bluegodism

[bluegodism]

"maybe in another universe-.." - i hope i don’t exist in another universe.

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hello.

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"you look sad and tired" well, I am

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not being able to kill myself is the worst feeling

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i feel guilty for being like this.

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i don't want to leave her... i don't want to. i hate this. i deserve a good life i think... i don't understand why i have to go through this.

[bluegodism]

same user i use in SS 😜

i'm going to change my username because I don't want anyone to find this account by accident.

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i'm going to change my username because I don't want anyone to find this account by accident.

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every night i sleep asking god to kill me. every morning i wake up sad because it didn't happen. i wanted a natural death so people i love wouldn't feel guilty.

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How are you supposed to just get up and go to school and go to work and come home and make dinner and fold the laundry and not want to kill yourself the whole fucking time.

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i don't know when, but i'm going to kill myself. that's it, it's a question of "when" and not "if". i feel so bad for wanting to do this. in fact, i'm scared. but at the same time, i'm very sure that it will be for the best. i can't live like this anymore. my main fear is reincarnation. i don't want to live another second here. another life? even worse. anyway, i'll be writing stuff here.

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eu não sei se escrevo em portugues ou ingles aqui.