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calla’s tips for prime growth and motivation!

a/n: taking care of yourself is actually so hard, but here are some tips that i’ve picked up. sharing these in hopes this helps another lost lily 🫶

modifying things to make them more appealing!

you might’ve heard this one before, but it’s actually been so helpful! i find it hard to make myself walk or go out every day because i like playing games, so i downloaded pikmin bloom recently and it makes walking interesting for me. and the silly pikmin encourage me to walk to different stores/places so i can collect them : - ))

buying stuff that’ll make things easier for you!!

like i said i HATE going outside because i like to play, so i purchased a walking treadmill and a standing desk so i can just walk while i mindlessly play. it’s actually fun and also reminds me to take a break (when my feet hurt).

i also find it hard to drink enough water but i got a nice insulated bottle with a straw so it keeps my water nice and cool, n also straws are funn haha

making checklists!

sorry i have really bad daddy issues + poor organization and need to have some sort of validation linked to anything i do, and i recently found out that making checklists is actually so fulfilling! it’s like everything i need to do, on one page/app etc., and when i’m done with the task, i can check it off! it’s rewarding.. physically seeing the task and being able to physically remove it as well. bonus points if you find a website that drops little confetti when you finish something ^.^

starting the task!

sometimes i feel overwhelmed by things like making meals or cleaning my room, but then i start it and catch a groove. just a little at a time! need to cook? open the recipe, just look at the ingredients and take them out.. usually that gets me going. or folding my clothes. i start by organizing them into piles by the drawer they go in. there’s no need to rush, or try to plow through it. go by your own pace <3

adding just a little protein to meals!

eating instant ramen? add an egg!! i crack mine in the water when it’s boiling and take it out just before the yolk cooks through so it makes for a nice creamy soup base. cold cuts are also a cool and quick way to get protein in!

last, but certainly not the least— breaks : - ))

allow yourself breaks, dear. it is completely fine to take time for yourself when you’re feeling overwhelmed. whether that‘s skincare, playing a game you like, taking a nice bath, sleeping, snacking! reward yourself, you’re doing great.

and just a reminder: you’re not any less weak for taking these alternatives instead of grinding it out like a poser,, sometimes things need modification and that’s okay. do whatever works best for you and you got this, little lily !

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in relation to mr. rump getting shot

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i know that there is no hope for us but it still saddens me to see you give up

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it is our first time being on this earth

it is our first time being in this job

it is our first time being in this class

it is our first time being in this situation

it is our first time being

it is our first time

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hope

the ants yearn for its killer out of curiosity

touching the sticky gel with its small arms and sharing the meal with the colony

as i hope for the thing that has bitten me before, and will always bite me to be softer

but it never has been soft

and it won’t start now,

not for someone like me.

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unfamiliar

i clutch my bag in my hand, overwhelmed by my surroundings

i’ve never been here before, i’ve never done this before; thoughts race through my mind. i feel embarrassed, stupid, everyone is doing so much better than me, everyone has better things than me, who would want what i have?

“hey, do you want to trade?”

she looks at me, smiling. i accept, nervously— looking through her items and comparing them to mine. the day goes on, and i get more comfortable. i successfully trade off one’s i don’t want, and even receive the one i’ve been searching for.

it’s not as bad as i thought.

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goodness me this year has been

wow

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it will always get better,, just had the shittiest week and my life fixed itself by the weekend sso don’t worry about it all. take it step by step and sooner or later you’ll be at a resting point

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“humanity is dead” people when i tell them about the little girl i saw struggling to get up on a stump finding another girl teaching her how. they both conquered the stump with bright faces. the two laughed and smiled triumphantly, their sounds ringing through the open land even while the day was hot and discouraging

the wind was in their hair and they looked at each other like nothing could hurt them while they were together : - ((

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there’s a reason why bad exists: because there is always something good afterwards!! :)) to go up you must go down to fully appreciate it, like a mountain or a really tall rollercoaster— you experience the uneasiness of going up, and it’s free falling. all you have to do is take the uphill battle one day at a time

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introduction

hi, i’m calla (call me cal)! i’m trying to be more active and document the little things, so we can all come back together and see how much joy there is in the world no matter how small

send me things!! anonymous or not, this is a safe page for support <3 tell me about ur day,, or something you saw that made you smilee

please do not send me anything offensive, negative, nsfw, this is a safe space for all ages, and remember that there is a real human behind this account!

thank you for reading, and i hope this blog inspires you to find the little positives in life— or even closure that you’re not alone in this. 🤍🪽

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better

it’s friday. you huff exhaustedly as you clock out for the week— you’ve been waiting for a break. despite the fact you’re packing your heavy bag to haul over during the ride home, you couldn’t feel lighter. what feels like an uphill battle the past few days, does get better.

it was raining the whole day today, and the gloomy conditions had the office miserable. you feel the cool air on your skin as you exit from the stuffy building and prep to pull open an umbrella, but the condensation never falls. instead, as you walk to the bus stop nearby, the clouds start to pull away from themselves.. revealing the warm, bright sun awaiting behind it. it does get better.

even when you feel like the bus isn’t coming; the multiple delayed notifications on your tracking app driving you further to give up and find some other mode of transportation home, you see a bus drive closer to you and you relievedly take a seat on it once it stops— it does get better.

the window shows the bright sun peeking over the grey sky again, and you feel assured. your headphones play an ethereal and hopeful tune despite the fact you put on a sad song initially, and you feel as if your music is showing you it does get better.

even as you play your favorite game, loss after loss highlighting your screen with a deep red— you still pursue victory the hardest you can with a few friends and a win comes to you.

it does get better.

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falling behind

your laptop illuminates your face. you wince after looking at your surroundings, the night covering most of your bedroom with a dark shadow. the screen is the only thing shedding light, as you turn back to it and adjust. the time is 04:06, and you’ve been working on this project for what seems like your entire sleep schedule.

your stomach eats you inside (quite literally) until you decide to grab something from the pantry. getting up for the first time in 6 hours, you stretch, feeling your spine elongate once more. the darkness of the hall doesn’t help that your eyes are swollen with lack of sleep, making everything feel all the more eerie. you thank your roommate for leaving the tv on as you near the end of the hallway, looking over to see them asleep on the couch with popcorn in their hand. a romance k-drama is paused on the screen, and thumbnail remains as the main leads kissing- at least, you think they’re the main leads from what your roommate has informed you of the show.

sighing, you turn back to your main goal, something nourishing. nothing catches your eye in the pantry, bare and practically screaming at you to fill it with new groceries. you turn to the fridge, the bright light lighting the counter behind you. squinting your eyes, you look around the walls of it, the cold air suddenly chilling your body as you adjust to that as well.

after a lot of thoughts and little brainpower remaining from your workload, you decide to just fry an egg.

the sizzle of the egg hitting the hot oil jolts you awake, the oil splashing on your hand slightly and lingering. it awakens you a little more.

you finish and eat your egg and rice in silence, the snoring of your roommate and the sound of the fridge running is the only ambience you’d ever get in this apartment tonight.

you turn your eyes to the tv once more, admiring how the main leads cup each other’s hands and faces, how they interlock lips so comfortably, how the entire screen glows pink with the dramatic effects during the scene. you sadly poke at the remains of your fried egg mindlessly, the yolk slightly oozing out onto your rice. you shrug. you’re sure you’ll be able to finish this project tomorrow.

when you finish cleaning your snack up, you head to your bed. it’s so familiar to you, but getting less comfortable. you feel lonely tonight, the dark room making you feel small. usually, your roommate hangs out with you, but never this late. she has a nice boyfriend to go visit whenever she likes, and swears he fixed her sleep schedule. you’ve never heard of one, using the night to finish your work assigned from your boring office job.

the day arises and you feel empty once again. you promised to finish your project today because you wanted to sleep; how selfish of you. you don’t feel any motivation to complete it, if only you didn’t eat that snack and rest after, you could’ve finished it.

you get up, already tired despite getting a good amount of rest. it’s 12:48, and you look to the fridge only to spot a new sticky note with your roommates messy handwriting on it. it reads ‘im coming home l8! hanging out with jonathan, he wanted to take me out today hehe’, with a cute emoticon she uses often over text. a sweet partner, he must be.. you slug yourself over to the couch, sighing and plopping down. you’ve got so much to do today, and you feel yourself dreading it all.

you get dressed in something comfortable and casual, ready to go grocery shopping to replenish your bare kitchen. when you enter the local store, you notice the cute old couple leaving through the sliding doors, chuckling amongst each other with full carts and smiles.

even while you shop for produce, you can’t help but hear the sound of a happy daughter with her dad, eating samples of a food for sale together. you sigh and continue looking at the grapes, every now and then, gazing at their happiness. where did that go in your life? you chuckle, but it isn’t funny.

near the meat section, there’s a grandma and her grandchild, cooing over what to make for dinner. the grandma’s face lights up in surprise, you assume from getting a bright idea for a meal, and the grandchild jumps up repeatedly. the happiness from their faces you envy sheepishly.

even while you check out, the two workers seem to be dating, or in some kind of relationship.

they chat and coo at each other, and you can’t help but feel as if you’re third wheeling.

as if this day couldn’t get any worse.

you head to the container store next, gazing at the shelves of empty boxes and drawers of every size imaginable waiting to be filled with interesting things. too bad all your hobbies left you long ago, ever since you gave up living comfortably to struggle in a foreign place.

you walk your cart through aisles and aisles of containers with different materials, accidentally bumping it into a shelf full of glass vases- knocking them over. you curse under your breath as you try to catch a few, but they end in vain. god, if this wasn’t the most embarrassing thing, you wouldn’t know what was.

now you’re getting an earful of how you never visit during the holidays by your parents.

and your grandparents are wondering when their next generation is on the way.

your siblings are excitedly getting married or receiving promotions, and they’re inviting you to celebrate.

and your distant family are all famous somehow.

but you’re still here, helping the staff clean up the glass shards, opting to pay for it while muted on the phone so your brother doesn’t hear.

still here, working that 9 to 5 job you promised you’d never go to again.

still here, tired, lonely, wishing you had someone or even something to hold onto at night.

wishing you had something to hold onto.