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Something pulls and tugs at my lips, Kisses shared in the dark, brushing fingertips, I fear pulling away and dousing this yearning, No less than proceeding and our bodies burning, I am drawn and lost in the depths of your eyes, Where all doubt and willpower fades and dies, Do you know you posses this powerful fire, To ignite a soul and leave it with desire. -ktcm

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Zombie

The distance between our hands will ever be apart,

this bitter and sick melody led by an unsteady heart.

I know these lyrics well that roll between my lips,

a lie so venomously silent that curls them at the tips.

There are some battles that can't be fought,

memories to fade in all that is naught,

but left is a note that rings ever true,

I will live devoid as I die for you.

-ktcm

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Then kissed my fears away.

So I memorized the color of your legs as I lost myself inside you...

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You don't get to see me at my weakest.

You can't love me at my lowest.

Your heart holds so much hate.

I quake.

I fear.

I fall to my knees before it.

The rain becomes the friend.

It hides just how deep the tears lie.

The tears become it and in that,

I have become more than nothing.

I am the sadness of the rain,

the fury of the storm,

and yet still the nothing of the clouds.

You can't hurt the rain.

You can't calm the storm.

You can't break the clouds.

I will give myself in to this,

and become more than I am.

I will become something you can love,

as I trail down your windows and shake your walls.

-KTCM

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Who cares.

I am nothing,

the world does not see me.

I try to be something,

So hard.

I hate these feelings,

like I'm burning up,

amongst an inferno,

unnoticed.

Every day I notice,

more and more I am nothing.

Briefly I was something,

a lie.

A lie so beautiful.

Eventually truth comes,

as always.

Shreding,

tearing skin away.

Searing brands into my mind.

Unaccomplished.

Imperfect.

Nothing.

You wonder how nothing can feel pain?

Dig your fingers within the nothing.

It can feel.

Nothing can hurt,

Nothing can love,

Nothing can hate,

but really,

who cares what nothing feels.

In the end it's still nothing.

-KTCM

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Tell me a story,

of when love was true.

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Dim.

It's fading faster in this dark, where once, it did nothing but shine, There are no words I can ever say, that can cross back over the line. Try as I may I can't see forward, and it drags me when I look back, I fight this knowledge in my head, but everything's whirling off track. Can't move, now that I'm blinded, if there was anything left to see, when there's no hope for an ever, and this lock has lost its key. -KTCM [April 11 2011]

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Sometimes I Wonder...

If I'm as good as people make me out to be, or whether I'm another asshole and I just haven't realized it yet. I make mistakes like anyone else, but I never know how to fix them. I occasionally think I might be somewhat insane. I love too hard. I'm trying to sort my life out... but life always seems so hard and complicated. When it doesn't it seems empty and lonely. Sometimes I just want to lay here and sleep my days away. At times I look to the past and crave the simplicity of it all, the thought of redoing it. If I tried harder, where would I be. Who would I be. What if I were more confident? What if I were more pretty? Average? Accomplished? Just better you know? I mean, most of the time, I kinda like me. But I guess it's just one of those points in my life where I don't like me. Where I kinda really think I am a bad person. But... I'm probably just a good person going through a rough time... Who knows, as per usual only time can really tell.

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Shine.

May I be the sparkle in your eye? Or am I the one that makes your stomach knot? I want so badly to be the reason you shine, but the glare fades while your smile is sought. I can’t see you for fear of breaking, Is this a love story or heartbreak in the making. -KTCM [March 30 2011]

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Summer

I just found a poem I wrote in 2007 that I don't even recall writing...

My heart starts beating from its slumber, the kid in me comes out once more, grass and sand between my toes, a childish pleasure I can't ignore. Running down the streets without a care, the sun beating down upon my mind, it's almost as if I have no woes, ignorance is bliss I find.

-KTCM

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Lackluster.

Maybe my addiction is the friction and the way it pulls me down,

I'll cling to something else that's bright to try and turn it around,

But I'm faltering and looking in at myself, knowing I carry a bruise,

and that all this smiling and idle talk is just a self bidden ruse,

I try to push you deeper down to where you no longer remain,

but I'm not fooling myself nor you in this image, I can no longer abstain,

so I'll curl up in the sheets and tangle myself just trying to forget,

but all I end up doing is pulling in more of this hate and regret,

I tried to see you a villian in hopes that my heart would finally let go,

though without me clasped within your heart I have ceased to shimmer and glow.

-KTCM

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The Stars Will Shine Like Never Before, Or Never More.

I am but another star burning dimly in the distance,

watch you shooting past with a unsure resistance,

I fear the way I may flare too intensely,

that you may stop if you could sense me.

What if you're a part of my constellation,

and together become essence of creation,

what if I fall down to earth and burn away,

when everything I am pulls beyond the fray.

When the moments gone will I see you again,

or will these thoughts just wither in vain.

-KTCM

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It's something strange to not know,

beauty in the ignorance,

while confusion stirs in mind.

What does this world have to offer?

Beauty awaits but around which corners?

I feel the strings pull me ever close,

and I am not sure what this is,

or if I should struggle.

Will this be beauty?

Or the sparkle in your eye?

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Burning Bridges.

Can you see the way it rips and shreds when I try to hold you close,

The distances between our hugs are turning me shattered and cold,

I see the way you can't touch or hold me,

But your arms seem to fit around her,

You tell me it's something different but still my heart is screaming,

You tell me you care for me but maybe you're dreaming,

And why do I care that you'll never be mine,

Since that's where this road's been heading this whole time,

The distances between us still less than between our hearts,

But neither will cross this bridge when it comes to it,

Because I'm burning my fingertips to charred bone,

Just trying to be rid of the hard choices.

-KTCM

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Discrete Fantasy.

Swing me softly like the willow,

weeping on the breeze,

and show me where our love lies,

forever like the trees,

I need to feel your gentle touch,

just something so discrete,

as fog climbing up our spines,

a fantasy complete.

-KTCM

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Neverending Dreams

Everyone knows fear.

Those that grip us,

pin us down and we don't know why.

I fear the dream that never ends.

Pressing on my chest and paralyzing my senses.

Can't scream,

can't move,

can't wake.

This demon unknown comes to my bed again and again.

To sink beneath the sheets unwanted.

Where are you when I curl up alone and attacked.

Where am I when you need a shoulder to lean on?

My fear?

That the succubi keep us apart even in dreams;

That this dream never ends.

This reality.

-KTCM

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Not a question, but still. Your writing is magnificent. So honest, and flows very well. Keep writing. :3 I wanna read more!

Er thanks :* Certainly whenever the muse flows I will likely find my way here. I'm just glad you enjoy it. =3