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i finished stylin the new wig i got for maya so i took some pics

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Things to never make fun of:

Mental illnesses

Depression

Suicide

Rape

Self harm

Eating disorders

Bullying

All of these real issues that kill people are not to be made fun of.

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PSA: Don’t ever accept a permanent job that asks you to be an independent contractor. “independent contractors” are only supposed to be used to complete 1 specific job and then the job ends. Like being hired to create an advertisement. but most awful cheap bosses try to make their employees become independent contractors so they can work them as hard as they can and then pay them less than minimum wage, among other dehumanizing things. being an independent contractor means: -you can be legally discriminated against -if you get hurt on the job, that’s no fault of theirs, workman comp isn’t their style -as I said before, you can (and most likely will) get paid under minimum wage -they can fire you whenever and you don’t get to seek unemployment from them under any circumstance bc they don’t pay that, you do -they aren’t required to provide you any of your equipment that you will need for your job -they require you to basically run a portion of their business -they aren’t required to make the workplace safe and so much more what an independent contractor ALSO means: -sometimes making your own hours (I’m not even so sure about this one since my current boss bitches at me daily for not being there open to closing) -completing the job the way you want -that’s it. that’s literally it. you wanna ring someone up at the cash register while doing a handstand? there u go.

so many gross cheap bosses use this to exploit the shit out of their employees without them getting in any sort of trouble. do not get exploited. do not let yourself fall into a situation like this. “independent contractors” are not meant to be used like this. do not let this happen to you. this is especially common in the grooming industry since groomers work on commission, are constantly injured, never in a “safe” workplace, and the tools required for the job are incredibly expensive. be safe

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Pre-T, I could mimic my cats’ meows perfectly.

Post-T, my voice dropped approximately a fuck-ton (metric) and I can no longer do that. Lil'y has responded by making her own meows as gravely as possible, so I can meow at her again.

So if there are any other guys or non-binaries out there who are worried that their pets won’t recognize them after they start hormone-therapy or something similar, don’t worry. Your pets will love you. They already know who you are.

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And if a double-decker bus Crashes in to us To die by your side Is such a heavenly way to die And if a ten ton truck Kills the both of us To die by your side Well the pleasure, the privilege is mine

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When I say “boys are dumb” what I really mean is “boys have been raised in a patriarchal society that forces them into an incorrect and problematic view of masculinity that not only forces them to strip away valuable virtues from themselves, like patience and gentleness, but also forces them them to view and treat women in unhealthy ways that devalues women as people and makes them into objects purely for a man’s benefit”

but it’s a lot faster to say “boys are dumb”

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concept: you taking me to an aquarium and watching lovingly as i completely ignore you to look at the jellyfish

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trans women who can not have bottom surgery due to complications are still women. trans women who can not afford or attain bottom surgery are still women. trans women who don’t want bottom surgery are still women.

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Laura Jane Grace from last spring for Dazed. 

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me on national coming out day: coming out of my CAGE AND IVE BEEN DOING JUST FINE 

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The Biosocial Theory

The Development of Borderline Personality Disorder

The disorder is believed to derive from the individual’s biologically sensitive nature, an invalidating environment, and the relationship between the two during development. 

Emotional Vulnerability + Inability to Modulate Emotions = Dysregulation

Being Emotionally Vulnerable means:

An individual has a high sensitivity to emotional stimuli

They have an intense reaction to said stimuli

It takes the individual a while to calm down once stimulated

Emotional Modulation is the ability to:

Stop ineffective behavior related to one’s emotions

Act in a way that is not mood-dependent when needed

Self-soothe physical reactions stemming from one’s emotional state

Refocus attention and concentrate despite emotion

Individuals with Borderline Personality Disorder’s emotional response system reacts too strongly. The individual with BPD lacks the skill to modulate emotions and to avoid acting on the action urges that come along with them. The biological sensitivity is believed to be caused by dysfunction in the human emotion regulation system. This regulation system is so complex, however, that it’s unlikely we’ll ever find a single biological cause behind the development of BPD.

Emotion Dysregulation + Invalidating Environment = BPD

An invalidating environment is one that communicates:

An individual’s emotional response doesn’t make sense

Their emotional response is not understood

Their emotional response is wrong

Their emotional response is inappropriate

Their emotional response is rejected

Etc

An invalidating environment can result in an individual learning not to trust themselves. This may lead to identity confusion and self-invalidation. Individuals with Borderline Personality Disorder learn to scan their surroundings in order to learn how they “should” feel and behave, in order for others to understand and accept them. This is dangerous, however, because the environment can’t always be relied upon. This is why learning to self-validate is so important.

More information:

Invalidating environments aren’t always intentionally invalidating. Many people are simply unaware that the individual is experiencing their emotions so strongly. They may also lack the ability to help them cope.

An environment in which you’re bullied is also considered invalidating.

You do not have to have been traumatized to develop BPD.

Understanding the cause for BPD is not equal to finding fault.

Contrary to popular belief, you can recover from BPD and no longer meet the diagnostic criteria after treatment. 

Recovery is reached through learning to properly modulate emotions with the use of coping skills and self-validation.

The most effective treatment for BPD is Dialectical Behavior Therapy.

Sources: 

Julia’s personal DBT notes 

A Biosocial Developmental Model…

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New York City…

The Chrysler Building.

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an aspect about a borderline’s lack Emotional Object Permanence that isn’t talked about is how easy it is sometimes for borderlines to forgive others – anger and upset feelings easily dissipate just as fast as they came and I feel like this leaves a large spot of vulnerability for others to take advantage of;

it makes it easier to be abused because even if our feelings are valid, we forget them soon after and if someone wrongs us, they might get away with things more often than not without dealing with any real repercussions

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you all have permission to come to my funeral and give wildly conflicting accounts of my life

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The signs as ghosts

Aries: That one hella creepy child spirit, that is fricking psycho

Taurus: Destroys all of your stuff

Gemini: The prankster ghost. Sometimes they just destroy a plate, or steal some of your socks

Cancer: Is an observer. They don’t interact with humans nor animals, they just wander around

Leo: Is a mass murderer. They find a family, and kills them without mercy

Virgo: Makes your life hell, and then they kill you

Libra: The stalker. If they find a person they think is cute, they will stalk them 24/7

Scorpio: Doesn’t necessarily kill, but cleans up your house. They hate dirt, and if you don’t clean properly, they’re gonna kill you

Sagittarius: Just haunts a specific house. They don’t kill, but they will scare the shit out of you

Capricorn: Is a friendly ghost. They act friendly towards you, and loves to talk to people

Aquarius: Always whispers something strangely helpful. Like on a lonely night, all out of sudden you can just hear a light voice whispering “You’re almost out of milk” or “You shouldn’t date Brandon, he’s a douche”

Pisces: That one ghost, that no one knows is a ghost. They look and sound human, and they always blend in with a crowded room