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Half of those crops were mine.

It’s been one whole year in Mistria ✨ Thank you so much for farming, romancing, and adventuring in Mistria. Your feedback, fan art, and love have helped shape Fields of Mistria into the magical game it is today. To celebrate, here are a few fun stats from our first year together! 🌱

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day 1: heart to heart 💙

based on this fic:

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rhinedottir, where does your loyalty lie?

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you should get into Golden Kamuy (I really want to see your take if you ever do write a fic on it)

I've seen some of my friends do art for it but I haven't read it yet. I'll have to see if there are any ships people think I'd like to write for...

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easier on a lefty

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Real suffering is the fact that 2 of the fics are mine, and they're the only ones for my ship.

what real suffering looks like

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iiiiiit's mermayyyyyyyy 🐠🍣

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a little sophistication…

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I wrote this fuyutora fic because for the life of me I can't stop thinking about how terrible the final timeline of Tokyo Revengers is. Chifuyu apparently in the last panels on Tokyo Revengers is shown to have remembered everything about the previous timeline, specifically Bonten. Thinking about this purely in the context of fuyutora: Chifuyu alone would remember Kazutora and he's entire lives together. He would remember the person Kazutora was, the person who was the most important person in the world to him, who he spent almost 12 years with. Who knows everything about him, and loves and cares for him more than anyone in the world. But that Kazutora isn't with him anymore. It's a different, slightly more shallow version of Kazutora who doesn't have those incredibly intense emotions towards Chifuyu, who wouldn't dedicate his life to him. But that would be fine if Chifuyu just told Kazutora, right? If he just helped Kazutora get back all his memories like Chifuyu had? But then Kazutora would remember the person he was, the one that killed Baji who was alive this time, who killed Shinichiro, who hurt all his friend. He'd remember the person he was the wanted to die so badly for all that time, he'd remember being that person and have to do what- face Baji who has no idea that Kazutora killed him before? Chifuyu could never tell him.

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Due to Letters to Kazutora being the only way I imagine the Bonten timeline to go, this fic will heavily be related to that fic. And since I wrote it... I'm using it again. It's so long, it's only fair I get to keep using it.

Culpabilty Matrix

10/10 chapters, ~36k words

Angst, hurt/comfort, canon compliant (technically)

"What's worse than living through all of this again, is me being the same and you being different.

Chifuyu regains his memories on the Bonten timeline alone during the final timeline. Kazutora doesn't remember any of it."

A random scene form the beginning:

A day ago, October 31st, 2015, Chifuyu felt a very strange premonition to go to his mailbox and in it he received a very strange letter from Kazutora.  Till then, Chifuyu had never actually received a letter from Kazutora and he wondered why he received it now.  The envelope was especially thick like the letter was incredibly long, which was even more strange.  When he opened it, it was really, really strange full of things Chifuyu didn’t know about.    Parts of the letter were about Baji, parts of the letter were about Chifuyu.  Some of it made it seem as though Baji and Chifuyu were in love, other parts seemed as though Kazutora himself was in love with Chifuyu.  All of it was very strange, and out of the blue and it would have seemed like a prank if this didn’t feel so very very out of character for Kazutora to have done.  They were friends, certainly but their relationship only went so far.  He would say he was closer to Kazutora than most people, Kazutora knew a lot of random secrets about Chifuyu, and in reverse, Chifuyu knew a lot of Kazutora’s.  Besides Baji, he would think he was Kazutora’s best friend, they had a lot of similar interests and their personalities all though they clashed initially fit nicely together.  Kazutora normally always took Chifuyu’s side against Baji, and supported Chifuyu with whatever he wanted to do, and seemed to respect Chifuyu a lot.  But Kazutora was not in love with Chifuyu. And this was strange.   Kazutora spoke about things they’d never done together, and about his extreme feelings for Chifuyu, and about how Chifuyu should be taken care of.  Mostly, the letter seemed like Kazutora was saying goodbye to him.  But it didn’t make any sense, and when he asked Kazutora about it, he looked at Chifuyu like he had no idea what he was talking about.  Kazutora was to a fault, a bad liar, and he knew he meant it when he said he’d never written Chifuyu a letter before.  More like, the idea was kind of funny to him.  What would he need to write him a letter for?  They see each other all the time. The entire letter, and the confusing thoughts surrounding it wouldn’t make sense until the next day.  And unfortunately it would make so much sense that Chifuyu would never be able to forget it, as everything fit together and the timelines, for Chifuyu and Chifuyu alone, converged.

[One] [Two] [Three] [Four] [Five] [Six] [Seven] [Eight] [Nine] [Ten]

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and also some old fuyutoras

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A twist of fate

(”what if mu qing caught hua cheng au)

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As we speak I am actively re-reading everything I wrote since I'm at the mark where I don't remember the plot at all. So it's just like someone else wrote it.

Some idiot: "Why are you reading your own fic, that's shallow and stupid"

All fanfic writers and writers everywhere: "Who the fuck do you think I wrote it for?!"

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I'm writing a Goshira one-shot, university au. The premise:

When Goshiki drinks he gets really really clingy and he can't stop trying to be close to Shirabu. Everytime their friends meet up Shirabu ends up with a lap full of Goshiki and all their friends think it's quite funny because they know Goshiki likes Shirabu.  Shirabu, however, doesn't know that, and finds it strange. Unfortunately when asked about it, drunk Goshiki gets very mopey, and sad.

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"Tendou laughed at him when he saw him do that, "He's still so clingy with you.  Goshiki, you don't want to hug the rest of your Senpai?". Goshiki frowned at that looking at Tendou like he just said something rude causing Tendou to laugh even harder.  He whispered something to Semi who snickered. 

Shirabu sighed, knowing exactly why they were laughing.  It was such a strange situation.  He didn't know why Goshiki had taken such a liking to him all of a sudden and it was pretty hard to ask him when he was like this, he just said a bunch of nonsense about missing him.  "Maybe he's sick of you guys?"

Goshiki giggled at what Shirabu said, nodding along.  The rest of them laughed at the sudden affirmation from Goshiki, everyone else had clearly had more than 2 drinks so far.  Shirabu was the only sober person in that room, observing them acting like fools."

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Asking because I think it might be impossible but I will dream: Does anyone know of Goshira(Goshishira), Shirabu, or Goshiki fan artists that make merch?

I went to a convention recently and realized people sell merch of Shirabu which Ive never seen so I'm throwing it out there. I want to make an Itabag of them so bad...

What I found:

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Are you an independent variable? Because I think you're being manipulated...

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The longer this goes on the more I fear I'll need an explicit rating for it...

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“Tsutomu, stop.”  Kenjirou sat back leaning against the wheel still on Tsutomu’s lap but much further away from his crotch which was aparently large in looks just like it had felt. 

“Kenjirou- don’t stare- it’s never gonna go away.”  Tsutomu put his face in his hands, clearly embarrassed, and shocked at himself.  He continued to apologize for disrespecting Kenjirou with his bodily functions or something completely ridiculous.

Kenjirou didn’t know what to say to make him stop apologizing, so he was just honest.  “It’s normal to feel something when kissing.  Your neck is sensitive, so if that’s why it’s my fault because I gave you a hickey.” 

“You gave me- what?!” 

“A hickey.”  Kenjirou pointed and Tsutomu brought down the sunshield to look at his neck in the mirror, aghast.  “I thought that if you were going to seem awkward when I touched you, it should be because we’ve done something and not because we’ve done nothing.”  It’s better if he looks embarrassed because he’s trying to hide that they just did something , rather than like he’s lying because they aren’t even together.  But he didn’t phrase it like that.  

“...You want it to look like we’ve- had sex ?”  Tsutomu said it like it was scandalous and a national secret, whispering ‘sex’ in that tone.  And luckily his freak out had softened him up quite a bit.   

Kenjirou got out of his lap and sat back in his own seat, fixing Tsutomu’s collar and flattening his own clothes.  “Obviously.  And now we do.”  Tsutomu calmed down a bit and restarted the car finally pulling into his parents driveway, packed with cars all along the circle drive.  They really were the last to arrive.  

“What about you?” 

“What about me?” 

Tsutomu looked outside and back at Kenjirou, “You don’t need one?”

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The Order of Value (Goshira, 4/8):

Because I lied to myself and believed it could be 5 chapters a d now it might make it into my top 3 longest fics.

Arranged Marriage Au for Goshira (Goshiki×Shirabu):

Hopefully I finish the first chapter by tomorrow.

An Excerpt:

“Oh, our Kenjirou is single.” His mother smiled at Goshiki’s mother, teasing Kenjirou as she looked his way.

Goshiki’s mother smiled just like Kenjirou remembered Tsutomu did in his photos in the web. Bright and kind, looking straight at the person. Straight through him, as he shifted in his seat. “Well, not anymore.”

Kenjirou felt it as he met her eyes, her hopefulness. This wasn’t just a marriage of convenience for Tsutomu’s family. They wanted a marriage. A proper marriage. To set their son up, not to gain something. He wondered what his parents had offered besides their son when the two companies joined hands, because he couldn’t quite make sense of what the Goshiki’s had to gain from this, if anything. It’s marriage.

Across the table from him, Tsutomu never made eye contact when Kenjirou looked to him. It seemed not everyone had something to gain from this marriage.

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One fun kiss template with my boy Keithen because he needs some love (ft. @yoibat-art's Blade -up right- and Phirisia -down right- and @leenosaur's Krīm -up left-)