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@munchflower

a lil grumpy godzilla :)

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unicorn adam

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The Jane Austen Book Club (2007)

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(座り心地審査 | キュルZ さんのマンガ | ツイコミ(仮)から)

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“Does a 31 hit the Pope?”

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practice time!

Will / Hannibal

Nigel / Adam

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i thought about deleting my AO3.

I didn't do it. But I had the fleeting, impetuous impulse to do it.

I have been posting on AO3 since 2014. I was fifteen years old and probably shouldn't have been on that site at all, but I was. I have had my Tumblr since even earlier.

The point is, I have been in fandom spaces since I was a teenager. I enjoy creating fan content and I appreciate all that fandom has done for my growth as a creative and how it has honestly helped me tough through some pretty rough times in my life.

But tonight some shit has bubbled to the surface. I feel like I hate being in fandom spaces sometimes. I so rarely go looking for fanfics because AO3 is such a minefield. I have to jump to 'exclude' right away because other with I inevitably scroll past something that makes me want to go commit stop living, as they say in Roblox 🙃 but the problem is even when I'm in fandom spaces where things are supposed to be moderated and filtered I still end up being exposed to shit that makes me so fucking uncomfortable.

Non-c0n and (u)nd3r@g3 shit makes me very uncomfortable. and I feel like that's somehow a controversial thing to say in fandom spaces these days. I feel like I will be belittled and morally aggrandized to for not being desensitized to (r)@p3 content. I feel like I am too sensitive for fandom spaces.

No, I am not a victim. I shouldn't have to be to be uncomfortable with these kinds of content. My discomfort and desire not to engage with these kinds of content should not have to be validated. I would hate to be a victim in any fandom space to be honest.

I don't want to make friends in fandom spaces because I don't want to know what kind of content they produce. I don't want to click on the username of anyone who leaves a comment on my work. I don't want to click on the username of anyone who wrote a fanfic I actually like. I don't want to know. I don't want to see that shit. It affects me negatively and I can't control that response. And I don't really think I want to not have that response. I don't feel like I should have to to engage in fandom spaces at all but that's where I feel like I'm at.

There is some shit that makes me uncomfortable and yeah, there's some shit that I think probably shouldn't be created at all, but I'm not fighting that battle and I'm not even trying to. I don't know what the fuck "proship"/"antiship" even really means and idgaf tbh.

I have muted users on ao3. I will mute more. I click 'exclude' right away. I don't want to be in the dead dove server. I am trying to put up that barrier wherever I can but I feel like if I am the only person who acknowledges it then there is no point.

And I feel like it's my fault. If I tell a hoe they're gross, I get banned! But maybe if you hoes weren't gross in the first place I wouldn't have to call you gross 🙃 I left the outlast fandom many years ago because I felt like there was just way too much nasty shit™️ but now I feel like what was the point because there's nowhere I can go where there isn't.

I'm tired, boss. Maybe I'm getting too old for this shit.

I don't like using my Tumblr as my personal drama diary and nobody will read this anyway but I just needed to vent.

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Forgot to share this here,

Bobby and Nigel have way too much fun when they’re together

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Hannibal (2013-2015)

1x11 || 2x10

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Why does no one ever talk about Adam’s porn collection like can we talk about this?? Adam raki you nasty nasty boy, please WHYS NO ONE TALK ABOUT THIS LIKE THE SPACE ONE ICB😭

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It's got a little red vest and it holds a drum and I need it. Rohan Campbell as Ricky / Thrasher in The Monkey (2025) | written & directed by Osgood Perkins

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worship

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Legion rider

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*me trying to bond with someone*

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The hero’s identity was accidentally revealed, but it turns out they are moderately poor, have no friends or family, and their civilian life is frankly…sad.

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this relationship has always been a love/hate type