blue--sparrow

[blue--sparrow]

"Who cares what other people think?" or "You don't need anybody else, you don't need a relationship, just love yourself!"

Believe me, I am trying. So hard. I do love myself. I love my body, my character, my inner voice, I love spending time with myself. But everytime I try concentrating just on me, my brain shows me how desperate I am for human connection.

People need other people. It's not that easy.

[blue--sparrow]

I want someone who looks at me.

Maybe it is because I am 21 and I have not been in a relationship once - maybe it is because my first kiss was this january in a three people constellation, with a couple that has been together for quite a while, and who in the end did not want me.

I want someone who looks at me. Who wants me. Who I can love and devour with my whole heart and they love all of me.

Is that too much to ask?

[blue--sparrow]

I want to drink from the stream of the wild, the crisp cold water, grasping it with my hands and bringing it to my face, I want to chase through the woods, break the branches in my rage, I want to bite and feel the deers ribs crush. I want to be alive, alive, alive.

[blue--sparrow]

"I have a question about your mother and whether the rumors are true" okay just take everything take me take my money take my virginity I don't care