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Ace - Justin Bieber parallels lol

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`If given a choice, would you choose to dream forever? Or confront the sardonic reality?`

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

`I'm not gonna listen to what the past says

I've been waiting up all night.`

.・゜゜・

•Denial🌀:

Kusuriuri thought as if he was hallucinating. If this was a dream, then he wanted to wake up.

When your head fell off, thus blood dripped down the ground, time seemed to stop. The medicine seller couldn't breathe, nor move. Instead, he could only stare helplessly as you were beheaded.

Your face, once so beautiful and lively, now a hollow mask of what once was. The crimson liquid now leaked out of the corner of your mouth, your eyes bloodshot red as blood oozed out from the gaps. You now reeked of death.

•Anger💥:

Now those people wanted to take your corpse away from him to burn it? No way in hell he'd let them do it.

Not only had they killed you, but now they wanted to seperate you both? That's outrageous.

•Depression☁:

He felt useless.

Kusuriuri just wanted to crawl into a pit and cry, perhaps dying there too if he could. He hated this, hating himself for not being there for you, hating the people for ending your life.

But no matter how hard he tried to convince himself otherwise

It'd always be his fault.

•Acceptance🕯:

Kusuriuri had lost you for good.

Maybe, just maybe...

He'd meet you in the afterlife.

And he'd make up for it, he swore. He'd spoil you with affection and love, would always be there to protect you, would be a better partner for you.

As he thought about the family that you both could have had, the blade came down on his neck.

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Something is missing, don't you think so?

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Hoyoverse is now making these

Here some new hsr merch

OH MY GOD-

HELLO??? SAMPO AND B. SWAN????

They gon hop happily on my table and imma eat them up

Also, they are quite big for a finger puppet, maybe that's the normal size and i'm just not used to see the big ones.

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Where you’ve disappeared after departing for a mission. (yanqing is platonic, ofc. i just realized i made boothill swear… oh well) 1/?

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Everything about Shingi's character design choices is laced with melancholy.

Let's start with a simple observation:

1. The character for "shin"(神) - divine – is phonetically similar to the "Shi"(死) – death.

As a matter of fact, the word for "dead" in Japanese is pronounced "shin" (死ん). There's the missing "n"! On can argue that Shingi, this divine ritual, can also be considered a death-related ritual since it involves the slaying of a mononoke. There's always a sadness involved in its killing, as a mononoke is birthed from intense suffering. I'm pretty sure that this phonetic similarity is not a coincidence, given how much care is put into naming the other characters in Mononoke Karakasa (see my analysis on Utayama and Mizorogi)

Now let's dive into more observations below the cut!

2. Movie-Kusu (Nusu) and Shingi look like completely different people.

Let's compare/contrast them with Anime-Kusu (Kusu) and Hyper for a clearer read.

👭 Exhibit A: Physical Form

Kusu & Hyper: Hyper is slightly more muscular and taller than Kusu, but has more or less the same facial structure. They both have manicured nails. Although they have differing hair types (Kusu's is wavy while Hyper's is sleek), they're roughly the same lightness (dirty blond and silver).

Nusu & Shingi: Nusu has a pointed chin, and Shingi has a squared off chin. He also has a longer neck and keeps his nails unpainted and blunt. His red-blue iridescent black hair (the color which also represents masculinity in Japanese culture) contrasts strongly against Nusu's pale lavender with pink fringe. They share eye shapes, but nothing much else.

👗 Exhibit B: Fashion Choices

Kusu & Hyper: Hyper's outfit could be considered a battle-ready variant of Kusu's garb - removed inner robe, rolled up outer kimono sleeves.

Nusu & Shingi: Nusu's outfit is based on a woman's kimono. Shingi's outfit is based on the men's kingashi kimono. While Nusu wears is draped in many, many layers of fabric, Shingi is in a casual state of undress and runs around barefoot.

Superficially, we can interpret Nusu & Shingi's different appearances as a more blatant divide between yin and yang, the feminine and masculine. However, I think there may be a deeper story reason behind this, which is...

2. Shingi's Appearance is Trauma-Coded

🌈Exhibit A: Color Symbolism

White, or shiro, is considered a sacred color reserved for the gods. It is also the color of traditionally symbolizing mourning and death. Shingi's outfit heavily features white. And not to mention, his eyes are white too!

In my analysis about eye colors in relation to the Go-Gyo (五行), or the five elements which are part of the hexagram paradigm, I noted that it was interesting that while Shingi was aligned with the Kun(坤) exorcism sword aligned with the earth element (symbolized by yellow), his eye color is white, which is aligned with metal. Earth has an inter-promoting relationship to metal, in that the latter is generated by the former. And how is earth forged into metal? Through incredible pressure (life's adversities), perhaps forged even in the very mantle of the earth (fire).

Which brings me to another interesting observation: if Shingi is theoretically aligned with metal, why is it that his markings are red (fire), while Hyper's is gold (the color of a metal)? It's plausible that when earth-aligned Shingi metaphorically crumbled from this yet-to-be-unearthed trauma, fire-aligned Hyper "reforged" those disparate fragments into a new, possibly stronger elemental alignment of metal. And in return, Shingi "branded" Hyper with metallic gold, which is a color tangential to the yellow color-coding of earth. Whatever hardships Hyper and Shingi went through together prior to the first episodes of Mononoke, they both left their marks on each other quite literally.

👕Exhibit B1: State of Dress

Depression often leads to the neglect of self-care, which in turn makes keeping a tidy appearances a daunting, often unsurmountable chore. Shingi's kimono top is half-shucked. He doesn't even bother to wear pants, and the bandages on his forearm and legs are loosely tied tripping hazards. He also keeps his hair down. Hair styling is a huge indicator of one's status in feudal Japan. By not styling his hair, he's choosing to 1) defy social norms and 2) disregard and neglect the duties connected to his divine status.

👘 Exhibit B2: Kimono Folding

This was actually a really subtle detail, but once I saw it I could never unsee it. Check out how Shingi folds his kimono top. I know his abs are distracting, but bear with me here:

Did you see it too? Instead of crossing his kimono left over right like Nusu, Shingi crosses his kimono right over left. The only time you cross your kimono like Shingi if you are clothing a corpse. Combined with the phonetics of his name and white coloring of his robe, I have reason to believe that at some point in time, Shingi "died". And the only window of time a being like himself can possibly "die" is when he possesses his medicine seller's body to slay a mononoke. And if he "dies" while possessing his medicine seller, I imagine that the medicine seller would succumb to those injuries and also follow suit shortly afterwards.

4. Conclusion/Headcanon:

I have a theory that, upon bonding with the exorcism sword, the spirit of that sword imprints upon the wielder by forming their humanoid appearance after their medicine seller's - like Hyper and Kusu. Which leads me to believe that Shingi had another partner prior to Nusu. Shingi "died", presumably from being overwhelmed by a mononoke. His previous partner died shortly afterwards. When he by some miracle is "revived," he starts questioning his godhood and is wracked with survivor's guilt. This manifests as his lanky, almost emaciated body build and his mortal, less otherworldly appearance (compared to Hyper). When Nusu inherited that exorcism sword, Shingi clung to aspects of his former partner's likeness as his way of mourning. Somewhere along the way, Hyper intervenes to save Shingi from his downward spiral, resulting in the two of them being irreversibly marked and influenced by each other's elemental alignments.

But yeah – that's my angsty theory about Shingi's tragic backstory. What do you think? Do you think it has any credence to it?

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Anyway that's the show.

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*+:｡.｡Cakeverse!｡.｡:+*

(Information taken from fanlore.wiki)

Cakeverse is a trope created by Korean Twitter user, Rune_communicat. The original concept was based on Omegaverse, but changed the dynamics. Rather than Alpha/Beta/Omega, the Cakeverse consists of Forks, Cakes, and Normals. The trope takes on a more cannibalistic nature than Omegaverse.

Apparently, when asked "why cakes and forks", the original creator answered that she just likes cakes.

Cakeverse and how it works:

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HSR Jiaoqiu made in Microsoft Excel

+ snippet on how I made it

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the knight of nihility

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THE TRAIN STATION IN TOKYO TURNED INTO AN AQUARIUM WE GET TO SEE THEIR TAILS NOW LET'S GO

source: x

VOTE VOTE VOTE!! (this is about the leech twins)

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the medicine sellers shenanigans

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Kusu is the cat who sits on your table, Nusu is the cat who climbs around on your roof.

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