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𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆, 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄,  of  the  victor  of  the  blade  verbena.  sing  to  me  how  many  bottles  of  wine  he  stole  from  merchants  as  a  child,  and  tell  me  if  they  outnumber  the  men  he’s  𝙢𝙪𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙙.  tell  me  how  a  garden  could  be  filled  with  the  bones  he’s  rotted,  𝙖𝙡𝙡  𝙛𝙤𝙧  𝙝𝙚𝙧,  in  her  white  bows.  tell  me  how  he’d  never  wanted  her  to  know  pain,  and  she  has  known  all  the  pain  his  world  and  ours  could  offer.  𝐩𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐮𝐥,  𝐢𝐬𝐧'𝐭  𝐢𝐭?  the  failure  of  mortals?  #𝙢𝙖𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙙𝙨𝙞𝙣.

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carrion is originally the long hair while hes the caretaker and when it gets all cut up (by his own hand at first. its messy but it gets fixed) hes short hair michael   and it devolves into the brown hair bc he doesnt care 

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carrion, internally: im going to reinvent myself samson, walking in and witnessing that his weird new husband has cut his own hair with a knife in a mirror: oh my god

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No need for rules anymore. Chaos has won.

Cody Fern as Michael Langdon in 𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐍 𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐑 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘

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please, please, mother. i can see the exhaustion shaking from his shoulders. i don’t think there is any of the lannister’s lion in him anymore. do not take him simply to spite me - you may take me any time you please. let him grow older and let his hair get all the more grey. he has done nothing to you worse than i have. you have never let your hate interfere with our work and i will beg you not to start now. i will take him wherever you please - i will drag him to the farthest corner of dorne, drag him down to hermit rags, drag him to nothing but hating me. if you will leave him be. / @crownedclaw

there is something valuable in bones - i have been so wrapped up in soul i have never considered bones. they do not break upon death as i imagined. he makes them stand up and outright, makes them put their sword back in their dead hands. the corpses make more corpses. @clymns .

i have asked him before. he flinches each time - i can imagine why, now. i .  . . do not like thinking people deserving of the land of death, but i think the magister has come closer than most. it feels foolish, now, to curl away from samson - i love you, dearest. rest. - and ask of his own love, knowing what i know now. / @clymns .

there are few things i dare to hope for. yet each die i find myself hoping more that their girl comes safe, that she will bloom without fear of power -grabs and hellfire. that they will come home safe each night, as well, so they she might have her parents both. i would give my life to make it happen. they are the nicest people i have ever met. @skiesking .

he…would fit in well, in my mother’s land. he would do better in the role than i, i think. / @nothingborn .

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tired: carrion is inspired by charon

wired: carrion is inspired by the river person

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i swear im not ship focused i just feel rly gay lately; jsdfhkjsdfnkajsnf

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carrion wld like. rly love poly/ot3 relationships. the general concept would be strange to him at first as he navigated like society/humanity but he has so much love to give and wld adore just like. being showered in it and i think he’d always be down for it

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dorian is, i think, a sub-par saint in his kindest hours. in his worst i think he could send the world spinning.

i pricked my finger on a rose today and summer gave me a bandaid with cartoon stars on it. it’s pointless, both the purpose of it and the design, but i like it.

nick tried to balance a beer on his nose today and it fell all over the ground. i lost money to kim because it lasted five seconds longer than i thought. 

dorian raised someone today and i can think of nothing but that. the cracking sound of it’s bones, and the light returning to it’s eyes. are they vanishing in front of my dear sibling? i can’t help but think of their face as they lose a charge each time dorian does it, and the punishment mother would give.

summer knows the stretches of the world better than i and i don’t think i’ll ever understand it quite as well.

zenyatta dreams of a place i come from - finds peace with death, with the mystical parts of the world. i cannot understand being so content with it. i can’t meditate as peacefully as he does. there are many ways i don’t understand genji, but whatever happened to him has brought him almost as close to death as i have wallowed in it for eons. if he can reach this peace, so can i.

@clymns . @solichor . @ryuujn  .  @skiesking  .

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When he cannot sleep, he reads poetry to me. His deep voice covers the top half of my sky—

Esther G. Belin, from “Soft Goods Bundles,” Of Cartography (via lifeinpoetry)

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“I see you there, my soft body of moon and dew,”

— Paul Valéry, tr. by Hilary Corke, from The Collected Works; “Fragments of the Narcissus,” (via violentwavesofemotion)

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send ' ▼' for my muses reaction to yours straddling/sitting on their lap.

alternatively send ’ ▼+ reverse ’ for my muse to straddle / sit on your muses lap.

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Reblog if you are into Polyamory Shipping/Ship

It can be your OT3, or maybe your OT3+

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based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

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i  feel  good  by  the  sea  .  like  the  sea  ,  with  its  changing colors  .  maybe  i’m  a  bit  like  that  ,  too  ,  grey  and  blue  .  /  @caretakes  .  priv  oc  inspired  by  greek  mythos  and  matt  maeson’s  discography  .  by  jacob  .