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Can I flip the anon question? What are those moments where CI Lexa finds Clarke adorable? :3

Honestly when Clarke is just being entirely too much Clarke for anyone's own good lol

Because see, on the flip side, Clarke is an extremely tactile partner. Clarke is the wife who kisses and holds hands everywhere they go. Who will curl herself up into Lexa's side like a little mangy cat desperate for love. Who will just open herself up whenever Lexa feels like silently crawling into her lap and draping herself all over Clarke for no reason other than to feel close. Clarke's loving side with her is kind of their baseline, so it's when she does things that surpise Lexa that really grab her attention.

Something as stupid as Lexa being gone for a business trip and aching for that familiar touch that usually fills her days, so in a moment of weakness she texts "I'm in a meeting that's so boring I want to kill myself. Entertain me, my darling? Send a video of you pleasuring yourself. I want to watch."

It's her favorite thing to do in these stuffy meetings. The baited breath and anticipation making her antsy, crossing and uncrossing her legs because Lexa truly hates being patient when it comes to watching Clarke get off.

Only to click open the goddamn video... and find her wife sensually eating a slice of fucking pizza, making those obscene moans and biting her lips and licking her fingers like its the most erotic experience of her life.

And it's so stupid. It is so fucking stupid, and yet such a perfectly asshole-Clarke thing to do it has Lexa hiding a smile behind her fingers so that the very boring businessmen peppered around the conference table don't realize that she's not, in fact, just the emotionless cutthroat head of the Woods' Empire. That she's actually just a woman hopelessly in love with the same fucking idiot who has kept her on her toes every day since the first second they met.

That's what does it for Lexa. Because Clarke is a lot of things: ruthless, cruel, unyielding and filled the most delicious kind of ill-intent. She loves more fully and wonderfully than she gives herself credit for, and is forgiving even when Lexa's not sure if she deserves it. But what keeps Lexa falling in love over and over again, what makes Lexa's heart pound, is the brightness in her. The silliness, the funniness, how clever she truly is. It's the playfulness that she keeps hidden behind the darkest pieces of her heart that only Lexa is ever allowed to see

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Do you ever feel hungry and then you wonder what would lexa eat?

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Me: I hate gossip

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i always see people saying that lexa’s face after clarke kills finn is one of surprise because she’s realising that clarke could have just as easily killed her. and while i’m sure that could be the case, i always saw it as lexa being completely stunned and sickened by her guilt. we know that losing costia was a key point in lexa’s life and caused her to view love as weakness, and i think that she saw clarke, bloodied and crying over her first love and holding a knife and burdened by leadership, and thought of herself and felt so guilty that she’d just watched clarke lose her first love, just like she did, because of her own orders.

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I’m not the other anon but re demon AU, lexa was hardly the dirty one. As a human, Clarke was far more willing to push the boundaries than sweet Lexa 😈 she was just game for whatever Clarke wanted to do.

Oh it absolutely was Clarke's doing 🥴 for all the shit Lexa talks - and she does talk a good game - the truth is that she was relatively innocent tbqh. She understood sex and in theory wanted to have A Lot of it with Clarke as soon as possible, but in all of her daydreaming and imagining, it was all... rather innocent? Having never been with anyone, she mostly pictured herself kissing Clarke. Running her hands over her neck and tasting the skin between her breasts. Wondered what her nipples would feel like against her palm; if they'd feel different than her own. She imagined a lot of running her hands up Clarke's thighs under those perfectly professional skirts. Had vague images of her head working between Clarke's legs. Idle thoughts of blonde curls turned darker from being wet against her tongue.

And then the reality that is Clarke Griffin showed up and just kicked the entire door down on Lexa's fantasies. Suddenly she was being roughly fucked against her office's wall and listening to daydreams about getting pressed into her chair with her pants down to get eaten out during work hours before being bent over her own desk 😳

At no point, at noooooo point, was Lexa ever actually the one driving this thing

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Hi! I just binge read TOH yesterday. Really phenomenal writing there, you've got a gift writing clexa! I'm in awe. Just wanted to ask, have you ever watched Lucifer on Netflix? Did it inspire the fic? There's such a similarity between your Lexa and Lucifer in the show.

Again, I must say: I laughed and cried through the whole fic, it was such an awesome experience. I want to marry your writing ISTG 😘

Well first off, thank you so much for the lovely message 🥹

And also, no actually! The idea for demon au came from a group chat I'm in with a few other clexa writers and one day they were asking me to make CoA Lexa do some very, very unhinged and sacrilegious things 😅 and in my solid defense of CoA angel Lexa's dignity, I was like "well I could always make a demon Lexa oneshot. Like a dark side piece to CoA Lexa 🤔 now she'd do those things (aka fuck on an alter)", and then we all just started throwing around ideas, and from that I created Ms. Alexandria D'Angelo 😏

I hadn't even seen Lucifer when I started the fic, but I did by the time i finished because @100hearteyes told me I needed to lol and she was right! Love that show. So yeah they're similar but it wasn't a conscious effort, I'd already made Lexa that big of a loveable asshole before even seeing the show

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Want to tell us the wildest weed related story you like sharing?

There's nothing like "wild" I guess, just either stupid or surreal 😅 like uhhh let's see. There was the time our plug was lowkey a legit crackhead (we were not aware of this fact beforehand) and we were chilling just waiting to leave and dude is,,, throwing up randomly 👏 and 👏 repeatedly 👏 the entire time as tho it's no big deal? 🤨 my friend was like ay you ok and dude said "ah yeah sorry I'm just coming down, it happens with crack, no worries". I was like sir????!! Excuse me???? (That's a lie I said nothing I was just like "haha haha aaa yeah... 😐")

Then another time we were at a kickback at a friend's house who was emancipated and lived on her own with her boyfriend, who was like 35 👀 and uh... affiliated, shall we say. And I used to own this big black dick bong that was hyper realistic. Veins and all. The carb was on the shaft and you had to cup the balls to hold it, and you smoked out of the head 🥴 and we managed to get a pic of this very large, very scary dude smoking out of that thing despite him trying very hard to not let that happen 😂

Then there was the time I came very very close to being arrested with a bunch of weed on my lap thanks to a frenemie calling in a fake drug tip 😒 I can laugh about it now but at the time that shit wasn't funny

That's just a few. Just your average tales of a misspent youth 😘

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to add to those anya tags: i know its more fanon than anything but literally I would have given any of my organs for any canon ranya interactions 🤲

What's so funny is I think initially Raven would've hated Anya. I mean I think their personalities eventually would've complimented each other wonderfully because I think Anya would've seen through a lot of the defense mechanisms Raven used on people, but initially??? Oh bitch. Oil and water. Gasoline and a match. The way they would've, without a doubt, butted heads so intensely would've created amazing chemistry, I just know it. Whether anything ever came from it in canon or not, I just know Dichen and Lindsey would've played so so well off each other. And I would've eaten it tf up

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4/20 related post that I forgot to make yesterday.

Edit- "stopped for some reason" includes job, reliable access, a home environment that allows it, sobriety, etc.

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this dynamic was the best thing about clarke in all of ~~book one~~ i will NOT take constructive criticism I will NOT accept discount anyas-

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“omg you’re so creative. how do you get your ideas” i hallucinate a single scene in the taco bell drive thru and then spend 13 months trying to write it

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I’m curious… where were you first introduced to writing/reading fanfiction? was it Tumblr, Fanfiction.net, Wattpad, AO3; etc?

I actually found fanfic.net first and then wattpad but ff.net was pretty much my main source until I stumbled across AO3 and never looked back. Literal geniuses are on that site, i dont understand it.

(sorry if you’ve already answered this question in the past. I’ve been following your blog for a while but I just started to come out of hiding anonymously 😅)

Heyo yeah I love that you're coming off anon 🤗 I love anons believe me I do, but it's also a lot of fun putting a url to a question and just knowing there's someone real behind the sunglasses lol so yeah, glad to see ya 💕

Anyway, oof this is gonna age me, but actually my first foray into fanfic was back on old forum ship sites. Reading only, I never even considered writing. I think ff.net was around at the time, and I might've read a few things here and there, maybe?, but I don't think I did because I genuinely don't remember it.

Tbh I was just a wee little lesbian in the midwest who was filled with a lot of gay emotions and not sure where to go about all of it. And at the time I was a huge Buffy fan, specifically Willara 👀 and so I mostly just stumbled upon and read fics that were posted to Willara specific forums. Like my stupid ass would just search "willow and tara" and see what came up in a general search 🥴. Ah, it was a different time then... So yeah. There was one I frequented A Lot called something really cringy like The Lion The Witch and The Bad Wardrobe I think? Looking back now, some objectively bad fic lol, but there were some gems that kept my little 12-15yo ass in a chokehold.

So imagine my surpise as an adult in her mid-late 20s falling in love with Clexa and idly thinking one day, "Huh. I wonder if anyone still writes any of that weird fan story stuff that I used to read as a kid, only for Clexa... Lemme see" and then discovering the glorious treasure that is AO3 and bam here we are

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So we know CI Clarke like to nibble nibble on Lexa whenever wherever. But are there any instances where she’s literally latched on her coz of something her wife did or say that’s just too adorable?

There's plenty of times in their day to day where Lexa is simply too cute, too gorgeous for words and Clarke quite literally just wants to eat her up. Her secret little pair of reading glasses or the way she smacks her lips in her sleep, the way she gets broody and tucks her face into Clarke's neck when she isn't feeling well. The way she can volley between curtious and so fucking rude it'd make your eyes water, the way she scrunches her nose up at something she finds so tacky she can't even begin to contain herself.

There's just so many shades of Lexa, and each one is perfectly wonderful, and extremely biteable 😌

But also, the thing with Lexa is that she's not a particularly outwardly vocal person about her feelings. She's not a partner who says "I love you" often, because she prefers to show it in her actions. Words are too easy to fake. And she's not the kind of person who uses pet names in a genuine sense (beyond Darling) very often, because she loves Clarke's name. The sound of it, the taste of it, the way it makes her feel knowing that name and that girl belong to her, every bit as much as she belongs to it. So she uses it.

So when it comes to Lexa, it's always in the quiet moments that Clarke has learned to listen for the big things. To recognize big moments that really show all the thoughts and feelings that have sat tidy behind the veil of Lexa's carefully crafted indifference.

Because those are the moments when Lexa will turn to her and say something that just... knocks the absolute fucking wind out of her. A random Saturday morning that feels so mundane her past self would cry in agony just at the thought of it, silently drinking their coffees and sharing pain au chocolat that the cook made fresh that morning. Reading or scrolling their phones while ignoring each other's incessant yawning and absently running hands along each other's back, still stiff from sleep.

Those are always the times when Lexa will just let the veil drop to Clarke's "What are you thinking?" with a thoughtful and slowly hummed, "That I'm happy... That... if one day I had no memory of my life, I'd never want to forget this. I think I'd be fine not remembering one single other thing about myself. Except you. And us. Just like this... I'd want you to always tell me stories about this."

It's bizarre and seemingly out of nowhere, but that's why it's so perfectly Lexa in that in way, and truthfully, how is Clarke expected to do anything other than physically attack her wife with nibbles, bites, and kisses that leave the kind of marks that make sure she wont forget? Can't forget. At least not for the rest of the day.

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Alright, to ao3's soon to be arriving Wattpad Refugees, a basic guide to general user culture:

1.) Unlike Wattpads vote system that let's you like each chapter, the ao3 equivalent kudos only allows one per work. Everyone is generally quietly annoyed about this. To engage with each chapter, you're heavily encouraged to comment. Trust me, it makes people's day.

2.) Ao3 has no algorithm. By default it's latest updated work first. You can find things to your taste through searches, filters and tags.

3.) 'No archive warnings apply' and 'user has chosen not to use archive warnings' mean two very different things. No archives warnings means the work is free from any content that could require a warning tag (character death, graphic depictions of violence, non-con, etc). User has chosen not to use archive warnings means it could contain any of the warning content, be it hasn't been explicitly tagged. Treat it like an allergen. No archive warnings apply is allergen free. User has chosen not to use archive warnings, may contain traces or whole chunks of the allergen. If you're likely to have a bad reaction, maybe don't take the risk.

4.) Speaking of warnings, ao3 has very few restrictions on the type of work that's allowed. Whatever your personal thoughts or feelings on that are, thats how the site is. You're likely to run across some dark subject matters and a lot of people are uncomfortable with reading that. You're well within your rights not like these works and have your opinion on whether they should be allowed, but harassing the authors of such works (or any works) is more likely to come back on you than them. Ao3 operates on a strong policy of 'don't like, don't read'. Use the tagging system to your full advantage to only engage with the kind of works you want to see.

We look forward to welcoming you all and seeing the fantastic works you create. Happy writing!