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how are you doing friend? i took a long hiatus from tumblr and i havent seen your blog in a while

I’m doing alright! I work a lot and am doing my best to pay all my bills and whatnot. Haven’t been very active lately either! It’s been busy. I hope you’re doing well too! 💞💕

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Me fantasizing about all the stuff I’ll do when I’m skinny

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When the hunger pains hit

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victims of abuse be like, this person has now made me cry myself to sleep about 30 times, i have flashbacks of things they’ve done and said to me, they know how to hit me right in my worst insecurity and guilt so i feel horrible for days and months, their comments make me feel worthless and like i shouldn’t even be alive, and being around them makes me feel small and meaningless and sometimes suicidal but maybe that’s just me, maybe they’re not abusive? i have to give them benefit of the doubt, what if i’m not justified to kick them out of my life?

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when you wanna make friends with someone but you’re too anxious to interact with people you don’t know

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friend: “hey, do you want some of my food?”

me: “no thanks, i already had huge breakfast this morning”

my stomach:

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Based off of this suggestion sent to @fierysuggestion

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*me, to my own mind* can u like s h u t the fuck up for once

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i understand that my friends don’t wanna talk every day. i understand that my s/o doesn’t wanna be lovey dovey and super indulgent every day. lots of people need rest from performative emotions. all people need rest in general! it’s okay!! it doesn’t mean they don’t love me!! it’s not a judgement or punishment!! they deserve to take their rest, and they deserve for me to treat their needs with respect!

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dog teeth #159

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alleycat gives unsolicited advice

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tell me again

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event time: 11:00pm

me, a person with no sense of time: ...so I should leave my house at noon, right