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i got some appetite reducing pills #needed

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so i actually gained wait since my last update. 2 pounds and i wanna die i feel like nothing i do is good i need self control. pls leave encouraging comments🫶🏼

cw: 151 gw: 145

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reminder for if you messed up / binged today ♡ ⋆｡

don't beat yourself up over it. take a breath, drink some water, and try again tomorrow. results won't come overnight and if they did, everyone would be doing this.

acknowledge that today didn't go as planned, and wake up tomorrow with a better outlook

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Anorexia Watchlist

Movies

For The Love of Nancy (1994)

When friendship kills (1996)

The Perfect Body (1997)

Girl Interrupted (1999)

Sharing the Secret (2000)

Huger Point (2004)

Emma Wants to Live (2004)

Maledimiele (2004) about mi@

Thin (2006)

Feed (2007)

Starving in Suburbia (2014)

God Help the Girl (2014)

My Skinny Sister (2015)

Little Miss Perfect (2016)

To the Bone (2017)

Feed (2017)

The Brief Life of Catherine (2019)

Shows

Everything Now

Heartstopper

Pretty Little Liars

Red Band Society

Skins uk

The O.C.

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does anyone else have a couple pieces of clothing you save for when you’re skinny? i have these size 4 shorts that are waiting for me

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things to do instead of eating (at home, work, and school):

exercise (get those steps to 10k come on)

shower

skincare

catch up on assignments or projects (stares at my 3 overdue tasks at work)

talk to someone new

buzzfeed quizzes

girlsgogames

catch up on a youtuber you like

watch an entire tv series or movie series

yoga

draw or write something, even if you think you have no skill

play with your pet

lock in to your work day super hard (i do this all the time to distract myself)

listen to a new artist you've been meaning to listen to

shop online (don't have to actually buy anything)

challenge yourself with a timed challenge of some kind - working out, writing, drawing, blinking, etc

look at yourself in the mirror and pretend you're in a music video

write or read fanfic

drink water every time you think about food

learn how to make an origami something

makeup practice

go out somewhere (thrift store, pottery making, etc)

take a free online course of some kind

download a mobile game (i love that one color match game where you have to mix the paints until they match the color of the object)

play video games you like

plan your outfits for the week (or next week)

start a collection (i collect pins, stickers, patches, and magnets)

call a friend or partner

make more pinterest boards

photoshoot for instagram

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hey guys update; i found out yesterday that i lost three pounds already so instead of 2 more im gonna make it 5 again.

cw: 149 gw: 144

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am i the only one who doesn’t really like meanspo? like yeah i might be mean to myself but it doesn’t really help when i see post on here that are like well you’re fat because you ate a granola bar blah. this is just my opinion. for me it helps more when i see a post like “ you got this “ and stuff like that

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i haven’t been keeping track of my weight and o gained 2 pounds. are you fucking kidding like seriously i can’t just not be a fatty and not eat, god. i need to limit myself to one meal a day until i lose 5 pounds.

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i hate back fat

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i love when i genuinely don’t get hungry or actually forget to eat like it doesn’t cross my mind at all, it makes my days easier fr.

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accounts like this are the best!

List of cal for fruits 🎀

1. Apple (1 medium) - 95 calories

2. Banana (1 medium) - 105 calories

3. Orange (1 medium) - 62 calories

4. Strawberries (1 cup) - 49 calories

5. Blueberries (1 cup) - 84 calories

6. Grapes (1 cup) - 62 calories

7. Watermelon (1 cup) - 46 calories

8. Pineapple (1 cup) - 82 calories

9. Peach (1 medium) - 59 calories

10. Kiwi (1 medium) - 42 calories

11. Pear (1 medium) - 101 calories

12. Mango (1 cup) - 99 calories

13. Cherries (1 cup) - 87 calories

14. Plums (1 medium) - 30 calories

15. Blackberries (1 cup) - 62 calories

16. Raspberries (1 cup) - 64 calories

17. Papaya (1 cup) - 62 calories

18. Cantaloupe (1 cup) - 53 calories

19. Pomegranate (1/2 cup seeds) - 72 calories

20. Grapefruit (1/2 medium) - 52 calories

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i eat, i regret, i eat, i regret,i eat i regret i eat i regret i regret. it’s seriously getting fucking annoying but i can’t get upset and change nothing. i will not eat for 1 day then have something small the next and repeat that. it will probably just be yogurt and celery. okay bye xoxo

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my mom bought a scale but idk if it works right so im tweaking. it said i was 150 one day then like 4-5 days later it said 143 and ik thats not right

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hanging out with my bsf in a couple days time to not eat until then!

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‘Girl u ate’ i did what

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The only trio that works well is

1. Me

2. My v4pe

3. And my Diet Coke