurance.

" your faith in me may be unfounded, " he answers quietly, resting his elbows on his knees as if to retreat from where she sits next to him. glancing sideways, he barks a mild, humorless laugh.

" and, need i remind you — there is no try. " his impression of the ancient master, complete with a cautionary wagging finger, banishes the somber mood for a brief moment only. the heavy darkness wraps back around them like a funeral shroud as his hand falls, a genuine weariness lining worry-worn features.

" i'm worried for him, padmé. i can't seem to— get through to him. he only shuts me out. i don't want to put you in this position, but... will you talk with him? he might listen to you. "

[bendures]

🐝  *  ―  𝑨𝑽𝑨𝑻𝑨𝑹: 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑳𝑨𝑺𝑻 𝑨𝑰𝑹𝑩𝑬𝑵𝑫𝑬𝑹 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  i'm angry at myself!  ❜ ❛  it's easy to do nothing, it's hard to forgive.  ❜ ❛  you miscalculated. i love them more than i fear you.  ❜ ❛  there is nothing wrong with letting the people who love you help you.  ❜ ❛  but now you're not letting yourself feel anything. i know sometimes it hurts more to hope and it hurts more to care. but you have to promise me that you won't stop caring.  ❜ ❛  my own mother thought i was a monster ... she was right of course, but it still hurt.  ❜ ❛  in the darkness, hope is something you give yourself.  ❜ ❛  never forget who you are, for surely the world won't.  ❜ ❛  why am i so bad at being good?  ❜ ❛  it is important to draw wisdom from different places. if you take it from only one place, it becomes rigid and stale.  ❜ ❛  sometimes the best way to solve your own problems is to help someone else.  ❜ ❛  and now you have come to the crossroads of destiny. it's time for you to choose.  ❜ ❛  you may not always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you keep moving, you will come to a better place.  ❜ ❛  protection and power are overrated. i think you are very wise to choose happiness and love.  ❜ ❛  get over here, [ name ]. being part of the group also means being part of group hugs.  ❜ ❛  stop! stop it right now! what's wrong with you? we don't have time for fun and games with the war going on.  ❜ ❛  i'm too young to die!  ❜ ❛  in my country, we exchange a pleasant 'hello' before asking questions.  ❜ ❛  i didn't know what or when, but i knew i'd know it when i knew it!  ❜ ❛  the past can be a great teacher.  ❜ ❛  when we hit our lowest point, we are open to the greatest change.  ❜ ❛  there really is no fathoming the depths of my hatred for this place.  ❜ ❛  failure is only the opportunity to try again, only more wisely this time.  ❜ ❛  i wanted to take out all of my anger on them. but i couldn't. i don't know if it's because i'm too weak ... or if it's because i'm strong enough not to.  ❜ ❛  look [ name ], you're going to fail a lot before things work out. even though you will fail over and over again, you have to try every time. you can't quit because you're afraid you might fail.  ❜ ❛  while it is always best to believe in oneself, a little help from others can be a great blessing.  ❜ ❛  you must never give in to despair. allow yourself to slip down that road, and you surrender to your lowest instincts.  ❜ ❛  if we knew each other back then, do you think we could have been friends too?  ❜ ❛  you know, [ name ], i don't care what anyone else says about you. you're pretty smart.  ❜ ❛  if i try, i fail. if i don't try, i'm never going to get it.  ❜ ❛  let your anger out, and then let it go. forgive him.  ❜ ❛  pride is not the opposite of shame, but rather its source. true humility is the only antidote to shame.  ❜ ❛  life happens wherever you are, whether you make it or not.  ❜ ❛  the greatest illusion of this world is the illusion of separation. things you think are separate and different are actually one and the same.  ❜ ❛  you stand alone. that has always been your greatest weakness.  ❜ ❛  bad skin? normal teenagers worry about bad skin, i don't have that luxury.  ❜ ❛  in my dream, we were right in the middle of the invasion, and you stopped to use the bathroom. we die because of your tiny bladder.  ❜ ❛  you need to find someone who waits and listens before striking.  ❜ ❛  everyone has to be treated like they're worth giving a chance.  ❜ ❛  i don't need luck, though. i don't want it. i've always had to struggle and fight, and that's made me strong. it's made me who i am.  ❜

[bendures]

🐝  *  ―  𝑵𝑶𝑵-𝑽𝑬𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑳 𝑨𝑵𝑮𝑺𝑻 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺. (  some triggering content ahead. add " + " to reverse the action.  )

[ wipe ] sender wipes away receiver's tears [ hurt ] sender hurts receiver with words [ lonely ] sender finds receiver alone in a dark room [ wounded ] sender patches up receiver's wounds [ crying ] sender finds receiver crying [ help ] sender runs to receiver when they scream for help [ nightmare ] sender wakes receiver up from a nightmare [ dying breath ] sender talks to receiver before dying [ hold on ] sender pulls receiver into their arms [ anger ] sender takes their anger out on receiver [ argue ] sender gets into a heated argument with receiver [ scared ] sender scares receiver [ sick ] sender cares for receiver while they are sick [ palm ] sender places a hand on receiver to stop them from doing something [ fight ] sender gets into a physical fight with receiver [ comfort ] sender tries to comfort receiver [ blood ] sender notices that receiver is bleeding [ collapse ] sender collapses into receiver's arms [ pressure ] sender puts pressure on receiver's wound [ slap ] sender slaps receiver in the face [ panic ] sender helps receiver through a panic attack [ lie ] sender catches receiver in a lie [ sobs ] sender sobs uncontrollably while receiver holds them [ hiding ] sender finds out that receiver has hidden an injury from them [ death ] sender just died, receiver finds out [ chin up ] sender lifts receiver's chin to stop them from hiding their tears [ fears ] sender talks to receiver about their fears [ scream ] sender screams at receiver [ coping ] sender teaches receiver some coping mechanisms [ loss ] sender is there for receiver after they've lost someone important to them [ needs ] sender asks receiver what they need [ bullet ] sender takes a bullet for receiver [ bruises ] sender finds bruises of unknown origin on receiver [ rainfall ] sender finds receiver out alone in the rain [ hospital ] sender wakes up in a hospital bed and finds receiver sitting by their bedside [ intrude ] sender walks in on receiver treating their wounds [ calming ] sender tries to calm down receiver [ inspection ] sender holds receiver's face while inspecting an injury they got [ rescue ] sender carries receiver to safety [ clean ] sender cleans blood off of receiver's body

[bendures]

@libertydestined — plotted starter.

" PADMÉ, " he pleads, not even attempting to keep the note of desperation from his voice. it's not often master kenobi has time to visit old friends ( nevermind that he avoids the senate like the plague, these days ) but it's clear from the way he sweeps past her fussy protocol droid's offer of refreshment that he's here on business.

" i need your help, " he clarifies once he's stood somewhat awkwardly before her, his ruffled state only emphasized by the frown firmly placed upon his brow. " with— legal matters, so to speak. "

looking chagrined, obi-wan twists his hands, finally capitulating to the allure of the overly-plush chairs reserved for guests. rather than his usual languid posture, he remains rigidly at the edge of the cushion.

from the deep folds of his cloak, he brings forth a datapad, sliding it somewhat conspiratorially across her desk.

" i've been summoned to the galaecian council as a sitting member, " he explains with a distinct overtone of despair. " i'd look into it myself, but anakin and i are shipping out within the tenday— how do i diplomatically tell them that i don't have time for this, i'm not even a blasted politician, i'd like to rescind my birthright, and would they consider sending someone else, thank you very much? "

[bendures]

how could you keep this from me?

how could you keep this from me?

WITH a mighty effort, he keeps from pinching the bridge of his nose at anakin's indignant half-shout ; instead he raises an unimpressed brow before glancing back down to the very formal-looking missive glaring at him from his datapad.

" i assure you, it wasn't intentional, " he sighs, finally putting the damn thing down and sinking back into his seat. trust him to get their brief leave interrupted by something as ludicrous as—

" don't you think i would've told you, if i knew? or do you think i lie to you for fun? " it comes out more biting than he meant it to, and this time he does give in, rubbing fiercely at his temple. " i didn't know, anakin. i knew my family name had some importance, but i never expected— "

he glares at the bright screen, the bright-red seal of the galaecian high council taunting him from its place at the left-hand corner of the document. a summons to the biannual tri-planetary cabinet gathering, my rusty speeder. being on one council is enough of a headache already.

not for the first time, he mentally shakes a fist at qui-gon jinn. surely, he must have known. then again, that was hardly fair, was it? running background checks on one's padawan wasn't exactly commonplace, much less one's padawan's specific legal standing within his home planet's governing body.

" they didn't bother to inform me of my father's death. they can hardly expect much from me, now can they? "

[bendures]

who else knows you're still alive?

who else knows you're still alive?

" EVIDENTLY, most of the empire, " ben answers grimly, dropping onto a crate with a wince he doesn't bother to conceal. around them, the rebellion bustles like an anthill as yavin iv is emptied out — he'd quietly excused himself from the tactical table, claiming a need for meditation. not his most subtle lie, but nobody had questioned it, allowing him to slip through the harried crowds until he found who he was looking for.

the shock of sensing her lingers ; a struck chord deep beneath his sternum, the ache all too familiar. regret. i have failed you.

" i should not be here, " he sighs at length. " i'm putting you all at risk. he'll be hunting me, now. "

ben looks up from his hands, old and worn and twisted in his lap with the worry he wraps around himself as a heavy cloak. despite its weight, he manages to smile for her, blue eyes glinting beneath snowy brows.

" enough about me. i'm alive, and so are you — and that is what matters. " there's a lifelong sorrow in his gaze, but also warmth, crow's feet deepening as he takes in the sight of her.

" it's good to see you, padawan. "

[bendures]

PROMPTS FOR CARRYING/BEING CARRIED *  assorted dialogue, adjust as necessary

all right! up you get!

i'm going to carry you, of course.

stop squirming! i'm losing my grip on you!

you're safe in my arms.

can you walk on it?

maybe i need to carry you there.

i don't want to be carried.

no! i can walk just fine by myself!

you're a lot lighter than i expected.

falling asleep in my arms, are we?

how long was i out?

have you been carrying me this whole time?

i don't remember being picked up.

this was your master plan all along, wasn't it.

have i been sleeping this whole time?

no! put me down!

can you at least be a bit more gentle when you lift me?

i could get used to this.

if you need a break, you can set me down.

you pretended to twist your ankle just so i would carry you.

i didn't ask you to carry me.

you're quite handsome at this angle.

if i'm not careful, you'll ask to be carried everywhere.

are you comfortable like this? i can switch arms.

could you put me down?

ow! that hurts when you move like that!

you can put me down right here.

just lay me down over there.

please don't tell anybody you did this.

if they find out i let someone carry me, i'm dead.

well, this is a bit awkward.

you're very warm, you know.

you smell nice.

you can go to sleep if you'd like. it's okay.

let me get you somewhere safe.

oh no. i'm not climbing on your back.

just stay quiet. i've got you.

you look rather beautiful all curled up in my arms.

i don't think i can walk that far.

we will never speak of this arrangement again.

just tell them i hurt my leg.

stop smiling down at me!

apparently my shoulder makes for a good pillow.

would you do me a favor and pick me up?

i'm not sure i can walk all the way.

i appreciate you helping me out in this way.

stop smirking at me. i see you.

no, i don't like this! i'm humiliated!

i won't let anything happen to you here.

do you do this often? twist your ankle just to make someone else carry you?

how about a piggyback ride?

[bendures]

"I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD" PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue, adjust as necessary

who else knows you're still alive?

don't tell me i'm the only one that knows.

i never should have believed their lies.

how could you keep this from me?

they lied to you. they knew it would break you if i died.

i staged it all.

there's no way this is happening.

i'm never letting you go.

i promised you i'd never leave you.

but i saw you die! this is impossible!

no. no. this isn't happening. this can't be real.

i watched it. i watched you die and now you're standing here.

how is this even possible?

they might have exaggerated just a bit.

we needed to make it look like i was dead.

you just let me spend all this time thinking you were dead?

did you tell anyone else?

this was your master plan? fake your death, see what happens?

i don't know whether to be pissed or be thrilled to see you again.

i've just seen a ghost.

you saw what they wanted you to see.

you're not real. i must be dreaming.

did you look for me?

funny. i don't remember falling asleep.

you just let us all believe you were dead?

it was the only way to do this. i'm sorry.

when were you going to tell me?

i watched the life leave your eyes...

you kept this from me.

oh my god... no. no no no. this can't be happening.

how did you... how did you even do this?

someone pinch me.

you look pretty good for someone that's supposed to be dead.

i watched you die in my arms.

they told me you died.

i promised you i'd come back.

they lied to me? all this time?

trust me, i wanted to tell you. i really did.

i think i need to sit down.

i'm gonna need some time to process this.

are you real? can i touch you?

what was all this about you dying?

you've kept the truth from me all this time.

had you just told me, i could have helped you.

i begged them to let me tell you, but they said it would ruin our plans.

the blood was fake. i'm all right.

yes, i'm alive! would you please come over here and give me a hug?

i didn't think i'd survive it, either.

i knew you'd come back for me.

we had to make it believable from the start.

there was no other way.

i should have told you.

i tried to get a message out to you.

they said you'd moved on, so i figured i should, too.

i wish i had all the answers for you.

i know you expect me to be okay with this, but things have changed since you died.

[name]... i thought you were dead.

will you ever find it in your heart to forgive me?

i'll never leave you again.

i swear on my life, this wasn't supposed to happen this way.

i take it you got my message.

everything got out of hand.

they didn't tell you?

glad you could make it.

i'm sorry i didn't reach out to you sooner.

all of a sudden, you come back into my life.

i'm back and better than ever.

i don't want to hear your excuses.

[bendures]

PROMPTS FOR THE 5 LOVE LANGUAGES *  adjust as necessary, send 'reverse' for the reversal of action prompts

WORDS OF AFFIRMATION

i'm very grateful for you.

you're very important to me.

you make me want to be a better person.

you're doing a good job, you know.

i can tell you're trying your hardest.

you constantly impress me.

what's going on? tell me everything.

i'm here to listen to you.

i love you so much.

you know you matter to me, right?

i don't know what i'd do without you.

you were right about everything.

if it matters to you, it matters to me.

i believe in you.

PHYSICAL TOUCH

[ caress ] sender soothes a nervous receiver by stroking their hands up and down receiver's arms

[ absentminded ] sender casually takes receiver's hand in public, laces their fingers, and doesn't let go

[ shoulder ] sender listens to receiver speak and sets a hand on their shoulder while doing so, offering comfort

[ behind ] sender comes up to receiver from behind and wraps their arms around them, hugging them close

[ smack ] sender gives receiver's butt an affectionate smack as they walk past them

[ dinner ] at dinner, sender reaches across the table and takes receiver's hand

[ check ] sender reaches out to touch receiver, expressing concern for them

[ cuddle ] sender and receiver snuggle

RECEIVING GIFTS

i saw this yesterday, and i had to get it for you.

this reminded me of you.

you said you didn't have one... so i figured i'd get it for you.

i hope you like it. i picked it out just for you.

i loved making this for you.

i know you had a rough week, so i hope this makes you feel better.

it's all for you!

[ birthday ] sender brings receiver a present on their birthday

[ just because ] sender surprises receiver with a gift

[ grateful ] sender gets a present from receiver and expresses their utmost gratitude

[ flowers ] sender brings receiver a bouquet of their favorite flowers

[ candy ] sender gifts receiver with their favorite candy

QUALITY TIME

i'm not going anywhere. i want to stay here with you.

why don't we spend some time together?

i'd rather be alone with you.

let's plan a vacation.

feel like taking a walk? the weather's nice.

i just want to be with you.

this weekend is all about us.

can we plan for some alone time?

[ walk ] sender and receiver go for a comfortable evening stroll

[ bake ] sender and receiver bake something together

[ decorate ] sender and receiver attend a painting class together

[ relax ] sender and receiver relax on the beach

[ craft ] sender helps receiver with a project they've been working on

ACTS OF SERVICE

let me get that for you.

i'll take care of it! i've got it!

you go and sit down. i've got this covered.

i've planned our entire trip. you don't have to lift a finger.

everything's all taken care of!

sit back down! i'll clean up!

i know it was stressing you out. that's why i took care of it.

i'll help you with that.

i watered your plants.

[ breakfast ] sender brings receiver breakfast in bed

[ blanket ] sender notices receiver is cold, so they bring them a blanket and drape it over their shoulders

[ jacket ] sender offers receiver their coat

[ soup ] knowing receiver is sick, sender brings them a bowl of hot soup

[ coffee ] sender brings receiver their favorite coffee order

[bendures]

" hopeless situations exist. hope exists there, also. "

DOSSIER. — LAWS.

mutuals-only obi-wan kenobi — a continuous wip by skipper | blended canon & legends, heavily headcanon-influenced. mun is 23 — they/them & gmt+1.

unraveling themes of ; unbreakable will, unshakeable faith, mountainous grief, responsibility, fate and lack thereof, the future living within a person, the courage to live, love as an open hand, a scholar turned soldier, mastery of the self, and what it truly means to let go.