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You sat on the edge of the padded table, swinging your legs slowly, trying to focus on anything but the rapid thudding in your chest. The faint sound of your own heartbeat echoed in your ears, and you couldn’t tell if it was nerves or… something else.

Then the door opened. He stepped in.

Dr. Elias Carrick.

Broad-shouldered. Calm. The kind of man who didn’t just walk into a room — he settled into it, like gravity. Everything about him radiated confidence and quiet command. His dark button-down was perfectly fitted, his sleeves rolled just enough to reveal strong forearms, and his eyes — God, his eyes — were focused only on you.

The door clicked shut behind him.

Dr. Carrick:

“There you are.”

(His voice was a soft rumble — smooth, deep — almost too tender for someone so commanding.)

“I was looking forward to seeing you again. You always sit so neatly. Like you’re trying to be good.”

Your cheeks flushed. You tried to smile, but your fingers curled into your lap.

He stepped closer, standing between your legs. Not touching you yet — just there. Filling your space.

Dr. Carrick:

“You’re even prettier today.”

(He tilted his head, eyes sweeping over you — not lecherous, just appreciative.)

“Your cheeks go pink so easily. I like that about you.”

You swallowed hard, your breath caught in your chest.

Dr. Carrick:

“Let me hear that heartbeat.”

He reached for the stethoscope, but didn’t move to use it yet.

Dr. Carrick:

“Take off your top for me, sweetheart. Slowly.”

You did as he said, fingers trembling slightly. You were painfully aware of every inch of your exposed skin, but the way he looked at you… it wasn’t judgmental. It was reverent.

He leaned in, placing the cold metal of the stethoscope gently against your chest.

Then he paused.

Dr. Carrick:

“There it is.”

(A soft smile curled at the edge of his lips.)

“So fast already. I haven’t even touched you properly, and you’re racing.”

His hand brushed against your ribs as he adjusted the stethoscope.

Dr. Carrick:

“You’re delicate. So soft under my hands.”

(His fingers lingered.)

“You know what I like most about you? You want to let go. You want someone to take over — hold you, steady you, hush that fluttering heart.”

Your eyes dropped shyly. You gave a small, quiet nod.

Dr. Carrick:

“Good girl.”

That praise went straight through you like warmth poured into your chest.

He placed his palm over your heart, completely covering the space.

Dr. Carrick:

“You don’t need to think. Not here. Just listen to my voice.”

(His tone dropped, lower, firmer.)

“Breathe for me. In… and out.”

You followed. His hand rose and fell with your chest, guiding you with perfect control.

Dr. Carrick:

“That’s it. You’re doing so well.”

(He leaned down, voice barely above a whisper.)

“You’re mine to hold still. Mine to slow down. Mine to make feel safe… and wanted.”

He brushed his thumb along your cheek.

Dr. Carrick:

“You’re such a good thing. So responsive. So obedient. I could listen to this heartbeat for hours.”

You whimpered faintly at the praise, legs shifting slightly.

He noticed, of course.

Dr. Carrick:

“Don’t squirm, little one.”

(His hand pressed more firmly to your chest.)

“You’re here because you need someone stronger to take control. Someone who sees how soft you are… and won’t let anyone else near you.”

You looked up at him, eyes wide.

Dr. Carrick:

“You’re mine now. And I take very good care of what’s mine.”

He gently guided you to lie back, hands never leaving your skin.

Dr. Carrick:

“Let me listen to you properly, sweetheart. Every beat. Every breath. Every little sound you make when you feel safe and owned.”

And as he leaned in, listening, watching, breathing with you — you weren’t afraid. You were his. Entirely.

OH MY LITTLE HEART THIS IS PERFECT THIS IS LIKE THE MOST AMAZING SCENARIO TAKEN STRAIGHT OUT OF MY HEAD AND PUT INTO THESE BEAUTIFUL WORDS!!! I CAN'T EVEN SPEAK, I CAN'T THINK... PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT 🩷🩷🩷🩷

IF ANON WHO WROTE THIS SEES THIS: I will gladly read an entire collection of stories from you! I DON'T THINK SOMEBODY EVER PUT MY FEELINGS SO PRECISELY INTO WORDS.... OH DEAR

I think I will need cardioversion after reading this.......

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If He Really Wanted To, He Would

I've been talking to him for a while now. I even disappeared for a about a week or two because my mental health deteriorated, I thought he would simply move on and not even text me at all, since I was always the one to text first. However, when I opened the chat app, I was flooded with texts asking me if I was alright, if something bad happened, and he didn't hold me accountable when I responded. He understood my point of view when I explained it to him.

And now that we have been steadily texting again, he calls me every day, for a minimum of 30 minutes a day. We don't speak the same language, but he has been slowly teaching me words and sentences in his language, just as I have been helping him improve his english. During most of the video calls we don't speak, we just hang out. Him doing his thing and me doing mine. I know it might sound dumb, but he shares my opinion. Sometimes you don't need to talk to enjoy a person's company.

Language barrier sure is a difficult obstacle to get through, but it doesn't stop him from calling me every day because seeing my smile calms his nerves, or because hearing my voice say "hello" brings him warmth. And you want to know something? During the time I "disappeared", I drowned myself in learning more of his language, even if I didn't think it would work between us because I was sure I was f*cking it up, again.

And on the last call, which was today, he was out with his friends. I had just woken up from a nap as he had gotten off work, he knew I was feeling sick, and hanging out with his friends didn't stop him from calling to check-in on me. I heard his friends talk to him in his language, although I could only understand a few words, I could make out what they were asking. They asked if I was his girlfriend. He promptly said "No, she's my future wife.". He could have said anything else, chosen any other words, or even laughed at me with them, because he was sure I wouldn't understand, but he didn't. And I did understand, at it warmed my heart to know that he sees a future with me.

So, if that boy wanted to, he would. Language barrier, different time zones, long distance, cultural differences, beauty standards that do not fit, none of it would stop him. If he wanted, he would make it work.

P.S.: As a reward, I called him husband in his language as I said my goodbyes. He froze with the most beautiful smile and stupefied expression on his face, then he got as red as a tomato because his friends heard it, and hid his face from me like a little boy who had just talked to his crush. It was cute and adorable to see a grown man get shy because of that simple word. I will be calling him that again.

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i do not recommend the button to turn him into the scary one.

Anakin can show pretty much wherever he (or luke) wants; Luke seriously just wanted Rey to climb to the tallest cliff because he thought it would be more dramatic and mystical.

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Some Star Wars prequels as AO3 tags

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cody discovers the 212th's mascot, commewnder meowdy

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space catholic “will my dog go to heaven” since droids don’t have a force signature

inspired by the last paragraph of this post lmao

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The Phantom Menace.

That poor malnurished doomed kid.

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Broke: Anakin doesn't have any jedi friends his own age because he didn't fit in/Palpatine isolated him

Woke: Anakin doesn't have any jedi friends his own age because all his classmates keep trying to sleep with his Master and it's driving him crazy. If ONE more person asks him for Obi-Wan’s number he's gonna scream.

Ahsoka: Skyguy! Did you know the senior padawans put out a yearbook?? You'll never guess who won MILF (Master I'd Like To Fuck) of the year!!!

Anakin, not looking up: It’s Obi-Wan.

Ahsoka: ...huh did you already see it?

Anakin, with a thousand yard stare: It's always Obi-Wan. It's been Obi-Wan for the last 10 years Snips.

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3rd Star Wars daemon AU post!

Here by popular demand: The Jedi Council and their daemons!

Depa Billaba - Hooked Billed Kite (Taryz)

Mace Windu - Bald Eagle (Maisha)

Yoda - Ostrich (Kieachkta)

Shaak Ti - Hyacinth Macaw (Thevren)

(Commander Colt - Anatolian Shepherd (Pistol))

Plo Koon - Osprey (Averyl)

Ki-Adi Mundi - Great Blue Heron (Czirda)

Kit Fisto - Blue Footed Booby (Krios)

Now onto my random AU lore and thoughts:

JEDI LORE TIME: So, as I’ve said in my last daemon AU post, the Jedi generally have bird daemons. This is by nurture, not nature. The way the Jedi teach young force-users to interact with the Force usually ends up directing their daemons to settle into a bird species of some kind. Which conveniently is around the time a Jedi Initiate is either chosen to be a Jedi Knight or be sent to the Jedi Corps. While it is not a rule that a Jedi Knight has to have a bird daemon, there are stigmas in the Jedi culture that lead to Jedi Knights and Masters not wanting to pick Padawans with not-bird daemons. This was one of the reasons the Council was hesitant to take in Anakin originally. He was already past the age of being nurtured to have his daemon settle as a bird, as he was raised outside the Temple.

(If you’re wondering why Obi-Wan doesn’t have a bird daemon, look at my last post. But to summarize his daemon settled while on Melida/Daan. So not ideal circumstances) (Also Qui-Gon Jinn cares not for cultural taboos, so he did not care much that Obi-Wan’s daemon ended up not being a bird lol)

The exceptions to this bird-daemon rule is generally Jedi in the Corps and Jedi Shadows (I will be making a Quinlan Vos post at some point that goes into that more).

DEPA BILLABA and her daemon, Taryz, who is a Hooked Billed Kite.

Okay for the life of me I cannot remember the reason I picked Depa’s daemon 😅, but it was probably just: ‘I like how Hooked Billed Kites look’. So a good reason obv.

I inserted some silly interactions between Obi-Wan and Depa, and Kee-Ayt and Taryz. I headcanon that since they are the two youngest council members, they will go out of their way to act like children in front of the older council members. Just to make the others role their eyes and say ‘kids 🙄’. Despite the fact that both of them are like in their mid 30s-40s. But besides them acting like two siblings alone in the back seat of a car, they are close with each other. Taryz is the daemon most comfortable being casually around Kee-Ayt, out of the other daemons in the Council. (I imagine that since most Jedi daemons are birds, sometimes other Jedi don’t know how to interact with Kee-Ayt)

MACE WINDU and his daemon, Maisha, who is a Bald Eagle. 

In the Temple there runs a rumor amongst the Padawans about which came first: Mace being bald? Or Mace’s daemon settling as a Bald Eagle? A real ‘chicken or the egg’ question lol.

But more seriously, I really did just end up picking a Bald Eagle daemon because I wanted to make bald jokes hahaha. That and Bald Eagles just naturally look pissed all the time, which matches well with Mace’s ‘resting bitch face’.

YODA and his daemon, Kieachkta, who is an Ostrich.

My whole concept for Yoda was just: ‘if Yoda is a small species, then he should get a big ass daemon to balance it out’. And yes, Yoda rides around on Kieachkta because of course he does. And when he can’t hit your ankles with his stick, he’ll get Kieachkta to peck the back of your head (which hurts ow).

(If you’re wondering, all of Yoda’s species have bigger daemons. Like Yaddle has an Emu daemon).

SHAAK TI and her daemon, Thevren, who is a Hyacinth Macaw.

My only thoughts for Shaak’s daemon was I wanted it to be big and colorful. 1. Because she’s just this tall figure with long montrals. She just needed a big bird species to go with her impressive figure. 2. She just has always had a fun color scheme, so I thought a colorful bird of some kind would be fun. SO A HYACINTH MACAW. They’re huge and a beautiful blue color (that matches her montral stripes). I also just wanted her to have a fun, friendly looking daemon. Since she’s on Kamino most of The Clone Wars, and interacting with Tubies and Cadets. I think her having a big, loving, approachable looking daemon was just right. (Which is why in this AU, she was chosen to be the one working with the younger clones). Hence why I have so many doodles of her daemon with young clones’ daemons. 

Plus I added an extra doodle of Commander Colts’ daemon, Pistol, who is a breed of Livestock Guardian Dog. Since Colt is also on Kamino, he often is ‘herding’, ‘protecting’ and ‘training’ the young clones. So a herding/guardian  dog daemon felt right for him. (Pistol is the bad cop to Thevren’s good cop lol)

PLO KOON and his daemon, Averyl, who is an Osprey.

Tbh I didn’t have any idea what bird I wanted Plo to have. So I ended up googling ‘bird species that are good parents’ lol. And Osprey were on that list! Idk how true that is, but IN STARWARS IT IS NOW TRUE.

 Plo is just The Jedi Dad Of All Time (*cough cough* Ahsoka *cough cough* Wolffe *cough cough* Wolf Pack), so he got a Parent Of All Time bird lol. 

And yes Averyl spends all her free time trying to preen EVERY member of The Wolf Pack. Is that physically possible? I don’t know, but don’t even try to tell Averyl she can’t do it. All her furry dog children WILL feel her affection.

KIT FISTO and his daemon, Krios, who is a Blue Footed Booby.

All I can say is I knew I wanted Kit to have a sea bird, because he’s The Swimming Jedi^TM. And I love Blue Footed Boobies. 

Also Kit is a silly guy who deserves a silly bird, with silly blue feet and a silly name.

KI-ADI MUNDI and his daemon, Czirda, who is a Great Blue Heron.

Ki-Adi is a long, lanky looking dude so he gets a long, lanky bird. 

I have spoken.

(Also I see a lot of Blue Herons around where I live, so they’re a favorite of mine).

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I think the thing I want most in life is to have a partner who I can fall asleep with, listening to their heart. My head lying against their chest, listening to each beat, and drifting off to the sound. A simple wholesome and romantic thing, but it’s all I’ll ever really want.

There’s just something so personal and intimate about sharing your heartbeat with someone close to you, and I want to be able to do the same for someone who wants that same thing too someday.

I hope everyone here too gets the opportunity for this!

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Something something Detective Pikachu but it's with Cody, and Obi-Wan turned into a shiny Luxio (because I'm the artist and Luxio/Shinx/Luxray are my favorite Pokémon).

Btw I know nothing about the Detective Pikachu games and only watched the movie once like 7 years ago. So this is mostly just me wanting to draw Obi-Wan as a Pokémon, and Cody's there too because I love him.

The plot is just Luxio Obi-Wan and Cody running around trying to figure out how to turn Obi-Wan back into a human and along the way they somehow uncover the Sith Plot and save the Galaxy. All while Obi-Wan doesn't have opposable thumbs.

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padmé: stop trying to seduce me

vader: i'm just standing here

there were several vaderdala requests, so i deccided to make it just one kfjsdfsdf

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Honestly my favourite interpretation of the Korkie Kryze/Obi Wan Kenobi theory is that he grows up totally normal with a really skewed view of how a regular person acts.

“Wdym telepathy that’s just basic social skills? It’s not mind reading to instantly get how everyone in a room is feeling with no prior knowledge.”

“Yeah yeah, dreams that foreshadow real events, we’ve all had them.”

“You need to see to be able to shoot? Sounds like a skill issue to me idk.”

Bo Katan is SWEATING.

now you've got me thinking of all the gaslighting bail & breha and owen & beru must've had to do on the twins to convince them that their latent force abilities were actually just super normal things that everyone has/does

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I love how the main characters of the prequel trilogy, the original trilogy, The Clone Wars, and Rebels can be summed up as follows:

A Lasat, a grumpy droid, a smuggler, and -deep breath- Darth Vader's son, Darth Vader's daughter, Darth Vader's droid, the droid Darth Vader built, a Wookiee who saved Darth Vader's padawan, Darth Vader's master, Darth Vader's grandmaster, Darth Vader's padawan, Darth Vader's wife, Darth Vader's favorite clone captain, a Jedi who fought Darth Vader, a rebel pilot whose father fought alongside Darth Vader's master, a Mandalorian whose mother fought alongside Darth Vader's padawan, a padawan who fought Darth Vader and met Darth Vader's master on Darth Vader's home planet, Darth Vader's padawan again, Darth Vader before he was Darth Vader, and Darth Vader 🤣🤣🤣

anakin please im begging you stop causing so much drama and getting so involved in everyone’s drama

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do you think Kanan and Anakin and Padme are all besties in the force afterlife? also in your Skywalkers apart au would Kanan still blow up?

anyway your work is lovely and so cute ❤️

unfortunately yes to your second question, but um ⅔ of a yes to your first question!!!

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Please ALSO imagine Ahsoka asking Padmé's help with planning an outfit for some Fancy Party she has to attend. Also maybe Satine is there.

YES YES YES YES I THINK I WILL IMAGINE THAT