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Frothing at the mouth every time I see a sex ed resource that says "use condoms" without any further elaboration. "Condoms prevent STIs and pregnancy in the vast majority of cases when used correctly" but then they don't talk about what correctly IS

Correct use of a condom means

Using the right size, because if it's too big it can slide off or leak and if it's too small it can break or come off. Condoms usually come in 5 sizes, I'm sure you could find others outside of that as well but in ten years of sex work I found they covered everyone

Using lube, even if you think you don't need it. With the exception of oral sex, condoms should always be used with lube, 100% of the time. Most important lube should be applied to the outside but a drop in the tip of the condom before putting it in is also a good idea

Being mindful that latex is prone to wearing out, being damaged by heat etc. Condoms should be kept somewhere cool, not folded in wallets or sat on in back pockets and should be changed between activities and after about 15 minutes of any vigorous activity. Ask me how I know (a condom snapped on my leg when a client was pulling out, because I didn't change it when I should have)

The penetrative partner should hold the base of the condom when they pull out, and should do so immediately after they ejaculate so the condom doesn't leak or come off as the penis gets flaccid

Bonus: a lot of people think hand stuff can't transmit STIs. Wrong! If you give your partner a handjob and then touch yourself you can get HPV, herpes (low risk), and infections like chlamydia and gonorrhea

This isn't meant to be stressful, and the most common STIs are the most treatable - and often curable - but getting gonorrhea in your eyes after a facial still extremely sucks and yet no one talks about the fact that any mucous membrane can be effected, not just your genitals (yes this includes your mouth and throat)

In ten years of doing sex work where I saw 10 clients a day most of the time I've had 4 condom fails ever. One was what I mentioned above when it snapped on my leg, one was a client on top of me didn't get off fast enough after he finished and the condom came off, and the other two were a Glyde brand magnum that was inexplicably twice the thickness of a regular condom and didn't stay put on anyone so I suggest just avoiding Glyde entirely (their water based lubes also stain fyi). With all other brands correct use = extremely safe

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Melissa Schemmenti at Abbott Elementary s4e14: District Budger Meeting

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@moonflower91 haha I'm glad you liked it, that book will make a cameo in the next piece that is posted for them when Charlie reveals his thoughts.

Does Emery ever play on her mischievous side and order a spicy book to be delivered to Charlie’s desk? Nothing too bad but maybe a classic ‘bodice ripper’, one that would fit in the category of ‘dude, where’s my shirt?’ I can almost see him flushing as he opens the box or reads the jacket and learns what it’s about.

OMG so she does but the books she chooses are so much worse than you would imagine and Charlie has to smuggle them out in his holdall because they would truly fuck with his rep.

He ends up with the whole collection, I think there's around 6.

He takes each book to her place with him, sneaking it onto her bookshelf waiting for her to notice.

Here it is:

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Do Charlie and Emery have tattoos? Do you think that they would get matching ones? If they did, where might they put them since they would have to remain covered at work? I remember Emery having a Celtic cuff in her ear and wondered if she might suggest a Celtic love knot? Like this👇🏻

This was such a good qustion that actually ended up going alot into Em's heritage and the perception surrounding it hence the read more:

Sometimes soldiers get their service number tattooed on them so that if there’s a catastrophic injury (their face is obliterated or they’re blown up) they can still be identified for burial with their loved ones. Charlie did this with his badge number on his left wrist during his detective days along with a bunch of other guys that were in a very high risk unit. They were launching targeted strikes on a gang who was known for hunting down cops and leaving their bodies without heads. Obviously this didn’t happen to Charlie but it did to another guy in his unit. His watch fits perfectly over the tattoo covering it.

Em has a few including a tarot card on the underside of her left forearm that for a long time she refuses to tell Charlie what it means because it reveals her Romani heritage.

It is something that has caused issues with her colleagues in the past. The stereotype is that they are untrustworthy and some of the people she worked with in patrol were always suspicious of her, even though she received commendations for her work in the community. She was told she would never succeed above a certain level because the higherups would never trust an Romani girl, something she discovers to be true when she makes detective and is assigned to Missing Persons. She makes up their demographics but they don’t want her actually involved in certain departments because of her heritage. She expects her career to die there and she’s kind of ok with it because the work she’s doing is important, she investigates cases where people fall through the cracks, people like her and she gets super fucking good at solving them.

Her dad was Romani and her mother Irish Catholic – which is where the Celtic part comes from. They fell in love and ran away together because they’re families did not want that cross over. This caused them both to be ostracized from their communities. When she graduated from the police academy her father gave her the tarot card as a protection symbol and she had it inked into her skin because she couldn’t carry it around with her.

She does tell Charlie after he has a OCD case involving a Romani gang that he discusses with her at home. It’s relatively low level thing regarding retail theft that went into the hundreds of thousands but the synchronicity of the operation and the organization of it is something he found very impressive because most Chicago gangs can’t get their shit together to pull off the levels of product these guys were shifting.

She blatantly asks if he thinks all Romanis are thieves and he says no, just like he doesn’t think all Catholics are paedophiles or all Muslim folks are terrorists. Each culture has bad apples and those apples usually end up in the same barrel because they seek each other out. She feels very relieved at that revelation and ends up telling him about her heritage, which Charlie has lots of questions about.

She also has the constellation of her birth sign on her right wrist and her niece’s name in a ornate Celtic themed heart on her ankle as she practically helped raise the kid as her sister is a single mom.

As to the question regarding a shared tattoo I think it’s a possibility. Charlie’s very clear on wanting to marry Em, the only thing that’s stopping him is the circumstances. He does not want to push her into making a career choice she will regret, that’s why he doesn’t ask. However he does want to express his love, his deep commitment to her. I could see him getting a Celtic knot along side his badge number, just a tiny one. For Em, Charlie stepped up big time eliminating the threats to her life, it really shows his love for her in a way she hasn’t experienced before, she would get hers on her ankle alongside side her niece’s heart to symbolise the fact their eternal.

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How do you come up with the names of your characters? With mine, I can sometimes pick them out of the air but others I go through a dozen before I settle for one.

So it kinda happens a few ways:

It literally just comes to me when I am imagining the dialogue - I’ve done a post before about how using a named character can change the dialogue because it flows better with the name.

Instead of ‘Y/N please don’t leave’ – which sounds shitty and forced, using a name tailors the speech ‘Ally… please don’t go.” – it sounds more authentic, you can imagine that resigned pause and that’s something you can’t get if you don’t use a name.

So sometimes I’ll be imagining a character conversation and the name just slips in to suit the dialogue and I’m like oh hey, that’s who you are. – I usually have a very defined grasp of the character by this point so the name tends to fall into place.

Sometimes the name gives you insight into a character. With the Frank Castle work I was doing I knew the character’s name was Nevaeh Reigns, Frank makes fun of it because it sounds like someone out of a hippy commune. – he isn’t too far off the mark. Nevaeh’s mom was a hippy protester and her father a police officer, they met during a protest and ended up falling in love. Her father is Catholic and her mom agnostic, it’s the only name they could agree on that played into this religion and her views.

Baby Naming Websites – Sometimes I will push it as long as I can go before I HAVE to settle on a name otherwise it starts to come detrimental to the story. That means I have to seek it out and I do that by looking at baby naming websites, sometimes this takes five mins, others I’m trawling for ages.

It’s very important for me to get the right name and right spelling otherwise it will irk me. I have this with one character and it still annoys me to this day.

Googling Words With Meaning – If I already have a very strong sense of the character and their traits I’ll google names with those traits like ‘names that mean brave’ and that can bring up some fresh possibilities when the baby naming sites get repetitive.

Books/TV – If I’m stuck and want something fresh I look back over the books I’ve been reading/shows I’ve been watching to see if anything fits. Sometimes this is very effective and other times not so much. It really depends on what I’ve been up to!

I hope this answers your question and isn’t too wordy!

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2.10 | 4.14

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Has Charlie ever been married/engaged before? You mentioned that he had been burned before so that’s why he 1) doesn’t invite back women to his house and 2) always sneaks out before they wake up.

P.S. I’m loving your insight into Charlie. You’re such a better writer than the ones they had working on the show.

It’s never really gotten to the married/engaged point before for him. It’s not even made it to a place where he’s contemplated it.

There are several different reasons behind this that focus on different times of his life:

Early career – He did not want to settle. He was very goal focused and his plan was make it through the police academy and get on the detective track as fast as he could after putting his time in on uniform. He had casual dalliances during this time, women he met in bars, maybe some fuck buddy circumstances with someone in the academy but there was nothing serious because his focus was on the job and making his bones to get noticed by the departments he wanted to specialise in, which meant putting in face time with detectives and learning from them. – Think Adam in the first few seasons with Al mentoring him.

Detective Track – once Charlie’s a detective he’s still working hard but he allows himself to contemplate the possibility of relationships. He’s also beginning to establish his idea of home at this point, thinking of using the money that was left from the sale of his parent’s house to buy his own.

Charlie was actually very clever financially because he ended up doing the Public Safety Officer Home Buyer Assistance Program, it encourages police officers, firefighters, and paramedics to purchase homes in targeted neighbourhoods to revitalize those areas. They get the houses at a discounted rate, live in them for five years and get a return on the initial loan. Charlie did this with at least four houses, doing them up and selling them when the neighbourhood started to turn around or was gentrified, making a fuck ton of money. All of this to say, he was starting to think about settling.

He starts to date outside the department however… he discovers that the way he works isn’t compatible with a relationship. People love the idea of Charlie the cop, but they don’t love the reality of it. The long hours, the missed dinners, the job being the priority. He ends up getting very serious with a woman named Shania, only to find her in bed with another man when he comes home to surprise her. In the row that ensues, she tells him EVERYTHING that is wrong with him and it is cutting. He dates casually after that because he realises all his relationships will inevitably have a shelf life because he’s not willing to compromise on the job.

Commander Position and Onwards – When his career advances past Lieutenant his hours become more regular, so naturally Charlie starts to consider settling down again. He’s just bought the brownstone, his forever home – wouldn’t it be lovely to have someone to share it with? His social calendar is usually filled with political events which means a different calibre of women. Smart ambitious ones. The key here is ambitious.

He ends up dating Victoria the council woman and he is very smitten. She’s a political animal, he’s becoming one to raise up the ranks, they make a good team… Until Charlie realises she’s using him for her own agenda, using his tragic backstory to offset her privilege, making her seem more down to earth for dating someone blue collar because it reaches out to constituents in a certain bracket she’s not had access to before. He discovers all of this when he picks up a copy of the Tribune one morning to find that’ve run a profile on him alongside a three page spread on Victoria. His history, the private things he’s told her about his mom, his dad and care… all of it is laid bare for everyone, including his colleagues to read. He breaks things off immediately, telling her to lose his number.

This whole actually works in his favour because that’s the kind of passion and dedication the CPD want in their ranks. He’s promoted to Deputy Chief, however his dating returns to casual, one night stands after that because he can’t envision opening up to someone like that again because the betrayal cut so deep.

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After Emery’s shot, does it ever cross Charlie’s mind that she was targeted because of her relationship with him? Just thinking about his story in Who the Fuck is Charlie about checking to see if she was targeted for something not directly regarding her.

It actually doesn’t because of the whole, him finding out after the fact thing. When she’s shot he doesn’t find out for hours by that time they’ve already made headway in the investigation, they know who the shooter is and because of that they know immediately why.

I defo know that Em was conscious at the scene because of something else that happened that you discover later on so she would have been able to give his name.

His story about checking the apartment simply is a story because he knows Voight honed on in the First Nationals very early on in the investigation. They wouldn’t have investigated her or her private life because it was very clear who did it from the beginning.

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PSA On: The Dr Robby x Jack Abbot x Reader Throuple

I feel like now is a good time to limit some expectations in regards to the Jack x Robby x Reader throuple.

If you know me and you’ve read my writing, you’ll know that I enjoy exploring complex adult relationships, this includes intimacy, domesticity and dynamics.

This is exactly how I will write the throuple. We’ll see snapshots of their time together, how it works between the three of them, the different issues that arise individually and how they deal with these issues as a throuple.  

What you won’t get:

Continuous bang sessions. There will be some smut but like the rest of my work it will not be the priority.

When I write sex there is usually a deep emotional competent, there’s a reason behind everything in that scene, the positions, the wording, the type of sex that’s being had and that’s usually drawn from the characters and what they need in the moment.

Examples:

Jack needs Faye to be rough with him because of his masochistic streak.

Allegra being a little wild and Robby being more submissive in the bedroom because he deserves someone to take care of him, to make him a priority.

Dennis constantly exploring new things with Lola because he’s sexually inexperienced.

Ivy being more dommy with Frank because she needs control due to the nature of her job as a SEN nurse. Frank likes being taken care of, he likes being a priority to someone so enjoys the focus of her attention.

Jesse and Jana are just complete wildcards, they’re open to playing with others but careful setting boundaries because at the core of it, it’s really about them.

John Shen’s always being soft with Cici and letting her guide their bedroom antics because for a long time she didn’t get to make those choices.

These are all character driven sex scenes. The writing is made much richer because there’s authenticity to them that’s been developed through the non-smutty fics.

I am not a wish fulfilment writer, I don’t write smut for the hell of it. I write it because it tells a story or it adds to it. So if you are expecting threesomes galore I’m sorry you won’t be getting that.

For me it’s about the relationship and bond between the characters and while sex is a part of that, it’s not the entirety of it.

I hope that helps everyone understand what we’ll be seeing from this throuple and it negates any misconceptions that anyone may have about where this journey is going.

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would you ever write for ahs (American horror story) lol

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Morse's curly hair 💕

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SEBASTIAN STAN as BUCKY BARNES THUNDERBOLTS*

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I have a question for you. I don’t know much about the assignments Charlie and Emery would be sent on, so if this is stupid, you can laugh me out. Would either of them go undercover while they are together? If they do, do they do anything like drop box letters or voice memos to communicate with each other?

It’s not stupid at all. This one turned into a long one because it ties into the current storyline so I've tucked it under the read more.

Charlie is too high in rank to be sent undercover, it would be extremely detrimental to the department to do it because of the role he plays in operations.

Em, however is the perfect rank and in Intelligence it would almost be expected of her, however she has very limited experience because her background is in Missing Persons, where there isn’t much opportunity for UC work. At this point Voight would have had Em playing small UC roles to help her develop that skill set, like Ruzek’s girlfriend if he was playing a dealer – so he had back up, a club girl to plant a bug, a homeless woman to run surveillance. All very short term, not too risky set ups.

The bigger op arises when she plays Ruzek’s girlfriend at a white supremist rally. There’s been a spate of hate crime murders they’re investigating, they’re hearing chatter about a bigger event. The aim is that Adam will be the one that insinuates himself with the group, she’s just there for support.

What actually happens is during the event Em ends up befriending Rik Morrow who is a lieutenant in the First Nationals, his brother Chris is the leader of the group. It is very clear he is smitten on her  when he invites her to a private rally a few days later at The Lodge so she can get a real feel for the group with the possibility of joining. They have to pivot the whole operation based on this. Em is now the primary, Ruzek is out as they want Rik to feel relaxed and like he has a chance with Em.

Noone really asks Em if she wants to do it, it’s just assumed that she will. She does raise concerns to Voight that she is inexperienced but Voight reminds her ‘you’ve got to jump in the deep end at some point kid.’  The deep end being a month long UC sting where she has a new identity and a new apartment.

The worst part about this is that Charlie is actually the one that rubber stamps it when it comes across his desk because the name of the UC officer isn’t supplied to protect their identity and he assumes it’s Ruzek. It isn’t until he gets home that night, he discovers it’s Em and he can’t walk it back.

He is very remorseful over the whole thing and can sense Em’s anxiety even though she doesn’t tell him. He tells her he’s going to set up a dropsite with a secret burner so if ANYTHING happens she can contact him directly. They agree to one text a week from the burner as a check in. He will be available if she needs to call. He changes the ring tone on his phone for the burner to Disco Inferno so he’ll know immediately if it’s Em.

During that month Charlie is fucking miserable and the grumpiest SOB, he is constantly up Voight’s ass for updates. Em texts once a week to let him know she’s safe. As the month comes to an end Voight makes it clear he wants to extend the operation leaving Charlie with a horrible decision to make.

He’s saved from having to make it because Em is forced to break cover when Rik Morrow almost beats a guy to death in a hate crime. He realises she’s a cop when she intervenes and she arrests him.

This event is the precursor for the whole shooting storyline. It’s the reason Chris Morrow puts a hit out on her, contracting Franz, who Charlie tortures to death, to do it.

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Hi what is your upcoming works? I have just read your JAG works and starting on your Chicago Med works now and wanted to know what you were going to be posting next 💛💛💛💛

Here's the schedule but it's very much subject to change depending on stories I have in the WIPs

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