boundlessbounty95

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I'm not scared anymore, I'm terrified.

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Baby are you okay? You're always on my mind.

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I really do love you. I tried to make it all go away. But you, you insidious idiot, you stayed. And yes, I did invite you.

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Yet this reticence on your part leaves me pondering whether you are even aware of my existence. And with all the absence I'm building for your freedom, with all the personality I've created to have my freedom, I want to ask you, do you ever think of me as someone you've lost?

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Je länger man vor der Tür zögert, desto fremder wird man.

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You can make it all go away. Put your head back. Close your eyes. Wade into the quiet of the stream.

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I try to remember that you are not the one that i want to love.

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Ich habe keinen Anstand. Ich liebe nur Personen, die mir nützen. Und dich.

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Das gefährlichste an Depression ist, dass du das Gefühl bekommst, nichts wird je wieder gut. Alle Ängste, alle Schuld, alle Scham, bleibt für immer präsent. Du verlierst das Vertrauen an das Gleichgewicht von Licht und Schatten. Dich übernimmt die Schwärze und dir bleibt keine Hoffnung.

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Oh ok so it turns out ive been borrowing grief from the future ! it turns out ive been preparing to lose the things i love rather than basking in the light of them while they last. Maybe i should nt do that

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Being miserable doesn't make you better than anybody else. It just makes you miserable.

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I love being bitter, it makes me feel better. Bitter feels better than trying to get better. Now I'm sick in the head and it's not even my fault.

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you can't just switch off years of unhealthy behaviors, negative thought patterns, and counterproductive emotions. but u can recognize them and be like 'i'm not engaging. this isn't the end of the world. i'm box breathing. i'm not giving those thoughts attention; i'm acknowledging them and letting them go. i'm going to take a break when i can.' don't be hard on yourself if it doesn't work or you do something that feels like you've set yourself back. that doesn't help, either, lol

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You won't like me if I'm psychoanalysed.

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I do not love you in the traditional way. I love you like John loves Sherlock, like Will loves Hannibal, like Eve loves Villanelle , like Mike loves Will, like Aziraphale loves Crowley, like Wilson loves House. Do you get it? Do you know what I mean? I guess you have no freaking idea.