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Hold on. You have to slow down. You’re losing it. You have to take a breath. Listen to yourself.

Pi. Dir. Darren Aronofsky (via helywillums)

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And after you helped him all the way up, got everything he needed, has been a "complete package" - he'll dumped you and looked for another woman.

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Why cant i forget that sparkling eyes. OMG!! OmG!!!! That look. You just stole my heart.

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When people see good, they expect good. I dont want to live up to anyone's expectation anymore. I'm better being the bad person anyway. DS.

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Oohhhhh what's with January. I just realized. My last 2 ex' bday fell on January, my new (u know)'s bday fell on January as well. So seriously? What's with this month??

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For the last time i'll put passion in what i do. For the last time i'll put value in what i do. For the last time i'll put all my energy in what i do. Gratitude is the sole reason why i stay. For the last time, i'll extend my hands to 3 lobs all at the same time everyday until i leave. For the last time, i'll let them use me then i'll let go.. For the last time, i'll say goodbye to the people who made me stronger.

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Here comes my deadly cough.. again. Geeez.

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Ang tgal kong hndi naramdaman to. Ung cnsabi nilang butterflies in the stomach. Ang saraaaaap sa feeling. Omg. Mapapamura ka sa saraaap eh. Hahahaha! Thank you! Gusto ko na magmonday agad.

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I dont know what's happening. But i feel at ease. I feel better than before. I feel light. Thank you for the peace of mind.

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Be strong. Stay positive. Make them wonder how you’re still smiling.

- unknown (via quotelounge)

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What are the things that ive learned? ✅mas maganda ung walang plano. ✅mas okay mawala paminsan minsan ✅kaya ko pala mag isa ✅tiwala lang sa mga tao sa paligid. Kung ano sbhn nla, kng mali. Atleast ngbgay ka ng benefit of the doubt. ✅wag sumabay sa pace at stress ng buhay. Okay lang mag slow down. ✅sa 5 days ko sa baguio, masaya pla tlga ng ako lang. Walang pakelam sa mga tao, pupunta ko kht saan ko gusto, bibilhin ko kht ano gusto ko, uuwi ako kahit ano oras ko gusto, gigising ako sa oras na gusto ko. ✅buhay single. Wlang iniintindi,walang problema. ✅mas marami pang mas may malaking problema kesa sken. Tulad nung pulubi sa baguio nung christmas. Mabuti ako may nakakain at may natitirahan, sya nsa kalye lang wla na ngang makain wla pa matirahan. So i gave her money. ✅tulad ng mga tindera sa kalye. Pasko na dapat nasa bahay cla, nagtitinda pa cla may maipakain lng sa pamilya. ✅maswerte ako kasi meron ako lahat, naloko lng ako, naiwan, broken hearted. Pero meron pdn ako ng lhat (pera,pagkain, tirahan, pamilya, kaibigan). ✅dito ko narealize na, ou malungkot kasi ung minahal ko nwala sakin, pero mdme pa nmn drtng jan. I mean, okay lang hndi maging okay pero dont let it kill your happiness pra sa ibang bagay. ✅wala man akong solid na pamilya pero andmeng pamilyang nagmamahal sken. Cla ate au,kuya, tita mely at tito medel, ung momi at dadi ni ace (na hndi nako inaaya mag iglesia, haha) ung mga friends ko all over the world. ✅pnag isipan ko din kng magreresign ako at irereport ko cla sa hr. - decision ko? Yes to both. Pero gagawin ko? Yes sa resign, no sa report. Why no? Kasi it wont change anything. Hayaan ko nlng maging masaya ung taong minahal ko kahit pa hndi ako kasali dun. I want peace and serenity dba. May karma naman. Hayaan nlng nten. Bakit ako magreresign? Kasi hndi ko kaya na makita cla na cla.. gets? Kht sbhn kong wla nakong pakelam, may pakiramdam pdn nmn ako. Tao pdn ako. I just cant take na makitang ganun. Ung nakita ko nga lang na pic nla together tagos hanggang buto nnmn eh. Tama na. Cgro mttpos ung pghhrap ko pg hndi ko na cla nakikita or wla nako nababalitaan sknla. Just let it go. Patay na ung jayson ko. So aun. ✅ang sarap bumalik sa dating ako. Dating ako na, walang pakelam sa cnsbi ng iba. Basta gusto ko gagawin ko. Sa dating ako na, mabait lang- i mean mapagbigay. Ou lang ng ou kng wla nmng effect sa buhay ko. Ung dting ako na may mataas na pangarap. Yung dating ako na positive lang. Malapit na ako dun. ✅hindi nako mag aasawa. Itaga sa bato yan. Cgro depende sa makakapagpa oo sken. Pero now, wala nako balak. Mag aanak nlng ako pero wlang asawa. ✅thank you lord for healing me. ✅thank you lord for showing me that theres more to life than love. ✅salamat sa panaginip ko kagabi. Hndi tungkol sknya pero tungkol sa iba. Ang saya. Ang sarap.

Anna. 😊

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Baguio December 22-26, 2015

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You know what's sad? The thought that they should be with me right now. But unfortunately they're not. I know they love me. I love them too. But fate won't let us be together as family. Let him go. Let his family go. This will be the last then im done. Last one sneak. Last one pain. Last one death. Happy birthday jesus! Hoping for resurrection like yours.

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I have to be happy. Because he is happy. They are happy. I have to forget for he has forgotten me already. I am alone in the woods of serenity. Wrapping my arms with the coolness of the thin air. I am surrounded by the calmness of trees and peacefulness of the lake. But my heart and mind? Still full of noise telling me to think of different thoughts pertaining to him. I wanted to vomit and expel this thoughts and forget that he never existed. If only i can, i will. If only i know how to unlove someone, i will do it asap. But the silence of the corners of my room tells me that it takes time. I should linger in the pain until i feel nothing. I should face the truth until i see nothing. I should embrace the thought of you loving someone and that's not me. The forest tells me that love can be hurtful. Love can kill you. I said it just did. I died. I am here to resurrect. To feel that i am alive. To feel that no one would mend me except myself. But i can't feel it. The death is too much that i cant do it by myself. Yet, i dont need someone. I would stick to what i was told to. I dont need someone. Do it all by yourself. Anyway, there is no harm. Im good as dead meat. My heart has been ripped off my chest. And im still finding a way to bring it back.. Without anyone.

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Where do broken hearts go?

To a place that no one would recognize them. To a place where everything is new. To a place where you can think. To a place where you can have peace of mind. To a place where you can be alone. Bittersweet but true. #thrilled #excited #baguio

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I need this. Bad dreams need to stop.😢

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Hope so.