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if handcuffs are such a big thing in bdsm then how come nobody talks about that time when two characters remained cuffed together in a dark room willingly

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Exits Sherlock.

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CHANGES in the titles from the BOOKS to their TV adaptations. (not a complete list.)

✦ GIFTOBER 2023 | Day 28/31: Change. "Books" for @sherlockchallenge

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On Monday first class first thing thrown in my face was this philosophy assignment asking me to solve the murder mystery of the deaths of Sherlock Holmes and Dr Watson.

Have to repeatedly scream “Who never lived and so can never die Who never lived and so can never die Who never lived and so can never die” in my head just to keep it together.

Do you understand the physical pain. DO YOU UNDERSTAND.

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Reminder that not even once did Mary give any indication to her new-born daughter in both her recordings and good day to you all.

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Don't be sad, John. It's just this is a bit complicated, you see, I murdered someone —— I'll only be away for six months, though. The Game is never over. Ha, you can't think of a single thing to say? Neither can I.

Well, since neither of us know what to say, then I suppose —— If you are to name your daughter, Sherlock is actually a girl‘s name.

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ugh i LOVE your url ngl

ohmygod THANK YOU do you understand how much this means to me I LOVE YOUR BLOGS this is the BEST thing that's happened to me this whole week THANK YOU

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ICONIC

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I understand, now, why god would raze the world and start anew.

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“Because… you chose her.”

“Liar.”

—— The Empty Hearse

Remember when Sherlock saw but ignored the ‘Liar’ as he deduced Mary? The reason why he didn't have the heart to tell John was not just because he didn't wish for John to think that he was trying to “meddle” with his life, but more importantly, it was because Sherlock felt like he was in no position to hold Mary hostage for being a liar.

Sherlock knew well enough that being the liar he was, as he had lied to save John he had also almost killed him. He knew well enough that Mary‘s lies were what had pulled John back from the brink once more, so how was he in any position to condemn Mary for committing the same crime as he has only with the result of saving John.

And by urging John to forgive Mary‘s lies, how was Sherlock not wishing, wishing, wishing for John to forgive him as well.

I lied to save you, John. I don't give a damn if she lied for her own sake but she ended up saving you nonetheless.

I don't want to die but I killed myself to save you, John. I would die over and over again to save you, I would step off of a building I would let serial killers suffocate me I would shoot a man point-blank for your wife and embrace the consequence of going on a suicide mission with no return. I would, and I have.

I'm sorry that my lies have hurt you, John. But I am never sorry that those lies have saved you.

I lied to save your life, John.

“Because… you chose her.”

—— SHERLOCK, The Empty Hearse

As for the “you chose her”?

It was not the accusation of Sherlock‘s toward John for choosing Mary‘s lies over his. Because how could John not.

Her lies were pretty dresses decorated with promising smiles and overt affection. Her lies were far less harmful than my vacant pulse under your fingertips or my brains splattered on the pavement in front of your eyes.

You chose her. It is what it is.

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Fourteen years I'm crying

January 29th: A Strange Meeting

I don’t know how I’m meant to be writing this. I’m not a writer. Ella thought keeping a blog would help but it hasn’t because nothing ever happens to me. But today, something did. Something happened.

Happy anniversary!

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Oh hi and another friendly reminder is that the only time John has ever and will ever see Sherlock get on one knee for him and in front of him is this:

have a lovely day xx

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“Between you and me, John, I always survive a fall.”

—— SHERLOCK, The Abominable Bride

You may always survive a fall, Sherlock,

but it's John Watson whom it kills.

(and us

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Can we sometimes just take a step back and remember that John never learned what happened on the roof of Bart‘s and why exactly did Sherlock jump and who he jumped for and the snipers and Sherlock‘s tears and the two years of impossible work and the Johnlessness and Serbia and the scars and Sherlock.

John never learned about any of these things. He thought Sherlock left him for a little bit of adventure after stepping off a roof right in front of his eyes, he thought Sherlock enjoyed his little joke of playing dead, he thought Sherlock never trusted him, he thought he has never been important to Sherlock after all.

Even though he has no right to land those blows and kicks on Sherlock, he still has the right to be angry and remain angry.

Remember, unlike us, John has never learned about these things.

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Remember this?

Remember “John there's something I should say I've meant to say always and then I never have since it's unlikely we'll ever meet again I might as well say it now”?

Remember “Sherlock is actually a girl‘s name”?

THAT'S NOT THE POINT

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the most amusing part of being a johnlock/tjlc fan is that for the majority of the time it hurts SO DAMN MUCH you quite literally want to throw yourself off a building and then when you actually reach the rooftop you discover you have company: “hey isn't that sherlock”