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every aspect of my life is falling apart, I mean job, friends, family and boyfriend... everything is literally crumbling rn

I feel like I'm falling back into sex with strangers and my ED because those are things I can control

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uuu back to Tumblr, i see, so it's getting pretty funking bad again, right hun?

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I just know I'd have a beautiful body if only id exercise.

please send ANY exercise routine, I'll do it😔💔

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I'm on my period.. again

I usually don't even notice but today everything hurts n i feel so sick 🥺

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I'm back 🦋

6/08/2022

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soo today I ate a banana.. I feel dumb

this shit is HARD, i used to feel better when i wouldn't eat. like.. my skin would clear and i would actually be in such a good mood.

i think im doing it right this time cause i feel SICK, yesterday i ate literally just one bite of potato salad and automaticaly i started feeling nauseous, i thowed up a lot. i couldnt go to work and everithing hurts so much

i really wanna cry

+I'm on my period, my therapist is on vacation and my best friend is not talking to me

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this shit is HARD, i used to feel better when i wouldn't eat. like.. my skin would clear and i would actually be in such a good mood.

i think im doing it right this time cause i feel SICK, yesterday i ate literally just one bite of potato salad and automaticaly i started feeling nauseous, i thowed up a lot. i couldnt go to work and everithing hurts so much

i really wanna cry

+I'm on my period, my therapist is on vacation and my best friend is not talking to me

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Please reblog if you have an ED and are 18+. I feel like a creeper following minors

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i'm so fucked up, my fucking brain mixed the recovery/relapse phases... sometimes I literally think I'm recovering when I flush my food down the toilet

like uhm girl, recovering from WHAT ¿¿??

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If you are like me with the anxiety and the depression and the executive dysfunction

- DON'T say to yourself "I need to take a shower"

-showering is a long multistage process that requires you to be vulnerable (naked, wet, blots out sound, what if someone calls/rings the doorbell, etc)

-INSTEAD say to yourself "I'm just gonna go turn on the water right quick"

-small one step task checked off your list

-your anxiety brain is a dumb motherfucker and it will be none the wiser that you have tricked it into BEGINNING the shower process

-once the water is running you are already there in the bathroom with the water running so you might as well finish the job

NOTE that this trick works for like. Fucking everything.

-Don't "work on your WIP"-- just open the document

-don't "make the scary phone call" -- just pull up the number in your contacts

-don't "make lunch" -- just pull out a loaf of bread

-don't "do the dishes" -- just open the dishwasher. Literally just open it

Remember ur anxiety brain is a dumb motherfucker and that you CAN therefore TRICK it into being functional

also bonus tip: for those times when u just need to lie on the floor and be a worthless lump of anxiety-ridden garbage for a few hours, download Duolingo and pick a language. Are you going to be fluent in a week? No. But it's easy to focus on and that way when you've been down there for half a day and your shitty fukken brain is trying to convince you you're garbage because it KEPT you there, you can counter with "excuse you I just spent the last four hours TEACHING MYSELF A FOREIGN LANGUAGE you punk ass bitch."

Good luck out there kids I believe in u

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i’ve never related to a meme so much before

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well that was awful, I ate 2 big meals today. I feel like a failure.

tomorrow I'm going to a theme park so I'll be walking a lot. I'm eating nothing in there, idc if my friends r worried that's their problem not mine.

I'm so sick of me

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today I skipped breakfast and lunch. but its 2.40pm and I ate a toast 🦋

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10.45pm I ate 2apples