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There comes a time when you come to the realization that you are truly alone. That the only person you can truly rely on is yourself. No one is going to take care of me but me. And man is that so heartbreaking but also so freeing.

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Official. Aaron making my space home always. ❤️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CTI9_Ssl32w/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Another weekend filled with all the miles. 🚲 🍕 ❤️ ☀ https://www.instagram.com/p/CQtE1_PJKmN/?utm_medium=tumblr

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So I took a test that can change my entire life in every aspect. I'm so scared and anxious and it just helps to get it out into the void. Please send all the positive energy /vibes. Results come 4/2.

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oh, i am finally old enough to know why my parents took so long to grab their coats. why they would ask us to get ready to go only to sit down for another round of coffee. what would i tell myself, at 10 years old? it’s okay. sit down with them too. take in the extra hour with your friend and her family. when you get home, write down every moment in your diary. one day you will be older and you will be waving goodbye to your best friend, and you will turn the key to start your beat up little car engine, and you will look back over your shoulder. her hair will be blowing in the wind and she will be beautiful and you will be, for a moment, struck by all of it. what you will feel is so wide and nameless that it will engulf you. and you will think of being 14 and kicking her under the table in math every time you wanted to whisper something behind the teacher’s back. you will think about how long the days felt, and how you could hold her hand whenever you wished, but you didn’t. and you will think about all of the people you could have lingered with. and you will wish, more than you have ever felt a wish, that the universe just gave you that - more time to linger. more time to say - i love you. i know i need to leave, but i don’t want to leave you. and when i go, i am leaving a piece of my heart that lingers too. 

one more round of coffee. the days are so short, and you are so lovely.

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Happy birthday 🎂 Zorro! 10 years young! https://www.instagram.com/p/CF5ndBgJdDx/?igshid=1dzs223a5nrca

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Just a girl and her best friends. https://www.instagram.com/p/CDd-72mpCMJ/?igshid=1jrof8dwgjyws

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Degausser | Brand New

(My edit)

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Happy 7th birthday 🎂!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/B8y64l8J4vw/?igshid=pwjbbuew3n1x

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Back for my second year repping @nuunhydration! #teamnuun #nuunambassador2020 #nuunlife #nuunlove https://www.instagram.com/p/B7BpSpxJ_Tz856drdKdYfOhXYlNiDWQCy9enS40/?igshid=bxghn9tr4n58

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5 miles this morning to start the new year off. Just a girl and her two best friends. https://www.instagram.com/p/B6zX3SNpOYfoOkJbMvtemondhqpCl3exk0ZD3Q0/?igshid=1n8ay5z797vg8

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Half marathon number 6! Excited to try out a new race! #halfmarathontraining #halfmarathon https://www.instagram.com/p/B6tcWx1Jn25G_QpnNOjLint0_BjWWsXFQN_LhM0/?igshid=7dodyr5kpm8u

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All signed up for half marathon number 5!!! Now to start training! https://www.instagram.com/p/B3DqaVtJ6a1DHT72TabD9Q0uUhhwsU2BgYHR5Y0/?igshid=1hw2wgmysxaks

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So....

So the big thing I did about 6 weeks ago didn't turn out so great. And gah I just feel like 2019 has chewed me up and spit me out. In the grand scheme of things it's not a big deal it just has me feeling all sorts of inadequate and shitty.

How do ya'll get passed being a failure? Like how do I get up and brush myself off?

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Only three weeks til the big day! Feeling somewhat better. Now to really buckle down and get in every last bit of studying. 🤞 #ibhre #cardiacdevicespecialist https://www.instagram.com/p/B0L8Z09JvQQG8V9Tdp63Qba1vaCJO3S23i3PFY0/?igshid=16bow87acd6dg

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Look at my dudes. Sunday morning walks with my pack. 🐶 🐶 🐶 🐺 ❤️ https://www.instagram.com/p/BzEipHqJu-e853qd74nLNrt6Oag7FDeVQRisi40/?igshid=1c7402nup6jqv