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Caleb: i think that's a compliment considering it's my first time?

Caleb: yeah, yeah you did... uh did this just get awkward?

Caleb: Alright sounds good.

Cara: A little bit? I just didn't expect you to still be a virgin.

Cara: Can we go out after that? I wanna show you something.

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Caleb: I mean you were my first so it kinda sucks i didn't remember half of it tbh.

Caleb: Okay, go to your boyfriend tell him everything - i will be home alone tonight and i shall make dinner for two, if you don't come then we can discuss this further, and see what we both well you and i want to do?

Cara: You should know whether it was good or not. You're pretty damn gifted in the crotch department. At least that's what I remembered.

Cara: Okay, that sounds weird. Sorry.

Cara: Holy shit, I took your virginity away?

Cara: He's not in town but I can call him & talk with him on the phone. Yeah, I'll be there.

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Caleb: Look i'm sorry i didn't let you speak alright? I saved myself from the heartbreak i was about to face, more of the fact that i somewhat knew what was going to come out of your mouth. Not only did the expression give it away but the words 'mistake' were so easy to read on you.

Caleb: So what do you feel... for me?

Caleb: i mean, not like feeling me. Since you did it last night.

Caleb: i mean shit, i didn't mean it like that.

Caleb: feelings, yes feelings.

Caleb: shutting up now.

Caleb: sorry i spammed you.

Cara: If you would've stuck around I would've probably told you that I liked what happened last night. Not that I remember much but it couldn't have been as bad as we're both making it out to be right? I did choose you for a reason last night...

Cara: You're such a dork. Seriously.

Cara: I might like you..and I like the idea of us.

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Caleb: You're confusing me so much right now, it's unbelievable.

Caleb: That's cause you never did, not the way that i cared about you.

Cara: How do you know I don't care about you the same, huh? You have no idea how I feel because if you did you wouldn't be acting like this right now.

Cara: Look, I wanted to talk more the morning after we...you know but you just left. You never let me say what I really had to say.

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caleb: What did you want me to think cara? i mean you run off with this guy and i don't hear from you in two weeks. We fight, you defend him and i'm in the wrong.

Caleb: Just do what you want, text me when you've made up your mind.

Caleb: You can't keep pulling me in this cara, i fucking love you to bits and you're leading me on. More then what you have since the beginning and the sad part is at the start you had no clue, i cry at night because you'll never love me as much as i love you.

Cara: I didn't defend him. I defended myself. I know what I did was a mistake, Caleb. I thought we were gonna get over that.

Cara: Make up my mind about what? Us?

Cara: I'm not leading you on!! We hooked up it was a mistake we both made, not just me. I'm trying to wrap my head around all of this. You're acting like I never cared about you.

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Caleb: What are you trying to say cara?

Cara: He's not who I want to be with forever. Ha, is that what you thought?

Cara: Just forget about it.

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Caleb: I don't care.

Caleb: You really think i care what your boyfriend thinks of me or is going to do me?

Caleb: It's you i'm fucking worried about, his using you for sex and your darn right insane if you think its not true.

Cara: Newsflash, Ca. I care.

Cara: I know that Caleb. I don't want anything else but that with him. He's obviously not the one.

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Caleb: i'm not asking you too.

Cara: But I have to. If my boyfriend finds out from someone else he might hurt you.

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Caleb: ...

Caleb: Fine, come over tomorrow or tonight so we can work on an assignment, if he thinks somethings up between us don't say i told you so.

Cara: Alright, yeah sure. I'll deal with it on my own. I always do.

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Caleb: Oh i'm making you upset right now? Look cara, just tell him the truth i don't care.

Caleb: It's not like we're going to see each other ever again, besides we tried being friends and look what happened. This...

Cara: I wanna be friends..I wanna be something.

Cara: Caleb I miss you. A lot.

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Caleb: Cara please.

Caleb: I wasn't raised like this, to be a home-wrecker that's not me, just tell your boyfriend the truth or it was someone else.

Caleb: You deserve to have someone, who will treat you better than i can.

Cara: Stop it please..you're making me really upset right now.

Cara: I can handle my boyfriend without getting you in trouble okay?

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Cara: Caleb..

Cara: Please don't be mad at me.

Cara: Don't be mad at yourself

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The alcohol had an obvious effect on her even the morning after as she felt herself begin to grow sick in the stomach. Then again, it could’ve just been the nerves taking over her body. She had no idea how to approach Caleb about what had happened the night before. Would he remember or would it all be a blur in his head too? She couldn’t even think as she heard the door open. Not saying a word, she simply stood there in front of the mirror watching her own reflection shift as she finally got to see Caleb for the first time after they both hooked up. She couldn’t help but to smile a bit when she saw he actually had thought of her while making breakfast. She knew Caleb was really sweet and gentle but she didn’t imagine that even with the fact that he probably felt sorry about their meaningless sex the night before.

Turning around to face him, she bit down on her lip looking down. “You don’t have to be sorry. It’s not like you forced me. I wanted it too.” She looked up once again, furrowing her eyebrows because she honestly didn’t know how she sounded right now. “I cheated on him and he’s probably gonna find out and it’ll be over between him and I.” She sighed helplessly before sitting down next to the tray placed on the bed. She really wished she could take a bite of her breakfast because she was starving on the inside but her upset stomach wouldn’t let her do anything but sit there and listen to what he had to say. “Ca, stop.” She said as she walked him turn around and head downstairs. She didn’t want him to leave. Cara needed to talk more about this before they could just let it go and act like nothing happened.

Standing up, she rested her hands on her waist and nervous smile on her face. “I uh..I didn’t mind last night. It was good, what I could remember from it.” She stepped up to him, not sure what came over her. She felt guilty for cheating on her boyfriend but she couldn’t deny that she didn’t completely regret what went on between her and her best friend. He was being so sweet to her especially with all the awkwardness that was going on between the two he still managed to be the nicest guy she’s ever met. 

Caleb walked upstairs, as he was done with making the girl he slept with breakfast. Once it was done, he managed to make the way into his room, without spilling anything as she saw her sitting up on bed, hoping she’d be asleep so he wouldn’t have to explain anything and just leave a note and leave, and not talk about it until whenever they were ready. 

To make matters worse, he was in love with her but she didn’t feel the same way about him, he understood why, he respected why as well but it didn’t mean it didn’t hurt any less knowing this little hook up wouldn’t mean a thing to her, but of course it didn’t mean a thing for him at the time, but he’d wish it would have been more special and not under the influence of alcohol. 

"I’m sorry" Caleb finally said as he broke the awkward silence, placing her breakfast right in front of the girl, scratching the back of his head awkwardly he wasn’t really good with introductions, or speaking about who’s fault in general. "I get i mean i know this is might be too much considering you have a boyfriend and all, just tell me when you want me to back off and i will, i just i wanted you to be treated special and know that yes i don’t remember half the shit that went down last night and i thanked god i wore a condom, Landon must of given it to me or something, but i’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to take advantage of you, i’m just going to be downstairs, i can wash your clothes or something if you don’t want to wear mine and the bath’s already set up just how you like it or always talked about having one like, i-i’ll go now" He nodded as he walked out of the room, closing the door behind him and took a gasp of air his been longing for. 

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After tossing and turning for several minutes, Cara figured she had slept her hangover away and would be much better now that she was well rested. Looking around, she noticed that she wasn't in her room. "Where am I?" She mumbled, her vision still blurry. After squinting her eyes, she realized the familiar guitar lying by the chair that Caleb always sat in whenever they hung out. "Oh my God." She sat up quickly, finding no sigh of Caleb around. Looking down, he noticed her naked body under the sheets. Had they really? The memories began coming alive in her mind once again. She remembered ditching Brooklyn who she figured needed time alone with the curly haired male that kept checking her out. After that, she remembered drinking a little too much before stumbling onto the dance floor until she bumped into Caleb who was looking far too handsome to resist. Shaking her head, she couldn't believe that she had actually cheated on her boyfriend with her best friend. She should've kept away from him like she was warned.

Then she looked around and noticed that there were no sounds coming from the bathroom, so maybe he was downstairs or outside. Sighing loudly, she stood up and looked at her naked body in the mirror instantly feeling ashamed of herself. Not only did she sleep with someone other than her boyfriend it was with her best friend who just so happened to be in love with her. She didn't want to lead him on because she honestly didn't know how she felt right now. Looking around she figured she should just borrow one of Caleb's over sized t-shirts. She was scared to go downstairs but figured she shouldn't stay up hiding forever. He was probably just as weirded out as she had been and they had to face it sooner or later.

Stepping outside of the room, she looked around and sighed before quickly heading down the stairs where she smelled pancakes cooking in the kitchen. She felt bad, knowing this was Caleb's way of waking her up. She had never been treated this nicely but she still had a boyfriend that she wasn't sure she wanted to break up with and although the bits of last night that she could remember felt magical, it didn't mean she was ready to let go of her current relationship.

Caleb had woken up early that Sunday morning, the events of last night’s party slowly coming into his mind but he couldn’t seem to grasp what he had done at the party, or who in fact. The only part he could seem to remember was entering the party, having a drink and falling asleep on the couch half way through, but how did he get to the couch to his bed, his room. Rolling over as he tried to avoid the shinning light that was coming through his curtains as he groaned at how bright it was.

 But that was until he felt a body beside him, “No” he mumbled at the thought of partially sleeping with someone, and hoped he had used protection. Sitting up to get a closer look at the body as he saw no other then Cara beside him, asleep peacefully, “No, no, no” he muttered as he got out of bed slowly, not wanting to wake the girl and walked into his bathroom. The first night you sleep with a girl you like it’s not a significant one? Or one that you remember, how could you! He thought to himself as he began freaking out while looking at himself in the mirror, looking at the carpet as he saw a dirty condom wrapper on the floor and thanked himself that he had listened to Landon that day when he said ‘No, listen to me dude you will bring a girl home’

But he had no idea on god’s earth would it be someone his madly in love with, closing his eyes as he tried to remember, closing and opening it didn’t seem to work. God damn it you’re an idiot Morgan he thought to himself once again. “I gotta do something special” he mumbled as he walked downstairs, and began to make the girl pancakes, her favorite as he remembered, and once that was done he placed them all on a tray, with her favorite rose and began to use the spare one to place rose pedals all over the bed as well as around the bath, lighting up candles as he ran a bath for her, putting it on the highest temperature as it goes so when she’d wake up, it would be warm enough for her to step in. 

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Caleb: You had no idea... I've been torturing myself.

Cara: I know now though. I don't think it's fair to act like nothing has happened.

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Caleb: So you're saying you wouldn't mind talking to me still even though i have the biggest crush on you right now? Alright yeah sure.

Cara: I don't wanna torture you, Ca. I feel like that's what I'm doing..that's what I've been doing all this time.