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i need him y'all dont even understand how MUCH

sunday

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yes to all of this BUT the buttholes captured me for a solid minute

Whole-heartedly BEGGING writers to unlearn everything schools taught you about how long a paragraph is. If theres a new subject, INCLUDING ACTIONS, theres a new paragraph. A paragraph can be a single word too btw stop making things unreadable

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HAHAHAHAHAHA GODDAMN

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I NEED THE FRESH OUT OF FUCKS SET I NEED IT I NEED IT AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I just found the funniest pen sets and I can't stop thinking about them LMAO

**For the people asking I bought the pen sets HERE

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What I mean when I do not control the hyperfixation.

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i think this is a recurring nightmare of the eldest like even in the hypothetical, zombie apocalypse dream we are the ones responsible for holding the fort

but as big as that responsibility is i find it sweet that the little brother sees the older sibling as someone that would protect him

THOSE are the stuff of dreams

the reason we persevere!

Yesterday my little brother told me something very sweet and touching, that when he was a kid and had nightmares about monsters chasing him or whatever he would be able to end the nightmare by finding me in the dream and I would protect him by fighting off the zombies, or carrying him away. This is adorable, and makes me feel like the greatest older sibling in the world, but the hilarious thing is that when I was a kid I had nightmares of needing to save him from zombies and such. so many dreams where he was in trouble and I needed to save him. Like my nightmares began where his ended. Low key I think he mastered the ability to psychically transfer his nightmare to me as a child and I'm kind of annoyed with him.

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And now for something completely different.

This is the ADHD Teapot. I made it in a ceramics class a few years ago. I use it to explain executive dysfunction to people who haven’t come across the term before (and those who think of ADHD mostly as Hyperactive Eight Year Old Boy Syndrome).

So, most people’s brains are like a regular shaped teapot with a single spout. Let’s say that your time, energy, focus etc is the liquid you have in the teapot. Your executive function is the spout, that directs the tea into the specific cup you want to fill-aka the task that you’re meant to be doing. Spills happen occasionally, but generally most of the tea goes in the right cup.

If you have executive dysfunction, you have multiple spouts going in different directions. You can try pointing one of them at your chosen cup and you will probably get some liquid in there, perhaps you will even fill it right up (finish the task). But meanwhile, tea is also pouring out of several other places and not going where you want it. If you have another container nearby, perhaps some of it will end up in there. But quite a lot of it is going to end up on the floor and accomplish nothing.

And at the end of the day you’ll have filled one or two cups ( or sometimes not even one) compared to the five or six that somebody with the same sized teapot (but only one spout) has filled, and everyone wonders why you’re so bad at getting tea poured, and why you make such a mess in the process.

One day I’d like to spend more time learning pottery and create a really technically good fucked up little adhd teapot. But that’s a long way off since i currently live in the outback and the nearest pottery workshop is some 400km away. But I figure that for now, it might be a useful or interesting metaphor to somebody even in its rough draft form.

This post is the cup I filled instead of cleaning my house btw.

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seo "we have a responsibility to protect the subject at the cost of taking down this post" spencer meets raphael "censorship is censorship no matter which form" march

one has history of falsifying records while the other literally hacks databases for a living

of all the plot points and intersecting character arcs and THIS is where they duke it out

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all of this *gestures wildly at everything* is me building up the strength and courage to write my weird porn

god grant me the strength to write my weird porn, the serenity to write my weird porn and the wisdom to write my weird porn

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yaoi jesus

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rahhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHH SUNDAY I LOVE

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I HAVE BLUESKY MEET ME THERE

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nothing like cat behavior to turn away the hand of God in favor of its divinely shaped paws

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SAME

being on tumblr for a long time but never reading homestuck like

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i feel like his side of the room would be so clean and organized that it's going to make me look like i'm The Kira, God of the New World, and by then i'll be the perfect scapegoat as he descends to the whole death noting

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*opens word doc covered in blood* it doesn’t have to be good. it just has to be done.