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romestewy comms from @hattersarts !!! I love them sm 🥺🫶🏻💜💜💜✨️✨️✨️

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Roman Roy dog symbolism I might be going crazy spinning in circles

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roman roy + the dog motif

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theyre t4t in my heart

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why does roman remember the dog pound being traumatic

okay so these are just theories that hang around in my head that i think are plausible with what the show's given us, so take them with a grain of salt, but

there's that quote from kieran that i think about a lot where he talks about roman rewriting history

The dog-cage moment, Roman had rewritten it as he had been bullied by Kendall. I don’t think he ever was, but I think there was something in him as a kid that felt like a victim that as an adult he has tried to process and make into something else.

it leads me to believe that roman attributes trauma he can't/couldn't process to things easier to digest. so i think roman, four years old, plays a game with his brother. and that game in its initial stage is innocent, but then something else happens and the memories get warped with each other. it could be anything -- like, it could be that caroline never thinks anything of it, roman's just having a bit of fun pretending to be a dog, so the first few times are harmless. but i imagine logan, when he finds out (and since it's at caroline's place, i think maybe it happens a few times before he learns of the game), thinks it's weird and indicative of something being wrong with roman, so roman gets punished for it. and again, it could be anything, but i can imagine logan using the game as a punishment to drive the point home ("if you want to act like a dog, act like a dog" yknow?). i don't think logan would go as far as to make roman eat dog food, but leaving him locked up for a whole afternoon? i can see that.

and so then there are two memories: playing a game with your brother. having that game be used as a punishment.

roman as an adult can barely acknowledge that logan's abused him, and i think as a child it would've been even worse. so i think in the instance above, the trauma of the second memory is attributed to the first, and now kendall's the aggressor in his eyes.

you could get the same result from something else, too. like with connor saying logan's theory was to "send the weak one away," it might not even be that roman's punished for the game. it could just be that maybe he and kendall fight, and when he loses, someone puts him in that cage, and then it's not fun anymore, he's not enjoying it -- he's a little boy locked in a cage and he wants to get out, but no one's coming to collect him. and so that colours all the other times it was a game and was fun. and it makes ken the aggressor once again, bc to roman kendall is the reason he's locked in the cage.

also, as i was writing this out, i noticed @dirtypixiewings made a comment on this post about roman possibly combining memories of dog pound with military school hazing (eg. possibly being forced to eat dog food), and i actually think that's another pretty good example of how memories might get mixed in with each other.

tw csa

then there's roman's csa subtext. for the purposes of this part of the answer, let's say that he has been sexually abused, and that it happened around the same time as dog pound (or at least, within a few years of it. ik all my memories from when i was young are intertwined). there's a few things that make me think roman would combine these memories: first, the loss of personhood. but then there's the fact that after dog pound, roman says he "went weird" and "started wetting the bed" and that's why logan sent him to military school. now, he's definitely not going to military school at four years old, so we can only assume the bedwetting carries on past the point of being brushed off as normal little kid stuff, and enuresis is a common sign of csa. then there's the language used around the dog pound. it's a game. you enjoyed it. you asked to be put in that cage. like.... that's easily applicable to sexual abuse, almost eerily so. the parallel is there.

and so back to the point of roman being unable to process parts of his trauma and rewriting them into things easier to stomach. instead of there being a game and a man who hurt him, there's just a game he didn't want to play, a game that kendall (the safer, easier to digest aggressor) forced him into.

(also if rome was sexually abused, i dont think it was by anyone in the family - my ideas on connor and 1.7 are here if you're interested).

anyway like i said, these are all just ideas that stem from my own hcs. i don't actually think that ken was forcing his brother to eat dog food at four years old, but roman clearly remembers dog pound as traumatic and these kinds of theories help me make sense of it.

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some excellent zac & murph (pib & gerard) faces last ep! [part 2 - spoilers for neverafter ep 16: in the land of giants]

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It's now in color ^_^

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4x10

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silly

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I posted this a few weeks back but it didn’t show up in the tags :’( I’ve made it better now and sped it up so I’m putting it here again, hopefully you’ll see it this time in all its useless charm

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THE PROPHECY IS TRUE

Sleep well silly kieran culkin chara... is there a roman roy equivalent?

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A Real Pain (2024)

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mua mua

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Kieran Culkin wins the Best Actor in a Drama Series at the 2024 Emmy Awards