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My job has become everything to me. I have my work, my home and relationship... I don't have a social life at all

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I hate people invading my space. I'm done with my work for which I needed room but now I don't want to call back my brother and boyfriend. I want to stay here... Alone. At peace.

Me and my thoughts. Not that they're a great company but you need to switch anyway...

To Peace 💜

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I stopped medicines from last 10 days and it finally caught upto me yesterday. I cried and cried and cried while watching Grey's anatomy, it used to happen earlier too. I couldn't sleep properly either, wasn't feeling fresh. I realised how meds were giving me stability and that it's very possible for me to fall back into old patterns. I cried thinking about how my pappa doesn't love me and that he is the only parent I have, and still we can't make it work. So today I took medicine i can literally feel my brain healing from all that crying. Thanks for reading.

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I had such a great day today. I did three sessions, and 2 assessments and read a lot too. It was probably coz I change the position of the table towards the light and now it's all just too perfect. A little pmsing but ohkay

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Talked to my ex today. Some finances needed to be settled. I cried a lot after that... A small part of me even longed for his company. I wish he hadn't hit me so many times, I wish he didn't torture me psychologically the way he did or we could have stayed friends now. But reality sucks. So here it is.

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I did the dishes and I was feeling very calm... I played a violin and piano playlist and felt very calm and soothing. After that I #jewelinthepalace #kdrama and my boyfriend came hugged me from behind. I felt his warmth and I started crying and saying dumb stuff like "I will clean but don't stop loving me" he felt embarrassed. Even I don't believe words but it is what it is. Now I took some sessions and helped 2 people who are very grateful to me. I add value to the world. I'm valuable 😊😇

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Why don't we comment anymore? Just like the posts. We are all lonely people trying to find connections... Then why not?

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So we didn't go out as we planned

I just don't feel like going out. It's so much work. O wish I can be excited about going out like others

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Had a fight with my boyfriend about household chores. He tries to do his best but his best is low. Feeling useless again

I'm going to clean the dishes to feel useful. Hopefully that will help. Maybe I should live alone. Chores will be less. He cries and I feel guilty for making him go through that.

My work will start in 2 hours, somehow I am not tired of my work. I love it, it helps me and keeps my mind charged

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I hate, hate it! Back when I was 16, you know late 2000s... They had such beautiful goth art. Now that I search again it's all PRETENTIOUS! People posing but missing the point completely

Losing the feel and sticking to superficial costumes and make-up. This is NOT GOTH

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Sooooooooo sleepy. I'll eat ice, byeeee

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Ugh woke up at 10.30. meds keep me drowsy but I enjoy them too. I had breakfast, boyfriend made. He wants to study. I feel selfish. Not exactly, I'm not able to feel it but if wasn't for the meds I would be drowning in the pool of guilt right now

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Btw, I also made plans for this Saturday and Sunday

I'm so excited for it.

It involves dinner at a lake view restaurant and next day is a trek and then beach 🤩

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It's 1am I haven't slept yet but I'm feeling better. Life feels so better when you're on meds

I hope I have the strength to not see taking medicines as a sign of weakness because boi I can move mountains when I'm stable and healthy.