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inho-gihun · 2 days ago
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gay sex. reblog if agree
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rider6666 · 2 days ago
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Arcane x MegOp💖
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zzziei · 3 days ago
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If anyone reads on ao3 I’d recommend “renegade”, it’s basically enemies to lovers, they haven’t even been intimate and currently there is only 11 chapters!
Can enemies to lovers ACTUALLY be ENEMIES to lovers?!?!
I don’t want to hear no “I hate them! But I wanna kiss them so bad”
NO, Y/N! YOU HATE THEM, YOU’RE DISGUSTED BY THEM. NO MORE “They make me so mad, but those big strong arms…”
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anniebeckcalla · 3 days ago
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tiramisu and coffee .fic recommendations by calla
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nothing left to read? these works will have you hooked for hours!
wanted: dead or alive @lisired (+18)
pairing: johnny suh x reader, nakamoto yuta x reader, lee haechan x reader (not all in one go ofc, in the separate stories)
genre: fluff, angst, smut
rating: ☆☆☆☆☆
description: three individual stories written about johnny, yuta, and haechan.
forever yours @lisired (+18)
pairing: lee haechan x reader
genre: smut, angst, fluff
rating: ☆☆☆☆☆
description: y/n, her bf, haechan, and their friends on a camping trip to the infamous chimera forest. what could possibly go wrong?
fire and brimstone (and you're a moth made of gasoline) @hannie-dul-set (+18)
pairing: na jaemin x reader
genre: comedy, drama, criminal au, enemies to lovers
rating: ☆☆☆☆☆
description: after graduating from law school, you find yourself in the very place you were against- a dodgy law firm. what's worse, na jaemin works there, too.
who is it? @kongjjen (+18)
pairing: lee haechan x reader
genre: slow burn, smut, angst
rating: ☆☆☆☆☆
description: haechan's intricate plan he'd woven when marrying you untangles...
us, nearly @neonc1tylights
pairing: mark lee x reader
genre: angst, slow burn
rating: ☆☆☆☆☆
description: being a kpop idol is easy...or is it? as if the pain of the industry isn't bad enough, you're in love with your co-worker, mark lee.
if you are one of the authors of these works and don't want them included in my recommendations, please let me know.
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snowysosturn · 23 hours ago
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Fire & Desire - Matt Sturniolo Part 28
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Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13 Part 14 Part 15 Part 16 Part 17 Part 18 Part 19 Part 20 Part 21 Part 22 Part 23 Part 24 Part 25 Part 26 Part 27 Part 28 Part 29
Pairing: Y/n x Matt Sturniolo
Summary: Y/n has always clashed with Matt. Despite working for Chris’s clothing brand and being close with Nick, her relationship with Matt has always been tense at best. While being forced to be around each other more, their animosity turns into something deeper. Can they overcome their differences, or will their fiery emotions tear them apart?
Warnings: Warnings will contain spooooilersssss, tension, angst, smut, p in v, unprotected sex dont doooo this people, fingering, orgasms heheheh
"I should go" he says quietly.
Before I can even process it, he turns toward the door and grabs the handle. He hesitates for just a second, like he’s waiting for me to stop him.
But I don’t.
I stand there, staring at the door as Matt walks out, my mind racing, my heart still trying to catch up. The room feels eerily quiet now, his words still lingering in the air.
He loves me.
He’s always loved me.
I squeeze my eyes shut, inhaling deeply, but it does nothing to ground me. A part of me wants to scream, to be angry, to remind myself of every reason I should never let him back in. But another part, the part that still aches when I think about him won’t let me.
I sink onto the bed, running a hand through my hair, thinking back to everything. The way he looked at me in Hawaii when everything went down. The way his voice cracked when he tried to explain himself. The way he stood in front of me just now, waiting, hoping I’d give him something, anything, to hold onto.
And then, I think about what Chris told me. Christina lied. She made me believe Matt had slept with her in Vegas. She knew exactly what she was doing, playing on my insecurities, making me question everything, making me run.
I let her win.
I let my pride and my pain stop me from seeing the bigger picture.
Matt wasn’t innocent in all of this, but was I? I never gave him a real chance to explain. I let my hurt dictate everything, let it blind me. And now, being in this hotel room alone, all I can think about is how he looked when he said those three words.
Broken.
Vulnerable.
Honest.
I let a sharp sigh out. Maybe I don’t have all the answers. 
Maybe I’m still angry, still hurt. 
Maybe it’s time to stop running.
Or maybe I should change the direction I’m running in.
The thought hits me like a volt of electricity, and before I can overthink it, I push myself up off the bed and race to the door. My heart pounds as I throw it open, stepping into the quiet hallway of the hotel. Without hesitation, I sprint down the hall, my only focus on getting to him before it’s too late.
I make it into the elevator just as the doors start to close, slamming my hand against them to stop them from shutting. A few people inside look at me in surprise, but I don’t care. I press the button for the lobby repeatedly, willing the elevator to move faster.
As soon as the doors slide open, I dash out, my eyes scanning frantically for any sign of him. The hotel lobby has a sudden surge of people, guests checking in, others walking past with their luggage, but none of them are Matt. I push through the crowd, ignoring the curious stares as I make it outside. The cold air hits me, but I don’t stop, I keep moving, my head whipping from side to side as I try to find his car.
Then, just as I’m about to lose hope, I see it.
Matt’s car is about to pull out of the parking lot, brake lights glowing red as he waits for traffic to clear.
"Matt!" I shout, running toward it, my voice desperate.
Maybe he doesn’t hear me over the city noise, or maybe he thinks he imagined it. But just as I reach the car, his head turns toward me, eyes widening in shock.
He barely has time to react before I reach for the passenger door, yanking it open and slipping inside. I’m breathless, my heart hammering pounding in my chest as I turn to face him.
"Just drive please." I say, my voice shaky but sure. 
Matt doesn’t say a word at first. He just stares at me, his hands gripping the steering wheel, his expression unreadable. But he doesn’t push me away. He doesn’t ask what I’m doing here or why I ran after him.
Instead, he shifts the car into drive.
"I don’t care where. Just.. somewhere." I say quietly, settling into the seat.
Matt nods, like he’s processing everything all at once. Then, without another word, he pulls out of the hotel driveway and into the city streets.
We don’t speak as he drives, the noise of us driving along the road filling the silence between us. My mind is racing, thoughts clashing against each other, but I don’t know what to say yet. All I know is that I couldn’t let him leave. 
Eventually, he pulls into a near empty strip mall parking lot. The neon glow from the storefront flickers faintly, illuminating the car through the windshield. Matt turns off the engine and leans back in his seat, gripping the steering wheel like it’s the only thing keeping him grounded.
For a minute, neither of us say anything.
Then Matt finally speaks, his voice rough. "I didn’t think you’d come after me."
I swallow hard, staring at my hands in my lap. "I didn’t think I would either."
Silence again. But this time, it feels different. He’s waiting, giving me space to figure out what I want to say. And somehow, I appreciate that.
I let out a shaky breath. "I don’t even know where to start."
"Then don’t" he says. "You don’t have to say anything. I just, I needed to tell you how I feel. I needed you to know."
I turn to look at him, really look at him. He looks exhausted, like he hasn’t been sleeping, like he’s been carrying the weight of everything since I left. And realistically, so have I.
"You hurt me" I say softly. It’s not an accusation, it’s just the truth. "Matt, you really hurt me."
His jaw clenches, and he nods. "I know." He exhales, looking down at his hands. "I’ve never regretted anything more in my life."
I bite my lip, feeling the heaviness of his words. The past week or so has been hell, running from everything, from him, from my own feelings. But sitting here, I realize something.
I still love him.
Matt turns toward me fully, his eyes desperate, almost pleading. "I swear to you, nothing happened with Christina in Vegas. Nothing happened with her in Hawaii. I don’t know what she told you, but it wasn’t true. I was drunk, yeah, but I still remember everything from those nights. I would never-" He stops, shaking his head. "I would never do that to you."
I search his face, trying to find any sign of a lie, but all I see is honesty. Regret. A kind of pain that mirrors my own.
I take a shaky breath, searching his face one last time. "Promise me nothing happened."
Matt doesn’t even blink. "I promise."
And for the first time in weeks, I finally let myself believe him.
Matt’s eyes search mine, his hand grabbing on to mine.  "I love you."
A warmth spreads through my chest, melting away the last bit of hesitation. "I love you too" I whisper.
The second the words leave my lips, Matt reaches for me, his hand cupping my face as he pulls me in. I don’t hesitate, I lean forward, closing the space between us, and the moment our lips meet, everything else fades away.
It’s not just a kiss. It’s years of hidden history, of love, of hurt and healing, all crashing together in a single moment. My fingers curl into his hoodie as his hands grip my waist, pulling me closer, deeper, like he’s afraid to let go.
Somewhere between breaths, Matt shifts, his arms wrapping around me as he pulls me onto his lap. I let him, straddling him without a second thought, our bodies molding together like we were made for this.
His hands trace slow, careful paths along my back, like he’s relearning every inch of me, making up for lost time. I thread my fingers through his hair, tugging gently, and he groans against my lips, sending a shiver down my spine.
It’s desperate, consuming, like we’re making up for every moment we didn't get to share. Like we’re trying to prove to each other that no matter what happened, no matter what went wrong, this still feels right.
Matt breaks away just enough to rest his forehead against mine, his breath heavy. "I’ve missed you so much" he murmurs, his thumb brushing against my cheek.
I swallow, my chest tightening. "Me too."
He pulls me in again, and this time, I let myself get completely lost in him.
His hands explore my body, tracing every curve and dip, while my hands hold the back of his neck. We’re desperate for each other, our kisses growing more intense with every passing second.
Matt's hands find their way under my shirt, groaning as he feels my bare skin. I can feel his erection through his pants, and it only fueled my desire for him.
I begin to rock back and forth against him, to let him know I’m on the same page. He starts to unbutton my pants, his fingers grazing over my sensitive area through my thong as he slowly reveals more. Once my thong is fully exposed, he paused for a moment, his eyes meeting mine. I nodded, giving him permission to continue.
His fingers push past the lace material and find their way inside me, and I gasped at the sudden rush of pleasure. He thrust them in and out, finding my sweet spot with ease. “Fuck Matt!” I arched my back, begging for more as he peppers my neck with kisses. But after a minute, I feel a loss of pressure.
“Get in the back seat.” Matt says as he removes his fingers from me. He watches me with careful eyes as I shift off his lap and climb into the back seat. He hesitates for only a second before opening his door and getting out, sliding into the back with me.
The sexual and emotional tension between us is heavy, thick with everything we just said, everything we just felt. His hand finds my thigh, his touch gentle, almost hesitant. I sit up and reach for his belt, unbuckling it. He pulls down his own pants before reaching for mine, ripping them off and tugging at himself before positioning his dick at my entrance. 
He pushes in slowly, giving my body time to adjust. But soon enough, he's pounding into me, claiming me as his own. I wrap my legs around him “Deeper Matt!”
The world outside faded away completely as the car rocked back and forth. I squeezed my eyes shut, taking in all the pleasure of this moment as Matt’s hand found my chin, tilting my face up to his as he dips to capture my mouth again, kissing me as if he could merge our souls.
Our cries of pleasure mingle together as we lose ourselves in the rush of passion. It was like everything was spinning around us, but all that mattered was the feeling of being completely and utterly wanted. The small space of the car makes every movement more intense, our bodies pressed close, no room for anything but the raw, pulsing connection between us. 
“I love you so much” Matt stays as his thrusts become sloppier.
“I’ve always loved you Matt” I reply, my breath unsteady as I groan.
The emotion and pleasure create a feeling in my stomach, a climax building ready to wash over me. We grab each other desperately, knowing we were both close to finishing. “Fuck Matt! I-I’m gonna cum!” I whisper, my back arching. 
“Wait for me pretty girl” Matt mumbles as he picks up the pace, drilling into me. I know he’s close as each thrust gets lazier. 
“Awww Fuck Y/n!” Matt groans at his own release, his pleasure etched on his face in a look of pure ecstasy. 
And with that, I allow the dam to break, my climax flooding all over Matt’s dick. We cling to each other as our orgasms subsided. The only sound is our breathing, syncing with each other, until my stomach rumbles, loud enough to break the silence.
Matt chuckles, his hand still resting on my waist. “Shit” he says, eyes flicking down to me. “I guess that’s my fault you never got to eat.”
I shake my head, a small smile forming. “It’s fine” I murmur. “I think I like how things turned out instead.”
He watches me for a moment, then glances past me out the windshield. A smirk tugs at the corner of his lips as he nods toward something in the distance. “Well, I still feel bad. Let me make it up to you” he says, pointing.
I follow his gaze to a glowing red sign just across the lot. Raising Canes. My stomach rumbles again, almost on cue.
I sigh dramatically. “Fine. But only because I’m starving.”
He grins, reaching for his jeans, and I do the same, the quiet rustling of denim filling the space between us. We slip back into our seats, the energy between us still buzzing, something unspoken but understood.
As Matt starts the car and drives across the parking lot, I glance at him out of the corner of my eye. The weight that’s been sitting on my chest for days feels a little lighter. Like maybe things can be okay again.
We pull up to the drive thru and Matt leans out the window and orders without hesitation, listing my exact order before I even get the chance to speak. Chicken tenders, crinkle cut fries, Canes sauce and a cherry Coke. It catches me off guard, how effortlessly he remembers.
I glance at him, a small smile creeping onto my lips. “You remember?”
He smirks, eyes flicking toward me as he pulls out his card to pay. “Of course I do. It’s you.”
A warmth spreads through me that has nothing to do with the heater running.
Once we get the food, Matt drives out of the parking lot and onto the empty road. “Where do you wanna eat?” he asks, glancing over at me. “You good just eating in the car, or do you wanna go somewhere?”
I shrug, taking a sip of my drink. “I don’t mind.”
He drums his fingers on the wheel for a moment before asking, “Wanna go back to my place?”
a/n : Thank yous so much for being so patient and kind with me with how long it took to get this part up! my life decided to do a 180 the weekend but we're all okay now apart from me being sick now lol, but anyway.. 2 parts left..
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highway-143 · 3 days ago
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when ice cracks- park sunghoon
genre: fluff, smut, strangers to enemies (?) to lovers?
pairing: figure skating teacher!sunghoon x female!reader
warnings: swearing, blood, kissing, unprotected sex, ass slapping, oral, (f. rec) thigh fucking, (?) doggy style, (never thought i'd write that one lol) soft-ish dom sunghoon
synopsis: when you decide to finally take figure skating lessons, your instructor is much cuter than you expected... but he doesnt seem to like you as much as you like him.
taglist: @urlocalmultigroupfan @minkilicious @vrusha01
song: like that- babymonster
a.n- this one was kind of a surprise lolll... i dont know where it came from but here you go :D
(proofread)
all scenarios are fake and are not meant to harm any idol in the story
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"do you know any good figure skating teachers?"
"what?"
"figure. skating. teachers." you say, your fists planted firmly on elissa's desk as you try to get your best friend to help you.
"bitch, can you see i'm busy?" she asks, gesturing to her open computer and papers scattered across the white surface of her desk.
"ughhh" you groan, knowing she was right. studying to be an engineer had to be more time consuming than normal work. at least the major you had picked was easy enough... and you were in senior year.
"wait, figure skating? since when have you been interested in that?"
"since i decided clown training wasn't an option." you say sarcastically.
elissa rolled her eyes. "ha ha."
"because i want to explore new hobbies."
"i heard from my sister's friend that park sunghoon is starting lessons." she says.
"am i supposed to know who that is?"
"you don't?" she asks, looking shocked.
"no..."
"he's really famous. made it to the olympics, and he's number 7 in all of korea. he's only our age too."
elissa starts typing on her computer, turning it around to show you pictures of a handsome man, either on the ice or in a suit at awards ceremonies.
and damn, he was gorgeous.
he had a sharp jawline, accentuating his full lips and perfect nose, a small mole dotting its side and one under his eye. his hair fell in swoops, framing his face in a way yours could never.
he was beautiful.
and pricey.
you look at the cost of his lessons, $75 per session. who had that kind of money?!
apparently you did.
because when you apply for three classes on his website and put in your card information, your bank account cries a little.
you reassure your conscience with "its okay, all you need is basic training. and if the lessons aren't good, you can always find someone else."
right?
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you pull into the parking lot, your old car sliding into an empty spot.
reaching into the backseat, you pull out your skates. last week, you explored amazon for the best and cutest pair you could find, coming across these. white faux leather with light blue threading and laces, and shiny silver blades, that currently held covers so you wouldn't cut your fingers.
you carry the skates out of the car, and into the rink. the outdoor arena was perfect. not too big, but enough space for you to be comfortable.
the crisp winter air reddened your cheeks and nose as you walk to the small tented pavilion next to the rink.
when you step inside the room, you find sunghoon.
and you can't speak anymore.
you cant think.
you cant move.
sunghoon looks up at you from his seat on a bench, his skates half tied and his hair slightly hiding his eyes.
you gape at him as he stares at you, looking you up and down.
"what are you wearing?"
"h-huh?" you say, unsure of what he means.
"your clothes. you should wear something less bulky for your top. it's more aerodynamic."
you look down at your thick coat. "i... i didn't know-"
"obviously not. i assume you're a beginner?" he says flatly, his eyes boring into yours, no warmth in them.
"i mean, yeah. thats why i'm taking lessons, right?" you say, slowly getting more and more pissed off.
"yeah, but even untrained skaters could figure that out."
you curl your hands into fists around your skates. who did he think he was?
"i reccomend leggings and a thin sweater for next time. now, get your skates on and we can start. hurry up." he finishes tying his skates and stands easily on them, walking smoothly over to his bags.
you sit on the bench and start putting on your skates, tying them with the pastel laces.
sunghoon steps closer to you, watching you tie the second.
"you're doing it wrong." he scoffs.
you stare at him as he looks at your skates. "care to enlighten me on how i'm doing it wrong? you ask.
"feel how loose they are? not going to support your ankles, are they?"
you bite back sarcastic comments. "well i tied them the best i can."
sunghoon crouches down, one knee on the floor as he grabs your foot. your cheeks heat up as he unties your laces.
"terrible skates. i swear, half of you prioritize looks over functionality."
"what's wrong with them!?" you ask, fed up with his critical reviews of everything.
"the material isn't very supportive, the pads on the soles are too thin, and the blades are duller than they should be." he says simply. "maybe you should do better research next time."
you roll your eyes. "sorry i bought the wrong thing. they were affordable. thank heavens, because your classes practically killed my bank account."
"i didn't ask you to take these classes, did i?" he says, moving to untie your other skate. "if it was really that big of a deal, you would've gone somewhere else. and considering you signed up for three classes, you had enough money."
you sputter, trying to find the words to tell him you literally had no clue about anything figure skating related.
"okay, so i bought the wrong thing. i have never skated before, how am i supposed to know what to wear or buy or do?"
he smirks at you, standing back up. "maybe if you scrolled a little farther on the website, you'd find links to everything. and tips for newbies. but you didn't. its all on you, y/n"
you sit in shock, his words like a slap to your ego.
sunghoon walks away, still looking smug. "stand up, newbie."
you struggle to your feet, ankles slightly bending outward as you rise. you had to admit, the support to them was very helpful. if sunghoon hadn't tightened them, you'd probably have fallen already.
without looking back at you, sunghoon speaks. "told you they needed to be tighter. fix your legs. don't stand like a baby deer, straighten your knees and stand up. don't let your ankles pop out, and keep your feet locked straight ahead."
you do as he says, and suddenly, your stance is perfect. you don't wobble or fall over, you stand tall, feeling proud of yourself already.
sunghoon struts back over to you. "lets get on the ice. remember, ankles locked. flex your calves if you have to."
"okay," you slowly take steps forward, growing more confident as you walk farther away from the bench. "so what are we doing today?" you ask sunghoon, who is already stepping onto the rink, gliding away as he circles around the ice.
"the basics, newbie" he calls, swerving and spinning while you cautiously step onto the slippery surface.
you place one foot onto the ice, and slowly put weight on it, getting ready to bring your other foot on. but as you lift it up, your foot on the ice slides away from you, and you grip onto the railing to pull back.
sunghoon appears in front of you, another smirk plastered over his devastatingly handsome face. "need help, newbie?" he asks, looking at your sliding foot.
"no thanks, i've got it," you say, trying and failing to get your whole body onto the rink.
after your fourth try, sunghoon is holding back laughter. you glare at him, foot slowly sliding away again.
"want some advice?" he asks, smirking.
you nod, pulling your foot back in.
"when you're ready to step your other foot in, don't push forward with the one on the ice. try to shift your weight to the side. the skate doesn't naturally want to move that way, so it'll basically lock in."
you push your weight sideways, and find yourself with both feet on the rink. you steady yourself with the short wall surrounding the edge, and look over at sunghoon.
"look at that. now, lets really get started. let go of the wall." he says, skating away from you.
letting your fingers pull away from the surface, standing up straight, ankles and knees locked.
"now what?"
"do you want to move forward?" sunghoon asks, twirling figure eights in the center of the rink.
"yeah."
"push your weight to the side on one foot, like before, and then move forward with the other. then switch sides."
when you slowly start skating away from the wall and towards sunghoon, you feel a smile growing on your face.
the rest of the lesson progresses very slowly, you struggle with speeding up and some of the techniques sunghoon tries to teach you, and sunghoon's temper rises higher and higher, but he doesn't break.
not yet.
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the front door creaks open as you walk inside, and you call out for your roomate. "elissa! are you home?!" you yell, setting your skates by the front door.
"no, i'm in the bahamas." you hear her say from the kitchen.
"so funny," you roll your eyes, moving into the kitchen to find elissa making a bowl of cereal. "guess who i met today?"
"ronald mcdonald?"
"bitch-" you lightly slap her shoulder. "no, park sunghoon."
"and? did you make a fool of yourself at the lesson?"
you roll your eyes and sit down at the island counter. "no. well... as a beginner, not much. but maybe a little"
elissa sits across from you, chewing on her cheerios. "you're going for more, right?"
"might as well. i signed up for the lessons. but not gonna lie, sunghoon is kind of a jerk."
"really?"
"yeah," you say, grabbing an apple from the fruit bowl. "he was critical of everything and very demeaning... like it's my fault i signed up for classes that are for all levels, including beginners. sorry."
elissa chuckles. "but is he cute in person?"
"very," you say, eyes glazed, your mind picturing how beautiful sunghoon looked at the lesson.
especially when he was on his knees for you.
nope, you can't go there. never gonna happen. he practically hates you.
"... said he was really nice." says elissa.
you were too zoned out to catch what she said. "hmm?" you ask, shaking the image of sunghoon out of your mind.
"i said, my sister's friend said he was really nice. he was a beginner too. so i don't know why sunghoon is treating you weird."
"yeah, i don't know..." you say, drifting back into your sunghoon dreamland.
his hair covering his eyes, his large hands on your skates, holding the blue laces, veins sticking out, his lips that were so easily kissable, so out of reach. every part of him was perfect.
except for his attitude.
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one week later, you and your car trundle into the parking lot.
you walk into the tent, and sunghoon is sitting on the bench, tying his laces like last week.
"hey." you say, and just like before, he looks up at you through his hair.
"hey," he looks you up and down, again, and nods. "better choice this time." he says, gesturing to your black leggings and army green sweater. "maybe this week you will actually be better. oh wait, it's your skills that are bad."
you frown and sit down on the bench, sliding your skates on and tying them as tight as possible.
"still too loose," sunghoon comments. "give me your foot." he reaches for your leg and pulls your foot into his lap. you have to swivel your body to face him, and your cheeks heat up again. his fingers on your skin felt like fire.
he ties your laces in silence, and when he moves to grab your other foot, you hear a sharp gasp.
"ah, shit," he says, grabbing his hand.
you look up and see his finger cut open, a trickle of blood falling from the slice. his other hand holds it tightly, trying to lessen the blood flow, and you notice a small part of your blade wasn't covered by the gaurd.
you jump up, feeling guilty. "i'm so, so, so, so sorry," you say. "do you have any band aids?"
"in my bag." he says, bringing his finger to his lips and sucking the blood off.
and you couldn't help but stare at the way his lips molded around his thumb as you hand him the bandage. how they wetted his finger so perfectly.
he catches you caught in a trance, a quizzical look upon his face. you immediately look away, embarrassed.
when he had tied the band aid around his finger, he grabs your other leg and reties the laces. you watch his expert fingers dance across your skate, every accidental brush to your skin causing an unsolicited reaction that displayed itself as a redness to your face.
you and sunghoon stand, and he turns to give you his trademark smirk. "you ready, newbie? maybe this week will be better."
with a nod, you follow sunghoon to the rink. this time, you easily step on the ice and move away, but you're no match for sunghoon, who starts twirling with ease.
"this week, we should start an easy routine. it'll help you learn more of the basics."
"okay," you nod along with his words. "what is it?"
"it's a song i choreographed. it's called XO. english or korean version?"
"i dont care," you say, "whatever you think is best."
sunghoon grabs his phone and puts the song on. the instrumentals start and he moves to the center of the rink.
"i'll show you how it's supposed to look, and then we can get started."
you smile and lean back against the wall, and the song starts.
sunghoon starts moving on the ice, and you're easily mesmerized by his skill. he pirouettes and leaps around the rink, and you find yourself caught in his beauty, skill, and grace.
the song plays in the background, the lyrics in korean pairing well with the english ones.
so just say O babe, 저 달을 향해 날아가 볼래
sunghoon twirls back to the center, and bows. when he rises, you can see the gleam in his eyes.
he really loves this.
------</3------
after the lesson, you step out of the rink. your legs are sore and a little shaky, and your palms hurt from how many times you fell. you had lost count at this point.
sunghoon walks into the tent, catching you staring at your reddened hands.
"seven" he says.
"what?"
"you fell seven times... and just a tip, don't have your fingers all spread out when you fall. it's dangerous, especially when there are other people on the ice."
"okay," you start untying your knotted skates. "thanks for the lessons. you're a really good skater. probably the best i've ever seen"
sunghoon nods. "thank you. and you're pretty good for a newbie. you learn quickly."
you laugh cynically. "yeah, i guess i do. how's your thumb?"
"oh... it's fine now. it doesn't sting anymore, so that's good."
"good."
and then you fall into an awkward silence. sunghoon looks at his phone while you take off your skates.
you stand up to leave when sunghoon stops you. "ah... y/n, wait."
you turn around, confused. "whats up?"
"i... never mind. see you next week."
------</3------
it feels like years until your next lesson. when you finally walk into the tent, sunghoon isn't there.
you wait for him, putting on your skates and tying them tighter than humanly possible, and then sit back.
and wait.
and wait some more.
15 minutes later, sunghoon runs into the tent, panting and carrying his bag.
"i'm s-sorry," he says, bending over with his hands on his knees. "c-car broke down. i had to run five blocks."
you look up from your phone, amused. "it's okay, i don't mind waiting."
"y-your skates... are too loose again," he says, standing up. "hang on."
sunghoon sits on the floor in front of you, pulling your foot onto his thigh as he unties your skate. you sigh, even when you thought you had it, you didn't.
he fixes your laces, even thought they feel exactly the same, and starts putting his on. you take a second to look at his pair of skates, old and creased, but somehow still clean and usable.
"how long have you had those?" you ask, pointing to them.
"uhh... almost 10 years i think."
"why so long?"
"my mom gave them to me. it was my birthday present. they still work, so i still use them. plus, they remind me of the person who supported my dreams the most, you know?"
"wow," you say, staring at the faded white material. "that's really cute."
"yeah," he laughs. "cute was really what i was going for."
you fall back into an easy silence. sunghoon pulls out two plastic water bottles from his bag and hands you one. "you might want this today. lets go."
and you follow sunghoon off to the rink, water bottle in hand.
------</3------
"no, you need to tuck your ankle in the back of your knee. kind of like a flamingo." sunghoon demonstrates the position. "not like some russian dancer."
you try again and this time, he nods. "now bend your hips and try to sink lower. lock all of your body and then pop it into a spin."
he shows you how to do it and you try, hitting the move with ease.
"now all together."
you tuck your ankle and practice the full move. sunghoon waves his hand, skating closer to you. "you're not putting it together right."
he moves behind you, adjusting the way your knee held your ankle.
and then he grabs your hips.
and you forget how to breathe.
because with sunghoon's hands touching you, everything feels calm.
but also rough.
the way the pads of his fingers press hard into your skin.
the way his breathing quickens ever so slightly when you turn your head back to look at him.
the way he gets lost in your eyes, and you in his.
and you're suprised to find warmth in them this time. not the same glare you saw before.
tenderness.
"you need to stick your hips out. rotate them. that makes it easier for your body to pop," sunghoon says, breaking whatever moment you just had.
"try again."
------</3------
you turn to sunghoon in the tent, staring into his eyes before you speak.
"i want more classes."
he smirks at you, and you roll your eyes. "because i'm not that good at the routine yet. i want to keep practicing."
sunghoon nods. "okay, lets do it."
before you walk out of the tent, he grabs your wrist.
"i'll even offer a discounted price. half off. if you promise to work your ass off. and practice off the ice."
"don't worry, i can do that." you grin up at him, pulling your wrist out of his grasp. "i knew you liked me."
he sputters, trying to find words. you stand there with your hands on your waist, waiting for his excuse.
"no. absolutely not. i do this with all my students. especially the good ones."
"so i'm a good student?"
his eyes soften. "yeah, you are."
"thanks... i gotta go. see you next week."
you jog to your car, sliding into the drivers seat and turning on the ignition.
you're about to pull out of the lot when you see sunghoon exit the rink and start walking.
"hey!" you call, waving out the window.
he walks up to your car, bending down to look at you.
"what's up?"
"need a ride? your car broke down, right? least i can do for the lessons."
"yeah, that would be great, thanks." he walks to the other side and hops in, his long legs barely fitting behind the front console of your car.
you plug your phone into the charger, and a song starts to play.
XO... XO... kiss me, don't say no
"you like it that much, huh?"
you blush and scramble to change it, but sunghoon stops you.
"it's fine, i like it too."
you start driving, humming along to the song.
and sunghoon hums with you.
------<3------
your car pulls into the parking lot of sunghoon's apartment, easing into a tight spot.
"you wanna come in? for lunch?"
"sure!" you say, stepping out of the car and following him into the complex.
his apartment isn't big or small. it's just average. the kitchen is a nice size, and everything is decorated well, which didn't surprise you. all the furniture and appliances are sleek and modern, something your broke college student ass only dreamed of having.
"damn, sunghoon. this is nice."
he smiles and puts his skates in a bin by the door. "thanks. i worked hard for it."
"i bet."
"do you want a sandwich?" he asks, rubbing the back of his neck.
"that sounds awesome. anything i can do to help?"
"nah, just sit there and look pretty."
both of you freeze at the words that just came out of his mouth.
sit there and look pretty.
and neither one of you mentions it.
------<3------
"okay, my turn. what's the most embarrassing thing you've ever done?"
you and sunghoon spent lunch asking each other questions ranging from what's your favorite color? to when did you realize that skating was your dream?
"damn..." says sunghoon. "uhhh... probably the time in first grade when i ate dirt thinking it would impress the girl i liked. i ended up puking right in front of her."
you start laughing, and sunghoon can't help but join you. the way your eyes scrunch up and you try to cover your mouth with your hand mesmerizes him.
you catch him staring, and he looks away.
"when were you the happiest."
you look up, racking through your brain. "honestly, skating with you. it's a nice distraction from all the schoolwork, and you're a really good teacher."
"wow... that's really nice." he says, looking a little shook.
"what's the best thing you did to trick somebody. like anything at all?"
"honest answer?" he asks, looking nervous.
"honest answer."
"so... don't get mad, but you know how your skates are always too loose?"
"mhm..." you look at him expectantly.
"well they aren't. i just really like helping you. it feels good, you know?"
"wait... what?"
sunghoon nods his head, maintaining eye contact with you as he drops the biggest bomb.
"i like you. a lot."
and you sit there, your jaw dropped slightly, thoughts running through your mind faster than sunghoon could skate.
"ah, i'm sorry, i made it too weird, didn't i? just forge-"
you cut him off by placing a soft kiss to his lips, cupping his jaw in your hands as you finally taste them.
finally let them taste you.
and sunghoon doesn't pull away. he doesn't push you away either.
he pulls you closer.
one hand on the back of your head, he moans while pressing his lips deeper into yours, the vibration sending chills through your body. he runs his hand through your hair while he grabs your chin with the other, caressing your skin. he nudges your lips with his tounge, asking for entry.
and you immediately give it to him.
his tounge pushes into your mouth, twirling around yours, tasting you fully, completely.
like he can't get enough of you.
and you cant get enough of him.
------<3------
slap
"ahh... hoonie... please!' you cry, a red mark forming on your ass.
you never thought you'd be here. bent over sunghoon's dining table, both of your clothes somewhere on the floor, your legs spread for him so nicely.
damn, sunghoon loved it.
he bends down and presses a soft kiss where his hand hit you. your legs shake and your cunt drips at the feeling of his lips on you.
you were so wet for him.
he takes a second to smell your pussy, the juices that were already slick between your thighs, dripping down your legs helplessly.
embarrassingly.
he sweeps up your wetness with his tounge, eliciting a loud moan from you, your fists grabbing the edge of the table as he licked up your cunt.
"so wet for me, hmm?" he groans between licks to your core, lapping up your slick like a hungry dog. although you couldn't see it, his cock was hard, standing straight up. but now wasn't time for his release. he had to pleasure you first.
when your legs threaten to give out, he holds you by your hips, obscene slurping sounds coming from where he was eating you.
his teeth lightly nip at your clit, and the overstimulation sends a jolt through your body. you moan his name as you feel yourself climaxing.
"h-hoon.... ah.... i'm gonna cum... shit..." and you scream as your orgasm crashes over you, sunghoon's tounge working you through your high, drinking all of you until there was nothing left but a dull ache between your thighs.
"so beautiful baby," he says, licking his lips. "so delicious."
sunghoon stands behind you and places a kiss to your shoulder, working his way up.
your neck.
your jaw.
when he reached your lips, you can see the remnants of your orgasm on his chin.
and you could taste it in his mouth when he crashes his lips on yours.
he gripped your waist, pressing your chest harder into the table with his. his cock slipped between your thighs, and your sensitive clit could barely handle the contact.
he slowly thrusted between your closed legs, your thighs hugging his hard dick so perfectly, he almost came on the spot.
no. he had to make this perfect for you.
he speeds up, his pelvis slapping hard against your ass every time he pushed in. you moan deeply into the table, and his hand snakes up to grab the back of your neck, holding you down as your back arched.
he grunts as his orgasm starts to take over, pulling out from between your legs and keeping himself from cumming.
edging himself out.
so that he could cum inside you.
you whine desperately when he pulls out, shamelessly wiggling your ass at him, begging for more.
his deep chuckle echoes in your ears. "such a needy little baby, huh? what do you want, princess?" he asks, bringing his lips to your ear, whispering sultrily to you.
"need your cock, please hoonie... please, please, need you in me."
he groans at the way you wiggle in front of him, begging, pleading for him to ruin you.
and he doesn't hold back.
he grabs your legs and spreads them wide, exposing your cunt to the cold afternoon air.
when sunghoon rubs the tip of his cock through your folds, you whimper, so utterly wrecked for him. so perfect for him.
you slightly sway your hips around him, eliciting a groan from his perfect lips.
and without warning, he pushes inside you.
his thick cock stretches your little hole so much, all you can do is squirm, little yelps cried out with every small push into you.
sunghoon moans. "fuck, y/n... you're so damn tight... shit, baby, i'm not gonnna last long."
"s'okay," you whine. "fill me up, please hoonie... pleasepleaseplease..." your words trail off as he bottoms out, your pussy clenching around him like a vice, sucking him deeper and deeper in.
and then he moves.
he pulls out of your dripping hole and slams back in, tears already starting to form in your eyes.
and he thrusts again.
and again.
he pounds into you so powerfully, you feel like you're about to be split open. all you can do is helplessly whine as sunghoon hits so deep, you can feel the tip of his cock kissing your cervix.
with every thrust, a tear falls down your cheek, spilling onto the table as sunghoon pumps into you.
the room is filled with the sounds of skin against skin, your wetness sucking around him, and both of your mingled sounds of lust.
"hoonie... holy fuck, sunghoon..."
he notices the tears painting your face, and leans forward to wipe them with his lips, pressing gentle kisses that were the complete opposite of how hard he was thrusting into you.
"princess, fuck... i'm coming. fuckfuckfuckkk"
you feel sunghoon bury into you one last time as he fills you up, his cum dripping out of your cunt alongside your own.
you both shake with orgasm, and sunghoon presses his lips against your back, riding out his high.
you look over your shoulder at him as he pulls out. his hair is a mess of sweat, sticking to his forehead, and his lips are puffy and swollen from how much he used them on you.
he smiles down at you, motioning for you to stand up.
you turn to face him, and your legs give out.
you sink to the ground, limbs feeling like gelatin, and sunghoon laughs.
"i ruined you that bad?" he asks, kneeling down in front of you.
you whine, defeated. "it's not funny, sunghoon." but you laugh anyways, leaning your head against the leg of the table.
"lets go, baby," he says, reaching for your hand. "i need a shower. care to join?"
"hell yeah," you shakily stand, and sunghoon immediately picks you up and tosses you over his shoulder.
you can't help but laugh as he pats your ass, carrying you into the bathroom.
------<3------
you wake up the next morning to find sunghoon's limbs wrapped tightly around you, and an unknown tee shirt you could only assume was his covering your chest. his hair was messy from sleep, and there was a faint trail of drool falling from his mouth, tiny snores sounding through his nose.
you giggle at how adorable he looks, and he wakes from the feeling of your laughter against his chest.
"hmm? wha-" he looks down at you, a dorky smile spreading across his pink lips. "oh. its you."
"rude." you say, staring up at him. "you drool in your sleep."
"not what i meant." he mumbles, wrapping his arms tighter around you. "and i know. might as well get used to it."
"what does that mean?"
"it means, i'm asking you to be my girlfriend."
you pretend to debate the thought, scratching your chin. "i don't know.... what's in it for me?"
sunghoon laughs and plays along. "hmm. how about free skating lessons and my amazing, award winning, delicious, bisquick waffles for breakfast?"
you smile up at him, catching his eyes. "of course, sunghoon. i would love to be your girlfriend."
------<3------
a.n- oh dear god. this was the fastest and longest fic i've written ㅠㅠ if you liked it, please reblog/comment! and if you have any ideas, feel free to send me an ask, they're always greatly appreciated.
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ivy: for moments that we stole
She was trying to figure out how to understand her own body, and he was attempting to help as much as he could..
(part 9)
masterlist // ivy series
word count: 29.7k
warnings/tags: harry x oc, fluff, angst, enemies to lovers, alcohol use, jealousy, (slight hints at smut but no smut yet)
[a/n:: hi sorry it took so, so long for this to come out, hope it’s worth the wait <3!! I’m never writing a part that’s this long ever again lol!]
It hadn’t been quite a week since Harry came over in the middle of the night. Ivy was walking through the door of Niall’s store Thursday afternoon solely to see Harry. Due to her work schedule and him picking up shifts at the store after his regular job, they haven’t been able to physically see each other. Harry was devastated that he couldn’t see her, but he understood that she was tired after work. Every night, though, they talk on the phone and catch each other up on their days. 
Niall gave her a wave as she walked past the register. She quickly returned the gesture but didn’t waste time stopping to talk to him. Her destination was the back room where Harry told her he’d be at. He didn’t have a shift today, but he had a few lessons scheduled. Niall conducted the sessions at the store. Ivy strolled to the back, excitement firing up her body. She was ready to see him. Looking at his face on a screen during a video call or hearing his voice over the phone wasn’t enough to hold her over anymore. When she reached the back, she slowed down in the doorway and peaked into the room. Harry was sitting with his back to her on a stool, his hands holding a guitar. There was a young boy, most likely in his early teen years, sitting on the small couch across from him. Harry was talking to him about their progress, saying how he was doing a good job. 
“I think in a few more sessions you’ll be playing confidently.” Harry said, resting the guitar he was using on a stand before standing up. 
The boy smiled and jumped up, grabbing the soft case he carried his instrument in with. 
“I hope so. See you next week.” 
Harry chuckled. “You will. Remember, practice those sheets.”
Once the boy zipped his case up and walked towards the door, Ivy stepped out of the way and waited for them to be alone. 
Harry told her he had about fifteen minutes in between his lessons today, so she was eager to get to him as quickly as possible. When she walked into the room, he turned around and met her with a bright smile. He didn’t expect to see her so soon. 
“Hi.” She said happily while practically running over to him. 
Harry grabbed her and wrapped his arms around her body, pulling her into a tight hug. “Hey, sweet girl.”
“I’ve missed you.” She grinned against his chest, her arms snaked around him. 
“I missed you more, love.”
Ivy grunted as he squeezed her extra tight. “You smell good.”
Harry let out a laugh, pressing a kiss to her temple. She pulled back, reaching up to grab his face with both hands. He gave her control, allowing her to pull him down for a kiss. They were both mindful of the fact they were in public, so their tongues stayed behind their lips. Harry hummed against her mouth, savoring the feeling of her thick lips mushed into his. When she pulled away, he furrowed his brows and let out a disapproving sigh. Ivy pinched his dimple and dropped her hands to his chest. 
“I don’t like being away from you for this long.” 
Harry smirked, licking his lips to soak up the flavor of her lip gloss that’s now mostly on his mouth and not hers. “It’s definitely not fun.”
“We can spend the weekend together.. if you want.” She offered, batting her long eyelashes at him.
He was easily enticed by the idea. “We can do that.”
Ivy was about to reach up for another kiss when Harry’s hands both moved to her waist, squeezing her on either side. He was staring deep into her eyes, a longing silence growing between them. She could tell he was thinking about something. 
Harry cleared his throat and dipped his head down, pressing a kiss to her ear. “Can I take you out on a date tomorrow?”
She let out a soft giggle, blush coating her face. “A date? Yeah, I guess so.”
“If you want to.”
“Of course, yeah.” Ivy turned her head so she could meet his lips. 
Harry laid a few kisses on her mouth before leaning back up. “We can get ice cream or something after, whatever you want. Maybe go back to my place for a movie.” 
She lifted an eyebrow. “Back to your place, hm?” 
“Yeah, take a turn in my bed.” He smirked back.
Her eyes rolled as her arms snaked around his torso. “Maybe.” 
“You can stay the night.. if you want to.” Harry kept his eyes on her despite her hiding her face. “My bed isn’t as comfortable as yours.. but m’sure you being in it would make it better.” 
Ivy shook her head, burying her face into his chest again. He didn’t have to look to know she was flushed and uncontrollably smiling. Even before they started doing all of this, Harry was well aware of the effect he had on her. His words, his glances, his touches - every little thing he did drove her mad. 
“I’d like to have a sleepover.” She finally mumbled back, a smile weaved into her words. 
“Then it’s a deal.” 
Harry could see through the doorway that there were a few customers walking around. As much as he wanted to hold on to her forever, until they morphed into one being and the world stopped spinning, he knew he couldn’t do that here. With a huff, he withdrew his arms and inched backwards, while keeping his hands on her waist. She frowned, trying to step closer, but Harry shook his head to stop her. 
“I have to get ready for my next lesson, love.” 
Ivy groaned, throwing her head back. “No, not yet.” 
“I don’t want to, believe me. I’d much rather be with you.” 
She understood that he had priorities and commitments that he couldn’t just abandon because she wanted to spend time with him. It was a struggle, especially with it being the first week they’ve been together, but she had to deal with it. Harry gave her waist a squeeze, trying his best to give her affection that was more appropriate for their setting. 
“Do you have any preferences for where you want to eat tomorrow?” 
She shook her head. “Whatever you want to do.” 
“I’ll text you later and let you know what time I’ll pick you up.” 
Ivy gave him a cute smile. “Call me.” 
“Alright, I’ll call you.” 
“I’m glad I got to see you for a little bit.” Her lips rolled to a pout, making his heart sink. 
“M’gonna spend every waking moment with you this weekend.” Harry wanted to wrap her in his arms and squeeze her tight, but he opted not to. 
“Guess I have to go now, hm?” She frowned, wishing he’d say no but aware that he wouldn’t. 
“Not before I kiss you goodbye.” His wink made her laugh, which eased his worry. 
It took so long for him to admit his feelings to her, and he hated having to be away from her now. But he had a job to do and she needed to get home and handle some chores. They couldn’t spend every day together.. Since he knew it would be an entire day until he saw her again, he wanted his goodbye hug to leave a good impression. Ivy laughed as he pulled her back into his body, squeezing her tight and placing several kisses on her temple. Her arms were squished between them, her hands pressed on his body as she giggled and squirmed, trying to get free. Ivy snuck her hand up to his face and grabbed his chin, angling his head down so she could kiss him. This time, she let her tongue slip out and he gladly lapped it up with his own. It was a long thirty seconds, a magical moment frozen in time. 
“Lovebirds, break it up.” Niall’s voice broke the trance and forced them apart. 
Harry groaned, his hands falling from her body, “What do you want?”
“I just got off the phone. They want us to do a show Saturday night. Their other booking fell through.” He explained, looking at his phone as he typed a message to send to the band’s group chat. 
“We just did a show.” Harry huffed out, not excited about the idea. 
“I know, but it wouldn’t hurt to do another.” Niall was obviously fine with the idea, and he thought the money would be worth it. Usually they did shows once a month, so extra income would be nice for everyone. 
“I just made plans for the weekend.” Harry glanced at Ivy, feeling her stare on him. 
“You can do the show. I can come watch.” She clasped her hands around his right hand, squeezing tight and pulled herself against him. 
“Ivy, I.. I wanted to be with you.” 
“You will be, technically. I love watching you sing.” The way she smiled brightly, her eyes sparkling as she gazed up at him, made him melt. He couldn’t tell her no. He couldn’t deny her of this, or anything if she used that adorable expression. 
Harry sighed and licked his lips. “Are you sure it’s not a big deal? 
“No, it’s fine. I promise.” She grinned back, visibly excited about the idea. 
He looked back to Niall, who was waiting for an answer. “I guess we can.”
“Good. Everyone else is on board.” Niall smirked, knowing that Harry would be the only difficult one to convince, especially now that he has someone else to occupy his time. 
“Have you told everyone about us?” Ivy asked curiously, her fingers crawling up his forearm.
Niall chuckled. “He hasn’t.”
“Niall.” Harry wasn’t pleased by that. “Can you go away?”
“Are you embarrassed of me?” Ivy had the biggest smile on her face. 
Harry shook his head, turning to face her. “M’not embarrassed. I haven’t seen any of them.”
“I know, I’m just picking.” Her smile dropped slightly. It was easy to notice the difference in his tone. 
Niall already walked off, leaving them alone. Harry avoided her gaze, choosing to stare off behind her. Ivy felt a familiar feeling creeping in. Whenever she used to talk to Harry, she would be afraid that something would happen and he’d get angry. Right now, that thought was threatening to take over. 
Harry didn’t say anything. He brought her into another hug, silence growing between them. She wasn’t sure if he was irritated or if he was just being quiet. She made sure to squeeze him tight. A minute passed before he finally let her go. He kissed her for just a moment, mumbling how he’d miss her. She returned the sweet words, trying to push away the worrying thought. Harry had a lesson and Ivy had to leave.. 
That night, just as she was getting under the covers to get comfortable, Harry called her. They talked for a while about random things, he told her about the lessons and she rambled about the grocery shopping she did after she left the music store. Harry listened to every word, enjoying the sound of her voice. He apologized for how he acted earlier in the day, but she assured him it was fine and she wasn’t upset in any way. 
After that, before they said their goodbyes, he told her he’d be there to get her at seven o’clock for their dinner date. He wouldn’t share the details of where they were going, just told her to trust him. Ivy was nervous about the date but she was excited, too. Harry could tell she was tired, so he eventually let her go with the promise to see her soon. 
—•—
Ivy had never breathed so hard before. Her eyes burned holes through the mirror as she looked her body up and down. She could feel her heart fluttering from anxiety as she contemplated how she felt about her appearance. Did she like this dress? Was it too much for a first date? If Harry was taking her somewhere that was casual, this would be considered over-dressed. Just as she was about to rip it off to try another one on, Emma walked into her bedroom. 
“Hi, getting ready for your date?” She grinned as she walked up behind Ivy in the mirror. 
She huffed back. “Yeah.”
“What’s wrong?”
Ivy shrugged, rotating to see how she looked from the side. “Can’t decide what I wanna wear.”
“This dress is gorgeous. Dark blue always looks good on you.” Emma adjusted a piece of her curled hair, putting it in place. “And your hair is gorgeous.”
Ivy chewed on her cheek for a few seconds as she stared at herself. She was confident with her emotions and feelings, yet she was confused about her outer appearance. Did she like this dress? Was it too nice? Was the color decent? Would Harry like this color? She shook her head. 
“What if Harry doesn’t like it?”
Emma met her eyes in the mirror. “If you wore a potato sack Harry would love it.”
“But.. what if he doesn’t?” Ivy’s lips fell to a frown. 
“He will, Ivy. He’s obsessed with you. He’ll love it.” Emma playfully grabbed her waist, keeping a smile on so Ivy would feel better. 
She shrugged, looking down at her heels. Maybe they were too tall for this kind of thing? They were very comfortable, the thick heel made them easy to balance in. Would Harry think it’s too much? 
“You look perfect, I promise.” Emma whispered out, trying her best to pump some positivity into Ivy. 
Although she didn’t believe it, she thanked Emma and said a quick goodbye. Niall was there to pick her up. They were going on a date themselves and planned to spend the night together here since Ivy will be going with Harry if all things go well. 
Ivy sprayed on her favorite perfume and adjusted the necklace around her neck, setting the pendant flush to her skin. She applied her favorite lipgloss, opting for a shade a bit of a deeper pink than her usual. The curls in her hair weren’t tight. They flowed down her back and over her shoulders, perfectly spiraled. Maybe he would like the dress and the shoes and the perfume and her hair and her.. Maybe he would really, really like her tonight. 
“Hello?” She answered as she put the phone to her ear. 
“Hey, sweet girl. I’ll be there in two minutes.” Harry’s deep voice made her stomach turn cartwheels. 
“Okay. Should I wait outside?”
“I’ll come to the door and get you.” His smile was laced perfectly through his words. “Have to be traditional.”
She laughed softly. “Okay, I’m excited to see you, but don’t call why you’re driving. Be safe.”
“Alright, I’ll see you soon. Bye, Ivy.”
“Bye, Harry.” 
Speaking to him didn’t ease her worry at all. The thoughts of not looking pretty enough and not dressing appropriately and not being what he wanted - everything was spiraling in her mind. Ivy sat down on the couch and glued her eyes to the door, waiting to hear a knock or two hit against the wood. She nearly held her breath the entire time. It was supposed to be easier now that they got along, that they admitted to caring about one another. It was supposed to be easy..
It had been a long time since she went out on any official dates with anyone. All those had failed her in the past, she was hopeful that this one would be different. There was that lingering fear that Harry would suddenly not want to be with her and that he’d disappear, but she was fighting hard to keep that out of her mind. Worrying about her appearance was enough to keep her mind occupied, unfortunately. Everything vanished and her heart froze as a sudden knock on the door echoed through the room. There was no turning back. She gulped down her fears and walked to the door. It was comforting to know that Harry was on the other side and soon they’d be reunited. 
Ivy opened the door and smiled brightly as she finally saw him. He looked incredibly handsome tonight. He was wearing a nice shirt, all but the top button were fastened, and a pair of trousers. It was unusual seeing him in something other than jeans, but she thought he looked wonderful. He smiled back, nervousness already seeping through his veins. In his hand was a bouquet of pretty pink tulips. 
“Hi.” 
Ivy’s cheeks flushed as he extended the flowers out to her. “Hi.” 
“I got you these.” He said, referring to the tulips. “I hope you like them.” 
She took the flowers from him and lifted the bouquet to her nose. The smell was beautiful and fresh, something she was relieved to experience. Ivy held the flowers in one hand as her other arm went around him, grunting as he embraced her tighter. 
“Thank you, I love them.” She grinned as her head fell back, her pretty eyes met his instantly. 
“You’re welcome. A little bird might’ve told me these are your favorite.” He winked, leaning down to press a kiss to her forehead. He hoped he didn’t disturb her hair or makeup. 
“A little bird who splits the rent with me, I assume.” 
He shrugged. “That’s a secret.” 
Ivy teasingly rolled her eyes and looked down at the flowers. “Is it okay if I put them in a vase real quick? I don’t want them to die.” 
“Yeah, go ahead.” Harry nodded, following her inside as she turned on her heel and headed to the kitchen. 
He chose to stay by the door as he waited for her. All he could think about was how perfect she looked tonight. He thought the shade of blue was stunning on her and the dress was fitted perfectly. Her hair looked so soft and pretty, and the whiff he got when he hugged her was wondrous. She smelled, looked, sounded, and felt like heaven. He watched with an amused smile as she scrambled to find a vase in the lower cabinet and fill it with water. She was rushing so he wouldn’t have to wait too long, but little did she know he’d wait forever if she needed him to. Once she got the tulips in a vase and placed on the counter near the window, she rejoined him and took hold of both of his hands. 
“Thank you for being sweet.” She said in a soft voice, puckering her lips for him. 
He chuckled, placing a few soft pecks on her mouth. “Have to treat you like a princess.” 
“Well, this princess is hungry.” 
“C’mon, let’s get going.” He kept hold of one of her hands and walked her out to the car. 
“Oh, my bag.” She quickly walked to the couch to grab the small duffle bag she packed for the night. 
Ivy was surprised when Harry opened the car door for her, gesturing for her to get in. He waited until she was situated and her seatbelt was on before he shut the door. She couldn’t wipe the grin off her face as she watched him walk around the front of the car. He looked so good, so put together and happy. 
“You’re so beautiful.” Harry smiled at her as he backed onto the street. 
“Thanks.” She rested her hands on top of each other on her lap, looking down at the fabric of her dress. “Not too dressed up, am I?”
“No, love. You’re perfectly dressed.” 
Ivy let her eyes trail over to his side of the car. She looked over his thigh and up his side, still surprised to see he had a long sleeve shirt on without pushing the sleeves up. He looked so nice. 
“So, are you going to tell me what we’re doing?”
Harry chuckled, shaking his head. “You’ll see when we get there.” 
“What about after?”
“Ivy, you have to be patient, sweetheart.” Harry glanced at her, already aware she was staring at him. “Trust me.”
“I do trust you.” 
Harry gripped the steering wheel with one hand and reached over with his other one. She didn’t hesitate to rest her palm on his, sliding their fingers together. She stayed quiet for the rest of the drive. Although he was worried that something was bothering her, he didn’t want to pry. If she wanted to tell him anything then she would. 
Ivy spaced out quickly, her eyes were fixed on their joined hands but her mind was lost. All she could think about was if Harry liked her dress or not. Did he like her hair like this, was her makeup too light, were her shoes ugly? She swallowed harshly, forcing down all the worry. She didn’t want the night to be ruined by her spiraling thoughts. 
She squeezed Harry’s hand as they pulled into a familiar place. When she looked at him, he chuckled and gave her a quick glance. 
“The first time we ate here together I was an asshole. I figured the second time should be better.” 
Ivy let out a shy laugh. “I.. I didn’t expect this.” 
“Good.” Harry grinned back. “That means I’m good at surprising you.” 
There was a rush of excitement flooding through her. For weeks on end, she replayed that night with him in her mind wondering what went wrong, what she could’ve done differently. It was one of those memories that haunted her. But now he’s giving her brain the chance to replace it with a much better experience, if all goes well. Once he parked and turned off the car, Ivy grabbed the door handle, but he stopped her. 
“Wait, stay there.” 
She hesitated at first, but lowered her hand to her lap. He practically flew out of the car, racing to her side. She giggled to herself as she watched him adjust his collar before opening the door for her. 
“Harry, you didn’t have to do that.” She sighed out as he offered his hand to her, she gladly took it. 
“But I should do it, and I’m going to.” Harry squeezed her hand as he waited for her to stand up. 
He looked down at her shoes, just now getting a good view of them. They reminded him of the other heels he’s seen her wear. He really liked the way she looked in them. He shut the door as she fixed her dress and swept her hair over her shoulders. He wanted to give her a kiss, but he was trying to wait until after dinner. 
They walked hand in hand to the door, Ivy was telling him about the muffin she ate for breakfast. He was amused by her excitement, finding it rather precious that she enjoyed such trivial things. It was good to know small things made her happy. She savored the details of life, and he admired that so much. 
They were guided to a table quickly, Harry had worried that they would have to wait. Blush coated her face as Harry pulled out the chair for her. She felt like she was being treated like a queen, like someone important. She was important to him.. 
“You’re being rather sweet tonight.” Ivy smiled when he sat down across from her. 
“Trying to make up for all the times I was a dick to you.” Harry only half smiled back. 
She licked her lips and looked down at the menu, scanning her eyes over the words. “You’re doing good, I promise. I’d tell you if you weren’t.” 
“I hope you’d give me absolute hell if I did that to you again.” 
Ivy glanced up at him. “Oh, I definitely would.”
For some reason, she felt like she didn’t want to bore him with random, meaningless conversation. She let herself get side tracked on a muffin just minutes ago. Surely that’s not something he wants to hear all the time. She absentmindedly started to pick at her nail polish. It would annoy her tomorrow when she sees the chipped paint. 
“What are you going to get?” Harry asked as he lifted the menu to read over it. 
Nervousness crept through her, threatening to ruin the entire night. “Um, I don’t know yet.” 
Harry peeked at her over the top of the menu, obviously hearing the uncertainty in her voice. He could tell something was on her mind. Maybe she was really just trying to decide what she wanted, and that worried look on her face that she wasn’t good at hiding meant nothing. Or maybe it meant something.. 
“Are you feeling okay, love?”
She lifted her head, expecting to catch his stare. “Yeah, just trying to pick something.”
“Take your time. It looks like we won’t get any service tonight.” 
Harry’s huff made her gulp. He sort of seemed irritated and she hoped he didn’t lose his control. Ivy decided to attempt to ease the tension he was clearly experiencing.
“We just got seated. I’m sure someone is coming soon.” 
He chose not to reply. Her heart began to beat faster than it had been, worry was spilling into her stomach. Keeping him calm would be the best thing, so she opted to try. 
“So, have you picked a movie for us to watch later?” 
He sighed. “No, I was going to let you pick.” 
“Oh.”
“Unless you don’t want to.. then I’ll just choose something.” His tone wasn’t what she wanted to hear. 
For a handful of minutes, they were both quiet. Ivy wasn’t quite sure how to approach him. If he was irritable, she didn’t want to set him off. It would be a dream for his mood to magically change. She worried his lack of control over his emotions would make this hard for them - and not just during dinner.. 
“Is.. is that a new ring?” Her voice broke out suddenly, grabbing his attention. 
Ivy was staring at his hand, her eyes fixated on the decorations littering his fingers. He looked down, the lion shaped ring was one he hadn’t worn in a while. He assumed that was the one she was referring to. It caught the light from above them. 
“Um, no. I just don’t wear it a lot.” Harry relaxed his brows and let his lips shape to a soft smile. “You notice my rings?”
Ivy grinned back, reaching across the table to touch him. He didn’t shy away, he let her take hold of his hand so she could examine the ring. 
“Yeah, of course. I notice everything about you. I spent a long time.. staring at you.” She said with a soft laugh, slightly embarrassed by her admission. 
“You’re so.. perfect.” He squinted his eyes as he stared at her. “Just everything about you is perfect.”
She shook her head. “To me, it sounds like I’m a creep.”
“You know I stared just as much.” He saw a waiter approaching them, his eyes shifting to stare the person down. “About fucking time.” 
Ivy sighed and quickly mumbled back to him. “Be patient, okay? Don’t.. don’t get so irritated over this.”
“Ivy.” He said through a breath. 
“Harry. Please.” 
He flicked his gaze back to her. “Alright. I’ll try.” 
“Try hard, for me, okay?” She got the words out just as the waiter got to the table. 
“Okay. For you.” 
Ivy paid close attention to Harry as he told the waiter what he wanted to drink. She watched the way his eyes held a cold glare and his lips were straight. He was annoyed and it was obvious to her, so it must be obvious to this other person, too. She squeezed his hand, glad he was still letting her hold it. He returned the squeeze, but didn’t let up on his expression. She asked for water, keeping a smile on her face to be polite. 
Once they were alone again, Ivy took a deep breath and started talking. As he heard her voice, he shifted his eyes to her and let his features soften. 
“I’m excited to stay the weekend.” 
“Yeah? I’m excited, too.” 
She felt a lump forming in her throat. He didn’t seem to be all that happy or joyful anymore. She dropped her eyes to their hands. Her skin appeared more pale than usual when compared to his sun kissed complexion. The cold metal of his rings stung her fingers, but she enjoyed the feeling. When she lifted her eyes, he gave her a slight frown. 
“M’sorry, I.. I’m acting like we’re strangers.” Harry’s voice was gentle, almost a whisper. 
Ivy licked her lips and gave him a sweet smile - maybe he deserved it, maybe he didn’t. “You’re fine. It’s our first.. date, so it's okay to be nervous.” 
He nodded slowly, but his stare fell down to the table. “I’ve never done this before.” 
“What? A date?”
He shrugged. “Yeah.”
She was surprised by his words, it was almost unbelievable. Harry was so attractive and confident. She’s witnessed him flirt with women and show off his charisma. From what she’s heard, he’s well versed in sexual relationships, was that the extent of it? 
“You’ve never been on a date?”
He shook his head, his stare still fixed elsewhere. She wanted him to look at her, wanted to hold eye contact as they spoke. But she knew that was probably not going to happen. 
“That’s kind of.. shocking. You seem like.. you could get a date easily.”
Harry laughed for a moment. “It’s not that I couldn’t. I didn’t want to.”
When Ivy adjusted in her chair, a piece of her hair fell forward. She sighed softly, wrapping her finger around the strand to twist it. Harry wondered if she was bothered by what he said. Was it too forward? Honesty was supposed to be the best thing. Maybe he was too rough. 
“Why not?” She slightly lifted her brows. “Never.. never found anyone worth the trouble?” 
He smirked, but it wasn’t malicious. “The whole.. being someone’s boyfriend thing never really.. intrigued me. Kinda felt stupid and pointless.” 
She moved her eyes to stare at the piece of hair she was handling. “I hope, um, your perspective has changed.”
Harry rubbed his thumb over her skin, her small hand encased by his hold. “I promise, you’re the only one who can change that for me. You’re worth everything. Every risk, every fear, everything.”
Her stare moved back to him and she let go of the curl. It fell back to the place it was before she messed with it. Harry wanted to reach over and fix it, put it with the rest of the curls and make everything perfect, but he didn’t. 
“M’trying my best to.. to do this right with you. To be a boyfriend and be.. be good to you.” He was afraid that her silence meant he was scaring her off. 
Ivy let out a soft laugh and lifted her lips to a smile. “Boyfriend, hm? You never asked me if you could be my boyfriend.” 
“Well, can I be your boyfriend?” He smiled back, lifting his brows in question. 
“I suppose so.” She lifted her shoulders nonchalantly, trying to play as a tease. 
He watched her closely, picking up on her cheeky grin and gentle giggle. “You’re so funny and.. and cute. Just makes me want to try even harder.” 
She parted her lips to speak, but they were interrupted by the same waiter that came by earlier. Ivy let go of his hand and carefully placed both of hers in her lap. She didn’t want to knock the glass over and make a mess on the table. Harry breathed out heavily, nervousness crawling into his body. Did he mess up? No, it was just going so well. Maybe she was tired of holding his hand? Maybe her arm was sore from the position? He wasn’t sure, and not knowing why was bothering him. 
“Thank you.” Ivy said with a kind tone, thanking the waiter. 
Harry bit down on his cheek as he witnessed it. It shouldn’t be such an annoying thing for him, but something about the way the man looked at her was irritating. There was a high possibility he was just being dramatic and jealous. He tried to shake the thoughts out of his mind as she gave her food order. 
Once they were alone, Ivy thought it would be a good idea to continue their conversation. She wanted to know more about him, more about his past and why he didn’t do certain things. Were relationships really such a bad idea in his mind? Or was he just being stubborn and not willing to give himself to someone in that way? She hoped he’d tell her everything without her having to ask. 
“So, I’m your first real date.” 
He let out a breathy laugh. “Yeah, you are.” 
“And your first real girlfriend.” 
“My first and only, hopefully.” 
Ivy cocked a brow at him, but didn’t say anything. She hadn’t noticed he didn’t move his hand off the table until just now, when she glanced down and saw it still laying in the same spot. As much as she wanted to give him that affection, she knew she needed to focus and have a serious conversation with him. 
“I hope you.. take this really seriously with me. I.. I don’t want us to.. to be like we were before.” 
His smile dropped to a frown and his brows furrowed. “I promise, we don’t have to be that way ever again.”
“I don't want to be.” 
“Ivy, I swear.. I’ll never treat you that way again. You mean so much to me.. and I have so much to make up to you.” Harry turned his hand over, his palm to the ceiling. 
She looked at it for a long moment, considering everything in her mind before making a decision. It was obvious to her that he struggled talking about his feelings, but whenever he was with her he seemed to do it better. He liked to touch her, liked to squeeze her, liked to feel her body cruve against his hands, liked to push his lips into hers and all over her face.. he loved touching her. She would be cruel and evil to deny him of that physical touch that he craved and needed so much. 
“As long as you remember to be patient and calm and.. and nice.” 
“I’ll never treat you wrong again.” 
She smiled a little, finally moving her hand into his. This time, their fingers didn’t lock up. She rested her palm in his and let her fingers carefully drape over his wrist. When their eyes met, Harry felt his stomach churn. Was she not believing him? Was he not saying the right things? He’s trying so hard. 
“I mean.. with everyone, not just me. I want you to be nice.. and funny.. and sweet.. to everyone.” Ivy licked her lips, glancing away from him for just a split second. “Well, maybe save the sweetness for me.” 
His frown turned up. “Only for you. But, yeah, I will. I’m.. trying not to be such an.. ass.” 
“I can help you if you need me to. I want to do what I can.” 
He shook his head lightly. “You don’t have to fix me, Ivy. It’s not your job. I.. I did this on my own.” 
“But I’m not going to leave you alone. I want you to get better. If you have a better outlook on everything around you then you’ll be so much happier and positive.” She explained, hoping her words held meaning to him. 
“I know. I.. I feel better with you. You sorta.. do fix it, I guess.” 
She smiled a bit bigger. “I know, Harry. I can see how much better you are with me.” 
He swallowed gently. “You’re saving me, love.” 
Ivy smiled back, sinking her nails into her skin. “You’re letting me.” 
While waiting for their food to arrive, they kept up small talk about random little things. Ivy was the one doing most of the talking, while Harry listened and smiled at her expressive words. He thought the way she described things and told stories was incredible. Of course, he couldn’t help but notice how gorgeous she was and how her eyes sparkled when she laughed. Everything about her was captivating, he was lost in her existence. 
She spoke so much because she was nervous. This was really only the second time they were actually alone together while not being mortal enemies. She felt as though it could be messed up at any second. She feared that he would get tired of her or find her boring and he’d leave, or never come back after the date was over. Maybe she should’ve stayed away from him after he avoided her - no, that was insane. That would’ve driven her mad, made her lose her mind. 
Harry was so fixated on her details and words that he didn’t realize she was rambling because she was nervous. He just thought she wanted to tell him these things to fill their silence. He didn’t mind it, he quite enjoyed it. She was paying attention to him, making a point to conversate and interact. There had been many times when they were in the same room that she ignored him, that she hated him. It was because of his own behavior, of course. He cherished every second with her now, appreciated every ounce of attention she gave. 
They ate their food while mumbling about the next night’s show. Harry told her he wasn’t really thrilled about doing it, but she convinced him it would be fine. She was excited to attend a show as his girlfriend instead of a person he couldn’t stand to be around. Although he said he didn’t have an issue with anyone knowing about them, he told her, after she asked, that he wasn’t sure who knew about their new found relationship. As far as he was aware, Niall and Emma were the only two people who knew. Whether they told everyone else or not wasn’t something he knew. Ivy wanted to ask why he didn’t tell his friends, but she refrained. Perhaps it was just a private thing that he didn’t want to spread around like a teenage boy. 
After they ate and Harry insisted he’d cover the bill, he walked her to the car and opened the door for her. She felt special, yet undeserving. He drove them back to his place, glad that Niall wouldn’t be home tonight. When they arrived, he rushed to her door and opened it yet again before grabbing her bag to carry it in for her. She brought a change of clothes for the night, but told him that she’d need to go home to change tomorrow before the show. 
“We’ve got the place to ourselves tonight, Dad is out.” He chuckled as he shut the door behind her, turning the locks. 
Ivy laughed, imagining how intense Niall might be at times. She looked around the space, somewhat remembering what it looked like. She only came by once, the night that Harry came out of the bathroom and ran into her. Unfortunately, every place they go together seems to hold bad memories for her. She pushed it aside and turned to face him. 
“Is it okay if I change?” 
“Yeah. Um, you can go up to my room or the bathroom.” 
“Okay.” She took the bag from his hand and excused herself up the stairs. 
Harry went to the kitchen to gather a few items. He wasn’t sure what she would want as a sweet snack. They decided not to get ice cream, she was full after their meal and wanted to get out of her dress. He knew Niall had a candy stash in the back of the pantry, so he stole some of that. He grabbed her a bottle of water and sat a bag of popcorn on the counter, intending to ask her when she returned if she wanted any. 
Upstairs, Ivy hesitated at first on which room to go into. She didn’t want to feel like an intruder, so she chose the bathroom. She would eventually end up in his bedroom tonight anyway, so she’ll just wait to see what hides behind the door. Changing into a pair of yoga pants, although she didn’t do yoga at all, and a t-shirt was a relief. Her feet weren’t really tired from her shoes since she didn’t have to walk or stand a lot, but it was nice to get them off and slip on a pair of socks. She was glad she packed some makeup wipes. Once her skin was cleaned and her teeth were brushed, she packed her items into the bag and zipped it up. 
When she walked out, her eyes moved over to the door she knew led to Harry’s bedroom. She thought about dropping her bag in there, but she still had that intruder feeling burning in her gut. So, she left it in the hall outside of his room, intending to pick it up later. As she came down the stairs, she saw him adjusting the hem of a t-shirt he changed into. He snuck down the hallway to the laundry room to change while she was gone. Sweatpants covered his lower half. 
“Hope I don’t scare you.” Ivy said with a laugh as he looked over and saw her. 
“Scare me?” He held his hands out, waiting for her to join him. 
She crossed the room to where he stood in front of the couch. She saw the arrangement of candies and the water he laid out, it made her heart swell. Ivy wrapped her arms around his torso and giggled as he embraced her, squeezing her tight. 
“My makeup is gone.” 
He huffed. “You’re gorgeous.” 
She didn’t say anything back, just bolted her eyes shut as she savored the feeling of being against him. He could tell she was tired, but he hoped she at least wanted to start a movie with him. As he pulled back, she grunted and yanked him back against her. He chuckled, pressing a kiss to her head as he gently rocked them from side to side. Ivy had dreamed of this moment, of just being close to him and holding on tight. She never wanted it to end. 
“Thank you for going with me tonight.” Harry sighed out, being patient with her. 
“Thank you for asking me to.” She mumbled into his chest, not caring how long she was holding their hug. 
One of his hands fell down her back, he missed being this close to her. “Maybe we can go out once a week. Do different things.” 
“I’d like that.” 
He hummed, kissing her head again. “Or more than once. I just want to see you as much as possible.” 
“Sorry, this week was just busy.. I’ll have more time soon.”
“Don’t apologize.” He grunted, sliding his hand to her hip. 
“I want to say sorry for apologizing.”
The laugh Ivy let out made him smile. He thought she was the funniest, cutest person on the planet. Harry pulled back, touching his palm to her jaw. She naturally leaned into his touch, moving her eyes up to look at him. The sight was marvelous, he loved to see her smiling at him. 
“You’re something else, y’know.”
Ivy grinned back, then puckered her lips for a kiss. He would be a fool to pass up the opportunity. It was gentle and sweet at first, just a series of pecks and soft laughs. But like the previous times, it quickly turned into something more. The gentleness went away as the hunger and desire to have each other took over. Harry shoved his tongue into her mouth, being greedy with the taste of her.  
Her hands went wild, running up his front to his neck, holding onto him on either side. He could feel her nails digging into his skin, leaving indents in what belonged to her. The feeling of her skin against his just made his hunger grow. He gripped her waist as tight as he could, shaping his hand perfectly to her body. He wanted to melt onto her, wanted to soak her up inch by inch. She didn’t once hesitate as he started to move. Harry backed up until he reached the couch. She grunted as he broke the kiss, but he didn’t let her slip away. He sat down on the couch and pulled her onto his lap. Instinctively, her legs fell on either side of his and she grabbed his neck, holding onto him as they reconnected their mouths. 
Her small hands held onto his jaws now, tilting his head back as she shoved her tongue into his mouth. She wanted the control, and he so easily gave it to her. Harry’s mind was long gone down a path it probably shouldn’t have ventured on, and his judgement was clouded by his own desires. While Ivy was just as lost in the bliss, she was becoming more aware of what he was doing with his hands. She grunted as he let one fall further down than it ever had. At first, she thought she was being dramatic, it wasn’t so bad. But his touch turned into kneading and she was becoming anxious about what he was going to do next. It felt nice, so she didn’t stop him. 
Harry’s kissing quickly became sloppier, spit pooling in the corners of their mouths, dripping down onto their skin. He was swiping up as much as her taste as he could, wanting to savor the flavor forever. 
Ivy was fine with everything. She was enjoying the kissing and how dirty it turned, she liked how he gripped her ass cheek and her waist at the same time, his heavy hands putting pressure against her body. She loved the way his face fit into her palms, how her hair fell over her shoulders onto him as she held him back. But it all started to fade when she realized something was happening. 
Harry was lifting his hips into her crotch, groaning as he pressed his growing bulge against her. She had never kissed someone so intensely before, especially in this position. She had never sat on anyone’s lap and let her body move against theirs before. It was new and it frightened her more than it probably should. She reached down to grab his wrist, pulling his hand off her ass. He furrowed his brows, not sure what she was doing. 
“Baby.” He grumbled out as she suddenly turned her head, ripping their lips apart. 
“No, Harry.” Ivy’s heavy breathing fanned over his skin. 
She shifted her head back, but her mouth stayed away from his. Her forehead pressed on his, her eyes closed as she tried to catch her breath. So much had happened in such a short time, she wasn't even sure how they ended up on the couch. Harry was good at giving her that affection she never knew she needed, so good at making her stomach drop and her heart flutter. He made her feel things nobody else had. He made her toes curl and wet spots form on her panties. She was afraid his sexual advances were too strong for her. What if she couldn’t keep up with him? What if he wanted something now and she refused, would he leave her? It must be tiring having to wait, and must be irritating getting denied. 
“Not here.” She whispered out, not quite sure how to turn him down. 
“Do you wanna go to my bedroom?” He reached for her lips, but she didn’t allow it. 
“No.. I.. No, I don’t want to do anything.” Her words came out in a sigh, her eyes squeezing shut as she mentally screamed at herself. 
She wanted this with him more than anything, more than with anyone before. Why was she being so hesitant, so afraid? Her mind began swirling, her heart still racing. There was no way he would put up with his for much longer. He was going to grow sick of her games, of her leading him on and going along with his actions just to deny him. Of course, it had only happened twice.. surely it wasn’t that irritating. Her mind was too busy to consider any other possibility. 
He felt a pinch in his heart, only because he was embarrassed he took it so far again. “Oh, m’sorry.” 
Her lip was quivering, tears threatened to build up in her eyes. “I’m sorry, I.. I can’t right now.”
“Okay, that’s fine.” He calmly spoke. 
“I’m sorry.” She shook her head and leaned back, giving him a bit of space. 
At first, he wasn’t going to move his hands from her body, but when she looked over at the cushion next to him and started to move, he let her go. She fell on her butt next to him, her hand sweeping her hair over her shoulder. A heavy sigh fell from her lips, he could see how sad she was. 
“Baby, it’s alright. I promise.” He carefully touched her thigh, hoping not to frighten her. 
“I didn’t mean to.. to lead you on again.” Her voice was frail, almost like she was going to cry. 
“Ivy, it’s fine. We got a bit heated again, that’s all. No worries, okay?” Harry didn’t know how else to say it. He didn’t want to get her riled up over nothing. 
“Are you sure it’s okay?” 
He splayed his fingers on her leg. “It’s perfectly okay.”
“You’re gonna get tired of waiting.” She whined softly, her head turning towards him. 
Instantly, his heart fell to the bottom of his stomach. A single tear slipped down her cheek, her skin was flushed as her emotions raged inside of her. He shook his head and leaned against her, wanting to put his arm around her but he didn’t want to scare her off. 
“No, I won’t. I’d wait forever for you, Ivy.” Harry pressed a kiss to her temple. 
Her eyes fell down to his hand, she wanted to hold it so bad. She’s come to realize recently that holding his hand might be her favorite thing. He does so much with his hands. He plays the guitar, holds a microphone, runs them through his hair, grips the handles of his motorcycle.. She’s seen his fists clench in anger, felt how comforting his warm palm is on her skin, watched how he taps them on his leg absentmindedly. She loved his hands.. and she wanted them all over her body, but not tonight. 
“Do you want to.. keep kissing?” He was still leaning into her, his voice soft as he spoke next to her ear. “We don’t have to.. to do anything else.” 
The idea was intriguing, but she was unsure about it. What if it happened again? They were quick to go off the deep end. It wasn’t possible to just softly kiss and carefully touch each other.
She shrugged. “I.. I dunno.”
Harry stared at the side of her face for a moment, thinking of what he could do to fix her mood. Maybe she was just anxious and needed to calm down. She didnt appear to be tired, but maybe she’d rather go lay down than risk anything else happening on the couch. He took a deep breath and bit on his cheek as he thought about what to say. Ivy picked at her fingernail, not wanting to rip it but fighting the instinct to. 
After a few seconds, he finally spoke. “Do you want to watch a movie or.. or go to bed? Either is fine with me.” 
She already knew the answer she was going to pick. Carefully, she placed her hand on top of his, copying the positioning of his fingers. He let a smile come to his lips, seeing her do that was more magical than he could ever explain. There was a time when he never imagined this could be real, yet here they are now. 
“Can we go to bed? I’m tired.” She looked over at him, a resting pout on her lips. 
“Yeah, of course.” 
She swallowed. “Sorry, I keep changing the.. the plans you made.” 
“What do you mean?” His brows furrowed slightly. 
“First, no ice cream now this.. no movie.” 
Harry let out a light laugh, shaking his head at her. “Oh, love, that’s fine. It’s not a problem, I promise.” 
She gave him a sad look, not believing what he was telling her. He closed the space between them and placed a kiss on her lips. It was nothing too crazy, just a gentle peck. She wanted to beg him for more, but she didn’t open her mouth as he leaned back. 
“Any time I get to spend with you is special.. no matter what we do.” 
Even though she felt bad for her decision, she was ready to be next to him under his covers. Harry took a minute to clean up the stuff he got out for them, with Ivy apologizing several times for making him do all this work. He told her it wasn’t a worry and they could easily make up their movie date some other time. She wasn’t convinced he was actually okay with her decision, but she tried to ignore it. He didn’t appear irritated on the outside, so maybe he wasn’t. 
Harry guided her upstairs, letting her go in front of him. She grabbed her bag that she left outside of his door. He gestured her to go in first, so she did. It was dark when they walked in, but Harry flicked on the light before shutting the door behind himself. Ivy looked around the room, curiosity consuming her. Harry leaned against the door as he watched her. His room was interesting to her. The walls were an off white shade, she wondered if he was allowed to paint with his rental agreement or not. Of course he had the usual pieces of furniture like a dresser, a desk, and a short bookcase, but her attention went straight to the details. There was a band poster in a frame on one wall, but the rest of the walls were nearly bare. He had a collection of vinyl records resting in the bottom slots of the bookcase. The rest of the shelves were filled with CDs. A turntable sat on top of the case. She thought the collection was impressive, and she was wondering what all it entailed. His desk caught her eye. It was plain as far as the build went, but what sat on top of it was interesting. He had a metal cup full of pens and other writing utensils, plus a pair of scissors. There was a short stack of books sitting there neatly, and beneath the desk on its shelf sat a bigger assortment of books. She could tell they weren’t regular books, but rather journals or notebooks. It was hard not to think about what was inside those books. Did he keep a diary similar to how she did, or was it more of a creative outlet? 
She wondered if this was how he felt in her room, curiosity bubbling and her mind taking in every single detail. It was like she was getting to know him even more by just looking at his belongings. Of course, in the corner he had a guitar resting on a stand and another one hanging on the wall near it. There was a loose piece of paper resting on the desk, a pen next to it. She wasn’t even aware of her movements until her fingers gently pressed on the paper and slid it on the desk. She turned it so she could read the jotted down note. 
pick up Ivy’s flowers at 5 shop closes at 5:30
A sweet smile covered her lips as she read over the words he wrote. She thought it was adorable that he put down a reminder for himself. Harry pushed himself off the door and crossed the room. He took the bag out of her hand and sat it on his desk chair. 
“My curious little cat, hm?” 
Blush appeared on her face and she let out a gentle laugh. “You have a lot of journals. Do you write?” 
He lifted a shoulder, trying not to be too serious about it. “Just.. stuff. Like.. notes, poems, lyrics.”
“Poems and lyrics?” She lifted a brow, that curiosity was just eating her alive. 
Harry chuckled, a smile shaping to his lips. “Yeah.” 
“You write songs?”
“I mean, sorta, I guess. Nothing serious.. M’not pursuing it. Just do it for fun and to get stuff off my mind.” He explained. 
She slowly nodded as she looked around the rest of the room. For the most part, he was neat and tidy. She noted the stark difference between his bed and hers. His was a size smaller and covered only by the usual blankets and pillows, while hers was littered with plush animals. She definitely didn’t expect him to have those sort of things, though, it was just notable. 
“What do you write about?” 
Her question made his chest tighten. Although he wanted to be completely honest with her, he’d be lying if he thought it wasn’t nerve wracking. What if she thought his answer was strange, what if it made her mad? He licked his lips and pushed down a gulp. 
“Lots of stuff.. including you.” 
Her head turned towards him, her sparkling eyes went wide. “Me?”
He shrugged. “Yeah, sometimes about you.” 
Without saying anything, she turned her attention back to what she had been gazing at. But there was a smile stuck to her lips and a warmth in her heart that pulsed hard. He wrote about her? He didn’t specify if he wrote poems or songs or notes about her, but something in her mind told her it was all three. Of course, it was all three. 
“Not too weird, am I?” He said with a laugh. 
Ivy turned to face him, a smile on her face. “I think I’m the weird one between the two of us.”
He took a few steps closer, reaching out to touch her waist. “You’re adorable, not weird.”
One thing he loved doing was watching her as she trailed her eyes over his body. She was a curious girl after all, it was in her nature to explore. Her eyes fell to his arm as she wrapped her hand over his elbow. His tattoos caught her attention so easily. It was like it was the first time she'd seen them. 
“Are you alright?” He asked. 
“Mhm.. just looking.” Her fingers started tracing down his arm, slowly and steadily. 
Harry had an idea lurking in his mind. It was something he wanted to do the last time her eyes scanned over his tattoos, but he was too nervous to bring it up. Now, things were different. He felt more confident with her. 
“I can show you all of them.. if you want.” 
Her eyes flicked up to his. “Really?”
“Yeah. There’s some you haven’t seen.”
“I’d love to look.”
He took a breath and clenched his jaw as he waited to ask her a question. His eyes poured into hers, his focus so sharp and intense. She felt her cheeks blushing red hot, her eyes stuck to his despite wanting to look away in shyness. 
“Is it alright if I take my shirt off and change into some shorts?” He gently lifted his brows. 
She nodded, not saying anything, just putting on a cute smile for him. He squeezed her waist once before letting her go. She watched as he went to his dresser and pulled out a drawer. Did he want her to leave the room while he changed? She didn’t know what to do. Her stomach started to churn as she contemplated how to react. Maybe he didn’t care. Just as she started walking to the door, he turned around. 
“Running off already?”
She froze, looking back at him. “I didn’t want to be in the way.”
Harry smirked. “You can stay, love. I’ll turn away from you.” 
She felt embarrassed. He could see she wasn’t completely comfortable with her own behavior, so he made it simple for her. He turned back around and dropped the sweatpants to the floor. A pair of gym shorts replaced them. He normally slept in just his underwear, but he knew it was too much for her right now. He wanted her to be comfortable and relaxed, not stressed or tense over his clothes or lack thereof. She didn’t watch him, despite not twisting around to avoid getting a glimpse. When he let out a sigh and his footsteps filled the room, she thought he was done. She looked up in time to witness him pull his shirt over his head. Their eyes met as he tossed it on the desk, intending to put it away later. She had never seen him with his shirt completely off, and it was an incredible sight. 
Her throat began to close in as her mind drifted. He was so toned, his muscles built and his physique was perfect. He was stunning, she felt as though her physical appearance would never compliment his. He held out his hand and nodded his head towards the bed. She took it with ease and followed behind him. 
Harry sat down on the foot of his bed, parting his knees to drag her between them. She held her breath as he carefully moved her closer, his eyes locked on her face to make sure she was comfortable. He wanted to catch every expression, whether major or subtle. Ivy ran her eyes over his collarbones. She’s seen those birds peak out from beneath his shirt before, but she hadn’t seen them in full. With more confidence than she had all night, she lifted her hand and pressed her fingertips to the bird inked on the right side of his chest. 
“Yours are.. a lot more detailed than mine.” She mumbled softly, her gaze shifting to the other bird. 
“Hiding yours, hm?” He smirked as her eyes shot to his. 
Ivy chose to ignore him, and instead just return to her exploration. Even though she had seen most of them, she was still intrigued to get a better look. She ran her hand over the butterfly on his stomach, that was still her favorite one, then carefully down to the laurels resting dangerously low on his abdomen. He chuckled slightly as her delicate touch tickled his skin. She grinned back, amused by his innocent reactions. It was hard to believe at times that such a hardened soul like his could express such simple reactions. She knew it was possible, though, she just had to work hard to get it out of him. 
“You got this the first time we met.. well, sort of met.” She said with a sigh as she traced her fingers over his right arm, the snake curling around his bones and muscles was something she could never forget. 
“I remember. We should’ve met for real, but I was a dick.” He frowned when her eyes moved back to his. 
“Maybe so.” 
He dropped his gaze down to his leg. He knew she was more familiar with his arms, especially the usual exposed areas, so he wanted to make sure she saw the other things he had. Harry gently took hold of her wrist and moved her hand to his thigh, letting her touch the tiger sunk into his skin. She felt as though this was the most intimate spot she had touched him. Something about it was intense, bone rattling even. She gulped softly, wondering what this one meant to him. She didn’t want to intrude, perhaps it meant nothing or maybe it meant more than he was willing to tell her. That went for each of them. She just admired them, she didn’t ask. 
The gulp she pushed down was audible, her voice was as light as a feather. “Do you want to see? Mine aren’t as impressive.” 
“If you want me to see them.” Harry smiled sweetly as she sucked on her cheek and let her face go red.
For a split second, she screamed internally begging herself to stop before it even started. But it was quickly silenced as she grabbed his index and middle fingers, bringing his hand up to her hip. She smiled gently as she placed his fingers on her body. He rubbed his thumb over the waistband of her pants, his eyes locked on her. She pushed his hand down, forcing his fingers to move the fabric. He took over, but didn’t dare go too far. He slid the side of her pants down until he exposed the fabric of her powder blue colored cotton underwear. She bit down on her cheek as he carefully pulled the fabric down until he saw the little tattoo, a four leaf clover. It was a simple design, thin lines and no shading. 
“A lot of people don’t get to experience a full life. I’m lucky to be where I am.. even if it’s not forever.” She explained without him asking her to, but she figured he wouldn’t mind. 
He didn’t, of course. He thought the meaning was nice, it meant something special to her. She’s lost two very important people in her life, so reminding herself of the luxury of being alive was extremely meaningful. He pressed his thumb over the clover, the surrounding skin turning pale as he pushed into her. He let up the pressure and gently tapped it. He hoped he’d get to rediscover it soon, get to press his lips to it and make sure she knew how lucky he was to have her. 
“Some of that luck must’ve rubbed off on me. How else do I explain how I won you over?” His cheeky smile made her playfully roll her eyes. 
She pinched his cheek, going straight for his dimple. “Well, you do touch me there more than I think you realize.” 
Harry stared at her hip as he adjusted her pants back, covering the tattoo and her skin. He wished he could’ve seen more of her, but he was well aware that wasn't what she wanted right now. 
She sucked in a deep breath as she debated whether or not to show him her other one. He was literally in the room with her when she got the flowers on the back of her arm, and the one in the bend of her elbow, the small star, was clearly visible - but there was one more he didn’t know about. Ivy pushed away her fears and anxiety as she lifted her shirt. The second the cool air hit her skin, she felt her stomach churn. The waistband of her pants was thick and it came up high. She was thankful the part of her body she was the most insecure about was mostly covered by the fabric. Harry smiled gently as she grabbed his hand and brought it up to her torso, placing it beneath the edge of her bra. Her boobs were covered by her shirt, she didn’t want him to see anything beyond the tattoo. He moved his eyes to the spot and shifted his thumb, revealing the small tattoo. The style of the butterfly matched the clover, and the flowers on her arm - fine line, delicate, thin. 
“That’s all.” She mumbled quietly, biting her cheek as she watched him stare at her skin. 
He wondered what was beneath her shirt, tucked into her bra.. but he had to force that thought out of his brain. It would be insensitive and disrespectful for him to sit there and think those sort of things when she plainly told him she wasn’t interested in any of that right now. Instead, his arms slid around her, locking her in place. She grabbed his face with both hands, placing a kiss on his puckered lips. 
“Are you ready to cuddle, little bug?” 
“Mhm.” Ivy was blushing, per usual. She tried to slip out of his grip but he wouldn’t let her go. She sunk her nails into his shoulder, almost forgetting he wasn’t wearing a shirt. “Harry.”
“Fine.” He let out a huff as he loosened his arms and pulled back. 
“Which side is mine?” She asked with a soft laugh as she crawled on the bed. 
“Whichever side you want.” He stood up in time to see her plop down on the bed. 
Unlike hers, his bed wasn’t in the corner of the room so both sides were open. She claimed the spot he normally favored at night, which made his heart skip a beat. Seeing her in his spot, her hair spread out over his pillow, was like a dream. 
He didn’t want to leave her waiting long, so he turned out the light and joined her. There was a street light that offered them a glow, peeping in through the space between the curtains. She watched him slide under the covers and roll over towards her, his greedy hands reaching out for her. 
“C’mere.” He muttered, dragging her closer. 
She sighed in content as she relaxed into his body, her face nestled in the crook of his neck. She liked the feeling of his warm bare skin, it gave her comfort she couldn’t describe, 
“Did you enjoy tonight?” He asked through a heavy exhale. “I know we didn’t do everything we planned.”
“It was lovely. I had a good time.” 
Harry pressed a kiss to her head. “Even though I was a bit of an ass at the restaurant.”
Ivy pulled her hand up, tucking it between their bodies. “You just have to be more patient, but yes, everything was great.” 
He could tell she was comfortable by the steady, slow breathing she was doing. It wouldn’t be much longer before she fell asleep. With one arm around her back and the other hand resting on her waist, he kept her close. His thumb rubbed slowly back and forth, soothing her so easily. 
“We can watch a movie in the morning before Niall gets back.. have the living room to ourselves.” He kept his voice low. 
She hummed. “That sounds good, yeah. Get more cuddles.”
He kissed her again, just to give her as much affection and attention as he could. She must’ve been more worn out than he thought, because she grew silent quickly. He wasn’t necessarily tired, but he wasn’t going to tell her that. And he sure wasn’t about to leave her in the bed alone. He’d lie awake next to her for the rest of his life if he meant he could hold her while she slept. 
There was a lurking thought in his mind, though, that was attributing to him staying awake. He thought he did something wrong during their date, that maybe he didn’t make it perfect. If he did make a mistake, he believed that she would tell him. She’s good at letting him know when he’s acting a certain way or when he’s in the wrong. But she seemed to enjoy everything, even the change of plans. Maybe he was just overthinking it. Disappointing her in any way was something he feared. 
“Harry..” Her soft voice broke the silence. 
“Yeah?” 
She shifted slightly, returning her hand to his waist. His stomach twisted as she gently rubbed her fingertips over his skin. 
“If I ask you something, will you be honest?” 
He licked his lips. “Of course.”
Her lips brushed his skin as she spoke, creating goosebumps and sending chills through him. “Are you mad that I.. stopped us earlier?”
“No, Ivy. I told you it’s fine.” He tightened his hold on her waist. 
“I don’t want you to leave me if I.. take too long to try.” 
He grunted, bringing his hand up to her head. He gently grabbed her jaw and tilted her head back so he could see her. She had a frown on her lips and a sadness in her eyes that made his heart drop.
“Baby, I wouldn’t do that.”
Hearing that pet name made her feel a little better, but that worry was still so intense. She pouted her lips out, her eyes closing to avoid his stare. His thumb rubbed slow circles into her cheek in an attempt to calm her. 
“I want to.. just not right now.”
Being open with people was something he struggled with, but he’s trying hard to be different with her. He wanted to ask her questions and get to the bottom of the issue or of her worry, not just assure her everything is fine. He had to open himself to be there for her. 
“Can I ask you something?” 
Ivy shifted her head back into his neck, wanting to be comfortable. “Yeah.” 
He waited a long moment before saying anything. The topic shouldn’t be one they avoid or are ashamed to talk about. It should be a normal, respectful thing. It was in both of their best interests if they knew certain things about each other. 
“Are you.. are you a virgin?” He asked with a light voice, not wanting to make too big of a fuss over it. 
Ivy let out a shaky breath that hit his skin. It was an inevitable topic that she couldn’t escape. If Harry wanted to know something about her, then she wanted to tell him. Clearly, it’s on his mind - for a reason she’s yet to know. 
“Um, no. Technically, no.” She replied with a gentle sigh. 
“Technically?” 
She dropped her hand to the small of his back, curling her fingers into her palm. “Just did it once.. and it was a while ago.” 
Harry thought maybe he went far enough. What if she thought he was being inappropriate? Despite having doubts, he kept on. 
“Was it.. was it bad?” 
She swallowed, pushing her face further into his neck. “Yeah, kinda.” 
“M’not trying to be.. invasive, just want to understand your mind. Why you might be unsure about it.” Harry was quick to explain. 
She nodded, relaxing her fingers against his back now. “I’m not unsure.. I just know I’m not ready. I want to, trust me, but it’s only been a week.”
“I know, and I don’t want you to feel rushed at all. It’s fine with me.” Harry gave her waist another squeeze. “And I definitely don’t want you to think I’m just trying to get in your pants.”
She let out a soft laugh that eased his nerves. “I know.” 
He tightened his arm around her back as she yawned, sleep threatening to fall over her. She hid her face in his neck, trying her best to bury herself in him. It wasn’t long before she yawned again, causing a smile to shape to his lips. She was even more adorable when she was tired. He wanted to snuggle her closer, but they were as close as humanly possibly already. When Ivy yawned for the third time, he knew she was tired and needed to rest. He didn’t want her to stay up late and worry with him. They could talk in the morning. 
“Go to sleep, baby.” He smiled as he kissed her forehead. “Goodnight.”
“Goodnight, Harry.” Her words came out in a gentle murmur. 
Another kiss was placed on her skin before he closed his eyes, soon joining her in a slumber. 
—•—
Ivy wasn’t sure what was going on as she started to wake up. Her eyes slowly opened, the sun was shining bright through the window. She grunted and turned her face back down where it had been resting, right against Harry’s shoulder. He heard her little noises and felt her stirring. He dropped his phone and reached over to grab onto her. Sometime during the night they ended up like this - him laying on his back with her body draped over his. Her arm was tucked under him and the other around his torso. 
“Finally waking up, love?” He said in a groggy voice as she 
“Hmm.. what time is it?” She mumbled back, lifting her head to get a better look at him. 
He chuckled as he saw her messy hair, her bangs all over the place. “Little past eleven.”
She groaned, letting her face fall back on him. “Why did I sleep so long? We weren’t even up late.”
Harry smiled as her hand moved from his side to the butterfly inked onto his skin. He wasn’t sure if she purposely did that or if her hand just so happened to land there. 
“You slept like an angel, only moved a few times.” 
Her breaths were still slow and heavy. “You’re just comfortable and good at cuddles.”
“Who would’ve known?” He playfully pinched her hip, making her hum. 
“M’glad I just know.. nobody else.” 
There was a certain feeling of pride and triumph that lived in her when it came to knowing she was Harry’s first real relationship, the first person he’s held intimately. It made her feel like a queen, like she had some weird kind of power. Nobody could know him in that way - maybe with other things, but not in this way.
“Jealous, huh?” He teased. 
“Maybe.” She picked her head up again, her pretty eyes finding his. “How long have you been up?”
He shrugged. “Since nine, I think.”
“You could’ve woke me up.. didn’t have to stay here with me.” 
He scoffed, putting on a dramatic expression. “Are you kidding? I wasn’t gonna pass up the opportunity to be next to you, baby.” 
Ivy rolled her eyes and pushed her lips on to his. They shared a few sweet pecks, both laughing as she started to plant a trail down his jaw. His fingers dug into her hip as he tried to drag her closer, but she was already molded onto him. When she caught his gaze again, she gave him a cheeky smile. 
“What movie are we going to watch?” She curiously asked. 
“Whatever you want.”
She sighed, but kept her smile. “Always that answer, hm?”
“You get whatever you want, princess.” He winked, spending her cheeks into a blazing fire. The simplest things drove her wild. 
It wasn’t long before he guided her down the stairs to the kitchen. He offered to make her a quick late breakfast and since she was starving, she didn’t pass on it. It was a nice meal consisting of fried eggs and a few pancakes he mixed from a box. It filled her up so good that she was yawning when Harry joined her on the couch. 
It took a few minutes for her to decide on a movie, but once she did, she got comfortable against him. Her legs were pulled up on the couch, her arm tucked around him. He held onto her shoulders like she was going to slip away if he didn’t. He was less focused with the movie and more concerned with Ivy. There wasn’t anything specific that he could pick up on, but he just had a worry in his gut. Maybe this was normal for people who are in relationships, maybe it was something that just happened. Worry, concern, care, caution - he wasn’t quite sure what to call it.
When he draped his arm over her shoulder, she didn’t hesitate to reach for his hand. He smiled as she started playing with his fingers. Her eyes were glued to the television screen, but her mind was going fuzzy. She wasn’t tired, but rather she was content. It was hard to think of a time when she’d been this relaxed before - there wasn’t a time to reminisce about. He made her calm, happy, and comfortable. He was just sitting next to her with his hand around her, yet it felt like her world was exploding with euphoria and butterflies and rainbows and everything happy. Was it love? She couldn’t determine that just yet. 
Harry didn’t realize he had dozed off until the sound of keys rattling in the door woke him. He grunted, trying to move his hand but Ivy’s grip was too strong. He stopped attempting and let her keep hold of him. She was awake, despite feeling so peaceful she never fell asleep. The movie wasn’t long from its end. 
“You alright?” He mumbled just as Niall opened the door. 
“Mhm.” She squeezed his fingers. 
Niall appeared next to them, an amused look on his face as he saw Harry’s expression. “Look like you just woke up.”
“I’ve been up.” Harry sighed back. 
“He was just snoring.” Ivy chimed in with a laugh, tugging on his hand. 
Harry smiled, amused by her comeback. He didn’t defend himself, only because he knew it was true. Niall didn’t bother them anymore, he waved them off as he mentioned going to his room. Before he exited, though, he reminded Harry that he needed to practice one of the songs they would be playing later on that night. 
“Are you hungry?” Harry asked her, a deep exhale following his question. 
“No, I’m okay.” 
“Guess I need to go mess around on the guitar.” He didn’t seem excited. 
Ivy sat up, letting go of his fingers so he could stretch his arms out. “Do you need me to go home?”
He furrowed his brows and reached up to grab her waist. “What? No.”
“Don’t you need to be alone?”
“Who said I needed to be alone?” He said with a chuckle, sitting up to join her on the edge of the couch. “You can stay, babe.”
Every time he used one of those sweet names her heart would swell and butterflies swarmed in her stomach. She smiled as she felt her cheeks warm up. 
“I don’t want to be in the way.”
“You won’t be.” He closed the space they shared and gently pushed his lips on her. “I promise.”
Ivy let him kiss her for a few moments, humming as he grabbed her jaw to hold her still. As much as he wanted to swallow her whole, he knew he had to get upstairs. He let her go and took her hand to lead her upstairs. 
She was quite curious about his ability to play the guitar, something about it was so interesting and intriguing. She wasn’t opposed to watching him, in fact she was excited to. The possibility of him wanting her to leave almost felt like a fear. She didn’t want to miss out on the experience of watching him. 
When they got to his room, he told her she could do whatever she wanted while he got the guitar off of the stand. He pulled out an amp and set everything up. Ivy chose to stand in the middle of his room on his rug, her hands folded behind her back as she observed his every move. As he turned around, he didn't expect to see her standing still. She grinned at him, pulling a chuckle out of his mouth. He thought she was just the most adorable thing ever. 
“Can I sit here?” She asked. 
Harry sat down in his desk chair after he turned it to face the amp. He gave her a nod and a smile, not sure why she was so giddy about this. Maybe she thought it was cool that he could play the guitar? It wasn’t a revolutionary thing in his mind, but maybe she thought so. 
Ivy sat down on the rug, just a few feet from him, with her eyes stuck on his hands as he rested his fingers over the strings. He glanced around at everything to make sure it was all set up properly. When he was sure that he did everything right, he ran his fingers down the strings, the sound spilling from the amplifier.
Although he was very familiar and comfortable with the song he was about to practice, he had never had such an intense audience before. He’s played plenty of shows, done many band practices, had Niall’s hard stare watching every move of his finger when he first learned to play - but nobody was as intimidating as Ivy. He was feeling anxiety pour into his veins. What if he messed up and she thought he was stupid? The thoughts were endless all of a sudden. 
Harry was trying not to look directly at her, but it was hard to resist her. She was sitting with her legs crossed and her hands resting in her lap. Those sparkling eyes were fixed on him as she waited patiently for him to start. He took a deep breath and slowly pushed it out, not sure how this was going to go. If he thought about her any longer, his heart was going to explode. 
He didn’t tell her what song he had to work on, but she knew what it was the moment he started the opening chords. She smiled big as he played the riff so confidently. He seemed very sure of himself. While she had only been to a few shows, she knew she’d never heard them play this song before. Niall wanted to add it last time but they didn’t end up doing it, so he told everyone yesterday after confirming they’d do the show tonight that he wanted to perform it. Ivy quite enjoyed the Def Leppard song and she was excited to see them do it live later on. 
It had been a long time since they last did the song, so Harry was trying to loosen up his memory of it. He didn’t do the lead singing during the song, Niall preferred to do it instead. Right now it was almost like he suddenly forgot what he was supposed to be doing. His fingers slid off the strings, making him groan and shake his head. He should’ve grabbed a pick but he forgot to. He looked down at Ivy, whose eyes were just as wide as when he started. She smiled sweetly, hoping to give him some silent encouragement. 
He started over from the start. Everything was going well, he even got further than he did in his first attempt. But that all came crashing down when his eyes fell down on her and she was biting down on her lip, still smiling like she was witnessing a miracle. She was so happy to be in the room with him, and to be able to watch him do this just made her even more excited. Ivy was just as obsessed with him as he was of her, and right now that was obvious. 
“Fuck.” He uttered under his breath as he missed a few chords. He tried to keep going, but it messed up his momentum. 
Harry shook his hand, trying to loosen up his fingers. Maybe he was a bit rusty. He picked up where he messed up, getting it correct this time. He kept going, tapping his foot to keep his pace right. He tried to keep his eyes glued to his guitar, but Ivy being in the room was forcing him to think about her and not the song. He shot his eyes to her again, her cheeks were rosy and her hands were clasped together. She was so entertained and content with this, yet he was struggling to keep ahold of himself. 
“Damn it.” His curse was a bit louder than the last one. 
Her smile fell down to a subtle frown. Harry pushed his hand through his hair, pushing it out of his face. He wasn’t sure why he was fucking up so much - well, he knew, he just didn’t want to admit it or seem like he was blaming her. She wasn’t doing anything. She’s literally just sitting there watching him, her lips sealed. There were no audible distractions, she wasn’t walking around or calling his name. She was just there. He thought it would almost be better and easier if she were jumping around or messing with stuff in his room or doing anything other than putting her pretty eyes on him. 
“Am I distracting you?” Ivy asked in a soft voice, fearful of the answer. 
“No.” He quickly replied. 
“You keep messing up.” 
A laugh slipped out with his breath. “Yeah, thanks, love. I know.” 
“Sorry.” She mumbled back, her eyes falling down to her own hands. 
“Nothing to be sorry about.” He sighed, disappointed in himself for making her suddenly uncomfortable and nervous. He had a way of doing that, unfortunately. 
Ivy’s hair fell over her shoulder as she hung her head. She wasn’t trying to be in his way, she even offered to leave before he ever started. Perhaps he was just being too nice to her. He should’ve told her to go home. She felt an uneasy feeling building in her stomach. 
Of course, seeing her like that made him feel like shit. He propped his guitar against his desk and got into the floor with her. She huffed as he got closer, slipping his hand onto her neck to get her to look up. She didn’t at first, though, she didn’t want to be in the way. 
“You’re a great distraction, babe. Just so pretty.. can’t stop looking at you.” He tilted her head up and pressed his lips to the corner of her mouth. “Don’t be sad, Ivy.” 
The way he said her name made her heart drop. She frowned harder, a confusing sadness filling her up. Harry pressed another kiss to the spot, not moving his lips away at all. 
“What’s the matter, sweet girl? You were just smiling so big f’me.” 
She let out a whimper as she curled her fingers around his wrist. “I’m in the way.” 
“No, you aren’t.” 
“I should go home for a while.” 
Harry shook his head. “I don’t want you to go home yet.” 
“I’m making you mess up. I.. I don’t want you to get mad.” She kept her voice so light and gentle, it broke his heart to hear her speak that way - almost like she was afraid. “Don’t like it when you get mad.” 
He was upset with his own actions now. He had a tendency to lose his control and unfortunately Ivy was too familiar with it. But he didn’t feel that way right now, he wouldn’t do that to her over this simple situation. She wasn’t doing anything wrong. 
“M’not gonna get mad at you, baby. You just make me a little nervous, s’all.” 
She closed her eyes. “Is it okay if I go home?” 
Had he done too much? Had he messed up again? Maybe he was making an expression that made her feel this way, something he didn’t notice he was doing. Or perhaps she was just nervous about a potential blow up from him? There had to be a reason she was so upset with him, but he had no clue what he did. Was it too complicated for her to explain and for him to understand? 
“I.. I really don’t want you to go.” He leaned back some to give her space, but he kept his hand where it was and she didn’t try to let it go. 
“We’ll be together later, though.” 
“Ivy, what’s wrong? I.. I’m sorry, I don’t know what I did.” Harry’s brows fell as worry sank into him. “Why do you wanna go?” 
It was hard for her to tame her wandering mind, and it was disappointing to know that she had failed to control it yet again. She dropped her gaze down to her own legs, trying to vanish into thin air. She didn’t want to confront her fears and admit to Harry what was on her mind, but there was no escape. 
“Because, I’m in the way and you won’t tell me that. You don’t wanna hurt my feelings and that’s okay, but.. I know I’m in the way and you need to practice.” Her explanation was heartbreaking for him. 
Maybe it was true in some sense. She wasn’t literally in the way or doing something to purposely distract or annoy him, but her presence made it hard for him to focus on anything else. There was nothing done to put blame on. She didn’t purposely do anything to him. It was his fault, if anything. He can’t focus on anything else when Ivy is around. She took up every inch of his mind, filled in every space. She meant everything to him, how could he try to put his attention on something else? Maybe her being here would make things difficult. Was it safer for their relationship and his mood to let her go for a while? 
“I guess if you want to go, you can. I can’t make you stay.” He exhaled slowly, wishing this was happening another way. 
“I’m sorry, Harry.” 
He smiled, shaking his head lightly in disbelief. “You always apologize when you don’t need to.” 
“I can’t help it.” She grinned back, glad to see that he was at least appearing to be okay with this. 
“I, um, I can drive you home and.. you can have the afternoon to yourself until tonight. I’ll pick you up.” He offered, not sure of what else to say. 
“I can get Emma to come get me, so you can keep practicing.” 
He thought about debating it with her and offering his services over and over until she agreed, but he chose not to. There was no point in adding any fuel to this small, simmered down fire. 
“I’ll text her.” She grabbed her phone from the spot on the rug where she abandoned it earlier. 
Harry watched as her fingers tapped on the screen. Although it bothered him to know she was wanting to leave, he completely understood why. He just hated it. He didn’t want her to go so soon. They hadn’t been able to spend much time together and this weekend was supposed to make up for it. He felt a bit of irritation towards Niall for pressuring him to practice the song. He had sent Harry multiple texts the past two days insisting and reminding him to practice. It was his own fault that he waited until the day of the show to do it. 
“Okay, she said she’ll be here in about twenty minutes.” Ivy tossed the phone back down and turned her attention back to Harry. 
“Hey, m’not mad at you, okay?” 
She felt a lump start to form in her throat. “I know.” 
“I promise. I don’t want you to think you did something wrong.” 
Ivy didn’t really want to discuss it, in fear that it would lead to a disagreement or a misunderstanding, so she just reached down and took hold of his other hand. She leaned into him, her lips pushing into his. He hummed gently as she held the kiss for a few long seconds. 
“Can we kiss until it’s time for me to go?” She asked it so innocently. 
He smirked, releasing her hand to grab onto her waist. “Definitely.” 
She moved onto her knees, giggling as she grabbed his face on either side to pull his head back. He groaned into her mouth when she shoved her tongue past his lips. He was starting to believe that she was getting more comfortable and confident with him, that she was doing what she wanted to do rather than waiting for him to do it. 
There was a desire to relax into her, to lay her down on the floor and show her how special she was to him - but he couldn't do that. She didn’t want that yet. So, he let his hands move up and down her waist, toying with her hips without going too far. While he was hesitant with his placement, Ivy was running her hands all over him. She kept coming back to his neck to hold him on either side, her thumbs pushing up under his ears. She loved to feel him in her hold, loved to know she had him all to herself. There was a sense of possession she felt. Harry had no issue with whatever she wanted to do. She was in control. 
“Mm, Harry.” She gasped as she pulled back from his mouth. “I.. I wanna try something.” 
He lifted his brows as his eyes opened. “Whatever you want.” 
She nodded gently, a smile shaping to her lips as she pictured the idea in her mind. It was something she wanted to do so badly, something that was becoming irresistible. He waited quietly for her to tell him, figuring she would since she mentioned it. 
“Promise, anything?” 
Harry smirked and pressed a kiss to her lips. “Anything is fine with me, promise.” 
Ivy took that as permission and approval. She grabbed his face by his jaw again and yanked him back to her. His hand slid to the small of her back as she started the kissing back. He was confused at first because nothing seemed to be different. He was leading the kiss, his tongue sweeping through her mouth so easily. It wasn’t until she moved her hand to the side of his head did he realize what she wanted to do. 
She slid her fingers into his hair, scraping her nails against his scalp as she guided her touch to the back of his head. She wrapped her fingers in his hair and gave him a light tug. He let out a light moan, the feeling of her fingers in his hair was doing incredible things to him. He squeezed her waist tight and spread his fingers out on her back, hoping to send her a sign that he was enjoying it. Ivy couldn’t stop herself from pulling harder after a few minutes. At first, she was only going to use one hand, but as she realized how much she liked doing it, she added her other one. Harry let out a groan as she raked her fingers through his hair and tugged at his roots. 
There was a strange feeling she was experiencing as she did it. Her brain interpreted it as some kind of comfort, like doing this was giving her a boost of serotonin. Harry’s long, curled hair was one of favorite things about this physical appearance, and being able to do whatever she wanted with it felt surreal. Neither of them were certain or aware of how long it went on, but eventually Ivy had to take a break to wipe the corners of her mouth off. Harry chuckled as she carefully slid her hands out of his hair. 
“Was.. was that too much?” She asked as she relaxed her hands on his shoulders. 
“No, that was pretty nice.” He licked his lips, flicking his eyes down to her mouth. 
She took a deep breath and slowly pushed it out. “I really like your hair.” 
“Yeah? It’s all yours to pull on, baby.” He wasn’t shocked to see her cheeks flush up and her eyes dart away from his. 
“I wish I wasn’t so scared.” Her lips pouted out. 
Harry gripped either side of her waist. “You don’t have to be, Ivy, but it’s okay to be.” 
She pushed out a huff and rested her temple against his. “Soon.. but not now.” 
It was unfortunate that Emma drove a bit faster than Ivy expected she would. When she called to say she was outside, Harry mustered up his courage to fake a smile and assure Ivy he would be fine. They shared a tight hug, swaying from side to side for a few long, drug out moments. Harry kissed her forehead, then her cheeks, then all over her face until she was giggling and trying to fight him off. It ended with a kiss to her lips, one that he wished would’ve lasted forever. Before he knew it, she went out the door with her bag and headed home. 
Niall had stepped outside to talk to Emma while she waited for Ivy, so he joined Harry in the kitchen once the girls drove off. He could tell Harry wasn’t happy and that his mood from this morning had greatly shifted. He had a straight line on his lips and no expression on his face. He was back to his usual self, who he was when he wasn’t with Ivy. Niall didn’t bother him, instead he went back to his room to give him as much space as he needed. The last thing Niall wanted to deal with tonight was Harry’s sour mood at their show. If he let him be, maybe he’ll get over it. 
“So, how was your date?” Emma grinned as she quickly glanced over at Ivy. 
“It was nice. We had a good time.” 
She hummed back, then brought up something she had been curious about. “Did you guys.. do anything after?” 
Ivy shrugged. “Just went home and talked.”
“Talked? That’s all?” Emma laughed a little. “No like.. kissing or anything?” 
There was a pinch in her stomach as she replayed the memories of her time with Harry in her mind. It didn’t last long enough and it was her fault. Sure, they’d be together in a few hours and will be able to spend another night together in his bed, but he wasn't here now. It hurt her more than she was willing to admit. She shouldn’t have let her anxiety get to her. She could still be sitting in his floor watching him play his guitar. 
“Yeah, just that. I don’t really want to talk about it right now.” 
“Did you have a fight?”
Ivy shook her head. “No.. we didn’t.”
It wasn’t that she didn’t want to talk to Emma about it, it was more so she was hoping to forget it all happened. Not the date or the cuddling and kissing, but the disagreement they had. No matter how good things seemed to be with him, she couldn’t shake her worry off. 
“Okay, sorry.” 
She was battling the thoughts. She knew it would do no good to bottle it up. Emma was her best friend, she knew how to help her if she needed it. Maybe she could just vent and Emma would listen without offering any advice. Ivy didn’t want advice, she just needed someone to know what was going on. She opted to stay silent. 
When she got back home, she decided it would be a good idea to take a shower and handle all of her personal business before it was time to get ready for tonight’s show. She had a few hours, Harry had reminded her of what time he’d pick her up before she left, but she wanted to make sure she got everything done with plenty of time to spare. That extra time would definitely be spent on an internal freak out. She would worry about her hair, her outfit, her makeup, her skin, every single thing. Not only that, but she’d get anxious about being around Harry. It was almost like he was still that person that hated to be around her, or pretended to hate it. She had to constantly remind herself that he wasn’t that way anymore, and neither was she. 
Her shower was incredibly relaxing. The steaming hot water washed away all of the tension she held in her body. It was like a refreshing start for the evening. She would be lying if she told someone she wasn’t thinking about Harry every second since being apart from him. She hated herself for being so stubborn, for wanting to leave him when it would’ve just been so easy to stay there. She could’ve gone downstairs and watched something or went to his bed and laid down on her phone while he practiced. There was no need to run away, yet she did. 
That horrible cycle of anxiety and worry was unstoppable. As she combed the conditioner through her hair, she reminded herself of how her fingers wrapped into Harry’s hair. She wondered what he was up to, if he was still practicing or if he even started back once she left. As she ran the razor up her legs, she thought about how Harry had gripped her through her pants, kneaded her flesh hard. She had really liked the way it felt when he touched her that way, touch her like she was all his - because she was, of course. She was all his and she wanted him to know that.. 
When she washed herself in a certain place, her mind started to drift off. She imagined how it would play out, how Harry would coax her into it, how he’d guide her to the bed and slowly start the whole process. Maybe he would be gentle with her, or perhaps he preferred it rougher? She didn’t know for sure, but she pictured him being more gentle at first, easing into it since he knew she had very little experience. Harry was very possessive with his hands. She thought about how he’d grab her and squeeze her all over. And his lips, she couldn’t ever stop thinking about kissing him. What would it be like to have his lips trail below her chin, to her neck and under her collarbones? It was an intriguing idea, would he tend to each of her breasts before kissing down her stomach? How would it feel to have his lips linger around her pelvis? 
Ivy snapped out of her trance as she realized her fingers were circling her clit. She blinked a few times, trying to bring herself back to reality. She withdrew her hand and picked up on where she left off with bathing herself. She wasn’t intending on doing that now, she had to get this shower over soon. That brought back memories of the handful of times she found herself thinking about him and slipping her hand into her panties. Most of the instances occurred before they made things official, before he even spent that time with her that night. No matter when it happened, she quite enjoyed it each time. 
Figuring out what to wear was more of a challenge than it had ever been, even more than last night when she had to choose a dress for their date. Currently, she was trying on a square cut top, the hem lined with tiny lace and a pair of light denim shorts. There was a thin cardigan she paired with it just for coverage. The straps of the top were short, they didn’t come down her arms very far at all. She wondered if her cleavage was too much. She posed in the mirror, bending forward to see if too much would show. It was definitely more than she usually put on display, but the thought of Harry actually liking it was making her lean more towards it. She had to remember she wasn’t dressing for everyone else, just for herself and Harry. If she liked it, or if he liked it, then she’d be fine. 
“Do you think a skirt would look better with this?” She turned to face Emma, who was seated on her bed with her eyes glued to Ivy. She wanted to be as much help as possible. 
“You can try one. Maybe one of those faux leather ones you have, those are always cute on you.” Emma suggested, trying to picture the combination in her hand. “Aren’t you wanting to wear heels? I think they’ll go better with a skirt.”
Ivy walked to her closet, sighing heavily as she realized Emma was right. She had been so worried about her top that she forgot about the shoes she planned on wearing. Her favorite part of any outfit was her shoes, and tonight she had picked a pair of tall, chunky black heels with skinny ankle straps and closed toes. They would make her significantly taller than her normal height, like most of her heels did. She loved the way she looked in them, and how comfortable it was walking in a thicker heel. Shoes were never something she was unsure about. 
She came back to the middle of the room with a few options in her hands. She tossed them down on her vanity chair and looked over at Emma. 
“A flared or a tight one?” 
“Try a tight one first.” Emma smirked, prepared to convince her to chose that one. 
Ivy was her best friend, and she had finally gotten herself into a relationship. She wanted Ivy to be the hottest she possibly could for Harry, especially while going out. She knew that if Ivy walked out of the house in a garbage bag Harry would still be in love with her, but she wanted her to wear something eye catching. Emma was trying her best to encourage Ivy’s sexual exploration, without actually saying anything about it, so maybe she could channel it though the clothing. If she felt confident, felt hot, and knew Harry thought she looked stunning, then maybe she’d ease up on her worry and go there with him. Emma wasn’t going to pressure her or make fun of her for not trying, but she knew she’d love it - especially with Harry - if she gave herself the chance to try. 
Ivy rolled her eyes with a smile as she caught on to Emma’s intentions. She knew Emma was going to push for her to wear the hottest items, she always did that whenever Ivy asked for advice or assistance. She picked the black skirt with a small slit on each thigh. She knew black would look the best with her shoes and her light purple shirt. An excited cheer and clap came from Emma as Ivy pulled the skirt up her legs, adjusting it on her waist. 
“It’s definitely tight.” She frowned slightly when she turned towards the mirror. 
In actuality, she looked perfectly fine. But to her, it looked like a mess. She gulped quietly and just stared at her stomach. Was it too unflattering? She felt like it was definitely drawing a lot of attention to a place she didn't want it. 
“You look great! I love it.” Emma said with a hopeful tone, wishing that Ivy would stop being so insecure. 
“Harry’s going to think I’ve gained twenty pounds since this morning.” She lowered her eyes down to her thighs. The rest of her body was fine, she didn’t have any bad thoughts about anything. It was just her stomach. “I don’t like this.” 
“Ivy, c’mon, you look beautiful.” Emma jumped up and quickly ran over to her the second Ivy started to pull down the skirt. 
Emma stopped her and fixed it back to where it was. She grabbed Ivy by her hips and rotated her back to face the mirror. Her hands gripped Ivy’s waist as she stared into the mirror. 
“You look stunning. You always look stunning.” 
Ivy shook her head. “I look fat.” 
When she pressed her hand over her stomach, Emma grabbed her wrist and pulled it back down. “Stop, you look perfectly fine.” 
“Harry’s not gonna want to have sex with me.” Her words were soft, barely audible. 
Emma felt her own heart sink as she saw the sadness coat Ivy’s features - the same ones she knew Harry adored more than anything. It was obvious to see that Ivy was no longer feeling any sort of confidence. She was starting to consider not even going tonight. Everything was going wrong. 
“Did something happen with him?” Emma kept her voice just as light, in case Ivy was close to breaking down. She didn’t want her to ruin her makeup. 
“What do you mean?” 
Emma licked her lips and stepped between the mirror and Ivy, who’s eyes were fighting back tears at this point. “Did you try.. something and he.. didn’t want to?” 
Ivy dropped her eyes to the floor. She wasn’t sure what to say, so she tried to occupy her mind by picking at her nail polish. She had just freshly painted them today after her shower, but she didn’t care. Emma thought of the worse possible answers that could come from Ivy’s mouth, and it was all making her very angry. She furrowed her brows and carefully grabbed both of Ivy’s elbows to get her attention. When her eyes lifted, Emma saw how watery they had become. She shook her head gently, silently telling her not to get upset. 
“I’ll fucking kill him myself if he said something about your body.” Emma was serious. 
Ivy frowned again. “No, it wasn’t that.”
“Ivy.” 
She didn’t believe her. Emma was sure that something must have been said to make Ivy feel this way. She had been anxious about her outfits before, but this felt different. Emma was afraid of what had happened.  
“He didn’t say anything.” Ivy defended him, because he had truly done nothing wrong. “He wanted to. I stopped him.. again.” 
“Again?” 
She looked away from Emma, too embarrassed to face her. “He wanted to.. the night he came over here. He.. he wants to, so bad, Emma.” 
“It doesn't matter if he does. You have to want to, too.” 
Ivy let out a humorous laugh that resembled more of a sigh. “I do.” 
“So what happened then? If you want to and he wants to.. then what? Are you just trying to wait a bit longer?” 
Ivy shrugged, she really didn’t know how to explain it. “It’s only been a week. I.. I would feel like a whore if I tried to do it this fast.”
Emma sighed. “That’s not what a whore is, Ivy. You aren’t going out and hooking up every night. If you want to do that with him, then you can. He’s your boyfriend.” 
Her lip was quivering but she was fighting so hard to stop it. She spent so long trying to finalize her makeup look, she didn’t want to have to do any touch ups to it. 
“When he tried.. what was he doing? Just kissing you?” Emma wasn’t asking to be nosy, unlike earlier in the day when she wanted all the details. 
Ivy nodded. “Just.. kissing and touching. We were on the couch and.. I was on his lap. It.. it was perfect. I stopped him.” 
Emma was familiar with Ivy’s small amount of experience, and she easily remembers how upset Ivy was after her first time. They didn’t know each other then, but the story had been told to her. She was extremely insecure and afraid, and the fact that it sucked from the start to the end didn’t help. Why put so much effort into doing it again if it’s just going to be a bad experience? 
“When he touched you.. did you feel bad? Like, did you feel insecure?” 
Ivy felt her heart flutter as she recalled how it made her feel. There was nothing wrong with what Harry did. She loved every second of it. There was just something inside of her that made her stop, that made her afraid. 
“No, I actually didn’t. He touched me like.. like he loved everything about me. He always does.” 
Emma smiled genuinely. “That’s because he does, Ivy.”
Ivy pulled back from her grip and walked to her vanity. She sat down, pushing aside the skirts to rest her arms. She wanted to fall apart and sob, but she knew Harry would be here in less than half an hour and she couldn’t fix her makeup that quick. She had to pull it together. 
“Listen to me.” Emma started with a gentle sigh, she stayed put. “I understand that you think it’s too soon.. and there’s nothing wrong with that. But don’t let that ruin it for you. You spent a long time trying to figure out if you liked him or not. And I know you do, so much.” 
Ivy rolled her lips in, fully aware that she’d have to reapply her lip gloss before she left. It was frustrating to feel this way. She was so close to being dressed, to being ready to go have fun. Her brain got in the way, her mind took over and spiraled again. 
“Just.. don’t be scared. Harry’s in love with you.. he’s not going to care about how you look in the skirt. You don’t have to have sex with him tonight, but don’t be so nervous to let him do things with you. And, I know you get shy, but.. talk to him. Tell him what you want, how you feel.” 
All she could do was sit there. She couldn’t come up with anything to say or even an expression to put on. Emma grabbed the pair of heels she had sat out for the night and brought them to her. She dropped them on the vanity and huffed. 
“You look sexy. Stop being so sad. Harry’s going to explode when he sees you.” 
With those encouraging words, Emma left her room to give her some space. It was difficult to gather her thoughts, but she had no other choice. She took a few slow, deep breaths while staring at the heels. If anything, she was perfectly confident in her choice of shoes. Perhaps she could use that to boost her mood and give her the confidence back. A wild thought popped in her mind. If she was so worried, she could always call Harry to get his thoughts on her outfit. Surely he’d be honest, right? Ivy groaned to herself, her own thoughts were beginning to irritate her. She didn't need his approval, or Emma’s, or anyone’s. She snatched the tube of lipgloss out of her makeup bag and applied a new layer. 
She returned in front of the mirror after slipping and securing the heels on her feet. She flipped her long, slightly curled hair over her shoulders and smiled at her reflection. Harry loved her hair - he thought it was just so pretty and soft and shiny. She looked at her lips, smirking to herself. Harry loved kissing her - god, he loved it more than anything. Her lips were so thick and soft, her tongue so warm and the taste of her mouth was like heaven. The more she looked at each part of herself, the more she thought about Harry and how much he seemed to adore everything about her. Slowly, but surely, that confidence was building back up. 
It wasn’t her first time pacing at the door waiting for Harry to show up, but it seemed to get harder with each time. Ivy was alone in the house, Emma had already left with Niall. She would be coming back here, while Ivy would return to Harry’s place after the night was over. Her duffle bag was packed with similar things that it was full of the night before. She was trying to control her breathing before she got in the car with him. The last thing she wanted was for him to ask her if she was okay. She didn’t want to relive what happened earlier in her bedroom, she just wanted to have a good night. The ding of her phone made her heart jump. She looked down at the screen, a nervous feeling sinking into her bones. 
Harry: coming to the door now 
Not even thirty seconds had passed before Harry knocked on the door. Ivy composed herself the best she could and opened the door for him. She was met with his grin, but it wasn’t enough to distract her from how handsome he looked. He wasn’t wearing his usual dark t-shirt, instead he was wearing one the shirts he never buttons all the way up and pushes the sleeves to his elbows. She smiled nervously as he looked down her body slowly, then drug his eyes back up. 
“Damn, you look incredible.” He told her with a gentle smirk, reaching for her body. 
She let him grab her and yank her closer. The feeling of his warm body against hers made her worries fade. Her hand gripped his waist on either side as he mumbled another compliment in her ear before pressing a kiss to her jaw. 
“I missed you.” He added, pulling back to look at her. 
“I missed you.” She smiled a bit bigger this time. “Sorry I left so soon.” 
He shook his head and pushed his lips onto hers. She moaned softly into the kiss, wishing it would’ve lasted longer. She barely got a taste of him before he leaned back. 
“Don’t worry about all that. I’ve got you now, hm.” 
Ivy let out a breath as she checked the time on her phone. “We should probably go.” 
“Do you have everything?” He asked, glancing down at the duffle bag that was discarded on the floor. 
“Yeah, I’m ready.” 
Once she closed the door, Harry carried her bag to the car and tossed it in the back seat. He made sure to open her door and help her in, telling her yet again how good she looked. It was hard to resist her face turning to a blushing mess, his words just did that to her. 
The ride there was peaceful. She held onto his hand as he drove, his eyes staying on the road for the most part. He let her mess with the radio until she found something for them to listen to. Ivy would give him a glance every now and then, just making sure that he was okay. He didn’t appear to be in any bad mood, he was rather pleasant. She was glad, because there was that worry in the back of her mind that he was upset about what happened earlier. There was no way she was going to let something ruin her night, so she ignored all that and just gave him quick glances. 
At one point, she found herself staring at him for longer than just a moment. She admired his profile, how perfect he looked with the street lights and the moon glowing on his face. She thought he was just the most gorgeous thing ever. He didn’t have a hair out of place. His cologne filled the car - she loved it so much she’d be willing to drown in it. 
When they arrived, Harry told her he needed to get inside within a few minutes to set up everything and do a quick sound check. Ivy was willing to let him go whenever he had, but it seemed like he didn’t want to. He helped her out of the car and immediately grabbed onto her waist. He pushed her against the car, his height towering over her despite the heels she had on her feet. She pressed her hand to his chest, smiling sweetly as he stared down at her. 
“I thought you had to get inside?” She said with a soft laugh as he leaned down to press a kiss to the corner of her mouth. 
“I can’t leave you yet.” He muttered back, playfully pecking her cheek a few times. 
“You said everyone was waiting on you.” 
He rolled his eyes and let a smirk cover his mouth. “They can wait a bit longer.” 
The softest moan slipped out of her mouth as he slotted his lips with hers. Within a second, they were swallowing each other whole. Harry’s hand fell down to her hip and he gripped her tight, pushing himself against her. There were sparks flying around them as they got lost in the kiss. Ivy was fighting her thoughts, and quickly losing because it wasn’t long until she was dizzy and mindless. The sounds of their mouths meeting and moving together always made her stomach fill with butterflies. It was so intimate, so special to hear it each time. Harry grunted when she reached up to grab onto his hair. Her fingers scraped his skin as she got a handful in the back, tugging hard. He wanted her to grab it all and do whatever she desired. It was taking every ounce of control he had to prevent himself from growing in his pants. He didn’t know it, but Ivy was creating a small damp spot in her underwear - something that happened so easily when he did certain things to her. 
Harry grunted when she finally slowed the kiss and pulled her lips away. A light gasp came from her as she realized she could breathe better now. He pecked her cheek again, sighing gently as he realized they needed to get inside soon. As much as he’d rather spend every second with her, he couldn’t do that yet. 
“M’gonna have a hard time keeping my hands off you later.” He said with a chuckle as she rubbed her hand back down his chest, stopping so she could settle it on his waist. She loved touching him there. 
“I don’t want you to keep your hands off me.” She bit down on her lip as she smiled, a redness covering her face. 
“Well, I.. I don’t want to do too much, y’know.” 
Ivy gave him a small shake of her head. “I want you to do whatever you think I’d like. I don’t.. wanna be scared anymore.” 
He licked his lips, tasting a bit of her gloss that he stole off her mouth. “As long as you’re honest with me. Tell me what you like, stop me when you don’t want it, all that, okay?” 
“I will.”
He pushed out a big exhale and gestured his head towards the building. “Guess we should go in?” 
Ivy replied with a nod, but when he took hold of her hand to walk her across the parking lot, she stopped him by grabbing his wrist and tugging on his arm. He looked back at her, not sure what she was doing. 
“Wait.” 
Harry turned back to face her, a concerned look on his face. “What is it?” 
All she could think about was the speech Emma gave her in her room earlier. There was no need to be so shy with Harry anymore. He wasn’t some stranger she didn’t like or a person who wasn’t considered her friend. He was way more than she ever imagined he would be. Harry had become her world, he had taken up every inch of space in her mind and in her heart. She could talk to him if something was on her mind, he’d listen with no hesitation. 
“Do you think I look alright?” She blurted the question out before ensuring herself she wanted to say it. 
He furrowed his brows and squeezed her tight. “You’re gorgeous.” 
She swallowed loud enough for him to hear. “Do.. do you like my outfit?” 
Harry moved one hand up to her face, cupping her jaw to keep her head steady. “Your outfit is perfect. I love it. You look incredible, as always.” 
“Okay.” She nodded lightly, not sure if she believed it or not. Maybe he was telling her the truth, but she didn’t agree with it. “I.. I was worried you wouldn’t.” 
Harry frowned. “Baby, why wouldn’t I?” 
“I dunno.” She uttered back. 
He planted a kiss on the center of her forehead, pushing her bangs into her skin. “Don’t ever worry about something like that, alright? I don’t want you to think that ever again.” 
Hearing that was a relief. A weight lifted from her shoulders. His calm, low tone was comforting to her worried nerves. It was no lie, he would never think bad of anything she decided to wear. Ivy felt better now, and she hoped her happy feeling carried on throughout the night. 
The taste of the alcohol slipping down her throat made her hum. Her eyes closed as she savored the sweet pineapple flavor accompanied by the burn of the liquor. Emma was standing next to her, talking about her recent date with Niall, as they waited for the show to start. Ivy was doing her best to listen, but she was spiraling in her own mind. For once, it wasn't anything bad or frustrating on her mind. Instead, it was all good things. She was thinking about the kiss they shared in the parking lot and how she’d get to see Harry on the stage soon. She thought about the promise they made, that alone was making all the good chemicals ramp up and rush through her body. The feeling of his hands on her body would return soon, and she was beyond ready. 
“I see you’re feeling better.” Emma said with a lift of her brow as Ivy opened her eyes. 
“Yeah, me and Harry talked.” She nodded, glancing down at the ice swirling in her plastic cup. “He likes what I’m wearing.” 
Emma dramatically sighed and threw her hand up. “Of course he does! You’re hot!” 
Ivy rolled her eyes and smiled. “Whatever you say.” 
“Whatever Harry says.” She grinned back, teasing Ivy was kind of fun but she’d never mean it in a bad way. 
“I told him I.. I want him to touch me more, like, um, he did last night.” 
Emma sipped her drink then put on a proud smile. “You’re being brave. I’m proud.” 
“I just want him to.. to do what he thinks I might like. Maybe that way it’ll be easier for me to realize or decide when I’m ready.” 
Emma nodded as she listened, completely agreeing with what Ivy was saying. She was rather glad that Ivy had come around to this idea. She knew that her lack of experience was hard to handle, but if Ivy would let herself open up, she might enjoy what could come from it. 
“So you don’t think you’re ready right now?” 
Ivy let out a sigh as she thought about that. She wasn't really sure because she had no idea what to expect. How can you know if you're ready? Do you just have some sort of feeling or little voice in your head screaming that it was time? How do you figure out that sort of thing if you’ve only had one bad experience? 
“I don’t know. What am I supposed to feel? How can I tell?” 
Emma swallowed the rest of her drink and took a deep breath, prepared to help Ivy out as much as she could. “Well, for me with Niall.. it was like I was comfortable and relaxed. I knew I wanted to share that with him. The best way I can put it is.. my body told me.” 
“See, I don’t understand that. I keep getting these feelings but then I get scared.” 
“What feelings?” 
She knew she could only tell Emma this and not Harry. She was open to talking about things with Harry, but this specific thing was not going to be one of them. It was very embarrassing for her to admit to herself, let alone say out loud to him. She was intending on keeping this between her and Emma only. 
“I get.. y’know.. wet, or whatever.” She shrugged, trying to remain as nonchalant as possible. 
Emma smirked, cocking a brow at her. “Wet? So.. just when he touches you or what?” 
“Even when he just gives me a quick kiss. I.. My stomach drops and.. I have this burning feeling.” 
“Hate to say it to you, girl, but.. I think your body is trying to tell you that it’s time.” Emma was being honest. 
“It’s only been a week!” 
“But you’ve known him for a while.” Emma reminded her, making her eyes widen as she emphasized it. “You’ve been wanting him. Admit it to yourself.” 
Ivy’s eyes rolled, a gentle shake of her head followed. “It’s too soon.” 
“Then relax! Just kiss the boy and have fun with him until you’re ready.” Emma gave her hand a quick squeeze. “Trust me, he’s too obsessed with you to go anywhere. You have plenty of time.” 
Maybe Emma was right and Ivy was just overthinking everything. Harry definitely had a possessive nature when it came to her. He wasn't going to just let her slip away or disappear himself. She had time.. 
Experiencing the show was much different for her tonight than it ever had been. She wasn’t a newcomer to the group, she wasn’t trying to avoid Harry’s stare, and she wasn't angry with his existence. Tonight, she was able to enjoy herself fully. She sang and danced with Emma like the world wouldn’t be there tomorrow when she woke up. Harry watched her for most of the show, smiling and shaking his head at her performance. She was confident and comfortable and definitely drunk. 
He had to remind himself to stay focused when he played his guitar, though, so he made sure he looked out at the crowd, too. Niall reminded him before they got on the stage to remain focused on his job and then he could give Ivy all his attention after. Since he knew she loved the shows and was excited to hear him perform, he agreed with Niall and kept himself on track with everything. Ivy was dancing like nobody else was in the room, and that alone was motivation for him to put on a good show. She wasn't dancing to music coming from the speakers, she was dancing to his voice singing the songs she loves. It meant something to him, it was special this time. 
When they reached the slower portion of the show, Harry used his minute long break to chug some water before kneeling on the edge of the stage to talk to her. It was still loud in the bar, but he was able to hear her. 
“You’re so good!” She grinned ear to ear, her voice loud as the alcohol increased her mood. 
“Gonna sing one for you next.” He winked, causing a blush to rise to her cheeks. 
“Can I give you a good luck kiss?” She asked sweetly, fluttering her thick lashes at him and making the cutest face. 
“I’d be sad if you didn’t.” He leaned down, chuckling as she reached up to grab his neck. 
She barely reached him, but when she did her lips connected to his. He wanted to pull her on the stage and handle it, but he couldn’t. The kiss was short, but sweet. She smacked her lips on his chin for an extra bit of luck before letting him go, knowing he had to get back to his microphone. 
Harry was sure he’d never been in such a great mood while performing before. He had something to really look forward to after like everyone else, aside from just wanting to drink the night away. He had someone waiting for him to get off that stage and join her.
Niall started the first of the slower songs by picking up his guitar. Harry had abandoned his for this portion of the show, not wanting to get distracted by Ivy. He knew he could sing perfectly fine while looking at her, but playing the guitar was another story. Her heart swelled as she heard the lyrics coming from Harry’s mouth. She loved this song so much, and he had promised her he’d sing it the next time she was there. She will always hold some regret in her heart for missing that show, but she had a feeling that things wouldn’t be the way they are now if she hadn’t missed it. 
“Lips of an Angel” was one of her favorite songs, she considered it a classic that everyone should know. She’d play it in her room or in the car and sing every word. Hearing Harry sing it was breathtaking. He made all of her favorite songs even more special than they already were. And of course, his eyes were pouring straight into hers as he sang. There was nothing quite like getting his intense stare in such a meaningful moment. 
For the remainder of the show, Ivy cheered him on and continued to dance with Emma. They were both worn out by the time it came to an end. Emma told Ivy that everyone would be out to join them within a few minutes, and the best place to wait for Harry would be at their usual reserved table. So, they headed that way once everyone walked off the stage. She pushed the beaded curtain out of the way and sighed as she entered the familiar section of the building. They went straight to their table and each claimed a spot. Emma sat next to her, instantly sparking up a conversation. 
“Harry’s so cute with you. I saw you guys kissing.” She giggled excitedly, her mind a little boggled from her drinks. 
Ivy couldn’t do anything but grin. “He’s so sweet. He’s the sweetest thing ever.”
They shared a laugh, both very giddy about the topic. Emma leaned in closer, her finger moving to lure Ivy in. She moved further in until their heads almost touched. 
“He’s gon’ be all over you.” She said with a cheeky laugh. 
“I hope so!” Ivy was just as happy about the idea. 
“Can’t believe you turned Harry into a sweetheart!”
Ivy let out a laugh and shook her head. She didn’t say anything though because she was easily distracted by Harry, who appeared from the crowd with a smile on his handsome face. She completely ignored Emma and stood up to greet him. He grunted as her arms wrapped around his neck, one set of fingers going to the back of his head. He snaked his arms around her body, so glad to finally be with her again. This time, he wouldn’t have to leave her. They could stay together the rest of the night. 
“Missed you.” Ivy said in a quiet voice as her arms slowly fell from his neck. She drug one down his chest, touching his exposed skin. “You did so good.”
“Thanks, love. You had a good time, didn’t you?” Harry chuckled as she looked up at him with red eyes and a sleepy look. “Someone’s a bit drunk, yeah?” 
She shook her head. “No, not yet.”
“M’not too sure about that, babe.”
“Sit down with me! Wanna be close.” She begged with the pout of her lip. 
He nodded, which immediately prompted her to sit down and pull on his hand, wanting him right next to her. He laughed as she manueved his arm around her shoulders and positioned him so his hand was dangling over her. She took hold of it and turned her head to see him. She had the most precious look on her face, stars in her pretty eyes, 
“Thank you for singing the song for me.” 
“You’re welcome, babe.”
“Baby.” She corrected him with the lift of her brows. 
He smirked back, leaning forward to kiss her temple. “M’sorry, baby.” 
“So, I heard it’s official!” Michelle yelled with joy as she approached the table. 
Ivy leaned into Harry’s shoulder, hiding her bashful face as he laughed and replied to Michelle. He knew that having this kind of attention would make Ivy feel shy, but he hoped she would be okay with it once everyone got their initial reactions out. She tapped his hand, trying to get his attention. 
He looked back at her. “Hmm?”
“Just wanna see you.” She bit down on her lip, her eyes fixated on him.
He furrowed his brows gently. “Everything okay?”
Ivy didn’t say anything, just nodded and smiled. He wasn’t sure what was happening but he assumed the alcohol had a lot to do with it. He told her earlier she could drink as much as she wanted and he’d drive them home. He didn’t feel the need to get drunk tonight. She was with him now, so there were no feelings to fight against. 
Unlike previous times, Cory and Niall were the ones to bring the free trays of beer gifted by the owner to their shared table. Ivy instantly received a look from Michelle, a smirk plastered over her red painted lips as she lifted a brow. Ivy shook her head, already knowing what she was going to say. Harry laughed as everyone started to chant Ivy’s name, expecting at least one chugging battle. She was trying to ignore them, but even Harry was encouraging it.
“Just do one, c’mon.” He said with a laugh, finding it hard to believe all of this was real. 
For once, there was no awkward tension amongst the group. He wasn’t trying to sneak glances at her or avoid her gaze. Nobody was expecting an outburst from him. It felt really good to not have to worry about any of that anymore.
“Okay, fine, just one.” She sighed as she took the cup of beer from Niall, who started the countdown. 
Michelle was quick to bring the cup to her lips, but she wasn’t quite fast enough to keep up with or outdo Ivy. It didn’t take long for her to finish. The empty cup fell to the table and a proud smile covered her lips. Niall offered her another cup, and she took it with hopes of actually enjoying this one. 
Harry eyed her, wondering if she’d accept anyone’s competition, but she shook her head at Zayn who was trying to get her to cave in again. When Ivy leaned up to talk to Emma, Harry’s arm fell to her back, his hand sliding to her waist. He kept a hold on her, not wanting her to get too far. He stayed quiet, which was somewhat part of his usual behavior, and just listened to her talk. They were talking about something Niall said to Emma the night before that made Ivy blush. Emma had always been open with her about certain things, and even though it embarrassed her, she always listened to the stories. Harry wasn’t necessarily listening to them, mainly because he couldn’t hear over the music, but his focus was starting to shift elsewhere. 
Across the table was Cory, and his eyes seemed to be placed on something that didn’t belong to him. If Harry couldn’t hear the girls clearly, there’s no way Cory could. So he wasn’t listening to them talk, he was just staring at Ivy. Harry slid his tongue over his teeth as he tried to relax himself. He could feel a fire lighting in his gut. He couldn’t stand when Cory looked at Ivy like that before they were together, and now that they were he was even more annoyed. There should be some respect shown now. It was obvious they were together, and it should be understood that Cory had no chance. He tightened his hand on her waist, his fingers digging into her body. She noticed how the pressure changed, but she didn’t check on him. Maybe he was just giving her some affection. 
“I told him I’d try.” Emma said with a squeal, shooting her eyes over at Niall who was standing up talking to Zayn.
Ivy grinned back, grabbing her leg to squeeze it excitedly. “You’re insane.”
“It’s just a position, Ivy. You’d probably like it.”
Her eyes widened and she gave Emma a stern look. “No! We’re not making this about me.”
Emma giggled, covering Ivy’s hand with her own. “You have no idea what’s coming for you, honey.”
“I know what I’m not going to do.”
Emma was amused by the redness covering her face, it wasn’t just the alcohol that had her flustered. Her eyes dropped to Ivy’s waist where Harry’s hand was glued to her body. 
“The way he touches you.. you’re gonna have the time of your life.” 
Ivy shoved her gently, bringing her hand back to her own lap. “Shh, I don’t want him to hear this.”
Emma leaned slightly to peek around her. She lifted a brow as she saw Harry’s hardened expression. While his touch was clearly on Ivy, his attention was not. He looked as if he would rip someone’s head off if they spoke to him. His jaw was clenched and his brows were low. Emma followed his eyes and instantly saw what he was staring at. 
She hit Ivy with her knee, her eyes shooting back to her. “He’s pissed.”
Ivy leaned in closer to hear her whisper. “What?”
“Harry’s not happy.” Emma gave her a slightly concerned look. “Someone’s got his eyes on you and it’s not Harry.” 
Ivy looked from the corner of her eye, even though she already knew who Emma was referring to. “Ugh, why?”
Emma shook her head and pursed her lips. “He’s stupid if he thinks nobody notices.”
“He always does this.” Ivy sighed out, wishing it was different. 
She didn’t want Harry to get upset with his friend, but she knew it would happen if Cory didn’t stop. He shouldn’t want to stare at her, especially now that things have changed between her and Harry. It didn’t make any sense. She’s expressed several times that she’s not interested and that definitely hasn’t suddenly changed. 
“We’ll finish this later.. you better tend to Harry.” Emma warned, nodding her head towards him. 
It was unfortunate that she had to pause her conversation to deal with this, but she had no choice. If she didn’t intervene now, there’s no telling what could happen. Harry’s emotions are very sensitive, and when it came to Ivy he could be a ticking time bomb. Ivy shifted so she was facing him now, fully surprised when he didn’t immediately look at her. She placed her hand on his thigh and gave it a squeeze, still not getting his attention. 
“Harry.” She said his name in a sweet tone, widening her eyes and putting on a soft expression. That didn’t work. 
She sighed, tired of her failed attempts already. She reached up and grabbed his jaw, angling his head towards her. He didn’t stop her, of course. He wasn’t going to ignore her for too long. When his eyes met hers, she gave him a smile. She expected his hard features to soften, but they didn’t. 
“What’s wrong?” She asked with a pout, pretending to not be aware of the issue.
“M’about to go off.” 
Ivy leaned up so she was blocking Cory from his view. “It’s okay.”
“It’s fucking not.” 
She chewed on her cheek as she looked over his expression. He was still clenching his jaw and furrowing his brows. His eyes were full of anger but she knew it wasn’t directed towards her. She wanted to sweeten him up, wanted to make him chuckle and grin. It didn’t seem like he was willing to do that now. 
“Are you mad?”
“What do you think?” He snapped back, his anger getting the best of him.
Ivy gulped softly, her hand falling to his chest. “I think.. you’re being mean to me for no reason.”
“There is a fucking reason.” Once again, he was quick with his remark. 
“I didn’t do anything.” She couldn’t stop her lips from dropping to a frown.
The moment he saw her do that, he felt a blow to his gut. He closed his eyes and tried to compose himself. His hand loosened on her waist as he moved it to the small of her back. She wasn’t sure what to expect, part of her was extremely nervous. As his eyes opened, she was somewhat relieved to see he wasn’t as angry looking. 
“I know you didn’t, m’sorry.” 
Ivy grabbed his other hand and guided it to her thigh, letting him decide where it should go. He moved it to her hip and smirked as he pulled her closer. 
“Don’t be shy.” He said with a laugh as she looked down at his lap. 
“If we were alone, I would.” 
Harry leaned into her, his lips heading straight for hers. She turned her head in time for him to hit her cheek, making him smirk against her skin. 
“You’re being a tease, hm?”
She put her hand on his elbow, wishing she could do more but the fact they were in public made her nervous. She didn’t say anything, just moved her lips to his dimple. He felt the slickness of her lipgloss on his skin. 
“We could always sneak away.” He suggested, smiling as she pinched his skin. 
“Harry.” A nervous breath followed. 
Before he could say anything else, Michelle tapped on Ivy’s shoulder and interrupted them. Ivy pulled back from Harry to look up at her, kind of irritated that she was getting in the way. 
“We’re going to dance. Are you guys joining us?” 
Ivy saw everyone getting up and heading towards the crowd. She looked back at Harry and he lifted his brows lightly, silently letting her know it was her decision to make. She gently shook her head before replying to Michelle. 
“Not right now.”
Michelle smirked, giving them both a suspicious look. “Alright, have fun.”
It was a relief to know they were going elsewhere. Ivy didn’t have an issue with everyone but she was glad to be alone with Harry, or so she thought she was alone. She realized quickly when everyone else filed away that someone stayed behind. Cory was still in his seat, his eyes on his phone. Harry noticed, too, and rolled his eyes. Ivy caught his look and gently sighed. 
“It’s okay.”
“He’s fucking obsessed with you.” Harry grumbled out, his eyes narrowing and his lips fell to a straight line. 
It hurt her to see how quick his mood could shift. It wasn’t the first time she’d witnessed it, but it was still hard to deal with. She didn’t want Harry to be so consumed by anger or frustration. They were supposed to have fun tonight and be together, not worry about someone else. 
“Hey, don’t get mad.” 
“It’s hard not to, Ivy.” He huffed back.
“Don’t look at him. Just look at me.” 
Harry grunted, the control he had on his mood wasn’t very stable. “If he starts staring at you again m’gonna break his face.”
Ivy took hold of his jaw again and gave him a serious look. “No, you aren’t.”
She pressed a quick kiss to his lips before reaching down to pick up the cup of beer she sat on the floor. Harry let her move away, but not because he wanted her to. She brought the cup to her lips and took a long drink. Harry shot his eyes in Cory’s direction, making sure he wasn’t watching. Ivy moved back to where she had been sitting, Harry’s arm wrapped around her waist to keep her next to him. 
“Next weekend, I want you to stay with me at my place.” She said with a smile, the idea had been in her mind all day. 
“Alright. Any plans for us?” 
“Not sure yet. Just wanna be with you.” 
Harry couldn’t stop his gaze from moving back to Cory, and this time he was staring back. He leaned into Ivy, his hand tight on her waist. She held back a giggle when he rubbed his nose against her temple. 
“I really need you closer, baby.” He tickled his fingers against her waist, making her laugh and fall into him. 
“Do you want me to sit?” She asked innocently, her hand tapping his thigh. 
“If you want to, yeah. I’d like that.” 
“I’m sure you would.” 
Harry gripped her waist before she started to climb on his lap. He made sure to grab the outside of her thigh to keep her legs together. She rested the side of her body against his chest, laughing as he started kissing her cheek over and over. Ivy adjusted her skirt and made sure her knees were touching, in case someone tried to catch a peek between her legs. She feared Harry would be uncontrollable if something like that happened. 
“Are you comfortable?” He asked, furrowing his brows as he watched her. 
“Mhm, I’m okay. Are you? Not squishing you, am I?” Ivy was way more concerned with his comfort than her own. 
“M’fine, babe.” He assured her with a soft peck to her jaw. 
“Not the best way, but it’ll do for now.” She said, glancing at her legs as they laid propped up on the bench. 
“Sit how you want.” 
“I.. I can’t.”
Harry licked his lips. “How do you wanna sit?”
Ivy took a deep breath and leaned into him, her mouth next to his ear. He tightened his grip on her body, not sure what to expect from her. She was just as easy to get heated as he was. 
“Like we did on your couch.” Her whisper made his skin crawl in the best way possible. 
“We can do that.”
“Not here.”
He smiled, pushing his face into her neck. “Said who?”
Ivy tried her best to stand her ground, but Harry’s touch on her body was more than enough to change her mind. His heavy hand moved to the dip in her back, almost touching her butt. The way that his warmth pushed through the fabric covering her body was comforting. She felt completely safe with him, like nothing could ruin this moment. With a shake of her head and a blushing grin, she decided to sit on him the way she actually wanted to. He guided her by her waist as she got up, not letting her get too far away. She threw one leg over him then the next, sitting on his lap like she did on the couch. 
“There we go, that’s better.” He said with a devious smirk as she got comfortable, pulling at her skirt to keep it down. 
He plastered his hands on her hips, securing the fabric of the skirt against her skin, it wasn’t going anywhere as long as he was holding it. Ivy emptied the cup of beer into her mouth, her head falling back as she filled her mouth. Harry nearly busted as he saw her neck stretch, her hair fall over her shoulders, and the small drops of beer that escaped her lips. When she tossed the cup next to them, he leaned up to clean up her mess. 
“Harry!” She shrieked as he swiped his tongue up her chin, clearing the beer residue from her face. 
“Just cleaning you up, babe.” He chuckled out, unable to resist a grin as she hid her face against his. 
Her cheek was hot as it burned into his skin. “You’re so crazy.” 
Ivy put her arm around his neck, her fingers instantly locking around his hair. He held her close, humming in her ear as she took slow, deep breaths. He wondered if she was starting to get tired. Maybe all the alcohol she had consumed while he was singing had caught up to her. She was quiet for a few long minutes, just stayed like that with his arms around her and her hand in his hair. It was perfect, for a while. Harry figured it couldn’t get much better than this. He had the girl he adored sitting on his lap, her body molding into his as he held her close. She was content, nothing was bothering her. It was almost like a dream. He was afraid one wrong move would interrupt it and he’d wake up. Ivy couldn’t really believe it was real either, it was quite hard to comprehend. She never pictured herself as the type of person to do this much display of affection in public, yet here she was doing it. When she was with Harry, it was like the rest of the world froze around them and they were the only two people. 
Harry thought he was imagining it at first, but Ivy started to gently press her lips into the side of his neck, just below his ear. He moved one hand up to the small of her back and gently slid a few of his fingers under her shirt. Her skin was on fire, yet it felt like heaven touching it bare. 
“Being sweet, hm?” He said in a deep voice, his breath rolling over her in a rather tempting way. 
She led her lips a bit lower, leaving behind a trail of lip gloss. Marking her territory felt incredibly powerful. The part she liked the most was the fact Harry was letting her do it. When she was around, and only when it came to her, he let his control go. He let her do whatever she wanted, whenever she wanted. 
“Can we kiss?” She lifted her head, her eyelashes fluttering as she gave him a sweet look. 
“Don’t have to ask me.” He told her, leaning into her mouth. 
As they started to kiss again, she was sure that nothing could ruin this. Harry’s tongue poked in her mouth to explore, and his lips moved in perfect sync with hers. Her fingers danced on his neck, curling around his nape and dropping to his collarbones every now and then. She wanted to touch every inch of him that she could, but she was keeping herself somewhat tame. With each shove of her tongue into his mouth, her body rocked on his lap. The movement and the friction was getting intense on his crotch, so much so that he considered stopping her for a while. All he could imagine was her getting upset, so he chose to ignore his growing bulge and just let the girl get all the kissing she wanted. 
Harry quite enjoyed it when Ivy went off the deep end with him. Her version of it was different than most people’s, but that didn’t matter. He loved when she was greedy with her hands, scratching and clawing at his skin. There was her newly exploded liking of running her fingers through his long hair and tugging on it that sent chills down his spine and pulses of pleasure straight to his crotch. And her lips, god her lips were his favorite thing. She was so good with them, new exactly how to use them. The more he thought about her and the kiss deepened, the closer he was to a full boner growing in his pants. 
“Mm, Ivy.” He grunted as his lips ripped from hers.
“No, more.” She muttered into his cheek, trying to get his lips back. 
“Give me a few minutes, baby.” He said with a nervous laugh, glancing down at his crotch. 
She followed his eyes without thinking, and as she saw what he was concerned about, her stomach started to churn. Did he want her to move? Was she hurting him? There were so many things flooding her mind all of a sudden, but Harry didn’t say anything about it. He put his hand on her jaw, his thumb rubbing soft circles into her cheek. She easily leaned into his touch, admiring how his big hand was capable of such a delicate touch. 
“Sorry.” She mumbled, her pretty eyes held such an innocent look. 
“Don’t be sorry.” He licked his lips. “Just need a minute to calm down ‘fore I explode.” 
Ivy took the time he needed to observe him. She looked down at his forearm, his tattoos deep into tanned skin. Her mind began to drift as she imagined what it would feel like to have that same skin pressed against her own, no clothing between them. She could very clearly picture herself kissing and sucking marks over his tattoos, tracing the lines with her tongue and biting into his flesh. She knew he’d let her do whatever she wanted, and that was starting to become a thought she wanted to make a reality. She didn’t realize her eyes had closed until his thumb was toying with the corner of her mouth. She softly pushed out a breath, lifting her eyelids to get a look at him. Harry gave her that signature smirk, that up to no good look that made her panties dampen. 
The way he looked at her was like nothing else she had ever experienced. Her hand grabbed his forearm and she slowly brought her touch up his arm. He watched her movements, always liking when she touched him like that. She would hold on to him like she owned him, and that was something that made his heart melt. This girl had his heart in a way no other ever could. 
As her fingers curled around his wrist, she shifted her sultry gaze back to him. She smiled, the blush pretty much permanent on her cheeks by now. Harry was curious about her intentions as she grabbed his thumb with her fingers, moving it across her skin until the tip sat on her bottom lip. The thoughts entering his mind were far from pure. He held his breath, his eyes locked with hers. Without saying a word, or even blinking, Ivy pushed the tip of his thumb past her lips. 
A jolt of excitement shot through his body as she closed her lips around his thumb and gave it a soft suck. If he thought any harder about this, he would bust in his pants. Her tongue swirled around his digit a few slow, taunting times. Harry couldn’t do anything other than stare at her with lust pooling in his eyes. She placed his thumb between her teeth and bit down slightly, making his subtle smirk grow. 
“Naughty little kitten, hm?” The low tone of his voice mixed with the words he used made her tingle in all the right places. `
He swore her eyes lit up with stars at the use of the new name. She seemed to enjoy it more than he expected. He was pushing her limits, trying to see what she would like or what was too much. That was something she liked. 
Harry sat up, his body closer to hers without disturbing her position. He closed the space they shared, his lips next to her ear as he spoke in low, deep whispers. Every word he let out made her toes curl and the wetness between her legs grew. 
“Y’like using that pretty mouth on me, yeah?” 
She bit down harder on his thumb as a response, pulling a heavy chuckle from his throat. Ivy couldn’t stop thinking about his body, about sharing that experience with him. She was sure that if they had been at home doing this, she would’ve caved in to him. She would’ve allowed him to explore her body and show her things she never knew she could experience. But they weren’t at home.. 
“Like poking your tongue out on me.. biting down on me.” 
She nodded lightly, not even sure if he could tell. He was deep in the side of her neck, burying his face in her hair and breathing in her scent. He could die in this very spot and be a happy man. 
“Gonna be so good with your mouth, I just know it.” That time, her stomach dropped and she felt a familiar feeling come over her. 
It happened when she was in the shower earlier, that intense desire to touch herself at the thought of him. Well, now it wasn’t so much the thought of him as it was actually him. She considered disappearing into the bathroom to handle it, pull her skirt up and just rub herself until she came. But the thought of leaving him, of stopping this very moment was enough to keep her still. She could deal with it later. 
“Tell me something, baby.” He put his lips on her ear, speaking as soft as he could. “Tell me what you wanna do with your mouth.” 
Ivy let a nervous breath escape her mouth, the warmth of the air coated his thumb. “Harry.” 
He lightly chuckled back. “Don’t be shy, angel.” 
She shifted his thumb to the inside of her cheek so she could talk. Her eyes squeezed shut as she tried to gather the courage to say what he wanted her to, to admit what she desired to do with him. When her eyes opened, she was met with the wall behind them. The strobing lights from the ceiling and the colorful flashes reflected off the wall reminded her of where they were. 
“Hm? I know you wanna tell me.” He added, kissing the shell of her ear. 
“Wanna.. wanna kiss you all over.” She started with a nervous laugh, keeping his thumb pressed into her cheek. “And.. and make little bites.” 
“Little bites.” He copied her. “Sink those pretty teeth in me, baby.” 
“Harry, I..” 
She could feel his smirk against her skin. “What is it, baby?” 
Ivy had a pounding thought in her mind. She wanted to tell him how she felt, she wanted him to know how wet she had become between her legs and how hard her nipples were behind her bra. She wanted to tell him she would invite him in to explore her body if he asked her. Was she having that feeling Emma tried to describe? It couldn’t possibly be that, it was too soon.. She pushed the thoughts away and decided to just give his thumb another bite, making him smile. 
“Torturing you, aren’t I?” He said as he finally leaned himself up, his eyes meeting hers to find they were wide and as sparkly as ever. 
“A bit.” She nodded, an anxious laugh following her words. 
“I’ll give you a break.. before you explode.” 
She pulled his thumb out of her mouth. “M’close to it, I think.” 
“You don’t have to stop doing that.” He said, tapping his damp thumb against her chin. 
“For right now.. maybe I can do it again later, if you want me to.” 
He shook his head in disbelief at how adorable and innocent she was, despite what she was just doing and saying to him. “You know I want you to.” 
Ivy grabbed his wrist and placed his hand back on her waist. She loved how it felt to have him hold her there, so she wanted it back. He immediately tightened his grip and gave her a subtle smirk. He had to go easy on her before she really did lose her control and mess up her panties. He wasn’t aware of how intense it was for her, but he could see she wasn’t alright. 
They stayed quiet for a little bit, just looking at each other with hungry eyes. Harry was refraining himself from doing too much while Ivy was trying to encourage herself to do more. Maybe if she chewed on his thumb when they got home he’d say more filthy things to her. She kind of liked the dirty statements and teasing words he said. It turned her on more than she ever thought it could. Perhaps that’s why people have sex so easily - they get turned on and fall deep into the lust. It was possible, and she was starting to think she could achieve that special feeling Emma talked about. 
Harry watched her with a soft smile on his lips as she occupied herself with messing with his necklace. She had pulled the pendant out of his shirt and started rubbing her finger over it. She was engrossed in the moment, letting the way it glimmered in the lights distract her from everything else. It was peaceful, until something caught Harry’s attention. He could feel a stare coming towards him, and he just knew who it was coming from. Ivy wasn't paying him any attention, so he looked past her shoulder and snarled as he saw Cory’s eyes peering their way. It was no secret that he was focused on Ivy. It made Harry’s chest turn to stone, anger began to boil in his gut. He sat up, securing his grip on Ivy so she wouldn’t fall backwards. She instinctively grabbed his shoulder to catch herself, even though he had her stable. 
“Get your fucking eyes off her.” Harry raised his voice so it would be clearly heard over the distance they shared. 
Ivy snapped her head around, huffing as she saw Cory give Harry an annoyed look back. She was about to interrupt when Cory decided to take a stab back at him. 
“Get a fucking room.” He gave him a disgusted expression that just irritated Harry even more. “Practically screwing her.” 
“Don’t fucking worry about what I do with my girl. Fuck off.” He got louder, and of course it made her anxiety shoot through the roof. 
Ivy grabbed his face gently, keeping her touch soft to remind him that she was right here. “Harry, shh.” 
He was stronger than her, and he easily moved his head in her weak grip. “If I catch you staring at her again, I’ll beat your fucking face in.” 
“No, you won’t, stop.” Ivy let out a soft whine as she tried to tame him. 
It was a harder task than anything else. Harry was angry now, and he was beyond controllable. He had this raging look in his eyes that scared her. Not long ago, she would’ve backed away in fear of him hurting her. But now, as she sat on his lap with his hands stuck to her body, she knew he wouldn’t hurt her. 
To their surprise, Cory got up and left the table. Harry didn’t give a damn about his feelings. He shouldn’t have been staring at Ivy that way, like he was jealous or like he wanted her to himself. Over Harry’s dead body would that ever happen. Ivy pressed a soft kiss to his lips, hoping that would help but he was still pouting as the anger lingered on his face. 
“You don’t have to get so upset, Harry. M’not worried about him.” She told him, kissing him again despite not getting anything in return. That really wasn’t her point anyway, she just wanted to give him some affection to calm him down. “He does it because he knows it bothers you.” 
“It bothers me a fucking lot.” 
She bit down on her cheek for a moment as she looked at him. His eyes were back on hers, and the longer she stared at him, the softer his gaze became. He wanted to apologize to her for being so reactive, but he couldn’t find the words. It was embarrassing for him to see how quick he could get angry. He has always been very aware of it, but now that Ivy was more involved in his life, it made him feel worse. They had been having such a nice, private time together. He let someone barge in and ruin it, even if Cory never actually got in the way. 
“What can I do to help? Kisses?” She asked seriously, furrowing her brows as her hand pressed into his chest. He was breathing very hard, like he was going to blow up. “Wanna make you feel better.” 
At first, he was just going to accept the offer of kissing, but as he sat there and looked at her gorgeous face, he couldn't stop thinking about her mouth. Having her bite on his thumb made him completely forget about everything else. It was like that was her magic cure for him. Perhaps it could be that.. He hesitated at first, but as she batted her lashes and rolled her lips out to silently beg him for a reply, he became putty in her hands. 
“Take my thumb.” He pressed his digit against her lip, smirking as she parted her mouth for him. He slipped it in and sucked in a breath as she closed her lips around him. “There you go, kitten.” 
The rest of the night was enjoyable for them. They weren’t alone very long after Cory made an exit. Everyone returned to take a break and have some drinks. Ivy had another beer, but Harry declined the alcohol. He had to be sober to drive her home. He opted to just watch her chug the beer in competition with Emma. It was amusing, just like all the other times. 
Ivy did end up slipping away to go dance with Emma and Michelle, while Harry stayed behind to give her some space. He wasn’t irritated at all, he actually encouraged her to go have some fun. Niall had asked him about Cory, and he explained what happened. Niall was surprised that it didn’t get any worse than it did, but he knew Ivy had a lot to do with that. When she got done dancing, they sat around the table for a while longer before finally calling it a night. Ivy ended up having two more drinks while she was dancing, so she was stumbling around as Harry took her to the car. He held onto her waist, trying to keep her upright. She was giggling, the feeling of his fingers was tickling her. Usually she wasn’t so sensitive there, but right now she was being silly. 
It took a bit of coercing to get her in the car. She didn’t want to do anything other than wrap her arms around his neck and kiss him in the parking lot, but he promised her they could save that for when they got home. She was whiny at first, claiming that he was being mean to her, but he knew she didn’t mean it. She was just being difficult. Eventually, he got her in the car and buckled her in.
When they got back to his place, he had to help her inside. She was a giggling mess, trying to grab him and kiss him before he could get her to the door. He knew she’d crash out as soon as she landed on the bed. He stayed behind her as she went up the stairs, in case she tripped or lost her balance and went tumbling backwards. He pushed his hand on her back, encouraging her to go up. As they got to the top, she practically ran into his bedroom, rambling about wanting to take her shoes off and lay down. 
Harry followed her, laughing as he watched her plop down on the end of his bed and start messing with her shoes. She was struggling to get the ankle straps undone. After a short time of trying, she became frustrated. Ivy let out a groan and looked Harry’s way. 
“Please, help me.” She said softly, her lips in a pout. 
He shut the door behind him before walking over to her. She was waiting patiently for him. Harry got on his knees in front of her, lifting one foot at a time to unbuckle the straps. Ivy chewed on her bottom lip as she watched him. She was rather ticklish on her feet, so as he pulled the shoe off, his skin brushed hers and she giggled. He glanced up at her, once again amused by her behavior. She was cute, even when she was drunk. 
“Thank you.” She said sweetly as he took off the other one. 
He sat them up side by side, coming to his feet as she hopped up. Ivy didn’t even realize he had carried her bag up when she started digging through it. He figured she wanted to change her clothes, so he told her he’d step out and go to the bathroom before he joined her in the bed. 
Harry didn’t take too long in the bathroom. He got rid of his shirt in there, but kept his pants on until he got back to his room. He found Ivy in the bed, her eyes already closed as she yawned. She was beneath his covers, waiting for him to get next to her. She wasn’t paying him any mind, so he quickly got rid of his pants and chose a pair of gym shorts. 
Ivy hummed in satisfaction as he finally laid next to her, his warm body lighting a fire she was ready to get cozy with. He grabbed her, pulling her into him like he knew she liked. 
“Goodnight.” He muttered out as he pressed a kiss to her lips. 
She returned it, but ultimately wanted more. She grunted, slipping her tongue between his lips. He let her do what she wanted for a few long moments, then pulled back to tell her to go to sleep. She furrowed her brows and gave him a funny look. 
“Mm, kiss me more.” 
He let a light smile coat his lips. “You’re sleepy, angel.”
“Want kisses, please.” She begged in the sweetest tone she’d ever used on him. He melted quickly for her. 
“Okay, sweet girl.” He leaned forward to give her another, but she spoke before he could start it. 
“Love when you say cute names.”
“Yeah? C’mere, baby.” He reached up to grab her jaw, leading her into a kiss he knew would make her even more tired. 
As he predicted, she kissed him for about two minutes before finally breaking away and closing her lips. She curled up next to him, her hands on his body and her face nuzzled in his neck. Although he didn’t drink tonight, he was exhausted. From singing on stage to wrangling her - it was a long night. He wouldn’t have it any other way, though. Maybe he was on the right track with his sneaky attempts at opening her up, or maybe it was just all the drinks she had. He wasn’t sure, but it didn’t matter. Slowly, day by day, she was getting more comfortable with him. Before he knew it, he’d probably have to peel her off himself every time they’re together. He could handle it though. Ivy fell asleep almost instantly, and Harry wasn’t far behind her. 
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observingfantasy · 24 hours ago
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The Price of Deceit
~ Shadow Milk Cookie redemption fic
Okay sooooo, ever since I saw this fanart from @frenchiefieart the brainworms refused to let me be. Questions like 'How did it come to this?' and 'What might happen after?' kept me from sleeping, so I wrote a one-shot. Which then kinda escalated...
I'm unsure about publishing my work in general, but I put far too much effort into that first chapter, and it still kinda works as a one-shot, so... here we go.🤷🏻‍♀️
Please go look at frienchiefie's absolutely gorgeous piece of art before reading. The first three lines of dialog are entirely stolen from her artwork, and the visual context really helps with the immersion. (@frenchiefieart if this kind of usage is not okay with you, please let me know and I'll change it. I never wanted to steel your ideas in any way.)
Chapter 1: Desparation
"Nilly, please, don't let them do this."
No reaction.
"You love all cookies, right? A-and we spent some time together. It wasn't all bad… was it?"
Still nothing.
"Pure Vanilla, please, look at me. I-I can't go back there. I'm not ready to disappear."
Shadow Milk was just straight-up begging at this point—he had no other options left. He was aching all over, bleeding from multiple wounds—the worst of which was unfortunately on his head, dripping blood into his eyes and making thinking more difficult than it really had to be.
"How dare you speak to him like that! Like he hasn’t already given you more chances than you ever deserved! Like you didn’t spit in his face again and again! Like you didn’t twist his kindness just to break his heart!"
Ohh, she was furious—the Guardian of the Silver Tree. Protective of her best friend and still mad at him for killing Elder Fairy. Time had done nothing to dull her fury, not through the long, chaotic years of war that followed.
Shadow Milk would be embarrassed later—about the way he flinched at every word, how he scrambled backward despite the sharp ache in his limbs. But right now, all that mattered was putting as much space as possible between himself and the cookie he probably feared the most.
He couldn't go back into that tree. He couldn't.
He would survive it—he always did. The Beasts were immortal, their magic living on even when their bodies perished. But what would be left of his mind after another century in isolation? After a millennium? An eternity?
He didn't want to find out.
But the choice wasn’t his to make. The heroes were closing in, their weapons still raised, their expressions grim.
"Please, I..."
He was still looking at his counterpart, still trying to get the other to just look at him. With his own eyes or with his staff, Shadow Milk would take whatever he could get at this point. But Pure Vanilla kept his eyes resolutely closed, both his staff and his body half-turned away from his beaten foe. Yet as long as he didn't turn away fully, there still was a chance. There had to be.
Despite what everyone might think now, Shadow Milk was well aware that he didn't deserve mercy. Or another chance. And especially not forgiveness. But Pure Vanilla knew that—and had offered him a hand over and over anyway.
Once, Shadow Milk had taken it. He had pretended, smiled, played along—a game of keeping just enough truth in his words to make his lies believable. And all the while, he had spread his influence in the shadows. With the help of his faithful minions, he had worked to crumble the very foundation of the Vanilla Republic, his counterpart had built atop the ruins of his kingdom.
And Pure Vanilla had known.
Not everything. Not the full extent. But he had seen the cracks forming, had watched as trust faltered. Had looked at Shadow Milk and saw all the lies tangled between the truths.
And still, he had reached out. Had tried to show Shadow Milk there was another way.
And the jester, oblivious to just how much Pure Vanilla really knew, had kept going. Let the rumors fester, let small wounds deepen into permanent scars. Had whispered into uncertain ears, let doubt take root where it hurt the most—between friends, between families, between those who had always stood side by side. And by the time Pure Vanilla finally acted, the damage had already been done. Friendships shattered. Councils divided. Some wounds only emotional—some far worse.
And when Pure Vanilla finally confronted him about all that, and Shadow Milk learned that the other had known but waited—had held onto the hope that there could be a peaceful solution—the jester had laughed. At his own stupidity and Vanilla's alike. Until he saw the look in his counterpart's eyes.
Betrayal, disappointment, and hurt, morphing into something harder. A determination so cold he never would have thought the compassionate healer capable of it.
That look had never left Shadow Milk’s mind since. Even now, after years of war, it surfaced in the quiet moments, in every retreat that followed, in the hollow ache he refused to name. Because that had been the last time Pure Vanilla had reached out his hand.
And now, as Shadow Milk cowered before him once more, he knew there would be no hand this time. No warmth. No kindness. Only that cold determination and resentment, where once had been hope.
"Nilla… Nilla, please... I'm sorry... I'm so sorry…"
He choked out between sobs he couldn't hold back any longer, as Pure Vanilla showed no signs of hearing him at all, while the other heroes were slowly closing in.
"White Lily, let's get this over with," Dark Cacao said with a finality that made his heart race.
He was running out of time. He couldn't stop himself from slowly scrambling away further, nor could he repress the absolutely pathetic whimper that tore from his throat. He was hyperventilating so badly he couldn't even form the words to try and convince them to stop. To give him another chance. To do anything but this...
Not that they would listen anyway. That was always the problem of the liars—no one believed them when they were telling the truth. But right now he just had to make them believe—somehow.
With his back against a wall and no escape, his desperate gaze fell onto Pure Vanilla once again. And when the ancient Light of Truth slightly turned his staff to look at him one last time, the former Virtue of Knowledge had one last, absolutely desperate idea.
"Wait! Please!"
When everyone paused for a heartbeat, Shadow Milk seized the moment to tear the Soul Jam of Deceit from his chest and extend it towards his other half.
Everyone froze. For a moment, the only sound that could be heard in the giant arena—where the fight between the last Beast and the heroes had taken place—was Shadow Milk Cookie's heavy breathing.
Well, at least he still knew how to capture an audience.
Shadow definitely had Vanilla’s attention now.
"What…?"
The question was soft, incredulous. Shadow Milk couldn’t blame him. He could barely believe it himself. His hand trembled, the weight of his Soul Jam unbearable in his palm.
"T-Take it."
His voice was shaking even worse than his hand. He swallowed, trying to steady himself, but his throat felt tight and his breathing was labored.
"Do…" He hesitated, forcing the words out past the lump in his throat. "Do w-whatever you need to… do with it."
Crack it, break it, disintegrate it—anything but this.
"But please, don’t…" He choked on his own horror again, but forced himself to finish the damn sentence before it swallowed him whole.
"Don’t seal me away again. Please."
Silent tears were uncontrollably falling down his face at this point, as he waited for Pure Vanilla to please just accept his offer. It was the only thing he had left.
The silence stretched, heavy and uncertain. And Shadow Milk realized he wasn’t the only one waiting. None of the other heroes moved to take the Soul Jam. Instead, they stood frozen, their gazes shifting between him and Pure Vanilla—some uncertain, some shocked, others expectant.
Finally, Pure Vanilla’s hesitation hardened into something like grim resolve. His jaw tightened. His shoulders squared. Then, without a word, he stepped forward and took the Soul Jam from Shadow Milk’s trembling hands.
It took every ounce of willpower not to recoil, not to clutch his most precious possession to his chest like a lifeline.
There was something dark in Pure Vanilla’s gaze—something final. Whatever fleeting hope Shadow Milk might have clung to shattered the moment their eyes met. And yet… behind the cold determination, there was regret. An apology. For what?
"I'm sorry. I wish it wouldn't have had to come to this."
Then, without another moment for Shadow to comprehend what the hero was going to do, bright shards of light pierced his Soul Jam of Deceit and Darkness, shattering it in an instant.
It was pain unlike anything Shadow Milk had ever known. Worse than when the witches had originally split his Soul Jam in two. Back then, they had cleanly sliced away the part that he had been rejecting anyway. Now, Pure Vanilla's light mercilessly carved into the deepest, darkest part of his soul and watched his everything shatter into a million pieces.
The pain was blinding, suffocating, all-consuming. He hoped desperately that he had been mistaken—that he wouldn’t survive this. That maybe his soul was so inextricably bound to that gem that its shattering meant true annihilation. Death would be mercy. No matter what kind of punishment awaited him in the afterlife, it couldn't be worse than this.
When the light finally retreated, the pain faded—slowly, agonizingly. Which probably meant that he was still alive. That was the only realization Shadow Milk could grasp right now. His body still ached all over—worse than before. His very essence had been ripped apart. Shredded. He couldn’t feel anything but pain. Couldn't hear, see, or smell anything at all.
He wanted to scream. He wanted to cry. Maybe he was? He couldn’t tell.
Then, there were hands. Touching him. It hurt. Moving him. That hurt even worse.
Wasn't he suffering enough? (No.) Did they really have to keep hurting him? (Yes. He deserved it. He would finally get what he deserved.)
His body had nothing left to give.
The last thing Shadow Milk felt was a hand on his forehead before everything dissolved into sweet oblivion, and he fell into a deep, dreamless slumber.
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toruforuu · 3 days ago
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redid my blog a little and i thought it would take like 20m, actually took forever:<
gojo satoru x reader || hogwarts au (18+)
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✼pairing: hogwarts au - slytherin!gojo x ravenclaw!reader
✼summary: gojo satoru, the golden boy of a famous family lineage of wizards sets his sights on you, a half blood defying his pureblood morals. he makes it a goal in his life to make yours a living hell. years of endless pestering, teasing and rivalry stretching out. as times goes on, he finds himself thinking about you more than he isn’t. he grows torn between his family’s beliefs and the forbidden ache tickling his chest whenever he sees you
✼meaning: wonderwall - the person you cannot stop thinking about (song by oasis)
✼genre/tags:hogwarts au, female reader, strangers to enemies/sort of academic rivals to forbidden lovers, slow burn, angst, eventual smut, pining and yearning (mostly gojo), built up tension, teasing, bickering and pestering, jealousy, slightly spoiled gojo, obsessed and lovesick gojo, both are pretty oblivious to their feelings
✼warnings:hook ups, sexual topics, family pressure and trauma, mentions of injuries and violence, degradation, mentions of political views, escalating political situation, lgbtq representation, cheating
✼word count: 29k (so far)
✼chapters: 5/? (so far)
˚⟡˖ ࣪:link to the playlist
˚⟡˖ ࣪:link to the vision-board
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prequel
chp.1 dusk of intrigues
chp.2 two can play the game
chp.3 summer’s passing
chp.4 receding youth
chp.5 incandescent glow
chp.6 spellbound (pending…)
chp.7 eulogies (pending…)
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legendary-69420 · 7 hours ago
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Flirt Mode: Activated
Chapter 15
(Racing Hearts : VOLUME 3 )
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Warnings : None ig , Long ahh chapter (read the author's note at the end)
The day began with the familiar hum of the paddock. Mechanics buzzed about, engineers discussed strategies, and the drivers prepared for another grueling day. But for Charles and Mark, there was an undercurrent of something much more enticing—a flirtation that had been building for weeks, simmering beneath the surface until it threatened to boil over.
The Chats
It started innocently enough, with Mark texting Charles mid-morning.
Mark: “How’s my Monaco prince today? Still recovering from losing that karting challenge yesterday?”
Charles: “Keep dreaming, Spencer. We both know I let you win.”
Mark: “Let me win? You looked ready to cry when I crossed the finish line.”
Charles: “I was crying from laughter watching you celebrate like you’d just won the championship.”
Mark: “Speaking of championships, you should thank me for making Ferrari look good.”
Charles: “Ferrari looks good because of me. You’re just…decoration.”
Mark: “Funny, I didn’t realize you liked staring at the decor so much.”
Charles paused, staring at his phone, a smirk curling at his lips. He fired back:
Charles: “You’re lucky I’m patient. Otherwise, I’d show you exactly where you stand.”
Mark: “Careful, Leclerc. Keep talking like that, and I might make you prove it.”
(At the paddock)
Their exchanges became more daring as the day wore on. Mark sent a picture of his unbuttoned race suit, the red fabric hanging loosely off his shoulders, exposing his collarbones and a hint of his chest.
Mark: “Too hot to handle, or should I put it back on?”
Charles: “Keep it off. You’re already sweating—might as well embrace it.”
Mark: “You’re staring again, aren’t you?”
Charles: “Someone has to keep an eye on you. Can’t have you getting into trouble.”
Mark: “Maybe I like trouble. Especially when it’s with you.”
Charles, not to be outdone, snapped a picture of himself in his Ferrari garage, the top half of his race suit hanging low around his waist, leaving his toned chest completely exposed.
The sweat on his skin glistened under the overhead lights, the sharp lines of his collarbones and abs on full display. His damp hair was slightly tousled, his lips slightly parted—he looked effortlessly perfect.
Charles: “Fair’s fair.”
Mark stared at the picture for a long moment, heat rising to his face. He sat back in his chair, blinking at his screen like it had personally attacked him.
Mark: “Well. Shit.”
Charles: “Something wrong?”
Mark: “Yeah. You.”
Charles: “Not my fault you started this.”
Mark bit his lip, exhaling sharply. He refused to lose this game.
Mark: “You really want to play, Leclerc?”
Charles: “Oh, I always want to play.”
(At their respective hotel rooms)
Mark grinned, opening his camera app again. If Charles wanted to test him, he was more than willing to raise the stakes.
Mark smirked to himself, rolling his shoulders before snapping a picture. The lighting in his hotel room was just dim enough to cast sharp shadows across his chest, emphasizing the sculpted lines of his muscles. His abs were defined, his skin slightly damp from a post-race shower. His messy hair and slightly parted lips added an effortlessly sultry effect.
He stared at the picture for a second before typing:
Mark: “You sure you can handle this, Leclerc?”
He hit send, tossing his phone onto the bed, stretching lazily. He didn’t have to wait long for a response.
Charles: “…”
Mark chuckled at the typing indicator blinking on and off.
Charles: “Put a shirt on.”
Mark: “Aww, why? Getting flustered?”
Charles: “You’re insufferable.”
Mark: “And yet, you’re still staring.”
The message was left on read for a good two minutes.
Then, finally, Charles replied.
Charles: “I hate you!”
Mark: “No, you don’t. You love me.”
Charles: “…Shut up.”
Mark: “Make me”
Mark grinned. He didn’t need to see Charles to know he was losing his mind right now.
Face-to-Face Flirting
By evening, the team gathered at the hotel for dinner. Charles and Mark’s banter spilled into real life, charged with an intensity neither could ignore. Seated beside each other, their knees brushed under the table. Mark’s hand casually rested on his thigh, inches from Charles’—a proximity that felt intentional.
“You’ve been quiet,” Mark murmured, leaning in just enough for his breath to tickle Charles’ ear. “Thinking about something?”
Charles turned his head, their faces so close he could count the flecks of gold in Mark’s eyes. “Maybe. Or someone.”
Mark’s lips curved into a sly smile. “Care to share?”
“No,” Charles replied, his voice low. “I’d rather show you.”
"You know, Charles," Mark drawled, dragging out the words, "you're like a… spicy little dish I just can't get enough of."
Charles blinked, his eyebrow quirked as he stared at Mark, not sure whether to be offended or amused. "What are you on about now?"
"Oh, nothing," Mark said, putting on an exaggerated air of innocence. "Just that you’re hot, and I’m more than willing to taste every inch of that heat."
The tension between them crackled like static electricity. As the group shifted to the lounge area, Charles and Mark gravitated toward a quieter corner. Mark’s shirt was slightly unbuttoned, revealing a tantalizing glimpse of his toned chest. Charles’ gaze lingered, and Mark noticed.
“See something you like?” Mark asked, his tone teasing.
Charles’ lips twitched into a smirk. “Maybe. What are you offering?”
Mark leaned in, his hand brushing against Charles’ as he whispered, “More than you can handle.”
“Try me,” Charles shot back, his voice steady despite the rapid beating of his heart.
Mark’s fingers trailed along the edge of Charles’ sleeve, a fleeting touch that sent shivers down his spine. “You’re tempting, Leclerc. Dangerous, even.”
Charles tilted his head, his eyes locked on Mark’s lips. “And you love danger.”
A Line Nearly Crossed
The conversation shifted, but the tension remained. At one point, Mark’s laughter filled the air, rich and genuine, as Charles leaned closer than necessary to whisper a comment about one of their mates. The proximity was intoxicating.
“You’re standing too close,” Mark murmured, though he made no move to step away.
Charles’ hand brushed Mark’s arm, lingering. “Am I? Or are you just noticing how much you like it?”
Mark’s breath hitched, his eyes darkening. “Careful, Charles. Keep this up, and you might get more than you bargained for.”
Charles leaned in, their faces mere inches apart. “Who says I’m not ready for it?”
The moment stretched, electric and unbroken until someone called their names, shattering the fragile intimacy. Both men stepped back, their expressions carefully neutral, but the heat between them lingered like a secret.
Late-Night Texts
Back in their rooms, the game resumed.
Mark: “You’re trouble, Leclerc.”
Charles: “And you love it.”
Mark: “Maybe. But you’ll never know for sure.”
Charles: “Keep playing coy. It only makes me want to push harder.”
Mark: “Push all you want. Just be ready when I push back.”
Charles stared at the screen, a slow smile spreading across his face. Whatever this was between them, it was no longer just a game. It was a race neither was willing to lose.
The Next Morning: Grumpy Mark Returns
The morning sun was barely creeping over the horizon when Mark stormed down the hotel hallway, his face set in a deep scowl. He hadn't slept a wink, and now he was blaming everything for it. The stiff hotel pillows, the air conditioning, the obnoxious ticking of the clock on the wall— "hell, even the writer of this whole mess. I blame him for this, Could'nt even let me sleep in my own damn story"
Grumbling under his breath, he didn't even bother knocking before shoving open Charles’ door and stepping inside. Charles, who had been lounging on his bed, half-awake, barely had time to react before Mark slammed the door shut behind him.
“Mark?” Charles blinked, still groggy. “What the hell are you doing?”
Mark crossed his arms, his glare deepening. “I’m blaming you too, actually.”
“For what?”
“For existing.”
Charles snorted. “Good morning to you too.”
Mark threw himself onto the bed, lying dramatically across Charles' legs like a cat seeking warmth. “It’s too bright. Who authorized this level of sunlight? I demand a refund.”
Charles rolled his eyes but couldn't hide his smirk. “Are you always this dramatic when you don’t get enough sleep?”
“Oh, you have no idea,” Mark groaned. Then, turning his head toward Charles, his expression suddenly changed—thoughtful, calculating.
Charles had learned to be wary of that look.
“What?” Charles asked suspiciously.
Mark sighed deeply. “I need to calm down.”
Charles frowned. “Okay? Do you want coffee or—”
“I have two solutions,” Mark interrupted, lifting a finger as if making a serious scientific argument. “One: I punch a wall.”
Charles raised an eyebrow. “That’s a bit extreme—”
“Two: I kiss you.”
Silence.
Charles opened his mouth, then closed it, then opened it again. “Excuse me?”
Mark sat up, rubbing his temples as if this was an entirely rational conversation. “It’s a scientific fact that kisses improve mood. Let’s test it.”
Charles folded his arms, pretending to consider it. “Oh, so now I’m your personal stress reliever?”
“Listen, I could either yell at you for no reason, or we could make out. I’m being considerate here,” Mark deadpanned.
Charles let out a laugh, shaking his head. “You’re unbelievable.”
“I know,” Mark said smugly.
Charles exhaled sharply, eyeing Mark with a mix of amusement and exasperation. “Fine. If this is what it takes to shut you up.”
Before Mark could throw in another dramatic remark, Charles leaned in and pressed his lips to Mark’s.
It wasn’t rushed or messy—just a firm, teasing kiss, meant to test the waters. But the moment their lips met, Mark felt a warmth spread through his chest, far more effective than any amount of caffeine could ever be. He let out a quiet hum, tilting his head slightly to deepen the kiss.
Charles pulled back after a few seconds, smirking. “Better now?”
Mark, still leaning in slightly, narrowed his eyes. “Hmmm… I might need another one. Y’know, just to be sure.”
Charles rolled his eyes but indulged him, closing the gap once more. This time, Mark's hands found Charles’ waist, tugging him just a bit closer.
After a few stolen kisses, Charles finally pulled away, laughing softly. “You do know you don’t have to act dumb and find silly excuses to get me to kiss you, right?”
Mark’s eyes flickered with mischief. “Oh?”
“You could just ask for it,” Charles chuckled, tilting his head.
Mark scoffed, but his slightly pink ears betrayed him. “Yeah, yeah, whatever.” He elbowed Charles lightly in the ribs, but before Charles could retaliate, Mark stole another quick kiss—just because he could.
Right then, the door suddenly swung open.
“Hey, Charlou, wake up or else you're gonna be lat—”
Arthur, who had just barged into the room, expecting to see Charles sleeping, froze mid-sentence. His jaw dropped at the sight before him—Charles and Mark, very much not sleeping, very much mid-makeout.
Arthur blinked. Once. Twice. Then, without missing a beat, he slowly backed up toward the door. “I’ll just… come back later,” he muttered before quickly slamming it shut behind him, disappearing as fast as he came.
Charles and Mark, still half-entangled, stared at the now-closed door.
Silence.
Then Mark burst into laughter, flopping back onto the bed. “Well. That was bound to happen eventually.”
Charles groaned, dragging a hand down his face. “I’m never going to hear the end of this.”
“Oh, absolutely not.” Mark grinned, nudging Charles playfully. “But hey, at least now he knows you have great taste.”
Charles rolled his eyes before leaning down, capturing Mark’s lips in another kiss—just to shut him up. Again.
The Unexpected Arrival of Leo
Later that afternoon, the energy in the room shifted when Charles walked in, Leo trotting happily beside him. The tail wagged as he surveyed the room, clearly the center of attention.
Mark’s eyes lit up instantly, the grumpiness of the morning forgotten. “Oh, look! There he is — the cutest one in the paddock!” he exclaimed, his voice dripping with exaggerated adoration.
Charles froze mid-step, his cheeks flushing a deep shade of red. The room fell silent as everyone turned to look at him, their expressions a mix of curiosity and amusement. For a moment, it seemed like Mark’s compliment had been directed at Charles.
Mark, ever the showman, took his time strolling over. Charles’ heart raced as the distance between them closed. He was 99% sure Mark was about to kiss him in front of everyone.
Instead, Mark dropped to one knee and began petting Leo, cooing at the dog with all the tenderness in the world. “Who’s a good boy? You are! Yes, you are!”
The tension in the room evaporated as everyone erupted into laughter and relieved “OHHH!”s. Charles let out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding, though the blush on his face remained.
Mark glanced up at him with a mischievous glint in his eye. “What? Did you think I was talking about you?”
Charles rolled his eyes but couldn’t help smiling. “For a second there, I wasn’t sure.”
“Keep dreaming, Leclerc,” Mark said with a wink before turning his attention back to Leo, who basked in the affection.
Charles shook his head, the warmth of Mark’s teasing lingering far longer than it should.
The Evening: A Quiet Truce
By the end of the day, the earlier tension between Mark and Charles had softened. They sat together in the team lounge, Leo sprawled at their feet. Charles scrolled through his phone, occasionally showing Mark memes that earned reluctant chuckles.
“So, not the worst day ever?” Charles asked, nudging Mark with his shoulder.
Mark sighed dramatically. “I guess it wasn’t a complete disaster. But only because of Leo.”
“Not me?” Charles feigned offense.
Mark smirked, leaning back in his chair. “You’re tolerable, I suppose.”
“I’ll take it,” Charles said with a laugh, his eyes lingering on Mark a moment longer than necessary.
As the room grew quieter, the comfortable silence between them spoke volumes. Despite the rollercoaster of emotions, the day had ended on a surprisingly sweet note—one that neither of them could quite explain, but both were beginning to enjoy.
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(dividers by @cafekitsune)
A/N : Okay Firstly I apologise for posting after a Month.. NO I did not forget about the fic. I had some stuff going on so I had to leave for more than a Month. Again I apologise. Secondly About this chapter... Yes they act like this and still act like they're 'just friends'... Dont worry I am back and the chapter we all have been waiting for so long is not so far now.. Anyways lemme know if yall liked this chapter Byee <3
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ravenzlair · 3 days ago
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Baby, when we're grinding, I get so excited... Ooh, how I like it 🫦 I try but I can't fight it 😈
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waynes-multiverse · 23 hours ago
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COMING THIS FRIDAY
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Are you ready? 👀
Time After Time – Series Masterlist
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Series Summary: Unable to control your abilities, you’re stuck in the present with Billy Butcher, his team, and America’s first asshole. At this point, you’ve become Soldier Boy’s personal punching bag. But when an accident leaves you stranded in 1942, you run into a familiar face and suddenly rely on your future tormentor’s help as your only hope.
Pairing: Soldier Boy/Ben x supe!Reader
Warnings: 18+ due to language and mature themes, reader is a supe with chronokinesis (time manipulation), a lot of time travel talk, set partially in 1942 and the present (alternate S3 ending), PTSD, Soldier Boy before Soldier Boy (aka no powers yet, plus meet his childhood home and parents), slight Beauty/Beast vibes, enemies to lovers, slow burn, smut, fluff, humor, angst
A/N: Been wanting to write about time travel again since this fun one-shot. Got the idea while writing Bad Reputation years ago but never got to it. Felt challenged again after rewatching the Community episode where Dean Pelton whines, "Time travel is really hard to write about." Welp, challenge accepted 😂🤍
Main Masterlist || Soldier Boy Masterlist || Tag List
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Chapter 1: Of All the Gin Joints… – Coming March 28 || Read now on Patreon
Chapter 2: Is This the 40s? – Coming April 4 || Read now on Patreon
Chapter 3: I’m Going To Be a Lady If It Kills Me – Coming April 11 || Read now on Patreon
Chapter 4: After All, Tomorrow Is Another Day – Coming April 18 || Read now on Patreon
Chapter 5: We'll Always Have Paris – Coming to Patreon March 28
Chapter 6: I Don't Mind a Reasonable Amount of Trouble – Coming to Patreon April 4
Chapter 7: Lions and Tigers and Bears, Oh My! – Coming to Patreon April 11
Chapter 8: As Time Goes By – Coming to Patreon April 18
Chapter 9: Frankly, My Dear, I Don't Give a Damn – Coming to Patreon April 25
Chapter 10: Here's Looking at You, Kid – Coming to Patreon May 2
...and more to come 🕰️
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ribcagecavityy · 2 days ago
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more ticcikills ples ♥️
YUSSS ALAWAYSSSS they get more and more less canon but i don’t careeeee
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i hc that toby says “i like ur face” instead of calling lexi pretty and it confuses her bc like what does that even mean bro…??? AND AND i wanted to colour this but i dont have time so stay tuned guys,,, also i ship other stuff too so if u want a drawing of that lmk and i shall provide,,,,
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ponderingmoonlight · 11 hours ago
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one stolen kiss
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Pairing: Guren x fem!reader
Word Count: 1,2k
Synopsis: You hated him since the day you were born. How he always outshines you, how he somehow still moves you. You desperately hold onto your values until Guren himself decides to break the tension
Warnings: my new hyperfixation y'all, enemies to romantic enemies lol, reader is a weak but a baddie at the same time, a little violence, a lot of heat
Let me know if y'all are open for even more Guren content hehe
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The battlefield is littered with the bodies of fallen vampires, the scent of blood thick in the air. You grip your sword, chest heaving, adrenaline still rushing like a waterfall through your veins.
Another mission complete. Another victory. And, as always, Guren Ichinose stands across from you, his blade gleaming with fresh crimson, the smirk on his lips infuriating. 
"You were sloppy," he comments, sheathing his sword with an irritating sense of ease. 
"If I hadn’t stepped in-" 
"I had it under control," you snap, wiping a smear of blood from your cheek. 
It’s always like this: fighting side by side, matching each other strike for strike, skill for skill. But Guren always manages to be just a step ahead, a fraction faster, a fraction sharper.
It drives you insane. To be exact, it does since you were kids. Why is he always one step ahead? How did this jerk manage to get the position of Lieutenant Colonel while you’re a Major? 
"Sure you did," he muses, stepping closer, his dark eyes gleaming with amusement. 
"That’s why you almost got skewered." 
Your jaw tightens, blood boiling up in an instant like it always does when he puts on that half-hearted grin dripping in confidence. 
"And yet, I’m still standing." 
His smirk deepens, the kind that makes you want to wring his neck like a cleaning rag. 
"Barely." 
It takes everything in you not to smack him the way he deserves it. Instead, you turn on your heel, intent on walking away before you do something reckless and risk getting into trouble again. But then- 
His hand shoots out, catching your wrist. You barely have a second to react before he yanks you toward him. The motion is sudden, forceful, and before you know it, you’re chest to chest, the heat of the battle still simmering between you while the touch of his naked skin seems to burn your senses alive. 
Your breath catches. Fuck, he was never this close. 
"What the hell, Guren?" 
"Do you ever shut up?" he murmurs, his voice lower now, rougher. 
His fingers tighten just slightly around your wrist, his presence overwhelming. Your pulse spikes when his gaze flickers down to your lips, and you swear the bastard is doing it on purpose, just to get a reaction. Is this a game? A test, maybe? 
"You wouldn’t dare," you whisper, voice edged with warning. 
Guren chuckles - low, knowing. 
"Wouldn’t I?" 
And then he moves. 
His lips crash against yours, stealing your breath, your words, everything. It’s not soft. It’s not gentle. It’s the climax of every heated argument, every near-death moment, every challenge thrown between you.
His grip slides to the back of your neck, pulling you impossibly closer as his other hand fists in your bloodstained uniform. 
You don’t fight it. You should - because this is Guren, your infuriating rival since childhood, the man who always stays one step ahead of you. But instead, you match him, pushing back just as fiercely, your hands curling into his jacket, refusing to let him have all the control. 
Guren's lips move against yours with a irritating mix of confidence and hunger, like he’s been waiting for this, waiting to steal something from you that you didn’t even realize was his for the taking.
His hand tightens in your hair, twisting your head just right as he deepens the kiss, his tongue brushing against yours with a heat that sends sparks down your spine and straight into your core. 
You should shove him away. You should say something cutting, throw another challenge at him. Because that’s what you do, that’s what you’ve always done.
But your body betrays you, pressing against his like you can’t get enough, like the tension that’s always burned between you has finally exploded into something impossible to contain. 
His fingers slip from your wrist, gliding down your side, dragging along the curve of your waist with deliberate slowness. It sends a shiver through you, and you hate that he feels it, that he knows exactly what he’s doing.
His smirk against your lips tells you he enjoys this - being the one to loosen you, to prove that maybe, just maybe, he’s always been a step ahead in this, too. 
Bastard. 
You bite his bottom lip, just enough to make him grunt in surprise, and when he pulls back slightly, his breath ragged, you don’t miss the way his pupils darken, his usual cocky composure slipping. 
"Still think I’m sloppy?" you murmur, voice breathless but sharp, challenging. 
Guren’s grip on your waist tightens. 
"You’re a damn handful," he mutters, before crashing his lips back against yours, hungrier this time, rougher. 
The world around you fades. The bloodied battlefield, the lingering scent of death, the scent of burnt flesh that still hangs in the air. Right now, it’s just him, just the heat of his body against yours, the way his hands roam like he’s memorizing you, like he needs this as much as you do. 
The heat is intoxicating, the taste of him lingering on your lips as Guren moves against you, all confidence and control. His fingers dig into your waist, pulling you closer, like he’s daring you to lose yourself completely.
And for a moment, just a moment, you do. 
But then reality crashes down like a cold wave right into your face. The battlefield. The blood. The fact that this is Guren Ichinose, your rival, your infuriating thorn in the side, the man who’s always one step ahead.
And worst of all? The smug bastard knows he’s just won this fight too. 
Your senses snap back into place. With a sharp inhale, you tear yourself away from him, your lips tingling, your chest rising and falling with uneven breaths. Guren barely has time to register the loss of contact before- 
SLAP. 
Your palm meets his cheek in a sharp, resounding crack that echoes in the silent battlefield. 
His head tilts slightly with the impact, but when he turns back to you, your stomach twists -not with guilt, but with frustration. 
Because there he is, standing with that same insufferable smirk, his cheek reddening, but his dark eyes glinting with amusement. And then, to make it worse - he chuckles. Low, deep, utterly frustrating. 
"You hit like a damn truck," he muses, rubbing his jaw. 
Your fists clench. 
"You kissed me." 
His grin widens. 
"And you kissed me back." 
Your face burns. In annoyance, in shame? Definitely both. 
"Temporary insanity." 
Guren hums like he’s unconvinced, stepping forward just enough to invade your space again. His voice drops lower, teasing but laced with something else, something that makes your stomach flip all over again. 
"You know," he murmurs, "this isn’t the last time." 
Your breath hitches. 
Guren smirks, eyes flicking to your lips one last time before he turns, walking away like he hasn’t just left you standing there, pulse racing, mind spinning, body betraying you all over again. 
You glare daggers at his fading broad back, ignoring the way your fingers still tingle from his touch. 
Damn him. 
Damn yourself. 
Because deep down, you know he’s right. 
This isn’t the last time. 
And that might just be the most dangerous part of all.
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hunterxmilo · 16 hours ago
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"Relax for me, boyo."- Lochlann Patrick, from Go Luck Yourself by Sara Raasch. (THEY'RE JUST PAINTING)
So... a while ago I randomly came across a book titled The Nightmare before Kissmas and I don't remember the last time I picked up a book and flew through it so quickly! (I can't remember the last time I actually bought a book besides for required college classes...) To my delight a sequel came out just a couple of weeks ago and I COULDN'T NOT DRAW THESE TWO. I love Coal and Hex from the first book and want to draw them at some point BUT YOU GIVE ME AN ART MAJOR AND A MAN WHO LOVES WRITING STORIES SIGN ME THE HECK UP! This scene took me out and knew this book was going to have a permanent place in my brain.
(Both books will become a yearly read for me around the holidays. Thank you @sararaasch for such visually imaginative and overall amazing storytelling of these two train wreck brothers XD)
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