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Receiving this card from a dear friend made my heart stop for a moment and then I smiled. It meant so much to me. I am Carter’s mom. I always will be. 💜 https://www.instagram.com/p/BvrPFXHh60Q/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=cxcweutg4o1w

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Saturday, March 23rd, was a one of the most difficult moments yet a beautiful day as we held Carter’s service and celebration of life with family and friends. While I can’t quite put these feelings into words right now, I will share when it is not so raw. The words honoring Carter at the service were perfect and we were surrounded by so much love. Thank you to our support system who were with us and those with us from afar. . #CarterStrong #CartersCause #grief #griefsupport #life #blogger #loss #journey #lifeafterloss #restinpeace #blog #pregnancyloss #love #support https://www.instagram.com/p/BvclziLhB2b/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12x7k40k518dx

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Our sweet, perfect Carter was born two months ago today. This week has been exceptionally tough as we prepare ourselves for his service and celebration of life with family and friends on Saturday. I had a glimmer of hope we wouldn’t be where we are today... we shouldn’t be having a service for our son. It’s an unexplainable, unimaginable journey that I don’t have words for at times, this is one of those times. A wonderful family friend sent us this photo and said “We mourn with you”. We are beyond grateful to have an amazing support system surrounding us during our journey. #CarterStrong #CartersCause #grief #griefsupport #life #blogger #loss #journey #lifeafterloss #blog #pregnancyloss #love #support https://www.instagram.com/p/BvRWrwPBFyt/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1i508sksibbvg

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A difficult part of this journey is trying to come to terms with the fact life won’t ever be the same. It’s a part of finding this “new normal” which will eventually just be our normal. The most simple things are even different. We went up to the mountains for a get away this weekend. Being in the mountains is our favorite and It was beautiful. I went skiing for the first time this season, and it all hit me at once... I’m not supposed to be skiing right now, I should be pregnant. I’ve referenced in my blogs that the snow and the mountains always make us think about Carter. I was overwhelmed with all of those thoughts all at once, and it just hit me hard. Things like this just won’t be the same anymore and it’s a part of the journey to figure it all out. #CarterStrong #CartersCause #grief #griefsupport #nicu #life #blogger #loss #journey #lifeafterloss #blog #pregnancyloss #love #support #mountains https://www.instagram.com/p/BvHxez2BUgW/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=624bifiegju2

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I need all of you to read this new blog. Our support system is large and we are beyond blessed. Some may think “I only sent a text”... you didn’t “just” send a text or an online message. This is for all of you. . Link in bio: https://www.carterscause.org/post/support-system-thank-you . #CarterStrong #CartersCause #grief #griefsupport #nicu #micropreemie #preemie #life #blogger #loss #journey #lifeafterloss #blog #pregnancyloss #mindfulness #love #support #grateful #thankyou #thankful https://www.instagram.com/p/BvAU3HFhkqF/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=63ct05r4yjyl

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New blog posted - a thank you to our support system, all of you. There will never be a way we can truly express how grateful we are. You all have been helping us through this journey. 💜 . Link to site in bio: https://www.carterscause.org/post/support-system-thank-you . #CarterStrong #CartersCause #grief #griefsupport #nicu #nicubaby #micropreemie #preemie #griefjourney #griefandloss #life #blogger #loss #journey #lifeafterloss #pregnancyloss #mindfulness #love #support #thankyou #grateful #thankful https://www.instagram.com/p/Bu92w8hhYqi/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=npw9dm2v43g9

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Today starts my second week back to work since losing Carter. My mind goes through so many thoughts, so many feelings every day. As I sit in my car at this moment before walking in, I can only hope this week can be easier than last. And the next easier than this week. Coming back to work has been and still is full of all different emotions each day which brings on many challenges to figure out how to handle as I find my “new normal”. I’m beyond thankful for my support system at work as I put one foot in front of the other. All I can do is to remember that it’s okay to not be okay. Take a moment. Be mindful. Inhale. Exhale. Give yourself grace. . www.CartersCause.org . #CarterStrong #CartersCause #grief #griefsupport #nicu #nicubaby #micropreemie #preemie #griefjourney #griefandloss #life #blogger #loss #journey #lifeafterloss #pregnancyloss #griefquotes #selfawareness #mindfulness #love #support https://www.instagram.com/p/Bu3sAmSBP0s/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=rao5wl9necjo

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Every tiny moment in NICU does matter and is an absolute blessing. Carter holding my finger for the first time, and every time. Being able to put milk on his lips and how excited he got. Watching him move so much when he heard my voice. Cherished tiny moments forever 💜 . www.CartersCause.org . #CarterStrong #CartersCause #nicu #grief #griefsupport #nicubaby #micropreemie #preemie #loss #journey #blog #moments #lifeafterloss #pregnancyloss #mindfulness #love #son #blogger #niculife #support #memories https://www.instagram.com/p/Bu1qYEyhAkB/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1kg7nkiru04gt

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To me, this helps to describe finding your “new normal” during grieving. Words will never fully describe the experience, but this spoke to me today. I talk about the notion of finding our new normal a lot, but that is the journey we are embarking on and it’s one we shouldn’t have ever needed to, but here we are. . www.CartersCause.org . #CarterStrong #CartersCause #grief #griefsupport #nicu #nicubaby #micropreemie #preemie #griefjourney #griefandloss #life #blogger #loss #journey #lifeafterloss #pregnancyloss #griefquotes #selfawareness #mindfulness #love https://www.instagram.com/p/BuzzZvLBXMT/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=sa8a9q2u6p9r

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New blog... “It’ll never be the same” 9:06pm 11:22pm Read entire blog at https://www.carterscause.org/post/it-ll-never-be-the-same . Site link in bio www.CartersCause.org . #CarterStrong #CartersCause #grief #griefsupport #nicu #nicubaby #micropreemie #preemie #bereavement #griefjourney #griefandloss #loss #journey #lifeafterloss #pregnancyloss #griefquotes #selfawareness #mindfulness #love https://www.instagram.com/p/BuuY9QlhIT7/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=15q4sm70qqmqn

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Navigating this journey of learning our “new normal” and weaving the loss of Carter into our lives is harder then I could ever explain. It’s still very fresh, very raw, and my mind is consumed with the loss. Each day is new, with new challenges and small steps towards figuring it all out. While I know we will never be the same, I hope we can be better people because of Carter. He will be a part our lives forever. While his loss consumes me everyday, I have to have faith that through the lifelong healing process we will figure out how to weave him into our lives to celebrate his life and not just the devastation of losing him. . www.CartersCause.org . #CarterStrong #CartersCause #grief #griefsupport #nicu #nicubaby #micropreemie #preemie #griefjourney #griefandloss #life #blogger #loss #journey #lifeafterloss #pregnancyloss #griefquotes #selfawareness #mindfulness #love https://www.instagram.com/p/Buq-f0UhaCr/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1hetlglwz5zf9

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Carter Moore Oldehoff January 21, 2019-January 24, 2019 Our son, Carter, was born at 24 weeks and 1 day. He was so strong and such a fighter. We lost him after 74 hours. Dan and I are beyond grateful for the time we had to be able to hold him, kiss him and fall in love with him. We are so proud to be Carter’s parents and miss him beyond words. It’s an unimaginable and unexplainable journey we are on. Until we meet again... sleep well little one 💙 #CarterStrong Follow our journey and Carter’s impact: www.CartersCause.org #grief #loss #infant #infantloss #micropreemie #NICU #support #pregnancy #journey https://www.instagram.com/p/BuAgxfKHD4p/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=p826etqr722k