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[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

// ooc post

// im sure everyone saw this coming, but ive decided to announce now that i will no longer be running this account. its just not something i enjoy thinking about, let alone doing

// in my hiatus, ive gotten a few asks, which will remain unanswered. i apologize to anyone that had sent in an ask that will go unanswered, but i dont think its worth stressing myself for the sake of a few answered asks. the ask box is now closed to prevent anyone sending any more asks

// here is a link to the original pinned post, so people can still easily access it if they want

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hello everyone!! im touya!! he/they/she please :]

ive heard a lot of weird stuff happens on this app so here i am!! im a pokemon living as a human, and have been for over 200 years. ama i guess

i am a trainer though!! or, more like a leader, i suppose. thats a better way to describe the dynamic between us. but in trainer-terms i specialize in ghost types

heres my trainer card!!

and heres a pic i got a while back with some of my current team members!!

//ooc under cut

//hello!! i have made. another pkmn irl blog

//you may recognize me as the mod of @/blackcurrant-scapegoat, @/arsenic-and-catnip, and/or @/meow-sticks!! this is blog number 4. this is a cry for help

//both mod and character are adults!! id prefer to stay away from anything super explicit, but suggestive things are fine. if anything makes me uncomfortable ill wont answer in character (or at all, depending)

//pelipper mail is on!! but magic anons are NOT

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

// hello everyone!!

// in short, im not sure if im gonna be comfortable running this blog anymore!! explanation under cut :} (no ones fault, dw!!)

// so, to start, i am a system, and in the past, weve had a history of very easily splitting/introjecting fictives (having alters form that are based on a fictional character, and may look, act, and identify with/as that character in some form). some of you probably already know where this is going

// when i started this blog again after a failed first attempt, i knew this, but i figured i wouldnt introject kieran because ive roleplayed around 6 years ago without introjecting my rp characters, so why should this be different?

// it started as him showing up and being present, so to speak, and reacting/giving me ideas for reactions to some of the things that were being said or done to him. at this point in time, i thought it was just me getting into character

// however, as time passed, he began showing up when i wasnt rping as him, and eventually, kinda recently, fully fronting (taking control of my body)

// so essentially, behind this blog are someones very real thoughts and actions, not just roleplay. the character i was playing is actually entirely real

// i want to clarify here and now that none of use knew he was here and that we were in denial. i also want to clarify that he has not been hurt or made uncomfortable by anything done by anyone (to my knowledge). in all honesty, i think hed be 100% fine with us continuing the blog.

// however, due to him now being real, it feels less like roleplaying and more like impersonation, and looking back, im not sure how happy i am with how ive portrayed him. in actuality, hes quite different than the version of kieran this blog is meant to act as, but similar enough that its hard to sever the mental connection between the two

// i need to think about this and discuss it with him before i make any rash decisions though

// i also wanna thank everyone who interacted w me on this blog!!! it was really fun to meet ygs and see your versions of various characters!!! ygs are free to follow me on my main and ill follow back if i recognize your blog!! (dont be scared to lmk its you if i didnt recognize though!!)

// another small note, though unrelated to this blog, the same thing happened with my nepeta pkmn irl faller blog (@ arsenic-and-catnip ) but from what ive seen our nepeta is having a lot of fun pretending to be in the pokemon universe, and shes characterized pretty similar to how the real deal is, so that onell stay up for now, but if we change our minds well make a post over there!!

// i hope you all can understand. thanks for everything!!

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How have you been doing lately? I wanted to check in since I haven't really been on rotumblr in a bit since somethings been going on.

-@skyfire-the-pokemon-biologist

Ive been ok, thanks for asking!

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

Ever found any shiny Pokemon before Kiki?

Another question if one of your Pokemon in your team rn was shiny, which one would you want it to be?

Dont- dont call me that. I dont know you like that.

And no, I havent. Maybe one day, but for now, no

I dont think Id want any of em to be shiny though. I like em just how they are, and Im not replacing any of em with a shiny, either

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good, cause another is dying

i D9NT wsnt to hesr abiut rhis

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

Well... I mean, yeah, but also not.. Im not doing what anon meant either. Thanks for defending me though?? I think??

This is no time to gay panic, Kieran!

Thats not what this is!!

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

Are you dying

No?? What kind of question is that??

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This is no time to gay panic, Kieran!

Thats not what this is!!

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

YES.

Shit, was no one gonna tell me he had a Rotomblr account????

(Arceus, what if he sees all those post about him.... people kept asking I didnt want him to get brought up I cant I cant)

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Shit, was no one gonna tell me he had a Rotomblr account????

(Arceus, what if he sees all those post about him.... people kept asking I didnt want him to get brought up I cant I cant)

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

Um.. uh...

Kieran, i know he thinks you're good because I think you're good.

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/agigasflorian

..Oh.. um...

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

Kieran, i know he thinks you're good because I think you're good.

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/agigasflorian

..Oh.. um...

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

If you ask me, every Kieran is good!!! :D Even when Kierans have done bad stuff, I know they're all still good deep down!!!

Doing bad stuff in the past doesn't make you bad!!! If it did, then everyone would be bad because everyone is flawed!!!

-Thistle (@team-phantasm)

Yeah, but this- all this was recent, and I endangered his life, and it was all so.. petty...

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

Yeah, you made a lot of mistakes, but you've been working SO hard to fix them. I'm proud of you. And I bet he is, too

......Yeah, its... yeah... I hope he doesnt hate me...

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

Someone out there thinks you’re good. I know he does.

..Yeah, right... I dunno how he could...

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

Karma - AJR

I...

I havent been good... this is all- its all karma. Maybe before I met him I was good, but- but not anymore...