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Falling behind… ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

synopsis: Megumi can’t help but find himself falling for his newer classmate at Jujutsu High.

relationship: Reader x Megumi . F

a/n: my boy Megumi needs some love too! </3 (I will not be doing smut or implications between reader and Megumi or whatsoever purely because he’s a minor and I am NOT Drake 2.0, so have this nice, fluffy relationship.)

warnings: Slight OOC, fluff, small bit of angst !

Megumi doesn’t know why he feels this way towards you, or rather, he doesn’t know when he started feeling this way towards you.

Moved out to a new city.

You had been like anybody else in Jujutsu High, yet for some reason, something about you had a pull. Maybe it was the way you were so lighthearted, or maybe it was the way you cared a little more for him than the others.

June is dawning on me

He remembers when he first realised his feelings for you, and he also remembers the oh so big mess of a room to clean after it. It was strange, he never had felt this way about anyone, yet here you were

And all that I can find

As perfect as ever, prying your way into his cold, cold heart. He had never known what it was like to love, to be loved.

A sickly romance in the air

He tried his hardest to stay professional, to brush his feelings off and pretend. But he couldn’t.

Lovers stroll without a care in sight

He was foolish to think he could pull that off, his heart beat only increased by a concerning amount as your hand grazed his, your soft fingers brushing past his own as you go to reach for the book next to the one he intended to grab.

Ooh, this can’t be right

That moment was stuck in his head on repeat for days, maybe even weeks after. He didn’t know how he had begun to catch these feelings for you, and he didn’t know what he would’ve done even if he did know.

- - -

‘Cause the suns engaged to the sky.

“He’s so good-looking!” Nobara exclaims, fangirling loudly as she talks about her so called ‘Boyfriend’

“Oh! Let me see!” Yuji says excitedly, quickly turning to look over her shoulder before she begins to pull her phone out, showing him a picture of him.

My best friends found a new guy.

“Whoa! He really is!” Yuji smiled brightly as Nobara elbowed him on his side. “Of course he is, you dingbat! Why didn’t you believe me?!” She yells, clearly insulted.

“Hey!” Yuji says, a frown replacing his smile as he elbowed her back, causing a fight between the two to ensue.

I’m only getting older

Megumi ignores them, still at his desk, face in palm as he stares outside the window. His mind supposedly blank, before it roams to you briefly.

I’ve never had a shoulder to cry on.

‘You’re so lovely.’ He catches himself thinking, it’s cringe, really. He doesn’t know how he got to this state, and he doesn’t know wh-

Somebody to call mine.

“Fushiguro!” Megumi whips his head over to his name as his two best friends continue to fight, bringing him into it.

“Fushiguro! Tell Itadori he’s wrong, chocolate icecream is better than vanilla in every single way!” Yuji gasps, clearly taken aback.

“What?! What type of sick joke is that?! Vanilla is clearly the better flavour and option!” Yuji practically screams, attempting to get his point across.

Megumi interrupts, clearing his throat before beginning, his tone calm and nonchalant.

“Actually, I prefer strawberry.” Yuji and Nobaras eyes both widen intensely.

“WHAT?!” They both scream, basically in sync. Megumi paid no mind to it though, his best friends attempt to hassle him more, but he blanked out.

Everybody’s falling inlove, and I’m falling behind

You were so nice to him, so openly nice to him. He felt like he could be himself around you, he could let his exterior slip around you. He wished you weren’t on a mission right now, because he wanted to see you.

- - -

And see you he did when you came back, bloodied from your second mission ever at Jujutsu High. He couldn’t help but freeze up when he saw you, eyes wide.

touched the ocean, fell right in

He couldn’t help but drop what he was doing to make sure you were alright, attempting to calm himself. He didn’t want to freak you out, afterall.

“L/N.” He called out to you, your head turns to face him before your blank expression shifts into a small smile. “Fushiguro!”

He tried so hard, so so hard to conceal the obvious red tint of his ears and the flush on his face upon hearing your mouth speak his name. His lips part, as if going to say something, but he doesn’t, he stands there.

Stepped outside and burned my skin

It’s funny, really. He never even once considered the concept of love, let alone thought he’d fall victim to the feeling. It certainly does not help considering how new you are to the school, and yet in such little time you’ve managed to sway the cold raven.

My life won’t go my way

Even after that encounter today, those brief words shared with one another, he can’t help but think back to it, staring at his ceiling.

Bossa nova in my room

Does his friends know?

Well, he hasn’t told them, but they definitely know. He looks at you with so much emotion in his eyes, raw emotion.

But Megumi could never let his feelings get in the way of his work, which is why he decided to keep the way he felt towards you to himself, even if it was killing him inside.

So he did, and he kept doing it, but it was so so hard. He thought overtime, if he avoided you, if he tried his hardest to distance, the feelings would fade.

But they didn’t.

They only made him long for you more, they only made him miss the way your lips moved when you spoke, the soothing melody that left said plush lips when you did. The way your hair looked so soft, the way your eyes drew him in, as if looking into a part of his soul he hid so so deep.

Hope that I’ll find someone to love too

If you didn’t know his feelings for you by now, you must have been a fool.

Because it was obvious, it was obvious how he itched to feel the way your soft hands brushed his calloused ones, like that one time in the library

It was obvious how he longed to feel your touch, how he wanted so badly to be near you at all times. But he couldn’t, because Megumi was scared.

So he kept avoiding you, he avoided eye contact when forced to be near you, he tried his hardest to distance himself and stop talking to you all together.

That was until you grabbed his wrist as he walked past you, his eyes widening as he looks back at you, startled.

- - -

The feeling of your soft fingers, wrapping so firmly yet gently around his wrist made him gulp, he stood there, his eyes still wide in shock as Yuji confusedly looked back, a little bit infront of Megumi, wondering why he stopped walking.

Yujis mind takes a second to comprehend the sight, before realising what was happening, making an excuse to leave quickly as if to not get involved.

“I’ll see you there, Fushiguro!” He smiles, as always before walking off. ‘Imbecile.’ Megumi thought

“Fushiguro.” You spoke, your eyes on the ground, unable to look him in his own. He stares, his blue orbs just stare at you. His face flushing a light pink as his gaze drifts to where your hand connects to his wrist.

Because,

“L/N-“ He gets cut off, you bring your head up, staring him in his own, frustrated look with furrowed eyebrows.

“Why are you avoiding me?”

‘Shit.’

“What do you mean?”

“Don’t act dumb.”

He was so so screwed, he knew very well that you weren’t stupid, yet he couldn’t find a coherent answer to give you, and he definitely won’t tell you the real reason as to why he was avoiding you. You continue,

“You never talk to me anymore, if im in the library when you come, you walk out, you ignore me when we’re in the same room, you limit conversation to me as up to only what’s necessary…”

He felt bad, he had to admit that the guilt started eating at him, especially because he didn’t realise it would’ve effected you so much, nor did he think you’d even notice such insignificant and subtle details.

“Well, I-“ He begins, but the truth is, he doesn’t have an answer. He falls silent, unable to explain his sudden detachment from you and why he had been avoiding you. He couldn’t do anything but stare into your eyes, and that alone made him so so nervous.

The suns engaged to the sky

You exhale, your eyes closing briefly, before opening again and looking at him, a softer look on your face as you speak in such a sickeningly sweet tone, so so lovely.

“Fushiguro… I don’t want you to ignore me.” You said, your eyes staring at his own. His lips depart from one another, his eyes stare at you in shock as his face goes red a little.

“If there’s something I did, I really want to know. And I want to know how I can fix it too.” Yep, he’s officially an asshole. He stares at you blankly, watching as tears fall down your eyes, your voice threatening to crack with each word that spills from your mouth.

My best friends found a new guy

“No!- I mean- No.” He answered way too quickly, way too expressively. He was embarrassed, but he couldn’t help it when you were crying infront of him, purely because of his own unwise actions.

“You didn’t do anything… I-.” He diverts his gaze from your own, attempting to look at anything but you right now. He couldn’t look at your face, the sight infront of him made his heart clench.

I’m only getting older

“I’m sorry, I have to go.” He rips his wrist away from your grasp lightly, as to not hurt you before he runs off abruptly.

- - -

I’ve never had a shoulder to cry on

How could he have been so stupid? Leaving you there to cry. Thinking he hated you. He’s a genuine jerk.

So many thoughts rushed through Megumis mind as he attempts to recollect himself from the encounter with you, it’s been hours and all he can do is stare at his ceiling, thinking about you like every other night for the past two months you’ve been here.

‘I need to apologise.’ He thinks to himself, his heart still physically aching from the thought of you hurt and distraught because of him. He couldn’t stand it.

- - -

So there he was, stood in front of your door. He fumbles around, his anxiety reaching its peak before he reluctantly leans his hand into the door, knocking before stepping back and waiting.

You open the door, rubbing your eyes softly. You looked like you had been crying. That made his heart hurt even more, the mere sight of your being showing signs of sobbing was enough to shatter his soul.

Your eyes widen upon seeing him, shutting your door in his face swiftly, not even giving him a chance to speak, but he does, through the door.

“L/N.” You listen, but you don’t reply. You sit there, slumped down, back to the door as you listen to what he has to say after.

“I’m sorry.” He murmurs.

Your ears perk up upon hearing that.

“I left you there, extremely vulnerable and confused. I want you to know I apologise for that. You’re right, I was avoiding you. But it’s not because I hate you.” He says.

“I was avoiding you because…” He stops, his stomach sinking as he shakes with anxiety. He doesn’t know whether or not to say it.

“I was avoiding you because I care about you.” He lands on saying that, not anything about liking? Or even loving.

“So?” You say through the door, your voice shaky.

“I care for you more than I care for the others.”

Your mouth shuts, your sobbing stops as you sat there confused. So confused about what’s going on.

“I find myself thinking about you, especially when you’re not near. I find my heart races… just a little bit faster when im with you.” He says, hesitatingly

“I find myself enjoying every word you speak, I find myself replaying where your fingers grazed mine in the library that one time. With you, your voice sounds like lyrics, and the silence shared between us is the music.”

Your eyes widen, your face flushing a light red before your heart begins to pick up in pace.

“I learnt over time that I don’t feel like friends with you, I feel like more. I yearn to be more, to be closer to you. Yes, it’s selfish. I feel bad talking about it even now, because I should not let me personal feelings get in between my work.”

He stops.

“But…”

Someone to call mine

“But I wish to be closer to you, so much so that it hurts my heart to think that you could ever have the thought in your mind that I think harshly about you, because I don’t. Your company is enjoyable, im an idiot, really.” He chuckles a little at his words, his own face going red a little

“I avoided you because I didn’t want my feelings to grow, because I’ve never felt like this for anyone before. Whatever you would want to call it, which im sure we both know what im implying by now, but I crave your presence in my life.”

His anxiety only grows more as you don’t respond, the silence doing his head in by the moment.

“I acted childishly, and it’s not like me to run away from my problems like that. So im sorry, but i want you to know, i have never once thought or spoken badly about you. I was simply scared for my feelings to get in the way of my work, which, they did.” He ends it.

He waits for a reply, still nothing. His heart is about to explode, the pain in his chest is insane.

“I will be going back to my room no-“

“Wait.”

Everyone’s falling in love and im falling behind

You stand up, opening the door before staring at him, his frozen figure as he stares at you wide eyed, observing your current facial expression.

“L/N-“ He begins

“Y/N.” You correct, your eyes looking everywhere except his own.

“Ah, Right..” He blushes at the correction, first name basis? What does that mean for you guys?”

You stood there in silence, for what seems like an eternity before you speak up.

“I…”

An eyebrow perks up at you, still waiting intently for you to speak.

“I feel the same way for you too.”

- - -

A/N: awh man isn’t that just so cute???? sorry for it being rushed honestly I just wanted to write something and I couldn’t be fucked having buildup to get to the end but I hope whoever read this enjoyed reading it 😭

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THE YUTA ONE IM CRYINF

"Hes busy rn" Smau part 2

Fushiguro Megumi, Itadori Yuji, Inumaki Toge, Okkotsu Yuta

Part 1

Megumi:

Yuji:

Toge:

Yuta:

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almost done, how are we feeling? <3

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Name is Suma, 18 years old. I enjoy writing poetry, or writing in general. Will occasionally rant and over time this introduction will be updated, for now ignore how short it is !

Hardcore JJK Fan, dump whatever ideas I have into here because one random Sunday I remember I’m half decent at writing. ☆

Future writings you might enjoy:

Choso . K - mostly anything.

Toji . F - mostly anything.

Gojo . S - mostly anything.

Latest WIP: Says who? GOJO . S

will link here when finished !

Latest work:

Falling behind. Megumi . F (POSTED)

I don’t really enjoy Geto as a character, but if a time comes where he’s requested I’ll be happy to oblige. Same goes for Nanami, ETC.

Slam poetry goes hard, I write a lot on AO3 aswell, which might be posted later on down the line.

I enjoy photography aswell, and I am currently in college as of writing this.