#johnlock angst

[buckingham-ashtray]

“Between you and me, John, I always survive a fall.”

—— SHERLOCK, The Abominable Bride

You may always survive a fall, Sherlock,

but it's John Watson whom it kills.

(and us

[discreetowl]

JOHNLOCK FIC!

Towards the end of last year (so not that long ago) I began on my first johnlock fic. It’s incredibly OOC but has been so much fun to work on; I wanted to do something different than anything I’d read before. It’s Johnlock with a lovely sprinkle (more like a downpour) of MorMor.

These Unsuitable Pyrotechnics by discreetowl

Explicit, Words 100k+, Chapter 21/26

Additional Tags: Sherlock Holmes has feelings, POV John Watson, Jim Moriarty is a little shit, Jim Moriarty has feelings, Eventual Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Slow Burn, Developing, AU- High School, Smut, Fluff, Friends with benefits, Angst, Mutual pining, Emotionally unavailable John Watson

SUMMARY: “You had all of me that I knew how to give. And if you would ever have me again, I would give you all the rest.”

Or, the one where John is a jaded bastard who has sworn off love completely, Sherlock is a grand romancing photographer/footy coach, whilst Jim and Seb face their own troubling complexities (arson included).

Oh, and Greg is there as well.

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This is an extremely OOC AU.

Slow burn, updated regularly; sad to happy to infuriating to fucking devastating to somewhat happy again.

Enjoy, and please indulge me with any questions, thoughts, or points of clarification.

[poetsofthestars]

*fall*

a rush of wind moving past

empty space

where *he* should be

where he always was

but never will be again

because he fell

and he has no wings to rise back up

he may be my angel but God denied him his wings

and he *fell*

and i am alone

empty space i never felt before

quite i never used to mind

a hole in my heart to never be filled

and yet

they all say to move on

how can i just pass over the pain

maybe i learn to push it down

but not yet

because i still see him fall

every night he falls

and i can never catch him

[topsyturvy-turtely]

Purple doesn't suit him anymore

I had always thought purple suited him. That specific purple shirt... not elaborating, in case kids read this, but let me tell you... it did things to me.

And again... purple on him does things to me. Bad things. Initiating gut-wrenching guilt, which causes nausea, mental and physical pain. I want to bend over and throw up. But I don't deserve that kind of relief. I don't deserve to cry. I don't deserve to be even close to him. How could I deserve that... when I - me, John H. Watson - am the very reason for this distinct purple colour around his eye. When I am the reason he got broken ribs... and more purple bruises hidden behind this light blue shirt.

I am supposed to be his doctor, not his tormenter. I've failed, and if I could tie my arteries and veins to knots to make my heart start turning purple... I would.

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prompt "purple" by @notjustamumj

thanks for the tag @meetinginsamarra and @lisbeth-kk

tagging @helloliriels @totallysilvergirl @gregorovitchworld

[inevitably-johnlocked]

saw an ask awhile back asking for more jl playlist recs, heres one i really like :) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2NWyff9EglLrB25FbYseVP?si=mYWVghpfRQajYE_0LIllOw&pi=u-493KTQGLR3uj

Hi Nonny!!

AHHHH!!! Thank you so much for this playlist suggestion! Everyone please go give this one a listen, it's an Angsty Johnlock Playlist! :)

[pfizerprincess]

I’m very normal about them

[raki-fallfallingfallenfall-2]

And I always will.

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After TRH.

To be continued probably.

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[consult-sherlockholmes]

Mycroft (also kinda everyone), give Sherlock space. I get it. I'm an older sister. We, older siblings get protective and want to help, but just let him be. He will sort things out, cool down and then hopefully talk about things.

There @atamh. Just let me be.

[ioweu-sherlock]

just to get high

i know nickelback is like cringe but they have a few songs i cannot help but think abt bbc sherlock&john anyways here’s one of them

All i imagine is angsty and angry john finally getting fed up with sherlock and cutting him off

[curlyjohnlock]

Well, we already know that John had hallucinations of Mary after she died. He could see her and he even talked to her.

Now, I'm more than sure that the same thing happened after Sherlock's Fall.

Oh boy, I feel like this should've been the plot for S3 😭

You can read my latest fanfics here 🥂

[buckingham-ashtray]

Exits Sherlock.

[makkis-meanderings]

I grew up being gaslit and queerbaited by media, now you're trying to tell me that I shouldn't be filtering AO3 by >10,000 words, angst, hurt/comfort, canon divergence, pining??

what do you want from me fr??

[poetsofthestars]

you see everything

yet

you dont see whats right in front of you

what i offer every morning

what you have won without trying

and what i one day hope to win in return

i worry you will leave

and never know

how you stole my heart

the one crime you couldnt puzzle out

and the one mystery i was never able to write out

i hope that in the future

there will be others like me

who will read between the lines

and give us the story we deserve

but for now

my dreams will have to suffice

goodnight sherlock

[helloliriels]

So even though you have chosen her, I just want to say ...

In another life ... I think I would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you.

[discordantwords]

NOW COMPLETE!

Chapters: 23/23 Fandom: Sherlock (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Mary Morstan/John Watson Additional Tags: Post-Reichenbach, Alternate Season/Series 03, John Watson is a Mess, Mary Morstan is Not Nice, Bad Mary Morstan, Secrets, Lies, Pining, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Sherlock Holmes Misses John Watson Summary:

Sherlock Holmes is back from the dead. Things only get worse from there.

Read it here on AO3!

[spooksicl-e]

i really hit him, greg

hit him hard.