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I'm putting together at ikea desk to serve as a future makeup and hair table, which means it's way deeper than a regular makeup table would be and kinda takes up a lot of space, but I get SO MUCH more storage space by using the alex drawers as 'legs' and the alex desk top as the surface, plus I'm realizing right now how amazing it feels to have a surface to put things on instead of piling them all haphazardly on my desk or the floor or just scattering them across random shelves; I can't wait to finish building it and the dresser I got and reorganize all of my stuff in the new space!

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wild how giving myself a physical task that makes a visible difference in my living space has me jumping out of bed the next day despite not getting a proper eight hours

also better pillows are absolutely worth the money; I had a bamboo memory foam one in my closet that I was waiting to wear out my current pillows to use and finally made the switch yesterday; I didn't toss or turn at all?!?!?!? just woke up in exactly the same position I laid down in, no crick in my neck or anything!

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omggg

my roommates (married couple) both syruggle with their weight, as in they have health problems that are visible to others bc of their weight, use a cpap, and can't support their own weight without joint pain long enough to go to most grocery stores

they've mentioned that they're wanting to keep their weight lower, as one said she's close to crossing 400#

and yet she was the one grabbing the bojangles (fast food chicken place) bag off the front porch when it was delivered at 8am

three boxes in the bag (enough to fill it) plus an orange juice and another drink

even if she split it with her wife, that's a bunch of calories (if one box had a breakfast sandwich and a side of hashbrowns, that's 1k per box!), especially knowing that they are both incredibly sedentary

idk, I know we're unhinged, but they legit seem to be struggling more doing things that people who hate us claim are normal; more and more I feel like blaming the people who come up with and sell such dense foods that probably don't even fill most people up, even though most people can just choose not to order it, bc it feels like they're killing my roommates

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y'all be careful, mainstream tumblr is passing around posts of links to communities they think are 'harmful' and telling their followers to mass report them, even when those communities are blatantly pro-recovery

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roommates 10% forgiven bc while lying in bed I started looking at my legs and admiring them and feeling really proud of the work I've done for myself and enjoying that feeling

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✧・゜: self-discipline doesn't mean hating yourself into action :・゜✧:・゜✧

hey lovelies! ✧

i've been thinking about this a lot lately… how did we all collectively decide that being mean to ourselves was somehow the path to getting things done? like, who started this toxic rumor that self-discipline means internal screaming and punishment? because honestly? i spent years believing that the only way to accomplish anything was through this weird self-bullying technique and it was literally the least effective approach ever.

⋆.ೃ࿔:･ the wake-up call ･:࿔ೃ.⋆

last semester i hit a wall with my essay project. i had been doing that thing where you stare at your laptop, call yourself lazy in your head, promise to work for 8 straight hours to "make up for it," then get overwhelmed and watch netflix instead. but one night at like 2am (why do all realizations happen at 2am??) i wondered what would happen if i just… stopped being mean to myself about it?

what if self-discipline was actually about being the most understanding friend to yourself instead of the worst drill sergeant?

⋆.ೃ࿔:･ what actually works ･:࿔ೃ.⋆

start ridiculously small, i'm talking embarrassingly tiny steps. want to write that paper? commit to just opening the document and typing a single sentence. need to clean your space? just put away three things. the magic is that once you start, continuing feels so much easier.

create environments that make things easier, not harder. i rearranged my desk so everything i need is within reach and visible. stopped trying to work in my bed (even though it's so comfy) because my brain associates it with sleep and tiktok scrolling.

acknowledge the resistance instead of fighting it. when i feel that "i don't wanna" feeling, i literally say to myself "i hear you, and it makes sense you feel that way. what's one tiny piece we could do?" talking to myself like i'm my own bestie changed everything.

use curiosity instead of judgment. instead of "why am i so lazy?" (which never helps), try "i wonder what's making this hard for me right now?" sometimes the answer surprises you. maybe you're actually just hungry or need better lighting.

build in rest BEFORE you crash. i started scheduling actual breaks before i felt desperate for them, and somehow i get more done? it's like my brain knows it's not going to be held hostage forever.

⋆.ೃ࿔:･ the permission slip approach ･:࿔ೃ.⋆

my favorite technique lately has been what i call "permission slip productivity" where i literally write myself little notes giving permission to:

work imperfectly (first drafts can be messy!)

take breaks without guilt

change my approach if something isn't working

celebrate small progress instead of only the end result

acknowledge when something is genuinely difficult

there's something so powerful about physically writing yourself permission. it sounds silly but it works because it interrupts that mean inner voice that's been programmed into us.

⋆.ೃ࿔:･ the results speak for themselves ･:࿔ೃ.⋆

the wildest part? i actually get MORE done now that i've stopped the self-hate productivity method. turns out your brain works better when it's not being constantly criticized? who knew!

my essay (very big essay) got finished early. my room stays cleaner. i actually enjoy my study sessions now instead of dreading them. and most importantly, i don't feel that heavy cloud of shame following me around everywhere.

self-discipline isn't forcing yourself through misery, it's creating systems that work WITH your natural tendencies, not against them. it's about making things easier, not harder. it's about treating yourself like someone you actually care about.

and maybe the real glow-up isn't just checking things off your to-do list, but doing it without sacrificing your relationship with yourself in the process.

what about you? have you been trying to hate yourself into productivity? might be time for a gentler approach. you deserve that kindness from yourself. (and honestly? it just works better.)

xoxo, mindy 🤍

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They Know I Go To Bed Early

WHY WAS I WOKEN UP WITH HAMMERING AT 8:45 PM

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not sure if it's the coffee winding up my anxiety or the weird interaction with my roommate yesterday; either way, my room and house are tidier and I've got my car back from the mechanic, and I have one week to get ready to go to the beach with my (younger, fitter, very sweet) cousin and my aunts

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