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i made myself in a miku binder 😈😈

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chat i made a strawpage and i need to show everyone

(i’m so mad i write penguin :3 as the url and it made it penguin3 and i can’t change it and NOW I LOOK DUMB)

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all of them except noodle and bitch

@dystopian-damnation

WHAT AM I TO YOU?

u know the drill

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does anyone else have phases where they leave tumblr for ages and then once in a while come back on post like 15 times and leave for days again

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i made a reference sheet of myself if anyone cares hehe

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If life doesn't kill me, nostalgia will.

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Can't believe half of the year is gone and all i did was crashout, overthink, procrastinate and cry.

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guys i have a dilemma.

i had the BEST idea for a story

and so i made a roblox avatar and oc and drew it so much that i forgot that the original was a roblox avatar AND MATCHING WITH MY BOYFRIEND. and i shipped her with SOMEONE ELSE.

bro is in the military and two days ago i had like a literal panic attack over this (it’s stupid but i don’t care) so im trying to change the plot but it was so good but i wanna redesign her but her design is so good.. but i don’t wanna ship her with someone else and the account that has the series already has a decent following on tiktok I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO

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artfight dump from the last 12 hours because i need to do something to get my mind off everything

none of them are my ocs👍

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i’ve been drawing him all day

i made these of us so i can always have a reminder of him in my room along with a mint box with his hair in it

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silly little thing i did of my boyfriend and is roblox avatars from today and a year ago

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Honestly, if you're a kid and an adult tells you "they're just trying to get a reaction out of you :)" as a response to being told that some younger kid is tormenting you, that should count as full permission to punt that little shit. Like I would never hit a child, but if you're seven years old and a five-year-old is being a cunt at you and adults just tell you "oh they just want to find out what happens if they keep doing that", wouldn't only be fair to let them know what happens if they keep doing that?

Siblings should never be left responsible of raising each other, but if adults have decided that they are allowed to fuck around, wouldn't it only be your right - or even downright duty - to let them consequently find out?

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my life is him

without him i’m not alive anymore

i miss you already

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Depression is being forced to stay alive against your will because if you died "it would upset people"—the same people who never care when you're upset.

They just want you to stay alive despite your suffering because if you don't, you're the selfish one.

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he’s leaving in two days

i saw him for the last time in person today

my eyes are so swollen i can barely stay

i want to slay

the feelings away

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fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

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i miss him so much my whole body is actually hurting