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I’ve moved accounts to @absolute-cringe Follow me there ig

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i love when girls do that little dance when they get food <3

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[image description: there is a picture of a beach at sunset with a large piece of driftwood in the foreground and rocks out in the ocean. on top of the picture it says “people who use ey/em pronouns are amazing!” in a turquoise font. end of id.]

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a drawing I ended up turning into a gif 💖

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Nonbinary people with top dysphoria who don’t want flat chests are valid, and aren’t any less nonbinary just because it’s pushed as “unconventional”

Nonbinary people with bottom dysphoria and don’t want to have a penis are valid, and their experiences need to be acknowledged just as much as bottom dysphoria wanting a penis.

Dysphoria is a complicated thing. Not all dysphoria is “nonbinary person who was afab and wants to present masc”. Pretending otherwise just hurts the nonbinary community and cuts out a hugely diverse collection of experiences.

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The neurodivergent urge to hyperfixate so much on something that when you look up content for it you start shaking like a small wet dog.

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Since joining Tumblr, I’ve met a lot of young queer people. Look, I’m a bisexual man in a gay relationship, and I’m approaching 30. I was still a kid when Matthew Shepard’s story was being covered on the news. I remember thinking, “I better keep my mouth shut about these feelings I’m having.”

And then I met Dominic when I was 12, and people could see how in love we were. And we got the shit beat out of us. The year I met him, some kids in the grade above me held me down against the bleachers in our gym and stomped on my hand until my fingers broke. Instead of sending me to the nurse, the teacher sent me to the assistant principal to explain the situation. She asked why the kids had beat me up. I said, “They were calling me gay.”

Her response was, “Well, are you?”

My, “I don’t know,” earned a call to my parents, and I was outed. Efforts were made to keep me from seeing Dom. Throughout high school, Dom’s stepmother intensified these efforts. He slept in the basement of the house. Although he was an incredibly talented student, he was prohibited from participating in any extracurriculars. He suffered a lot of physical abuse during those years.

The day he turned 18, he packed up everything he had and walked to my house, and we’ve lived together ever since. Things are better, but they’re not perfect. I’ve had trucks pull up next to me at stoplights and, seeing the pride sticker on my car, through old drinks and garbage into my window. I no longer speak to my dad’s side of the family. I haven’t been to see them for Christmas or Thanksgiving in years. One of my uncles had cornered me at Thanksgiving when I was 17 and said, “I’m not going to judge you, but I’d be happy to break your neck so God can do the judging a little sooner.”

I joined a support group for trans and intersex people. When I joined, 40 people attended regularly. Within the year, the group was half the size it had been. Some couldn’t make it anymore, because they were staying at the shelter, where their stay hinged on them agreeing to instead to attend homophobic sermons. Some were put in correctional therapy. Five of them died. Three of those, I didn’t know, but I knew Alex, the 19 year old who was fag-dragged in Kentucky and died a day later in the hospital, and I knew Stephanie, who went home to Alabama to care for her mom in hospice and was beaten to death with a baseball bat by her mom’s boyfriend.

Tumblr is not reality. The dynamic here does not reflect the dynamic out there. Here’s the part where I finally make a point, and it might be extremely unpopular - but guys, value your allies. Value each other. We are met with enough hate in our daily lives to enter an online safe-space and meet more hate from our own, over petty things. Don’t go after one another over every little thing you find problematic.

Learn to see nuance. Maybe the word “queer” bothers you, and you see a gay man using it as an umbrella term. Maybe someone called a trans man a trans woman because they’re confused about terminology, but the post where they did it was voicing support for the trans community. Maybe someone is just asking a question, wanting to learn more. Stop. Attacking. These. People.

Allies are being driven away. Members of our own community are being ostracized. Others are feeling nervous and estranged, and it’s largely because of places like Tumblr, where the social justice movement is quickly becoming violent and radical. I am begging you, stop nitpicking “problematic” things and start directing your efforts to create real change. When it comes to comes to your allies, forget the “social justice warrior” mentality and put down your torch. Educate calmly. Be respectful. Be understanding. Be forgiving. And I’m certainly not saying that your anger doesn’t have a good place - when you are met with bigots on the street, congress members who want to pass hateful laws, violent protesters, abusive parents, prejudiced teachers, that is when you need to be a warrior. That’s when it counts. In the real world. When you have the opportunity to protect people from real harm. Attacking your would-be allies via anonymous asks is just going to lose us ground in the long run. And we don’t have time for that, not when trans women of color are being murdered every day, not when states are still fighting against marriage equality, not when there are politicians in office who believe that trans people are possessed by demons, not when we’ve just lost 50 brothers and sisters to one gunman, not when the media won’t even admit that the attack was homophobic.

Please step back. Look at the big picture. Look at where we are, globally. Don’t just log on to your safe space and attack your allies over small missteps. That’s like washing the dishes in a house that’s on fire, kids. Let’s fight on the battlefield, and when we come home to each other, let’s just focus on bandaging up our wounds so we can go out and win the war.

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My mom passed away Friday morning and my family is too stubborn and proud to ask for help, because “we should have this under control like mom would and she would never ask strangers for money” but we’re all broke. This was so sudden, we didn’t have time to prepare. My older sister is discussing selling her house to help so where we’re at. The funeral home is gonna try to help us with fema aid too.

So, I don’t wanna ask for much because we might be okay, but at this point no one’s thinking about groceries or necessities.

I’m just gonna link my ko-fi because I’m just too tired to make any other links. I’m the one in charge of putting together pictures, flowers, canceling her bills, and more.

https://ko-fi.com/A257J54

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ed culture is saying "fuck my ed" then doing something disordered

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Where’s my future girlfriend? That’s what I’d like to know

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I just want to say that I’m so sorry for responding to an argument on this thread /gen

Guess what?

If your concept of "woman" is reduced to "fertile uterus", and you use that supposed science to go on abusing people for existing... you aren't a feminist.

You are a fanatic I want absolutely nothing to do with.

So please feel free to never interact with me again.

Sidenote:

If I see one of you fanatics weaponizing Child Sexual Abuse to justify your hatred, I shall materialize by your side with a spiky bat and proceed to beat you to a pulp if it is the last thing I do in my whole existence.

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Didn’t want to have to turn this into an argument but here we go. Time to accidentally trauma dump out of anger 🥳 /hj

I never claimed that radfem and CSA survivor are mutually exclusive. Just wanted to make that really clear. However, I have seen the absolute worst abuse apologist and speaking over survivor behaviour coming from radical feminists. I will use my mum as an example here. She’s very openly gender critical and will argue with anyone about it. However, the protect young girls part of feminism was never actually put in place when I was a kid. I was never taught body safety beyond the super outdated stranger danger stuff.

I ended up getting sexually abused by multiple preteen boys between the ages of 7-10. There were 2 unrelated incidents of sexual assault plus repeated abuse by a boy I considered my best friend. My mum enabled it for the whole time and now thinks I’m making it up. She almost became a victim of sexual abuse as a teenager and she uses that as her reasoning behind recognising trans women as men. Like what?? So yeah she is speaking over survivors massively here. Also when I recently got assaulted by a girl and asked her how I can report it safely she got angry at me and turned it into an argument about trans issues. The girl who assaulted me is a radfem herself and is a massive hypocrite when it comes to not sexualising women bodies.

This is leaning more into anti sex work feminist issues now but it’s still a radfem problem and it’s actually got sources unlike my anecdotal ranting. I have seen some ex radfems say that SWERFs tried to convince them they had Stockholm Syndrome because they disagreed with them. I can’t give links because I’m on mobile and it’ll just delete all this but look up ‘Trauma as terror, the cult of radical feminism’ and it‘ll come up. The example is super clear speaking over/borderline gaslighting survivors. I reblogged a big post of links of similar things happening in the GC community a while back so if I find that I’ll reblog it again so you can read those too.

‘blatently clear about how juvenile you are’. Well yeah. I’m 14. I’m not going to be the most reliable source for this. I’m not great at getting my points across thoroughly and explaining clearly. And I might come out with extremely stupid things trying to argue my point. I‘m very biased towards the trans rights activist side of this like you are going to be biased towards the gender critical side of this. Maybe my arguments are going to be crap but that doesn‘t mean I’m being juvenile.

Hopefully we can continue this debate without being hostile with each other.

Guess what?

If your concept of "woman" is reduced to "fertile uterus", and you use that supposed science to go on abusing people for existing... you aren't a feminist.

You are a fanatic I want absolutely nothing to do with.

So please feel free to never interact with me again.

Sidenote:

If I see one of you fanatics weaponizing Child Sexual Abuse to justify your hatred, I shall materialize by your side with a spiky bat and proceed to beat you to a pulp if it is the last thing I do in my whole existence.

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Reblogged because of the last part. Fed up of TERFs speaking over survivors to justify transphobia.

Guess what?

If your concept of "woman" is reduced to "fertile uterus", and you use that supposed science to go on abusing people for existing... you aren't a feminist.

You are a fanatic I want absolutely nothing to do with.

So please feel free to never interact with me again.

Sidenote:

If I see one of you fanatics weaponizing Child Sexual Abuse to justify your hatred, I shall materialize by your side with a spiky bat and proceed to beat you to a pulp if it is the last thing I do in my whole existence.

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I know people who say they can just stop thinking... Like what's that like how do you do that? My brain is always going sometimes multiple things at once. To just turn that off is impossible I've tried. There's like endless amount of thoughts in here it's never quiet

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That flag is so pretty /gen

🌻gendovember- day 21!🌻

today’s theme- autumn mornings!

🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻

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a gendie that’s like sunflowers on an autumn morning. it’s cool out, the sun is just rising and the sky is still soft with the pale pink aurora of dawn. it’s a beautiful autumn morning, and the sunflowers are still glistening in morning dew. it’s infused with the excitement and euphoria of autumn and the golden beauty of sunflowers and the sweet, soft, excited innocence of an autumn morning

[Image ID: A flag with nine equally-sized horizontal stripes. From top to bottom, the colors are deep magenta, red-pink, orange, golden, light lime yellow, lime green, mint green, sky blue, and royal blue. There is a golden and orange icon of a sunflower in the center of the flag. End ID.]

for the gendovember event by @flurrigender​ :3

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I made a difference in the world!