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Half asked doodles (I'm BAD at drawing bodies sometimes okay..)

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Kiss thy knights

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iruka with scars that are very obviously from dog bites except, of course, no dog has managed to bite him that savagely to leave such a mark. unless you mean the tall silver one walking on two legs with a savage streak nearly as awful as his suicidal tendencies, who has a tendency to lash out when he's feeling vulnerable. and kakashi has never felt so vulnerable as when iruka is looking at him, all loving and tender, honey and cedar and sunsets, all warmth and stability and the uncrompomising surety that there will be a new day for them both, and that iruka will love him just as intensely on that day. it's frightening, to see that level of devotion. sometimes you have to take a bite at it to see if it's real, if that's real blood and muscle underneath that sun warm skin, if it'll crumble under some pressure. a test, maybe, but really it's more of a calling. a question, begging for an answer: are you real, iruka, and are you mine?

here's the thing. iruka doesn't stumble into love- he goes running into it, headfirst, and he has a pretty hard head. if he was afraid of the teeth, he'd have stayed away. you don't enter a relationship with someone known for biting if you don't expect to get bitten. that's just foolishness, and iruka is not a fool. he's always known that, as with all good and worthwhile things, you have to bleed for it. some of them, you bleed for more than others. there will always be blood, when it comes to kakashi, but iruka has never been scared of dirtying his hands. he will always put himself in the line of fire, when it comes to his loved ones.

so, kakashi bites, and it's to be expected. sometimes it's surface level, sometimes iruka can feel the fangs puncture into his tendons and thinks he will feel kakashi's saliva under his skin for the rest of his life, that there will be traces of kakashi running through his veins for as long as he lives. kakashi bites and it's not always fun but it's necessary for kakashi, so iruka holds himself still and holds kakashi by the back of his neck and wrenches him free until iruka can see his own blood on kakashi's teeth, can see the rest of their lives in that tiny doped out smile of his, in how kakashi's tongue lolls out his mouth, satisfaction and idolatry dripping at the edges. that's life with someone who knows how to hurt you more than love you, who thinks making you bleed is how he shows he loves you. maybe he's right. iruka gently nudges kakashi's head back until he can see the soft underside of his jaw, where it meets his neck.

so, kakashi bites, and that's fine, because iruka bites back.

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heart attack 💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘

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Everyone I know in Gaza is messaging me saying they can't find internet anymore and are barely able to connect using esims that are running out. Please don't stop donating esims.

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fr. “For the young who want to” by Marge Piercy

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sillies are not being silly...

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Lets go to the beach beach let's go get away!

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Another favorite trope of mine (that works in any Kakashi ship, honestly, but I am focusing on my OTP) is Kakashi having wolf mannerisms. And features, but mostly mannerisms. From the ridiculous to the scary to the endearing.

He will growl in warning, and if it weren't for the mask he'd be baring his very sharp teeth, if you get too close to his pups with bad intentions. And yes, these are his pups, not his children but his pups, he will forever call them that. He'll also growl if you do the same to his mate, even if he hasn't asked Iruka out yet that's his mate.

He avoids doing so in public because he avoids raising his voice too much in front of others but he can howl and his pack can distinguish between his howls and he can do the same with theirs. He did it once with Naruto nearby and the feral little thing decided to just do it too and now they can kinda communicate like that. He almost fainted when Iruka howled the first time (I am currently writing a whole ass fanfic about this in my mind let's hope I can write it some time). Iruka is very embarrassed to do so but he can almost see a white fluffy tail wag every time Kakashi hears him.

Speaking of Iruka... He's embarrassed to admit that it took him the longest time to understand he was being courted, but in his defense, he didn't expect Kakashi of all people to court him. Boy has some serious self-esteem troubles, sadly. He has some experience with people with animal mannerisms, considering he's adopted a fox child and teaches the children of many clans, so once it clicks he does his research, but until then... Kakashi is suffering because he refuses to talk like a normal person.

Speaking of suffering, Kakashi whimpering and whining to get his way. Be it pets or kisses or the newest edition of Icha Icha that Iruka has confiscated. Thank you for coming to my TEDTalk.

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CW: past animals eating/killing people, past murder, I think we’re good for content warnings?

“How can you trust me to sleep beside you,” Kakashi knows he shouldn’t ask, but he has to, has to know. “I’ve killed lovers before, as they slept next to me, I’ve killed people who trusted me—”

A gentle press of Iruka’s fingers to his lips is all it takes to quiet him.

“You let your nindogs sleep next to you, do you not? And haven’t they killed others?” It’s infuriating how Iruka sounds like he’s laughing.

“That’s different, I’m their summoner, they would never—”

“Kakashi,” this time Iruka’s tone is sharp and serious, it’s the same tone that makes thirty unruly pre-genin and rooms full of twitchy jounin freeze, “I can name no less than twenty shinobi who were killed by their own summons outside of mission parameters, it is not different at all.”

That gets Kakashi to close his mouth, because he does, too. One was a a great uncle of his, torn apart by his own wolves before Kakashi was even born. Another was a Kumo missing-nin who had been devoured by her boar summons before they brought the scroll she had stolen back to the Anbu squad who had been tracking her. That sight still featured in some of Kakashi’s nightmares.

And yet Kakashi has never been worried. Summons turning on their summoner is rare. Kakashi trusts his ninken, Kakashi loves his ninken, and even if they did turn on him, he’s sure it would be for a good reason, like the good of the village, or Iruka’s safety.

Oh.

“…I don’t think the village deserves that much loyalty,” Kakashi whispers, half worried that the walls might hear him. “I don’t deserve your love.”

The hand on his head is gentle as Iruka pulls him to rest his head on his shoulder. “It’s not about deserving, Kakashi. I’m giving it to you, and to the village, because I want to give it. The village will take my loyalty until I have nothing left, but it’s up to you to accept my love.”

That wasn’t fair of Iruka, to place it on him, but he’s always been like that. Always pushing Kakashi to open up to him, to take instead of give, to set down the weight of his guilt for an afternoon—for an hour—to just be.

“What if I hurt you?” The words are out before he can stop them, whispered into the crook of Iruka’s neck. He feels the shrug more than he sees it.

“Then I’ll scream at you and chase you away and cry in the bathtub once I’m alone, and you’ll have the ninken make sad eyes at me until I forgive you and let you back in? I don’t know, we’ll figure it out when it happens.”

Kakashi both hates and loves how Iruka makes it sound so easy, like it wouldn’t tear Kakashi apart, but maybe that was okay. Maybe it could be that simple, and maybe it was okay for him to stay here, warm afternoon sunshine painting the world gold as he rested against Iruka.

“I guess that wouldn’t be so bad, as long as you loved me after.”

Neither of them spoke, but Kakashi hoped that Iruka understood his own declaration. From the way a soft kiss was pressed against the crown of his head, he thinks it was.

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More rendering practice with Iruka

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when I was a kid I wished I had nosebleeds. I had some friends who had them and I was like. that looks so fucking cool. you're just sitting there and suddenly you're covered in blood. it looks so dramatic. it looks so... and here my language failed me. at such a humble age I did not have the vocabulary to describe the sublime. I just sat in incomprehensible jealousy. I turned out totally normal by the way

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what started as iruka doodles got a little away from me

also kakashi says out of pocket things sometimes for the sole purpose of getting anko to laugh and iruka to blush. that what he says in this case happens to be 100% true is neither here nor there. that he can get both intended results with one sentence is just a testament to how efficient he is.

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They havin' a sleep over

(Ref)👇

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I love her 🥰

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Yuri I doodle on my lunch 👊