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If I had a nickel for every time I liked a movie about a boys rowing team which needed to beat any I’ve league school’s rowing team, then I’d have two nickels…

Which isn’t a lot, but it’s weird that it happened twice.

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I would never have survived watching glee live, honestly. I have to pause and scream so many times.

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Not haunted by the narrative or chosen by it, but a separate, third thing. Raised by the narrative.

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Hate being born in March, nobody takes me seriously.

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I’m relatively normal until someone asks me about a TV show from the late 2000s set in New York with an amazing soundtrack and two men who wear suits and also happen to be, in some shape or form, criminally inclined

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I cannot understate how clever and beautiful Penelope's response to wyfilwma is. In the original myth, Penelope literally isn't sure if the man before her is truly her husband, so she asks him to move a bed that is impossible to move. A fact about their relationship that only he could know. When he gets absolutely flabbergasted over this request, it's proof that it IS him.

In Epic there is only one change. Instead of Penelope being unsure, Odysseus is unsure of himself and feels like he would be unrecognizable to his wife. He keeps telling her over and over again, I am not the man you knew, and it's almost as though he's trying to convince himself, too. Like since he crossed every line he's killed all the gentleness in him, and he has to force himself to accept it. Penelope knows better, Penelope knows him. Instead of using their wedding bed as a way to prove it to herself, she proves it to him instead.

"See that wedding bed? Could you carry it over?

Lift it high on your shoulders and take it far away from here"

Shes talking about their bed but she is also talking about their love, their history, everything that makes up their marriage. Its like shes asking him, if you truly are someone else- here's everything that we used to be, everything that we built together, throw it out. You're not the same, right? Then surely you can detach yourself from it all.

But he cant. he cant he cant he cant and she knows that. The shock and the outrage and the pain of being asked to do such a thing hits him with a full force and he talks of how he made the bed, what its meant to them, why he couldnt possibly move it away.

"Do you realize what you have asked me?

The only way to move it is to cut it from its roots"

To cut it from the roots would be to sever their love entirely, it cant exist without what came before and what came before was the two of them. He fears thats what she wants, a completely uproot of their life together. But the fact that he fears it, truly deeply cares like a sentimental bastard, the fact that he could never not be the man who loves her is what she's been trying to show him all along.

"Only my husband knew that

So I guess that makes him you"

like my GOD. THIS LINE. He cannot be anything but her love because he is the only man who knows what they are to each other. She says it and that is final. Moving it is impossible because seperating the man he used to be from the man he is is impossible too. They are one in the same.

"I will fall in love with you over and over again

I don't care how, where, or when

No matter how long it's been, you're mine

Don't tell me you're not the same person

You're always my husband and I've been waiting, waiting"

She is not loving him by ignoring the trail of bodies in his wake and her love does not change the carnage-- in fact she is the reason for it, she knows this and she doesnt care. This is her husband now and always. And as long as bloodied hands will still hold her weaving ones he is the same exact man she's been waiting for.

It is such a beautiful message to leave your audience with. It is so perfect for Penelope as a character and the emotional weight this song has elevated my understanding of the odyssey and their relationship. Twenty years is so long, everything has changed, we have done unforgivable things to get home to each other-- because our home is each other. You are sharp and cruel and I am cunning and so so angry and we are both so tired but guess fucking what, I love you. No matter how long its been, youre mine.

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We've bee in December for four days now...but it's still November...December is still month away, right?

right?!?

ADHD time blindness be like "oh, today is the 30th? that's fine, December is still next month, that's forever away!

...what do you mean tommorrow?"

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in my '?' era

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Its the Holiday season, time to make some bad decisions

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depiction is not the same as glorification and I need people to get that 

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Forget the knives, we're using those terrible sporks, that's the type of week it is

Sorry I Spent all mY spoons this week already and it's fucking Tuesday. We're heading to the knives

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Sorry for admitting that I listen to musicals do you still think I'm hot

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"We need more complex antagonists" you all couldn't even handle Ethan Nakamura

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So if the heroes of legends and myths were specifically told that a prophecy had predicted this outcome and that fate itself is unstoppable don’t they, some way, become their own self-fulfilling prophecies??

Like, the essence of a tragedy relies in both believing you could’ve never stopped it and wondering how you you Could stop it.

But if you’re dealing with a person who sincerely believes they couldn’t stop a prophecy solely because Fate is supposed to be all powerful then subconsciously their own actions to either stop or fulfill the prophecy would then become the determiners that make it come true. Is Fate just a catalystic excuse for man to do what they will??