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Am I designing a new daydream in which my boss from work and I can live happily ever after with each other?

A bitch just might

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We lay waste to entire villages, sucking the life force from each and everyone of its inhabitants. Together, we drain the blood of every citizen in the next big city.

We're the barbarians, we're the plague, and oh, what a grand time we're having!

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Specific para: Why do you cling to me? Why did you choose me to daydream all those lovey situations about? What makes me special.

Me: …

Me: I just want to feel like I’m someone’s favourite for once.

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Oh, but waltzing around in our giant ballroom while we're both dressed up real pretty and fancy. We've got a live orchestra playing our music - changing every now and then from an upbeat jazz-like waltz, and back to a slow, sensual sort of waltz.

We dance with grand, sweeping movements and our hands barely touching, and we dance close and intimately, fingers locked tight together.

His cloak sweeps across the polished floor, and my heels rapidly click against it as we move. His smile knocks all air out of me, and the way he cradles and caresses my hand makes my knees weak. With him so close, I can smell his cologne - it drives me crazy, makes my mouth water. It's strong and fresh, like a forest after heavy rainfall. I greedily inhale the scent of his suit, his cloak, his hair, his skin, of him, and oh, his laugh sets off fireworks in my stomach and far more private places!

Breathlessly, as we approach each other, embracing tightly but quickly, I whisper in his ear that I can't wait for him to enjoy the lingerie I might or might not be wearing underneath my big, frilly dress. That seems to flick on a switch in him, because in the next moment, he snarls to the orchestra that they're off for tonight, and he all but drags me to our sleeping chambers.

He practically throws me against our double coffin, and as I moan, his eyes shine. He's over me in a flash, kissing my neck and licking the old puncture wounds before opening them again, his sharp teeth pulling a throaty grunt from me.

He feasts loudly, all the while caressing my most private place, and it's almost embarrassing how quickly I come undone. He merely chuckles breathlessly.

Throughout the night, he remains breathless, albeit that is for entirely different reasons.

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A brief glimpse into my paracosms as of 14th of September 2021

Paracosm 1 - The Village

Setting

Modern time, set in a European mountain village (think Switzerland, Austria, Italy, France, etc.)

Paras / Parame

Vampire count who happens to be my boyfriend

Me

"Plot"

The "plot" is, basically, my vampire count boyfriend and me living in a small cottage in the mountains where we enjoy long strolls in the moonlight and pet our dogs. We feast on random lovers and single people sitting by the most scenic locations, and we're never hungry or thirsty. There isn't really a plot, honestly, it's just a long scene in which we relax, have fun, and feast on unfortunate people.

Paracosm 2 - The Waltzing

Setting

Modern time, set in, like, a European country with many and huge castles

Paras / Parame

Vampire count who happens to be my boyfriend

Me

"Plot"

Again, there isn't really a plot, it's just my vampire count boyfriend and me dancing through the night, followed up by a many-hours-long steamy roll in the hay. This is definitely my most detailed paracosm, and arguably my favourite one.

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A brief rundown on MADD terms I'll be using

MADD - maladaptive daydreaming

Paracosms - fictional worlds in which my daydreaming takes place

Paras - fictional characters figuring in these paracosms

Parame - in my case, an idealised version of myself figuring in these paracosms

If anything is unclear, feel free to send me an ask / a message!