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jasper ,
bella * // @bravemade
jasper couldn’t help but feel shame , shame at his actions from two years prior to now that led to — a change of scenery . he’s haunted by the memory , unable to forgive himself for loosing control and almost hurting someone he cares about . someone so important to his brother . but he would try to make up for that now , try his damnedest to protect the human girl . bella . his knowledge of newborns , his own experience in an army eerily similar , would come in handy at last . ❛ are you alright ? ❜ he asked the dark haired girl , his slick southern drawl melodious thanks to his . . . disposition . ❛ your emotions are all over the place . ❜
𝒔𝒉𝒆'𝒅 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒔𝒉𝒆𝒅 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒅𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔 ago, nose now buried in her hopelessly tattered copy of wuthering heights, willing the time to go by faster. even while she read, none of the familiar words registered, eyes brushing over sentences she might’ve been able to recite from memory if asked. instead, her mind was far away. thinking. planning, an underlying stress thrumming beneath anticipation. nerves, of course, & a certain joy. but then, there was always fear. fear of not being enough, the sharpest of all insecurities. she didn’t notice jasper till he was talking, jumping slightly from where she lay sprawled on edward’s couch in his absence. ❛ i’m great, ❜ the answer came too quick, a quick spike in anxiety followed. ❛ sorry just . . a lot on my mind, i guess. how are you ? with everything that’s been happening . . ❜
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carmen ,
she doesn’t have a gift - - so to speak , but she can spot a clumsy human from a mile away . she watches the girl , and springs into action , catching her arms & righting her . she places her hands on bella’s shoulders , ensuring that she is steady before taking a step back .
❛ you should start , amiguita. from what i gather , you are precious . did something distract you ? or is this a common occurrence ? ❜
𝒂 𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒉𝒖𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒔 itself known on her otherwise painfully pale cheeks, nodding at the statement as if to say i know. her eyes roamed her face for a moment, taking in her features. inhumanely beautiful, of course. ❛ i guess you can say i’m clumsy, even for an average . . ❜ human, ❛ person. even flat surfaces are the enemy. ❜
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edward,
he should acknowledge her statement - - but he doesn’t. he can’t , because she is blameless in his mind . it is his mind that skews his own perspective , tells him that all of this is his fault . he left . he provoked the volturi . he made her reckless ( or at least , he brings it out in her ) . edward turns his face toward her touch , his lips against her wrist . there is a comfort in her pulse that he cannot deny .
❛❛ fishing . ❜❜ the word is a scoff . he’d be amused by the thought if he knew it wasn’t her goodbye . ❛❛ and what about your mother ? ❜❜ perhaps in reminding her what she will leave behind , he can prolong the inevitable . she continues to speak - - to try and soothe him , but he cannot help but feel that gnawing question. the one he will not give voice to - - until : ❛❛ but what if it’s not ? ❜❜
pause . and then , ❛❛ what if i’m not enough ? ❜❜
𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒇𝒂𝒖𝒍𝒕 𝒉𝒊𝒎. how could she, when he’d done everything he had to protect her ? she didn’t agree with it, she often put it out of her mind completely, choosing to lock it up in a box that held other repressed moments like a childhood lost to being the responsible adult or all those moments the difference between her & her classmates had been painfully apparent.
hands falling to her lap, twisting together at the thought of her mother. she could still picture her laugh lines, stark contrast to the childlike glee in her eyes. so unlike her own. ❛ i saw her a few months back. we . . we can’t delay this anymore. you know that. we can go see her, one last time. ❜ the thought of that tightened her chest, but she knew it was coming. she was prepared. ❛ she has phil. she’s happy. ❜
his next question was what almost had her jaw falling open, eyes going wide. she didn’t know if she’d ever gone into physical shock before, but this was certainly the closest she would ever get to it. with a sinking feeling, she thought of the same, the way she had so many times before. he was him & she was . . unremarkable, in every way. painfully human, inexplicably ordinary. ❛ there is nothing. nothing i want more than you. i ❜ —— ❛ i want this. i want more than one short lifetime with you. ❜ the last thing she wanted were tears & yet, there they were, stinging the back of her eyes. maybe if she willed them away hard enough, they’d evaporate.
#us : lets do short quick things !#also us : TAKE THIS ANGST FKJNF#mdnightson#𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑤𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑏𝑜𝑠𝑒. / threads .
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edward,
❛❛ if i recall correctly , you didn’t lead aro directly to you. ❜❜ - - it was him . no amount of consoling could change his mind . it was his stupidity that had put them here . he had stopped her clock before its time had really , truly run out . his jaw tenses , eyes fixed on the wall on the opposite side of the room until he hears it .
❛❛ i’m going to figure it out , bella . - - we need more time . i’ll talk to carlisle . he’ll think of something . ❜❜ she needs more time - to say goodbye , or to see reason .
𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒔. thoughts drifting to events that had transpired just last year —— no. her head shakes, pushing at the intrusive memories & his words stubbornly. if she was obstinate, they were evenly matched.
vampire speed or not, she was beside him in seconds, fingertips ghosting along the shape of his jaw. ❛ that —— wasn’t your fault. not completely. we both made mistakes. i’ll go . . fishing with charlie. ❜ she could barely hide her shudder at the idea of . . fishing. ❛ we’ll bond. i don’t need more time. a forever with you is more than enough for me. i don’t need anything else. ❜
#i just Needed an excuse to use this gif ok#𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑤𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑏𝑜𝑠𝑒. / threads .#mdnightson
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edward,
fingers trap the bridge of his nose between forefinger & thumb. impossibly , he feels ( or remembers the feeling of ) an aching head . perhaps it his very real aching heart.
❛❛ alice’s visions are far from perfect . i thought - - i wanted more time. the entirety of volterra within a ten mile perimiter indicates otherwise . ❜❜ a pause & then a hopeless shrug.
❛❛ this is my fault . completely . ❜❜
𝒂𝒔 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒂𝒔 𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒅, she despised seeing him like this. especially knowing she was causing it. her, & where her future was inevitably headed.
❛ this is not your fault. it’s my decision, too. we both knew this was coming. we can always say we left early to set up, to get a head start on finding a place. ❜ charlie. the thought . . her heart stuttered, only for a moment, enough for him to catch.
#i'm just assuming they're using grad school as a coVER KDJNFKJN i can't believe we didn't discuss this one singular detail#𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑤𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑏𝑜𝑠𝑒. / threads .#mdnightson
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𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒉𝒖𝒏𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒅, minute pick up in her pulse, a clear sign of her increased stress. easily ignored, if her foot hadn’t caught on, well, nothing, sending her tumbling towards the ground, hands outstretched to brace her fall. lucky for her, it seemed someone was paying more attention than her. ❛ sorry . . & thankyou. i wasn’t really paying attention. ❜
@caremelita & carmen denali. ( in which non-existent creativity has run out help. )
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𝒊𝒕 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒃𝒆 - she needed a moment, studying her face with a serious concentration before she approached with hesitation. ❛ valentina, right ? ❜
@grieftaken & valentina salazar. ( okay i gave you some context . . honestly good for me. )
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𝒂 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒘𝒏. eyes narrowed impossibly. ❛ i thought alice’s vision meant we had more time. ❜
@mdnightson & edward cullen. ( something emo ? something dumb ? context ? i give you , useless starter instead . )
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𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒈𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒍𝒊𝒕 𝒖𝒑 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒆𝒚𝒆𝒔. she wondered - ❛ it’s nice to see you out & about again. did you end up getting that book ? ❜
@sulpiciaxvolturi & sulpicia volturi. ( in which bella & her spoke in the bookstore & bella definitely recommended jane eyre. )
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𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒙 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒐𝒎 𝒍𝒊𝒑, eyebrows pushed together. ❛ i don’t know, em. i still can’t picture it. ❜
@interritxs & emmett cullen. ( in which i, once again, provide no context. )
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edward ,
moments like this only served to remind edward that they were existing like this on borrowed time. a moment like this - a piano lesson - a quiet conversation should have been mundane . mundane for everyone but them . for edward it was a reminder that bella’s human days were limit. try as he might to come up with ways to subvert the volturi’s demands , bella’s wishes had been made entirely clear . with the volturi now monitoring their every move , time was no longer on his side. fear encroached from every side : fear of losing her , fear that she would change and ultimately resent an existence like his , fear that he was simply not enough . how could he possibly be , when she was so easily everything ?
lips curve upward ( almost imperceptibly ) at her recitation , and fall into a grimace at her question . it’s an endless cycle with them . they talk about the same thing , an unending circle of frustration on both sides . they are both unbearably stubborn , and edward seems incapable of conveying his hesitations while also expressing that there is nothing & no one he could ever want more than her . that if he could allow himself to be selfish , HE WOULD . he will not deny her her choice , but talking about the seemingly inevitable only provokes his unease.
❛❛ do you want to talk about it ? ❜❜ he challenges , swiftly adjusting their positions so that he sits on the bench , cradling her in his arms . stalemate . edward brushes his fingers through her hair , catching a strand in between his forefinger and thumb . he gazes at her for a moment , and wonders how she can possibly think that she is anything other than the most beautiful , most spectacular thing in his whole world . ❛❛ i’m okay . - - everything is just slightly too close for comfort . ❜❜ it’s not a lie , but it’s also not at the heart of his worry . ❛❛ except for you . ❜❜ he smiles gently , now , pulling her gently to his chest , lips pressing against her forehead before he rests his own against it - savoring in the warmth that comes with everything that she is.
❛❛ you’re not close enough . ❜❜
𝒊𝒕 𝒇𝒆𝒍𝒕, 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕, 𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒍𝒐𝒘𝒆𝒅 to a complete standstill, & if even momentarily . . they were the only ones moving in a motionless world. it had been, for her, ambling along a straight path ( quite gracelessly, she might add ) till he’d found her. her personal miracle, she liked to believe. having him close, throwing out all thoughts of how tomorrow might fare in comparison to today, it was almost simple to just be. be them, be in love, removed from the pressing decisions weighing on them. a decision she continually only saw one option too, her stubborn mind refusing to consider the other. because the other meant an eventual life without edward, & that in itself rendered it completely void.
eyes lingered on his lips, curved upwards into a smile she loved so much. she’d spent hours memorizing every dip & curve of his face, & yet, every time felt different. the passing of time, spending moments pressed against his chest —— he still dazzled her, thoughts scrambled & weak. she’d almost forgotten her train of thought, light pools of amber too easy to get lost in. he was being entirely unfair but she wasn’t opposed to it. ❛ i asked you first. ❜ she insisted, childlike, smile mirroring his.
she slips into his lap far too easily —— arms winding around the smooth, cold skin that had slowly become her favourite. ❛ you know it’s what i want. please. ❜ if he hadn’t been so set on distracting her from her mission, she might’ve been capable of forming a slightly more coherent sentence. offer more words of comfort, repeat why it was what she wanted. him, them, & an eternity that would be all theirs. words she’d said, yet somehow, the hesitation remained. she didn’t want to believe it was because he may not want that same eternity with her. & so she didn’t, not in that moment, at least, wishing she was stronger . . strong enough to use her strength to pull him even closer.
there wasn’t anything quite like kissing him, & even now, with him so close, inches away, she needed a moment. fleeting —— to admire every kind of perfect he was.
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𝒊𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒄𝒊𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒕𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒇𝒂𝒕𝒆. it did, in all honesty, fit in with her theory that she was unquestionably cursed. some days, she pushed that idea out of her mind completely, especially when surrounded by a gentle, fond love that had become her own. today, she was sure of it. she didn’t blame her entirely for her distaste towards her, given the spiral she’d been on when edward had left. ( the thought still twisted in her gut like a knife. she pushed that away, too. ). she didn’t expect forgiveness, but some of her friends had been more than willing to hand it to her on a silver platter, some entirely unsure while others more than ready to welcome her into their lives with open hearts & arms. jessica . . she wasn’t quite there yet.
for a fleeting moment, it felt like the first day again. standing uncomfortably in the doorway of a classroom, stomach twisting anxiously, eyeing the only open seat in the room with growing trepidation. only, every eye in the room didn’t follow her as she seated herself down, books falling against the wood with a light thud.
she wasn’t going to pretend like a certain awkwardness didn’t accompany her movements, sitting still in the stagnant air between them. no, she was going to do something slightly unlike herself, instead. even if it was only to appease charlie, to a certain degree. she was more than sure jessica had no interest in talking to her. ❛ . . hey, jess. ❜ her tone slightly apologetic, she offered her a small smile. this was going to be a long hour.
@ternals & jessica stanley .
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𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒂𝒔𝒌 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒂 𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒔, & she’d still say she’d been coerced into this. not that it hadn’t been enjoyable. a teen experience she’d missed, like many others, in her younger years. always too particularly anxious to leave her mother alone, even if it was just for a night or two. with charlie, it was different. he was more like her, in that respect. comfortable in the silence, not entirely unaccustomed to it either. that thought alone tugged at her chest uncomfortably.
the large bed placed in edward’s room for her comfort felt entirely out of place, unfamiliar & even cold, somehow. cold without him, she thought, pushing the thought from her mind with an odd bit of disgust. it was one night. one night, & she was entirely restless, curled up on the leather couch in lieu of the bed, lips set in an impossible pout. the silver light from the moon filled the room, glinting off every surface in a way that was almost haunting. too empty. the thought made her shudder, much like all the others that had been turning in her head over the past hour.
throwing the gold covers off with too much force, she found herself wandering the house instead. tonight, it was only the girls, & traces of that could be felt in the silent dark. a light emanating from the tv, hoping against hope it was alice or esme, caught her attention. she knew she’d made a mistake when a perfect blonde head of hair came into view. rosalie’s distaste for her wasn’t exactly a secret, & the last thing she was interested in doing was confirming whatever it was she thought of her. she didn’t know what was worse, turning on her heel & walking away when rosalie knew of her presence, or trying to strike up a conversation.
she was probably going to regret this. ❛ i’m sorry —— i didn’t mean to disturb you. ❜
@candiedbite & rosalie hale .
#this was 2 long & like#for What ????? for what#𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑤𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑏𝑜𝑠𝑒. / threads .#candiedbite
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𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒈𝒏𝒊𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒊𝒏 𝒂𝒏 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒕. it wasn’t at all hard, not once you knew what it was you were looking at. to the unobservant, her bright, unfocused pools of amber could easily be written off as slightly dazed. lips parted, slack. a daydream, perhaps. something simply human. for bella, it brought with it an instant feeling of worry, a quiet clenching in her chest. a mild spike in anxiety, punctuated by a quickened pulse.
the moment passed in uneasy silence, waiting for her friend to be free of her vision was almost agonizing. she could be patient, sure, but with all the horrors surrounding the small town ; the danger that loomed, although momentarily latent, hung above them like a guillotine prepared to fall at any given moment. her concern wasn’t for her own fate. it never had been. it lay with those she knew would do everything they could to keep her from danger. her family, for all intents & purposes. it lay with those not privy to the secrets she was, blissfully unaware of the rising danger. one yet without a face. & that fact alone spiked her anxiety insurmountably.
& charlie. ❛ is everything okay ? what did you see ? ❜
@foreseens & alice cullen .
#me ? stealing things from the book for starter ideas ? i wOuLd nEvER#foreseens#also what the Fuck this url is so good ?#𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑤𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑏𝑜𝑠𝑒. / threads .
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isbellaswan:
“I knew if I’d never gone to Forks, I wouldn’t be facing death now. But, terrified as I was, I couldn’t bring myself to regret the decision. When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.”
The Twilight Saga • Isabella Swan








#alright Folks . cracks knuckles . lets try to get this writing thing Done then#𝑚𝑎𝑦𝑏𝑒 𝑡𝘩𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑔𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑐𝘩 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑏𝑟𝑎𝑖𝑛. / character study .
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sulpicia ,
@bravemade
She did not know where her husband had gone to, but he had made certain she was not left unsupervised. Two of the guards had been given instructions to not let her out of sight, they were meant to stay close to her and be on alert, in case any danger would befall Sulpicia. She doubted there was any danger to speak of in such a small town, it seemed so peaceful and serene. What could possibly happen to her here? Also, there was hardly anyone who knew what she looked like and could recognize her. She had been kept away for many centuries.
“What is that?”, she turned to one of the guards as they stopped in front of a small store. “Is that where they sell bookstores? It is not like a library?”, Sulpicia continued, waiting for a confirmation. “You are expected to pay for any book you want?” What was even the currency they used. It was so silly, she felt like a complete fool, unaware of how the modern world worked. It had changed significantly since she was a mortal, human girl.
𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒔𝒏'𝒕 𝒔𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒚 𝒔𝒉𝒆'𝒅 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒑. born out of boredom, perhaps. out of a job she didn’t entirely need & with edward taking the morning for a much needed hunting trip, she ended up browsing through the shelves of the only half decent bookstore in town, as though she hadn’t scoured the same shelves on countless occasions already. the least she could do, she figures, was pick up another copy of her most loved piece of fiction, which currently lay in tatters on her kitchen table, the fragile binding destroyed over years of committing it to her memory, it would seem.
her fingertips traced over the titles absently, knowing she wouldn’t find anything of interest. a cool gust of wind accompanied by the chime of the bell that hung by the door captured her attention, instead. of all the times she’d been in here, it remained unfrequented by the people of this town. one look at the arriving patrons & she could feel her pulse quicken. eyes red, the telltale sign of a vampire that preferred human blood. the first thought that flitted through her mind was edward, her promise to stay far from any possible trouble. he’d always claimed she was a magnet for potential danger. it turns out, he wasn’t entirely wrong. the chances of running into the volturi at a bookstore were slim to none. so it was only natural it would happen to her.
slipping out unnoticed would be next to impossible, & she didn’t exactly pride herself on her ability to lie. the woman, hauntingly beautiful, seemed to be in a state of admiration. it made her wonder if the guards, them she recognised, were there to protect her, or to ensure she wouldn’t escape. her innate instinct to help flared up almost immediately, despite the imminent danger to her own life. she really should’ve just spent the day in la push. taking a deep breath, she inched closer, hoping to catch bits of conversation. so far, they didn’t seem to know who she was.
#sulpiciaxvolturi#this got so rambly i'm so sorry KJNDKJFN#𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑤𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑏𝑜𝑠𝑒. / threads .#sulpicia : do i have tot pay for books ?! bella : fuckfuckfuck im gonna die today
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