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forget drugs, im high on the concept of communicating intentionally and learning what makes my loved ones feel secure

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the girl I've been talking to ditched me to go hook up with her professor?? I don't... I don't even know how to react to this.

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there's nothing funnier than a stereotypical cis white man being jealous of you. like yeah noah the girl you want would rather fuck me than you, how do you feel about that? im an ambiguously gendered gay kid with mental disorders you haven't even heard of and somehow I'M the girl she told you not to worry about??? yeah idk im just as confused as you. sorry dude guess you have to experience rejection sometime

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god I'm worried about being too much

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NO ONE can be mean to my best friend but ME

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I've decided to stop being everyone's second choice. you don't prioritize me? okay whatever I'm busy being alone bc I actually value myself. it doesn't mean I don't care, I just cannot bear to sit around waiting for you.

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i do love the enemies to lovers trope but that is NOT what i got. my life gave me a 200k words heavy angst hurt/no comfort with multiple trigger warnings fic and i just have to accept it?? absolutely not, will be suing whoever's writing this as soon as i figure out how

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it's funny how being bullied changes you. and even if you think you're over it, one day something just comes out of nowhere and wacks you in the head and suddenly you feel like you're 15 again.

in other news, i just saw a shirt and nearly started hyperventilating. so that's new.

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shout out to my cat to hating change and lack of structure as much as i do. don't know how i immediately zoomed over to the most anxious cat in the shelter but hey at least now we can hyperventilate together.

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Fantasy Is A Metaphor For The Human Condition, a comic about magic, and art, and speculative fiction, and being sick, and how they all intersect. Originally laid out/pencilled November-December 2017, when I was in a very difficult place emotionally as I was relearning how to draw post-brain injury.

See more of my Brain Injury Comix at this link & in Dirty Diamonds #9: Being

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masking all the time kind of feels like selling myself. i will pretend to be an entirely different person for you. what do you want from me? i am tearing myself apart until i can no longer recognize the expression on my face and still i am smiling. yes, the way you like me to. the way you understand. nothing about me makes sense to you and nothing about you makes sense to me but i try to learn at least. i am so good at blending in that you stare right through me. this personality was crafted for you and still you do not want it.

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feeling like an eggshell right now. follow for more updates.

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you make me feel human and it's disgusting

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growing up is watching five different death counts go up higher and higher each day and just... going to school and to work and eating dinner and watching a thunderstorm and people are dead and no one ever taught me how to deal with it

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it really should have been a sign when I was 10 and read a book about two female best friends having a falling out because they fell in love and kissed and one of them couldn't handle it and I was like?? why is this a problem?? they are such good friends and so what that they kissed, that's just how female friendships are!!!

anyway no I cannot tell the difference between platonic and romantic feelings. do I like being her friend or am I in love with her?? who knows!

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Man Discovers Man Is Evil, aka my dad is having a crisis about the world and I am laughing

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cats are kind of like dragons i think